What do you hate most about yourself and your life?

>>667778669
u
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ygp7hB-P8A

Everything

>>667778669
fuck life post moar

>>667779345
/thread

I'm litteraly a sketon. My wrist is less than an inch thick. I am not joking

>>667778669
Been unemployed for 2 months for the first time since I was 17, feelsbadman

>>667779586
how much you weigh lad? height? skinnyfag reporting in

>>667779828
olderfag here. take advantage of your unemployment - if you can afford it.

>>667778669
That I have ADHD and social anxiety. Despite being told that I'm smart I fuck up in school, and I can't maintain a normal platonic friendship let alone a girlfriend.

>>667780111
yea I'm only 21. not much to do besides drive along the coast or go for a swim at the beach. All my friends are in the trades industry and work full time. definitely got some $$ saved though

>>667778669
That I am 21 and still a virgin

>>667780236
age?

>>667780514
20

That my truck is broken and it seems like everything in life is going wrong.

>>667779915
Weight: 121 lb
Height: 6,1

I'm good looking, make decent money, and i'm highly intelligent but still can't maintain a relationship.

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As much as i try i seem to be making no progress

>>667780862
deep

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>>667778669

>>667780469
try 41 then get back to me about regret

>>667780862
maybe because Bronco colors are orange and blue

surrounded in retards.

>>667781067
>>667780469
dat feel when not a woman.

I feel like I'm wasting my potential

im lonely but i dont lack social skills. I just find myself in lonely situations. So i focus on "making a person try to like me" but it makes me uninteresting and even more lonely

>>667780663

I'm 5'9 and about 140 and I consider myself skinny.

Damn.

>>667778669
being fat. I'm down 10lbs but a long way to go.

>>667780955
Fuck yeah poast moar

>>667781067
Woah, how did that happen?

>>667781415
Eh. Could be worse. Being born with cancer for example

>>667780663
>>667781415

I'm 6ft and a bit over 140. How the fuck can you be 121?

>>667781067
But is that what you hate most about your life?

>>667778669
How I can't talk to girls for shit, how my mind goes blank and I can even think of things to say to even guys around me and it just worsens my anxiety to the point were I tear myself down inside every moment of my life.

>>667781632
Bad luck, bad timing, missed opportunities. Watch the movie 40 year old virgin, very similar to that actually.

Ill talk to girls that definitely like me but ill stop talking to them right before ill ask them out

>>667781808
Nah I hate that I'm not making six figures, I got over the virgin thing many years ago, gave up on that whole thing.

27 year old, handsome enough that women talk about me behind my back. But my self confidence is that of a doormat. My parents abused and raised me like a dog, blamed me for all their problems and made me panic for made up fake stories. So i get anxiety attack from the simplest of shit.

I get bad gas around people due to anxiety and when i sit near someone I get headaches. Failed classes in college which required group work and would go months not leaving my room. Now I am studying to get my ass out of my parents home. I also realized i had a brother who was ditched by my parents as a child because he was retarded and they did not want to care for him. Also realized my father is a sociopathic liar who lies to make me feel bad and then laughs about it to my mother.

Up to high school i had good friends but then yeah it just went downhill. Also I had several cats and a dog that my mother threw away and then told me they just "ran off".

I feel lonely as fuck but I am deathly afraid of people. So when I am at college i am always quiet / looking for empty spots to sit and relax in. And yeah i am 27 yr old, so one day i will lose my handsome face and become total shit. Blog.end . Too bad i had social workers assigned to me in high school but i could not tell them i was being abused because i never knew what abuse was. Oh also i get so depressed sometimes i have tears fallin out my face with no emotion, literally standing in class i get tears out my face lol. Shit sucks how bad my condition is, but no one except me truly knows because i try to hide it well.

>>667778669
That I didn't get to fuck that tight teenage pussy when I was younger

Im blind to my anger and unkowingly hurt everyone around me. Just found out tonight.

>>667781795
Same reason people have cancer or other genetic disease. Being born with it

I'm old and poor as fuck. I envy most of you young fuckers on /b/.

