I've only recently come to terms with my own identity as being gender fluid, but I'm still in the closet because of where I live, and as a consequence, I can't experiment with my own femininity. On top of that, I'm broke as fuck since it's hard to find jobs I can do with my disability (nothing visibly wrong with me on the outside, just have a shit heart that needed an open heart valve replacement; I was 17 at the time and it's been two years)
I'm so desperate to make money so I can afford my own wardrobe that I made a gofundme, in the hopes of making more than enough to afford my own wardrobe with clothes, makeup, hair extensions/wig(s), and whatever else I'd need to be my feminine counterpart. I just have two questions:
1) how overly pathetic is that
2) is my situation one that is sadly common?
3) if I added the link, would you help spread it; or if you were sympathetic enough, possibly donate to my sorry ass?
Sometimes I feel masculine and identify as such; it's really more like my default state.
But other times I feel really feminine and want to wear cute dresses and shoes and shit; basically be a trap. But I'm not Trans because I don't want to permanently be one or the other
youre either a crossdresser or itll turn into being full blown dysphoria :^)
Already treated for severe depression and anxiety, so that'd be nothing new to me. If calling me a cross dresser is how you see the situation, that's fine. I just want to be clear that when I cross dress, I plan on passing. I don't want to do grossly exaggerated drag style makeup, just the basic natural makeup and stuff
When you say dysphoria you mean like feeling like really unpleasant and uncomfortable all the time, like in having horrible dread and feeling terror(the opposite of euphoria.)
Man that sounds scary, I've been in a dysphoric emotional state, I felt panic and terror all the time. Is that the same as trans dysphoria?
I'm sure it's quite possible, it took me years to realize I was bi. I could just be Trans and not fully know that yet. Things change, and I just want to be able to look back and say I was happy with my choices
Sort of. I only said that it could turn to dysphoria because I know a few people who had it happen that way. Basically over time you start enjoying your feminine appearance more and more. You start being completely unsatisfied with your masculine features, things feel wrong and fucked. You don't want them there, they're like disgusting legions on your face and body and you just want to be normal and live as a female. Constant dissatisfaction with yourself that builds on itself until you can't stand it anymore and it starts to drive you crazy.
Dysphoria is distress caused by you not having the body you "should" have, so if you might be dysphoric about your face if you think it's too masculine, about your dick etc
It's not the same for everyone, not all trans women have genital dysphoria and might just hate their bodies.
Pretty sure this is what you guys mean, but I understand the mixup
As far as one of my first outfits would be concerned, I'd like to wear a cute oversized sweater, a gray pleated skirt, black knee socks and like a pair of Mary Janes or something. My girlfriend is more than supportive and has agreed to help me with my makeup