A tourist on grindr really wants me to come over to his hotel for some bjs tomorrow, he has a really nice face and he knows it's my first time, he's also in a nice hotel not some sleazy hostel.
It's just that I'm so nervious, what if I have a panic attack? what if I don't get horny and find sucking dicks to be not all that what's it's up to be. What if I'll have a nervous breakdown after the sex and I scare myself emotionally? What if I can't get hard? What If im not really gay, it's kinda fucked up being a straight man that has actually sucked a dick.
I'm also afraid that I get too nervous to get in the mood.. should I take an anti anxiety pill before I meet him. I have social anxiety so...
Any tips for someone who's been mentally in the closet for most of his life? And hasn't had many sexual encounters in the first place.
I don't want to wake up tomorrow and getting cold feeted.
I need some encouragement because I really need to explore my sexuality and enjoy life just like everybody else.
b-b-but my therapist told me I was gay.
It's just that I've always had this picture in my mind that sucking dick was considered degrading/humiliating, but the thought of me getting choked on a good cock really turns me on.
But I really need to get over that initial anxiety of having sex with a stranger, so I can start enjoy doing the homosexual lifestyle more.
I really need to know if I like sucking dick or not, it would suck being a old man and missing my chance of having fun gay sex.
>what if I don't get horny and find sucking dicks to be not all that what's it's up to be.
Wet your appetite with some porn first. Maybe have him jerk you off slowly until you can relax and get it up.
>What if I'll have a nervous breakdown after the sex and I scare myself emotionally?
Society makes it out to be a bigger thing than it is, take solace that anyone who knows doesn't care.
>What if I can't get hard?
Then just suck him. First timeers have nerve trouble all the time.
>What If im not really gay, it's kinda fucked up being a straight man that has actually sucked a dick.
It really isn't. Plenty of bicurious guys do it, find they're straight, and move on with their lives.
THIS ISN'T NORMAL
IT ISN'T NORMAL OR HEALTHY TO JUST DO SEXUAL FAVORS FOR STRANGERS!
FUCKING HELL. WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY PEOPLE.
B-b-b-but I want to do gay stuff with other men...
I don´t have many friends, I´m socially isolated from all my peers(been that way for a long time) so fucking strangers is my only way of getting sex, I could go to a gay bar but that would mean I´d have to get shitfaced and I´m trying to avoid that because I´m trying to sort my shit out and get in better shape.
>so fucking strangers is my only way of getting sex
Just jerk off then you fucking moron.
>durrrhurrr I wun sum fug so I'm going to throw caution and concern for my own personal health and well-being out the window just to satisfy the tingly sensations emanating from my weewee
SEX ISN'T THAT IMPORTANT.
>I need some encouragement because I really need to explore my sexuality and enjoy life just like everybody else.
You it's exactly because of dumb people like you that people think all faggots are degenerate.
I'm starting to fucking hate this board, I can't even tell if you idiots are pretending to be retarded anymore.
>compared to the average faggot
It's not compared, you either are a degenerate or not. It's possible for straight guys to be degenerate as well, having sex with a stranger is a degenerate behavior because you don't fucking know them.
They could have an std, they could be violent, they could be already dating someone who can get violent.
> they could be already dating someone who can get violent.
The day i'll be physically intimated and afraid of a beat down from a bottom bitch will be a cold day in hell. What are they gonna do? slap me? I'll choke them out before they'll even know what hit them. I'm not trying to be an internet tough guy but a homosexual bottom coming to beat me up is kinda hilarious concept.
Straight people hook up all the time, but if a guy was afraid of sleeping with some hot busty chick just because she might be dating someone else is kinda weak. Being afraid is kinda like being afraid to live.
I might be a degenerate scum, espeically when I drink because I will sleep with whomever I find sleep worthy, if i'd pick a chick up it would be an ego boost and I would get a social bronie point because I managed to pick up a girl. Having sex with girls is a game of stats, how many girls you fuck and how hot they are. That's at least how I used to think about it when I was "straight", I only wanted to fuck girls to feed my own ego, it was like climbing a mountain.
I would also fuck a man, because that would make me exited, and I'd love to dick around with another man, especially go down on a well endowed man.
Stop browsing pol anon, it's turning you into a scared little bitch that's afraid of everything, even having fun(drinking, partying, sex, etc). I bet you liked to live the autstic lifestyle for the rest of your life and become a robot wizard, well not me. I want to milk the fun out of it and enjoy life and not waste my time doing boring shit on a Saturday night like watching anime or playing dungeons and dragons or whatever you proud nerds do.
Versatiles exist you idiot, and it's not about being afraid, it's about being precautious. You're one of those retarded idiots that will end up with 5 stds and two kids by the age of 30.
It's amazing how in the name of "fun" you'll live and empty and shallow lifestyle.
Having any intimate act with someone you don't know very well is degenerate.
Sex itself is one of the best things in life when done with someone you love.
You're probably right, I might have some arrested development(it only shows when it get drunk), but who gives a fuck, at least I know how to have some good times. I'm down for my hood nigga, you shooked, u a busta... straight busta.
Anything is better than being a teetotaling boring neckbeard(especially that believes everything that comes from /pol/).
>Sex itself is one of the best things in life when done with someone you love.
>when done with someone you love.
You really are a busta, anon, straight busta.
I don't speak nigger language, so you either translate that or won't even be able to care about it.
You still sound awfully retarded, incapable of understanding the long term consequences of your actions, incapable of taking pleasure in anything that's not a dopamine injection to your brain. I wouldn't even be surprised if you did drugs.
And btw, not everyone who disagrees with your degenerate lifestyle come from /pol/.
>I wouldn't even be surprised if you did drugs.
You're right, partially at least, I used to do drugs, I don´t do that shit anymore.
Dopamine makes the world go around, what kind of autistic euphoria do you have that's so much better than the dopamine rush from people get from degenerate lifestyles?
Straight edge faggots like you are pathetic really, go watch some more anime cartoons and play some more hentai video games you retarded /pol/tard.
>Dopamine makes the world go around
No what makes the world go around is people who are smart enough to overcome the animalistic instincts.
And I already told you, I'm not from /pol/ I'm not even right wing. I just happen to not be stupid enough to only think about the moment.
I don't let animalistic urges control me, but I do like to let loose and party.
What kind are you, show me you're not a boring cunt like I think you are. You seem really autistic and neckbeardish.
Well in the political compass I'm a libertarian, which means that even if I think you're retarded for having sex I'd oppose and go out against, say, a law that prohibited that. Doesn't mean I'm gonna stop telling you 300 times how this behavior is self destructive.
I just happen to think that sex is someone you should only do with someone you trust, going to parties and having fun is obviously healthy on the right measure.
Anyway most of the kinks on my 300+ list I would only do with someone I trusted.
Still I won't reply anymore because I have to go to the gym.