>>667778669
I can't talk to people
I can't sleep
I can't wake up
I don't try anymore
People seem to drift away from me after a while
I ruin the things I care about
I seem to fall in love with any girl who shows any sort if interest in me
I don't go out without "good reason"
I can never stick with something useful long enough to be good at it
I've wasted my whole life so far
I didn't even get to love her right

>>667782098
I do that shit too, I know for a fact that people have been attracted to me, but I never followed up and made them think that I wasn't interested.
Sucks having social anxiety and borderline asperger's.

>>667781853

I never could either until I was 24. First year I had a girlfriend in my life. Gets easier as you go on.

What helps me most is going out with a male friend or two. It's like your confidence goes through the roof and you try to get girls in front of them. Helps me be a lot more free-flowing when I talk.

>>667781795
6'4 and 250, I am your ruler

>>667782190
Honestly the only reason I hate that about my life is because my friends around me keep pestering me about it.

>>667778669
The fact that I probably wont have sex for a while. Which covers most of my problems.

bad teeth even tho i brush hard everyday........,

>>667782205

You should wanna do good.

Find a wife, have kids, raise them well. Be happy with your wife. Let your parents see it and NEVER have anything to do with them.

>>667781067
Turning 42yo, still virgin.

>>667781853
I don't know about you but responsible amount of booze helps me

>>667782401
For me i think i just dont wanna lose them as friends but i just end up not talking to them anyways

>>667778669
I hate that I was gullible enough to let the church convince me to waste the first 26 years of my life hiding from reality behind a mountain of what has been well-understood to be garbage for about 1700 years.

I'll never get my youth and those missed experiences back.

>>667778669
I don't like anything except getting high and jerking off. I don't give a shit about other people, but I expect them to solve all of my problems for me. I base my entire sense of self-worth off of girls being attracted to me.

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>>667781476
>>667780955

>>667778669
The fact that i'm insecure sometimes, that i care too much about some things...this year i'm trying to stop caring.
The question is will i still be alone anyway?

>>667782833
Welcome to the club haha.

>>667782653
When I was in my 20's I used to get all suicidal because of loneliness, came close a few times. Eventually I just became numb, at least I got off the pills and started being more health conscious, but what's the point in living a long life if nothing ever happens.

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>>667778669
I hate my crippling social anxiety that's ruined my life.

I've eaten out two pussies but I've never put my dick in a vagina.

>>667783380
Have you seen Don Jon? This might help you in some way.

>>667778669
I'm 37, i don't have a job, i live with my parents, and i don't have any friends.

>>667783749
My ex girl had that. The ONLY way to fix it, is to FORCE yourself to face it. Go out little by little and fight it.

Good luck, anon.

>>667783835
And I've lied to my friends on multiple occasions about getting laid being as though they get laid regularly.

I cant seem to get motivated to do anything. It's like I've hit a wall. I'm unemployed, not going to school, no GF, still living with parents (21btw) and it feels like the only way i can get any sort of a feeling close to motivation is if a girl is involved. Unfortunately there is no girl and it sucks i cant feel complete without one. (Never had a GF).
>oh so you lack willpower
>you know what fixes that? willpower! Ohwait

>>667784029
Just wait till they die and then collect.

>>667783835
If you did it right, then she would have begged you for the dick.

Most of you guys have no idea what to do. It's all about the man in the little boat!!!!1!!

>>667778669
I'm 35 and make well over the national median income, and I can confirm that life still fucking sucks ass. I've had a lot of sex, I drink a lot, I used to do a lot of drugs, none of that does it. At the end of the day life just fucking sucks.

>>667784073
They know you lie, you can't hide that shit.

My numerous injuries

>>667784029
I have nine years on you. I lived alone for a long time. Now I have no job, no friends (by choice) and I'm fucking broke.

I have too many regrets.

I've lost my emotions somehow. I sometimes hear shit in my head and i see things that aren't there (mostly shadowy figures at night, but sometimes animals or really weird people).

>>667783698
I have never been suicidal, but the reason for that is my family and nothing else

>>667784269
One time it was basically three dudes, including myself, eating out one chick. One of them pulled their dick out and I turned 360 degrees and left the room
The other time, I came home to one of my roommates really drunk. I shut my door and told her I had homework to do. She litterally wouldnt leave me alone. I unlocked the door and she fucking pounced on me. I ended up getting all her clothes off. Ate her out for a good 30 mins. Eventually pulled my dick out and tried to begin fucking. Got really nervous and everything went soft....
>>667784324
I worry about this regularly. I plan on faking it until I actually have a legit gf.

