back some years ago i really had hopes on someday be a girl, be able to dress and act and live as a girl.
Im 23 and a half now, because of different reasons I havent be able to start hormones yet, but at this point I really dont want to transition. That doesnt mean I dont want to be a girl, I just dont want to be a freak. I was willing to do it some years ago, but now I feel its too late, I wouldnt dare to dress as a girl outside, I wouldnt dare to buy girls clothes, I have no interest on trying to change my voice.
even tho i keep browsing this board and chat with trans people, which makes me feel worse.
my awful life turned me into a person who hates trans people, all I do is insult people on /mtfg/, talk about trans on /pol/, shitpost on /b/ and post about killing myself.
I really had wished things didnt turned this way.
I know these words means nothing to you people, because you are all crying babies, but you would never understand how easy you all had it, i would have gave everything away just to have the same chances you people had, either have supporting parents, have friends, have a job that allows you to afford a life, not being beated, i even had to leave college because teachers hated me.
Good luck you all, I hate you all.
Welp, they're cheap where you get at least 8$ per hour. (Not op) In my place one month of hormones costs appr one-two months of average work (it's like 50-100$ per month).
So maybe op is from a place like this.
4chan has been fun for me to visit between different engagements but a lot of people here have a toxic mindset towards a myriad of crap, so I don't do much to connect beyond sharing my views and experiences. I don't know about your circumstances but I didn't begin transitioning until 23 for personal reasons. It's been a seriously rough ride but now my name is legally changed, and I successfully live as a girl full-time. I still have challenges everyday, but I'm way more open with the world and care much less about people's attitudes and assumptions about trans people.
Anyway, I hope you find happiness as well as a healthier mentality towards trans people.
Why are you South Americans afraid of mentioning the country you live in? Some people here even mention the cities where they live. The furthest I have gone is saying I live in the northern half of NJ. Are you that paranoid?
Get the fuck over yourself faggot.
>you would never understand how easy you all had it
Nah son, YOU will never understand how hard I had it, because you have been too much of a pussy to endure the things I have had to endure.
>i would have gave everything away just to have the same chances you people had
Nah son, YOU have been too much a pussy to give everything away, like I did, in pursuit of transitioning
>either have supporting parents
Lost all of them before I made new ones.
>have a job that allows you to afford a life
You mean working my way up from minimum wage, while living in the cheapest apartments in my city with 4 roommates?
>not being beated
Your failure of the English language aside, implying I haven't been beaten for being trans - I fucking have. Fuck you.
>i even had to leave college because teachers hated me.
>whaaaa nobody likes me, and I have no control over my own life
Implying I didn't have to drop out of college to transition.
Go on, cry more about how everyone but you is responsible for your failures and lack of happiness.
Here's what's going to happen.
You will either be dead at 30, or repress so hard that by your mid 40s you will realize the closeted fetishistic crossdressing was something deeper, but you'll have internalized so much of the fetish that all you will manage to do is be a Susan's poster and creep out younger transitioners in mixed age support groups.
Or you could come out now. You're fucking 23. It's an easy age to start.
"something deeper" Fetishes are fetishes, no matter when you give into them. When your fetish doesn't turn you on anymore, but instead becomes a part of who you are as a person, that's when you know you need to transition. Why do you think the fetish starts out as this little thing for some people? That's all it is, but the fetish can easily eclipse heterosexuality if left alone. That being said, transitioning is the way for those individuals who gain enough attatchment to the fetish that they need it.
Its not a fetish, and my age isnt the main problem, the problem is that i wont have enough money (room+food+hormones) until i finish college in 2 years, that if i dont transition then otherwise i wont find any job. Also i had and still have a tumor which may need radiotherapy or surgery any day, and i dont need money to pay for that, so i need to keep in good relation with my parents.