Was it the Ella story anon.? I had to wait like 15 minutes for that shit to load cuz crappy internet but I teared up
Have you tried telling her anon
This is even worse, I'm sorry bitches can be so heartless
I keep thinking of them together, happy. It's killing me. I wish I could meet someone new but I can't really go out much.
>date with qt 3.14 Girl
>Girl and I talked everyday
>I thought we were perfect match
>We did everything together
>She gave me a letter with a date printed on it
>told me not to open until printed date, which was one year later
>fast foward a year
>a well thought out letter of why she thought she loved me and wanted to spend her whole life with me
>tfw we broke up months ago
>i still love her
>she's going out with a faggot
>me and faggot used to be friends
>lost girl of my dreams and trusted friend
STIMULATION OF BODY-MOVING/LIKE-SENSE SINCE OF ELECTRICITY OF CAUSED OF IN OF BODY SINCE 1. tiny metals in human 2. metals moved since of energies striked/hitting metals 3. energies sent/from machine far of miles.
Well, I've got depersonalisation and shit's hitting the fan in a big way.
Plus the girl I've been in love with for 11 Years' mother just died. So I have to write her a sympathy card tomorrow and I'm wondering how make it not sound trite.
why have you gotta write a card?
why not consul her personally?
Got dumped super hard about a month. She told me us to get married. Met her parents, spent a weekend at her house, spent almost every hour together at school. Haven't talked to her since our breakup. Deleted her on social media a few weeks ago. FeelsBadMan.
With the way things have been lately, a card would be best. She's also with someone.
When all's said and done, I'm pretty sure she'll need time to be alone with her thoughts and family. She doesn't need me at this moment in time and I'm not inclined to shoehorn my way into a place I'm not required or wanted. (Given their current situation)
I usually never post, but this was the only time I actually cried over a story.
Why would people even resort to that? Seriously why do people think it's funny? That's the worst dick move anybody could even think of.
I got some fresh feels
>working part time while finishing my degree
>cute shy girl works in my store, different department but i see her time to time
>She seems to like me, smiles at me, got shy the one time i thanked her for something
>She was sitting alone in the breakroom today and i got really close to asking her out
I always make excuses in my head
>she talking to someone, cant interrupt her
>Im sick and i want to shake her hand when i introduce myself etc
every fuckin time
I think it can be any type of event. You spend time and money thinking that people will come only to feel like shit or worse if it was for someone else. Similar shit happened to me too and it honestly fucking hurt pretty damn bad.
im out, gonna lie die, cry a lot, and sleep, gd'night
I work at Home Depot so I'm constantly being pulled to other departments. When I give thanks to someone for helping me I tell them how busy I was and tell them to come and get me next time they need help so later we can talk. Hope this helps.
Just go for it, man. 8 years ago I had a crush on a girl I worked with. We talked all the time. We got along really well. I did the same shit you're doing - always making up excuses to myself for why I couldn't possibly ask her out that day. I did this for months. Literally every day for months. Mind you, I started this job in March of 2008. In fucking July of that year we both got invited to the beach with a bunch of people from work. I spent all day with her being painfully awkward. It got dark and we went to one of the co-workers' family's beach house nearby. Bonfire, beer, music, all that shit. We're lying down talking and she says something along the lines of "For a while I thought you were weird around me because you had a crush on me, but then I realized you're just an awkward guy." I laughed it off. She laughs and says "I dunno, it works for you. It's adorable." And for whatever the fuck reason I finally manned up and just dove in for the kiss.
Our 6th wedding anniversary is in April.
Stop making excuses and go for it. You'll just regret not doing it otherwise.
>met just 3 days after after christmas
>she last fucked a dude the day before christmas
>possibly missing her period
>usually would have gotten it starting yesterday
>we haven't had sex yet
>possible pregnancy scare
>I fell in love with her
>I've caught feelings for her
>I can't stop thinking about her
>she loves me, hopes this won't ruin our relationship
>just got off an hour long phone conversation with her about our true feelings for each other
FUCK MAN WHY ME
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN
I finally found a girl that I love and now this
>I fell in love with her
>she loves me
No you didn't and no she doesn't. You have literally only known her for two weeks. You know nothing about eachother yet. You don't even know if you're sexually compatible. You're infatuated. There's a difference. If you broke up right now, this whole thing would mean nothing to you a year from now because she hasn't even been in your life long enough to leave an imprint in your mind. If she's not pregnant, then cool, you can explore the relationship more and see where it goes. If she is, then that's just how shit happens, man. It isn't the end of the world.
but what do I do with these fucking feelings. I've never fucking felt this way about anybody else before. We talk for hours and I used to be a socially awkward fuck, this girl fucking gets me. I see what your saying but how the fuck do I deal with this shit. It's 12 in the morning and I'm on /b/ spilling my feelings out about this girl. I don't even browse /b/ more than twice a month. I came here for the feels thread bros
I dont know why but this one always got me for some reason...