Gf gf gf

We men are tortured by our hearts for not having someone special to hold in our arms. Our maximum potential inhibited by the loneliness we feel. And sometimes a GF can even make things worse.
Maybe the gays are onto something with this no women stuff...

>>667778669
I've lost interest in pretty much everything and I'm awkward in social situations, I hope I don't wake up tomorrow

>>667780236
Same here and I'm 20 still young but damn it's annoying makes you hate yourself

>>667783936
I haven't. Thanks for the recommendation. I honestly want to get better, but I don't know how

>>667780663
I'm 5'10 I weight 120 every time I get a girl she must constantly remind me how skinny I am when having sex it's a turn off

>>667778669
that i can't roll trips

>>667780671
Anything you woulda done differently in your life then?

>>667778669
Not knowing who the fuck I am

>>667787193
5'11 125lbs here
At least you get sex

>>667783172
damn that fuckin sucks

>>667786114

I honestly think I am one of the only guys around who does not give a shit about women.

I live to further my career, improve my health and do what I want. Not to pander to the insipid whims of imbecile women.

>>667787539
get over that now, because everyone feels lost at times no matter how confident they seem about themselves on the outside.

>>667788047
Teach me master

>>667787539
Pretty much this. Not so much as who I am but what I should do. Ultimately what you do defines you..

That I'm 20 and unemployed. I live at home but gotta start paying bills and what not pretty soon since my dad tried killing himself and lost his job. I feel like I'm not good at anything

>>667783172
Oh dude that's awful! I almost headed down that way but snapped out of it

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>>667785352
Dude...you were taking turns eating out a chick?

I think I had enough of /b/ for a few hours.

I'd love me some dorritos but the 7-11 is closed

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>>667782427
>>667783005
Thanks for the advice

>>667780236

Old people dont like your youth.


After a certain age you become intimidating to what they once achieved and believed in during their lifetime.

Envy and Vanity.

>>667788471
My fucking sides. hahahah
I do regret the taking turns part.

>>667788555
Go to Walmart, Dillon's, or the kwik shop then. Dorritos aren't exactly rare.

I have been faking schizophrenia since I was 21. I spend like 3 months out of the year in psych wards because they're the only place I don't want to kill myself and I feel like an actual human being.

I only let myself speak in rational sentences when I need a break from speaking complete bullshit.

I've been taking the antipsychotics for years and they are just as bad as you hear. They completely zombify you. I can't do shit and my brain feels like it's mush because of these fucking meds.

And yet I continue.

So that's what I hate about myself and my life. Every interaction for 5 years has been just me spouting out insane conspiracy theories and spewing embarrassing ridiculous bullcrap. FUCK.

So I guess it boils down to this: this is my life now. Until I die.

im fat gay and awkward i think u can deduce what i hate about life

>>667778669
There is not enough time in the fucking day or week. Between school and work when do i get to be with friends. Like getting a girl for myself would be cool but like the two times im free a week are for myself not others. Also looking ahead im not even at the peak of my workload in college i will have even less free time which kinda blows me away

>>667778669
That I'm living it, I hate myself more than anything else.

That I'm 18, have only asked out one girl ever and she shot me down.

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chill bro, take it easy, leave the past in the past and start fresh.

every day is an oportunity. will you allow your parents to win, or will you be the winner?

Well I'm 21 and have been in a relationship for almost 6 years. The woman I'm dating is pretty unattractive, and she is not sexual at all so at this point we barely have sex. When we do it's missionary and lame.
I feel like i'm missing out on life and getting bitches but i have too strong of an emotional connection with her to break up. We literally have never gotten in a fight, she games and would be the perfect woman besides her lack of sexuality and growing unattractiveness.

>>667788970
You can change that shit. I mean you have the cognizance to at least type that shit out on 4chan, means there is hope.

