>Have sex with my gf
>Can only get excited and cum if I imagine I'm her
>tfw she calls me out on closing my eyes when we're together, which I do to help imagine being a girl
I got the same feel anon. When I cuddle my gf, all I'm actually doing is imagining I'm her.
Why did you get in a relationship with her? Is that what you planned from the start, pretending you were her? Or did you think you would be cured? So besides imagining that you were her, were you imagining being held by or fucked by guys?
Seek advice from those who came before you. I'm not one of them, but I can tell you that from the stories I have read of the people who went as far as getting married and having kids, going down that road is not pretty. It never goes away.
if THAT looks like a dude.
i'm outtie. gunna grab the rope early and just get it over with.
holy fucking shit
yeah if youre serious, this is what every 40+ year old mtf told themselves at one point.
Im sorry to tell you this, but... you're on the same ride as we are. you've been on the ride all along. all this time you've never dared to look down at the straps holding you to this seat. you can keep waiting to get off, but anon... this ride never ends. oh look, we're about to enter the tunnel of "maybe they wont think its that weird. my friends are my friends, right?"
i made myself sad
Take anti-androgens before it's too late and your sexuality becomes a part of your very being, making it about more than just sex. Seriously, just supplement with vitamins, nutrients, etc. Or don't and eventually succumb to destroying your body for an extreme sexual fetish. Living for other things than just sexual gratification is good.
CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE CONDUCTOR WE HAVE A PROBLEM I WOULD LIKE TO GET OFF THIS RIDE
I don't know man, it's just something I noticed halfway through the relationship. I always thought everyone was like that, then one day it kinda just fell apart. Whenever I was touching her butt or boobs or whatever, I would fantasize about someone touching me like that instead of enjoying touching her.
I guess I just tried to be the perfect boyfriend I thought I would want if I was a girl.
You guys don't understand, OP's fine. I'm the same way and in the future I'll be able to just shoot myself with a sissification ray gun which will turn me into a pretty 16 year old girl and then my wife can adopt me as her daughter and I can go back to high school as a qt named Rebecca and join the cheerleading squad and everyone will love me and I'll be super-popular.
oh god, the familiarity of this really hit home...
all this post is missing is a picture of a porn star in a cheerleading outfit, and a wall of pink text written in the worst font thinkable
somewhere, out there, my 14yr old self is secretly using the shitty wii internet browser. no one will see his search history there. He wades through an ocean of pictures... just like this one. as he reads, he feels uncomfortable, yet he continues to rub his lil erect penis between his thigh and the coarse threads of his pleated khaki school shorts.
better not cum in these. mom might get suspicious.
Good thing we all grew out of that phase and are well adjusted straight males now, heh...
Yeah totally jerking off to victorias secret catalogues at 13 pretending I was the models then eventually succumbing to feminization fetishes did not turn me into a repressed tranny whose about to start taking hormones.