In the last four months
>Lost my grandma, we were really close
>Lost my cat the same week
>month later went into depression and pushed everyone away
>broke up with girlfriend of ten months because I wasn't giving her the time she deserved
>Started smoking a shit load of weed
>friends all leave as I am not maintaining
>get benzos and try to kill myself
>realize I miss her so much
>she texts me
>I tell her I need to see her
>She has been partying and getting wasted to cope
>fuck you too?
I asked for her back and she said she wants to date but not be together atm. She is having too much fun getting attention at parties and is not wanting to give it up. I am stuck on the edge between her constantly getting hit on by other guys and getting fucked up at partys and her spending time with me and telling me I am the only one that matters to her. I have no one and the person who used to always have my back I fucked up with and now they won't be mine again. I am so lonely. She is at some other guys house right now doing homework and it took me back to when I would help her with her homework a year ago cause we both had psy100 and eng101 together. I miss her so much. /b/ i hate myself
A week ago, my ex and I made plans for my birthday. We've been broken up for almost a year, but we've stayed really close since then. We had a fight a few days ago. It's my birthday today. We haven't spoken since that argument.
Same thing happened to me but this was during Christmas. Now my birthday is in two weeks and I know I will be celebrating it alone.
I really only come into these threads because I feel like I don't deserve the happiness that I've had. Doesn't mean there isn't bad stuff though.
>Birthday is on August 30th
>So was my grandpa's funeral
I don't really have a story but the guy that I really liked had been talking to me for a while, so that was cool. He asked me to meet him in the study area of the student center of my college campus, So I went. His friends were there but I didn't think much of it, and he asked me to be his girlfriend and I was so excited and his friends took pictures
I found out a day after it was a prank and they posted the pictures on my college's roast page
Not a big deal but still fucking hurt.
stop smoking weed, stop getting fucked up all together. try and pick up the pieces. fix yourself first. then decide if you want to try and fix thing with her. that being said it isn't easy. i just recently stopped putting myself in a chemical coma every night. now it's so clear how much I've fucked up my life, now that everyone I cared about has moved on. I don't really know where to go from here. However i do know that quitting smoking and drinking myself to death every night is definitely the tight first stop to fixing things.
You have to let your heart get shattered at least once... You can break a bone and it'll heal and work like normal again. I never felt like I had a heart until the first time somebody broke it. And then it healed, but knowing the feeling of being a fucking emotional mess made me never want to make anybody feel the way I felt and it led to the best relationship I've ever been in.
>Be me, 17 male
>summer before senior year of highschool
>parents send to a week long summer camp
>get there, woods for miles and miles
>only guys are at this camp, no girls
>cabins in the woods, sausage fest, typical summer camp
>morning of activities and introductions, this is where you sleep, songs, etc.
>free time that evening
>other guys start swimming in the lake, chilling in cabins, frizbee
>be a cross country runner
>decide to go for a jog through woods
>a few miles in come across cabins
>think I made it back to camp
>i found a girls camp
>one girl walks out of her cabin
>"oh shit I'm sorry I got los-"
>stop when I see her face
>she walks up to me
>"you know you can't be here"
>says in flirty voice
>fuck I can't be a beta faggot i have to get this right
>clear throat and take breath
>"hi, I'm Anon"
>"well anon if the counselors find out you're here you could get in trouble"
>need a tough line, gotta sound alpha as fuck
>"well maybe it's worth getting in trouble if we can have a bit of fun"
>FUCKING ALPHA AS FUCK MAN
>"well maybe I wanna have some fun too"
>SHE SAID YES OH MY FUCKING GOD
>We walk into woods
>find a clearing with a huge oak tree and a small stream running through it
>talk for hours
>learn about her, her life
>she lives on the other side of the state from me
>like 5 hours driving
>oh fuck we should get back to our camps
>ask her to meet me here again tomorrow during free time
>make it back to camp
>all day thinking about her
>finally have free time
>run to clearing
>she's already there laying on blanket watching clouds
>quietly walk over and lay next to her
>"anon, do you wanna meet outside camp?"
>"sure! I'd love to!"
>"but we live so far away"
>"maybe some day we'll meet again then. We can trade addresses and stay in contact by mail!"