>>667787580
It's about how you talk man, you gotta throw it out there, not be all shy and not be a fuck boi girls see thru that shii. Your figure comes up when you have sex obviously but you're fuckin her already fuck it

>>667780236
This, sounds like your my scary skeleton

The fact that I am too scared to do anything seriously needed like get my ids and shit. I can't go to the hospital because I can't build enough courage to do so. I feel like I need someone I know well enough to help me do shit. I can't fucking take how shitty I am. I want to kill myself but I can't because I know it'll make my parents sad. My dad was in the residential schools so I know he'll be devastated knowing his junior killed himself because he couldn't do anything right.
I fucking started tearing up writing this for fuck sake
I fucking hate it

1: That I can't ask girls out 2: that I'm a idiot 3: I'm worthless 4: I'm not good at anything

Probably more stuff, but whatever

>>667781395
This also, I want a girlfriend but I don't know how and the only previous one I handled me because of how mentally fucked up I am

>>667778669
Tiny penis. 4 of ten on a good day.

>>667788970
Maybe youre actually a schizo and you thinking youre faking it is just your real schizo

>>667789356
Man the fuck up then. A lot of people are stuck in the same rut as you. I mean 6 years and you haven't proposed? That right there is a sign to me that you are just not that interested in that woman.

Emotional connection? Dude, people have emotional connections to cars. For it to matter, you also have to have a sexual connection with this lady. These things have to line up for you to be happy. If the sex sucks, talk about it. If it still sucks, oh well. But if you aren't even willing to try and up your communication game then move on.

Everyone tries 100% for the people that matter to them in this life.

>>667789224
why?

Pretty good relationship with friends. In a fraternity. Hook up w decent girls, decent grades. I still don't have much confidence around girls though, idk how long this easy streak will last.

>>667788047
Yes. This is how we've progressed so greatly, cheers sir

>>667778669
>WORKING.
nah tho coz i been neet for a few years and i would definetly not go back to that

Also a skelly 5'9" and 128lbs but i hate that im just waiting right now. I literally cant move forward until i get the go ahead from some others

>>667782399
This especially falling in love with any girl who talks to me, I get seriously attached to girls quickly

I have a decent like, probably better than average but I'm scared I don't deserve this and it's only a matter of time until people realize i ain't shit

>>667789888
I honestly don't know why, I just hate myself and feel pathetic when looking in the mirror.

>>667788047
Same here! For me tho I fell in love w a beautiful mexican girl. I dated her for a few months then she moved back to mexico. ever since then I couldnt give two fucks about her or any other girl because I did everything I wanted to do with a woman with her.

>>667778669

I absolutely detest the fact that I've let anxiety and doubt consume me and keep me from living and enjoying life. All I fucking want to do is play music for people, and I won't.

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Anti social. I haven't had a new friend in over a decade and most of the people I was friends with stopped talking to me a couple years ago. I like hanging out with others now and then but I don't know how to go talk to people or how to connect with them.

>>667789845
Emotional connection means caring about something/someone.. And really? Marriage? Is that the way to 'man up'? The only reason to do that is to get a financial benefit for the poor one in a divorce

>>667780469
My main is on Eredar

35 & no future. im a handsome white male in the usa. educated. decent health... i'm totally fucked. i don't drink, don't like sports and was born into poverty so I have no peers whatsoever. I havent gotten laid in seven years because I refuse to pay for it and these whores don't give a shit about how well adjusted you are and living a fun life, they just want spoils and now and don't give a damn about you. naked i look like crap cuz my parents didnt want me and fed me garbage until i was 250lbs @ 10 years old. i took the weight of mid-teens but my skin is fucked beyond repair. my last gf i was amazing to gave me some weird std and my dick doesnt work to well. she fucked all my friends and when i went to jail got money from them for my bail and didnt bail me out. both my parents tried to kill me because they are drunk junkies. i have no iblings. i have no desire to live as a bully and asshole so i can have my own place and people to serve me. .. to just be alive for the sake of not killing myself.

life is meaningless. there is no value here. I see people worse than me and i dont feel compassion for them so much. I see people worse than me that are better than me because at least they have something to occupy themselves with. and the people who are simply better off make me realize how i never have fit into this world and never will. the best i could hope for is to find a way to settle. find a shitty job, an ugly broad that i know still cheats on me and hates me, and wait for something to kill me.

>>667788047
This, i think i want to find a women later. But as of now i have no interest in finding a relationship. Work school and my body before something that will probably just be a waste of time.

>>667790059
where did you work?

That I am dyeing of Cancer!

