I have a problem /lgbt/.
I'm straight, but sometimes when I get drunk I start looking at gay porn and I jerk off. It makes me cum really hard. But it gets worse, I have a friend who is in the closet. A few months ago I got drunk with him and we went all the way. We sucked and flip fucked. Now we've done it a few times since then. And by a few I mean 7 times. The last time he fucked me up the ass I was really vocal.
But then it happens. I sober up and I feel fucking awful. I hate myself for what I have done. What do I do about this problem?
You're not straight in the first place. It's common for people to not accept it at first and make up reasons why it is only temporary/occasional/not really gay.
Have you ever had a long-lasting relationship with a female?
Jesus I don't even know if you guys are joking anymore but it still makes me laugh.
do you hate yourself after because you didnt enjoy it or because you feel like its wrong or something? because if you actually hate the act of doing it then you are straight and some how keep making the same mistake. but if you feel ashamed of yourself for the act then that means that you are gay and just really repressed about it.
>i'm straight but i like it when a man fucks me in the ass
Some straights feel that way about sex too. They're usually hardcore Bible-thumpers who think that ALL sex that does not result in procreation is sinful. For literary examples, read Carrie and The Poisonwood Bible.