>before cell phones were big so can't just trade numbers
>she moves her hand over to mine
>holding hands, watch clouds until sun sets and we have to go back
>third day of camp
>meet again at the place
>talk for hours about everything and anything under the oak tree
>sun is starting to set
>"anon, do you like me?"
>"well kinda. I mean we just met this week. But I think I do"
>"do you wanna date when we meet up outside this summer camp?"
>never dated anyone before but sounds good
>we hug and go back to our camps
>spend that night thinking how nice that hug was
>fourth day of camp
>in chow hall for breakfast
>counselors call for everyones attention
>mention they suspect somebody's been meeting girls over at the girls camp
>against the rules, can send you home immediately if found out
>no. I like femanon. She's nice, It's worth going to see her again
>run to clearing
>femanon's not there
>wait for like an hour
>fuck what if she was found out and got sent home
>finally see her appear in clearing
>run to her and hug her
>"anon, we might never get to see eachother again"
>"what do you mean?"
>"the counselors know we've been meeting, just don't know it's us"
>"oh yeah I already know. don't care, I need to see you"
>talk for a little, she says she needs to head back
>just in case she hands me a piece of paper with her address on it
>"write me a letter as soon as you're home k anon?"
>she turns to leave
>pick her up in romantic hug
>she looks deep into my eyes
>heads move closer
>lips just touch each other in gentle first kiss
>"WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING"
>voice screams from edge of clearing
>FUCK it's a counselor!
>starts running towards us
>femanon starts getting panicked
>"promise you'll write to me anon!"
>hug her as tightly as I can
>counselor pulls us apart
>look back at her as I'm being dragged towards my camp
>she's looking back at me
>make eye contact one last time
>counselors yell in my face about direct violation of rules, sending home immediately, yadda yadda
>mom picks me up first thing the next morning
>I keep femanons address safe in my pocket
>whole two hour drive home get yelled at for all the stupid shit I've done
>grounded for a month
>lucky it's not more
>soon as I'm back in my room I begin to write
>write everything that happened since I was dragged away from her
>question if she's okay
>give my address at end of letter
>please write soon ok?
>mail letter immediately
>few days go by, checking mail constantly
>check mailbox, see letter
>my letter, it's been opened and says "return to sender"
>I put all the right stamps on it and everything, and I know how to mail a letter
>and it was opened so I know it made it there
>take out letter and put in new envelope
>mail it again
>few days later
>letter back, opened again, says "return to sender"
>no no no no no no no
>write a new letter
>why are my letters being sent back femanon?
>mail right away
>school starting in a few days, senior year of highschool
>waiting by mailbox constantly
>first day of school comes by
>school sucks, thinking about femanon and letter all day
>run home, check mailbox
>my letter sitting there
>been opened, "return to sender"
>feel so confused
>wonder why she's not writing me back
>few weeks of school go by
>decide to write her again to let her know how I'm doing
>few days later get letter back
>my letter, opened, "return to sender"
>pattern continues through Christmas
>mail her a package with a few chocolates, a small teddy bear, and another letter from me
>letter says "i know my letters are being read, i just don't know why they're being sent back. I just want you to let me know you're still out there femanon"
>months go by
>March of new year
>just turned 18, fuck I'm an adult now!
>don't think about femanon much anymore
>need to decide what I'm doing after highschool
>not enough money for college, no good jobs in my town other than McShitty ones
>decide on army
>go down to recruiters
>going to basic training right at the start of summer
>rest of highschool is kind of a blur to me
>basic time, go through that song and dance
>serve in army for 8 years
>a few okay stories, nothing exciting enough to share really
>never dated anyone or did stuff like that while in army
>get out, decide to visit parents again for Christmas
>same old house they've always lived in
>share stories and talk for a few hours about life in general
>mom speaks up about something she's been meaning to tell me for a while
>there's a letter there for me
>letter is from about a year ago
>haven't thought about her in years
>"hey anon, I'm sorry I never wrote back. My mom was a psycho bitch and hid all the letters from me. She couldn't hide the christmas package though, and I figured out what had been happening when I got your letter from that package. I miss you so much. I finally tracked down your address from your last name, if you ever get this please call me"
>has her number at the bottom of the letter
>"mom, hand me the phone"
>couldn't put numbers in fast enough
>ringing for what feels like eternity
>oh god it's her I know that voice
>"Hi, this is Anon. Is Femanon there?"
>silence from other end
>hear her start to cry over the phone
>"oh my god anon it's really you I thought you'd never call"
>hours talking on the phone, catching up
>tell her about my army experience
>she tells me about her college experience, how she never dated, got her masters in communications
>giggle a little at that, we haven't been communicating much have we
>she giggles at the irony too
>we should meet up!