Ali really want us to find a girlfriend

>>667778669
I hate that despite being average looking and a great career for picking up women (firefighter) I am still a socially inept virgin.

is that i am working 26+ days each month and getting nowhere at all
just the usual , weed,snacks, and vidya,movies and shows.
why even bother in a fucked up country like mine? poor stays poor rich getting richer

>>667790911
What color?

>>667789800
No. But before I got falsely diagnosed with schizophrenia, I found out I was borderline. It's great because before 21, I was a quiet borderline, but now that my emotional outbursts are tolerated, I can pretty much say whatever I want as long as I put a schizo spin on it.

For example if I'm pissed at my sister, I'll call her a bitch for killing my dog (never had a dog) but it just feels good.

Clearly I'm a huge asshole. But I pay the price so it's cool.

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>>667778669

That I'm a 19 y/o virgin

>>667790697
Frankly pal, 23 here and I'm almost sure I'll end up in the same boat. Any hope at all?

>>667789845
I'm 21 we're both in college I feel like marriage is out of the equation right now.
I've tried talking to her about being more sexual and trying out new things but it always just ends up with her feeling bad and no results.
Your right though i should just man up and break up with her but i just can't bring myself to do it.

I have the common cold.

>>667789228
Yea i know what you mean. I once shot a basketball but i missed

>>667790994
ooooookay, youre in control you got this. youre not crazy, theyre just dumb.

>>667790697
I can relate to the last part.. Spot on

>>667778669
being a whitetrash neet.
getting old.

>>667790831
i still work, thats what am saying though.
security fag atm, but i been through a lot of jobs since age 16

Realized i was abused when i was 7 about two months ago (same time i started geinig massive weight). Fucked up my body by being morbidly obese till inwas 18, droppen 83 kg then and bulkend up another 15kg muscle but was left with awful loose skin. I look good af with clothes on, 7,5/10 face. But all the zelf esteem issues i had didn't leave. Started saving up for the surgery by moonlighting as a waiter during weekends. (Needed 6 grand). My brother is a heroin addict and lived at my place since my parents couldnt be bothered with a junkie and a self-loathing fatty and basically kicked is out at the age of 18. I love my brother and he does all kinds of criminal shit but never steals anything from me, but the retard took out a loan and didnt pay back without me knowing. The bank took my tv, pc, stereo, etc... 2 weeks ago and i can only get my shit back by coughing up 2.5k just when i was only short 400 for the surgeries and already started making appointments to get it done. Setting me back atleet another 4 fucking months. All this shit in a few months time took away the confidence i gained the last 4 years and i started to have zevere panic attacks again. Even with all the hard work you do and all the sacrifices you make to become a better person physically and mentally you Will never truly change Or be able to escape your destiny

That I was not born 1000 years from now

That I'm a cowardly man child

>>667781853
This is me. I'm 33 and still struggle with it daily. Fucking sucks. Growing up it was always "he's shy, he will grow out of it" never happened. I'm to the point now where Ive accepted the way I am and deal with it.

I've been fortunate enough to have good jobs/independent since 18 and good looking enough to pretty much always have a steady gf. So that's nice.

my mushroom cock

i hate being black. even though im slightly above middle class it everyday feels like i have to prove something.

that i will never have unlimited supplies of weed and i will never be able to sit on my ass 24 hours a day and play vidya fuck around at home while being blazed all day

>>667786867
Slow down on jerking off. You'll realise you can use that time for a lot of other things.

>>667791826
Stop being a piece of shit. It's pretty easy. Do you really not want to accomplish anything with your life?

>>667782833
How?
HOW?
I mean I lost at 15 but it was just really stupid of me, but like, 42 year old, why didn't you buy a whore or something? They're literally everywhere when you learn how to search

>>667781795
6'3 and 140 here

I have a crooked tooth and both big toe nails have a bit of a fungal infection (not too bad). Other than that, I'm 10/10 all around.

>>667792019
no, i dont give a shit
what i like to do is mentioned above.

>>667778669
most? My Y chromosome. pesky little thing ruins a lot for me.

>>667782205
>>667782781
This anon. You have to live a good life to make up for all the years of your life your parents stole from you.

