I feel so ashamed about being effeminate even though I'm a tranny. I take hormones and I really feel better about my body but when it comes to interacting with people I struggle.
I'm already effeminate. Growing up I got beat up and called a faggot for it regularly. I learned to try and real it in to avoid more abuse but now I'm feeling stuck.
I envy those flaming gay guys who have no chance of hiding who they are. They can't turn it off.
I want to be more open but every time I try I get too self conscious.
When I get fucked up though I'm ultra flaming faggot status.
So advice please!
Also. I have recently started taking vocal lessons to aid in my voice and this has really shown me how embarrassed I am.
My coach was telling me to follow along with her and her voice and I just felt so ashamed.
I'm not very effeminate and any attempt I make to try and seem effeminate I look fucking awful, so i just sit in my house all day dropping hormones to appease my AGP. At least I'm good at smash and destiny now!!
Ya, I got the makeup and dressing down to a degree, but my mannerisms are just too manly, everytime I try and mask them with feminine mannerisms in public, I just end up looking and feeling fucking awkward, so I just stay indoors and present as male for work. Oh well, I live comfortably enough and having miniscule hobbies seems to help me out a lot.
Funny I am a tranny now but I was on the opposite end. I wasn't very effeminate but I beat up flaming gay guys and mocked weak kids to cope with it.
I did enjoy burying my fists into their soft delicate faces because they were always themselves against all odds while I knew they would never accept me and I was jealous that I am not as pretty as them.
As a gay dude who likes being effeminate behind closed doors but is straight-acting anywhere in the public, I haven't found a good way either.
Surprisingly enough though, the portrayed confidence of some of the catty faggots here made me more confident. I've started looking after guys, walking less robotic ally and occasionally even letting my limbs and hands do what they want to instead of paying attention to keep them straight at all times.
It takes time, but I'm cracking my own shell.
Femboy has become a skewed term. It's not about being androgynous anymore, or finding feminity in being a man. It's literally become
>I want to look like an animu girl
Fucking bullshit I tell you, moe has ruined anime and poisoned pop culture.
I never claimed to be a femboy so i'm not trying to ruin your precious label
basically if I could do over however I want I'd pick girl, because girls can look, dress, and smell like girls while also acting masculine. but there's no place for a natal male to do those things. it's way too much trouble for something I don't really care about much. I want to fit in which will end up being a problem though when my boobs get bigger
I'm effeminate but also I have strength and can back my campy wit with a fist so usually the hets don't fuck with me. I've had my far share of confrontation but usually they're I don't back down and they shut the fuck up.
I mean I like to see myself as dainty and cute but one of these dudes try to run up on me and we'll have a battle on our hands.
Being effeminate does not have to mean being weak.