>where to meet though
>she's still on opposite side of state from me
>decide on old clearing from summer camp, seems like the perfect place
>gonna drive over tomorrow, for now we'll chat on phone for hours
>next day begin driving early
>camp is abandoned in winter, nobody wants to sleep in the snow
>begin slow walk over to clearing with backpack of stuff
>old oak tree is huge, exactly how I remember it
>even the small stream still there, just mostly frozen
>set up a small clearing in the snow
>build a fire
>lay out tarp, then several very thick blankets
>bottles of wine buried in snow to keep cold
>tending to fire when across clearing I see her
>she's so fucking beautiful
>run to her and hug her so tightly
>stand there for a few minutes not saying anything just hugging
>she starts to shiver a bit
>lead her over to fire, lay on blankets and warm up
>I pull out the wine from the snow, we drink and talk for a long time
>fire starting to die out
>turn to her
>"I love you Femanon"
>"I love you too Anon"
>she looks at me with a shy sort of smile on her face
>"w- will you... Will you marry me anon?"
>"yes yes yes yes!!"
>pull her under one of the blankets with me
>make out so passionately
>she starts touching me down there
>we have the sex in a clearing in the woods in a foot of snow next to a dying fire
>it was the most amazing thing I've ever done
>few months later, wedding day
>my family's there, her dad and relatives are there, mom's not there she doesn't approve of me
>we get married, so happy
>I move in with her because she's already got a good job using her college degree
>I've just gotten a job as a manager at a Subway
>doesn't pay a lot but I've got plenty saved up from army anyways and she's got a ton coming in from her job
>she calls me into bathroom one day
>"what is it?"
>she holds up pregnancy test
>jumping up and down excitedly for like an hour nonstop
>I'M GONNA BE A DADDY!!!!
>"Anon, can I have a favor from you?"
>yeah sure anything
>"i need about tree fiddy"
>I look at her kinda funny, so confused
>realize she's about 500 feet tall and from the paleolithic era
>I fell in love with the Loch Ness Monster
>after all this time
>DAMN YOU NESSIE!!!!!!!!!!!
I made a huge mistake anon, shouldn't have left her. As soon as I did I immediately regretted it, but she hated me for it. She got really fucked up on meth and heroin and shit because of it. Year later we become best friends and I try and help her get clean. She goes to rehab, doesn't work. She meets this other guy, he says some slick shit or other and weasels his way into a relationship with her, gets her relatively clean. Lost the war anon...
At the beginning of Fall Semester, 2015, I had this political research class, and this Middle Eastern (possibly Indian) woman talked with me for a few days.We talked about helping each other since neither of us were good with math (and there's math in the course...or at least there was), and getting together to help each other learn.
Then, one day, she suddenly stopped talking to me. She no longer said, "good morning" anymore, she didn't even sit next to me in class. It became as if she never even knew me. When I went over to talk to her and see how the class was going (this was close to Midterms), I could tell by her facial and other body language that she was disgusted, downright repulsed with me talking to her. Didn't talk to her the rest of the semester, nor her me, even when our paths crossed.
Sure enough, we have yet another class together this semester, and she's still not talking to me. What's more, is that she sits about 2 seats behind me. I only wonder what I did wrong.
Oh, and did I mention that I've been single for the last 11 years?
If there were a god, why would he allow people to molest people. They are ruined for the rest of their lifes, labeled as "bad" people. All because some horny dick head couldn't control himself.
I realized there wasn't a god, when I realized I'm black, BUT not like other blacks, which causes me to live a life of alienation and constant hatred from all sides.
people like you keep me on 4chan, knowing that anons are just reagular people. most think we are neck beard basment dweller hackers but were just people hangout with our dicks out on the internet.
>been browsing since 2006.
>boards got worse and worse, more cancerous than usual.
>yet throughout all that anons have helped me through personal shit.
>no attachment friends all gone
>why do I continue to stay? Why can't I leave?
Because we all hold out hope that some day, someone will come along and remind us that the effort was worth it all along. We're on the platform for ears, hoping that god damn train will arrive eventually and take us somewhere where we're happy.