>>667792333
I got one too biting into a frozen bull meat once when I was 8, I'm 17 now and haven't fixed it yet, I think I'll do something about it this year

that i could never show my true self irl
or talk about my feelings or whatever
im not a faggot but you fags know what i am talking about. you really fucking cant be yourself in this life

ITT slenderman virgins

>>667778669
I am self aware to see my own habits and how they hold me back from being happy and productive, but I find it incredibly difficult to take the first steps in eliminating these habits. I want to live and dream big, but my body seems to gravitate towards mediocrity and short term pleasures. I fuck up in school because I allow myself too much room to waste time with my friends even though I know I can enjoy studying if I just push myself to do it. I am pretty thin and would like to change my diet/lift weights but again, I end up never getting started or maintaining the habits I need. I also think I have HPV which has stifled me from going after girls whether it is for simply hooking up or for something long term. I seriously just want a slap to the face that will move me to turn everything around. What I need most is a daily routine that I can stick to, but I don't get to step 1.

Tl;dr - I'm a faggot that knows I'm a faggot, but just won't stop being a faggot because I have a bad habit of being a faggot.

>>667791820
gr8 b8 m8. Black and upper middle class? LOL that's a classic. You really had me going there.

>>667791224
Find something you're into now and go for it. Forgive ppls bullshit and let them think they are better than you and dont see revenge. Expect women to betray you. if you can find a ay to get paid for something you enjoy or would do even if it didnt pay and can afford your own place... ego for it. eat healthy so you dont end up shitbrained and fucked up sick in a few years.. healthy food is still good just eat like a bird raw fruits and veggies mostly, some fish... otherwise your whole body and mind and spirit will go to shit digesting the crap you eat. whatever you like doing.. video games, arts, sport.. do it as much as you want.. get paid for it if you can. be kind to women and enjoy their beauty.. even the old and ugly ones just be good to women and all their fucking cunty bullshit, youll find the best relationships you have with women are the brief pleasant ones and that energy exchange is better than trying to convince them to fuck you

Im a manlet with 0 motivation

Lacking 0 motivation to live or chase dreams

>>667792343
Gtfo marty

>>667792892
Well I have none, Where is your god now

>>667793143
wow so close, my name also starts with M

>>667778669
Probably my shit luck dating. That's really my only complaint. In the past couple of years my luck with girls has completely tanked, while everything else in my life has gotten better.

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I tried to start an alcohol thread like 5 mins ago. Zero reponses.

>pic related

>>667779828
Don't go too long man. April 2015 I was unemployed for first time since being 16. I loved it at first but led me down a horrible path and I regret it find job asap

>>667790627
What I meant by man up is to make the decision to leave and take the risk of being rejected again (i.e. being single for a while). Settling is the worst thing you can do.

my girlfriend just left me after two years for no reason

I have a major stutter that prevents me from forming any type of actually connection/relationship with anyone. Im thinking of killing myself in about 5 years

>>667778669
That I'm in love with a mental patient, (or at least she'd be if a health professional check her)

>>667794464
There's always a reason. She just didn't tell you or you didn't realise it.

That I am too lazy to get in shape to join the military

>>667795089
i have a stutter to it took me more then 10 years to even get a little over it it gets better

Im 26 and still a virgin
Its not cause im ugly or no girl wants me its cause
I want a 9-10/10 to fuck.

>>667794464
>for no reason
Let's be honest, you got lazy and fat.

Time to hit the gym and discover what you want in life, and make sure these aren't issues that arise in your next relationship.
(Or maybe this is just me projecting my faults onto you.)

>>667795531
she told me she wanted to be alone but its been almost a month and ive never felt so sad/so lonely in my life

>>667778669
I'm unappealing to the opposite sex

>>667778669
My upbringing

>>667792722
it's sorta interesting isn't it?

I don't think it will stop until you change several habits and adopt new ones in their place. I've been using my awareness to my advantage and I definitely have gained a lot of ground considering I was an anxious, stressed and depressed wreck a year ago, but I still haven't reached a level where I feel I have a strong enough foundation to rely on daily in order to do everything I want to. I need to exercise discipline regularly or else I will definitely lose my opportunities to perform and excel. Living every day going up and down between unreasonable insecurities and proper awareness and understanding is getting annoying tbh

>>667797359
Yeah, I totally get you. I can definitely say I have improved in being able to recognize my habits and how detrimental they are, but I have years of doing them under my belt and not enough years getting rid of them. And with so many different things, it makes the first step seem even more blurry because I don't know what kind of daily routine can tackle them all at once. Maybe it's something that I should take care of one at a time instead.

>>667788970
>I've been taking the antipsychotics for years and they are just as bad as you hear. They completely zombify you. I can't do shit and my brain feels like it's mush because of these fucking meds.

Please elaborate. I'm interested.

>>667793535
It's probably Milhouse given how bigger loser you are.

>>667797914
I think you have the right idea about taking things one step at a time, but what steps you need to take and when is what you need to understanding, and at first it definitely is the most elusive considering you have to be able to look at your issues and simplify them in order to have a clear understanding and thus a clearer choice of action. What I've found personally is that starts with the way you react to a feeling or thought, your habit. As soon as you find yourself feeling or falling into an undesirable action or thought as a result of habit, you have to deliberately, focus your awareness on it, and seek to understand why you're doing it if necessary, and again, deliberately make a decision to feel or think in a way that counteracts it. It is a discipline, a control over your passive actions and at times, passions, through a contemplative reasoning. gotta flow, man.

>>667800393
Sounds reasonable. I have taken to writing to try making my thoughts a little easier to look over so I may as well keep track of how I fair in keeping off of those vices on a day-by-day basis. It might take me years to truly get where I want to be, but I'll just have to keep trying and not let my failures get to me so much.

>>667800393
>>667797359
I've also found that I'm almost always more resistant to exercising discipline at first than I am once I've gained momentum. I think it's just the subconscious beginning to understand what your conscious mind is wanting to do. that's how it works, the conscious mind reasons and communicates thought unto the subconscious mind for deeper understanding. pretty much anyway

>>667801270
Getting started is always the hardest part, especially considering I'm too indulgent to want change. I've recently grown a bigger admiration for people who showcase discipline and have mastered their craft. I can see my own potential in becoming something like that, so at least I've got that going for me. My head just gets too fuzzy most of the time, though. Probably means I ought to lay off the pot for a good while too, at least until I have my shit together.

My father

>>667778669
I hate that even though I'm barely 21 I already have the most intense receeding hairline. I already balding and it hinders me whenever I go out, Affects my self-esteem and makes me percieve myself as a unnattractive person, Even though I've had plenty of relationships and sexual partners. I'm just sad.

>>667778669
That I'm fat, ugly fuck with social anxiety. I'm 20 yo virgin and it's been about 4 years that I touched girl last time.

>>667780663
Im 5' 8" 165 and not fat u are skeleton

>>667802029
I actually used to have that problem too. Just another bad habit. Gotta stimulate yourself. You probably rarely get the chance if you're in high school, considering it's full of shit. I'd bet most people you know don't challenge you enough, especially if you guys are smoking pot and just fuckin' around. It's not easy when your environment has molded you into something without you having the capacity to fully realize it and the consequences that accompany. fuckin sucks. just gotta work on it though. I've spent the last year doing it. gets frustrating at times but as long as you know the work is paying off and will continue to, is enough to make it.

meditation, discipline, practice, study, people(philosophers, great men), music, art, science, history, whatever stimulates you and feels right. that's what has helped me personally. just exposing myself to things. concepts, thought. we've been deprived. seeking understanding will set things in motion. internet helps.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1Mh5RhTQ_4 I'll just leave this here because someone showed me this recently and it makes sense. it's not just some dumb bullshit make for marketing. it's a cognitive understanding of the human mind, the subconscious, and how your perspective develops your surroundings. just another something that we've never been exposed to or taught of. because we're fucked. lol

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>>667782833

why don't you chaps fuck a prostitute? or a fatty?

>>667804421
Yeah I've actually been in college for a few years and am close to finishing but want to finish strong since my early years were pretty mediocre. It seems like every time school starts, I have a hard time making adjustments with things to tend to. I think my biggest problem was that I had been in public schools where your schedule is laid out for you and you are pretty much having your hand held even if you are the most apathetic turd in school. For 7 hours a day for 12 years. And now I'm left to manage my own time and it just doesn't seem like I've had/taken a good opportunity to shed my old skin first.