I'm here to try to hide myself from the pain that is the world. My father told me young that there were no good people in the world. Just bad people and worst people. I learned that when first girlfriend was killed. I've dated so many girls since then, but I loved none of them. Nothing can ever stop the pain. Not alchohol nor drugs. I'd do anything to have never been born, thinking maybe that could of prevented this. So now I browse 4chan most of the day, laughing at absolute shit. Hardly ever actually sharing any kind of real emotion. (besides the occasional feels thread) I'll most likely never admit this again. I'll just go on to calling people faggots and jerking off all day. What a life.
same reason i do, because even though 99.9 percent of this board has been infested with cancerous preteens and newfags. Once in a while, but not very often you do get to have a meaningful conversation with one of your oldfag /b/ros. It gives you that small push to keep coming back.
Shit m8. I feel bad for you. I worry everyday about something like that happening to the people I love and I know I wouldn't be able to do anything about it. Sorry for your loss man
not exactly. im in a long distance relationship and even though there are many obstacles to overcome, i wouldnt live my life any other way. Im in love and currently planning my move in 5 months to my SO's place. its amazing.
I have no emotions or feelings towards anyone i cared about or loved, even the girl i loved, i cant feel anything i dont know what to do /b/ i want to end it badly...........
I'm afraid of interacting with people my age and people in general. I'm afraid people are just going to tease me like they used to do when I was younger. I feel like I'm not interesting in anyway and no one gives a crap about what I say. I want to feel like I belong or people actually want to know and care about me
If you have any money you should use it to spread the love. Whether it be by giving it to charity irl or buying some poor guy on /b/ that game off steam everyone is talking about
fuck the pain away anon...
fuck the pain away...
iTS hard when the girl you love just toys with your emotions im crying in my bed right now and i dont know what to do, i cant feel anything anymore (its been like this for a year now and now talking about)
If you're gonna let the tumor kill you don't tell anyone, it makes them feel 10x worse than the suicide option. That doesn't mean I don't care /b/ro but it looks like you've already made up your mind. Love you man hope you go painlessly
Should i talk to her? I dont care anymore really, i just want someone
I've been depressed for a long time bros. but now i have all sorts of little health problems along with a constant pressure headache. I can lose all fine motor skills in a second, my vision in one eye will disappear and other shit.
My girlfriend left me a week before the tumor. She was the first girl i ever told i loved but she threw it away for another guy.
A few days ago she found out and tried to get back together but i think the damage was already done. That being said, i've never felt more alone
I know this means literally nothing to you but we're or at least I'm here for you /b/ro. Before your too far gone I would like it if you did all the things you ever wanted to do and do it with the biggest most autistic smile on your face the entire time, just force yourself to enjoy it and say fuck being beta and go full normie for that day, talk to people
Alright il talk to her tomorrow, thanks /b/ro
Yeah it's free. I guess the americans pay through the ass to die.
I've given up hope. I'll die, and i haven't given anyone a reason to remember me so it will be like i never existed
But in the meantime, all i have is pain and loneliness.
For all you anons feeling things tonight, just want you to know:
My life is at a relative high point, I am not afraid of being dead every night, i am not concerned about much of anything other than tomorrow.
Why should this make you feel better?
I won't go into detail, but what I know is if it can get better for me it will get better for you.
Np /b/ro, might as well do some good before I an hero after my gf breaks it off with me. Don't put in the effort to tell me no, when she's gone i have no one left alive to care if I do die, I've already made up my mind
this one will never not get me, i wish everyone could experience something so beautiful as this, except for the shitty ending
this breaks my heart every time i read it
It does mean something anon
You don't understand the terminal illness. I have a shaved head, i'm skin and bones, frail, weak and constantly grouchy with my headaches.
You don't understand how people see you when you're dying. They treat you like a fucking child all the time. Incapable of choice. Incapable of activities. Incapable of rational choices. People patronize me so much i can't stand it. My mom, my ex all of them treat me so differently and it pisses me off
her has the chance to be helped medically, and psychologically, but he chooses not to.
if i could see a therapist i probabaly wouldnt want to kill myself every fucking day
or i wouldnt have to wither in pain when my migraines come becaus I WOULD GET FREE MEDICINE
he has a choice and he chooses psychologically and physical pain simply because he loathes himself so fucking much. help yourself, because other isnt going to do it for you
I've been out of school for a few years now, I was going through photos on facebook last night and missed it.
I missed having literally 0 cares about stuff, like now, i have 4 university assignments due in, back then? Pfft, homework, easy, didn't even need to do it.
Every lunch break, I just stood there with my friends and shot the shit, talked about vidyas, laughed, not a care in the world.
Was i picked on? Fuck yeah, tons, but I had my friends, and i could go home and play games with my friends.
When i had my lessons, it'd be all 5 of us sat at our table, laughing and shooting the shit.
Now? I've lost almost 70% of them, i'd kill to have them back, they've all moved on like none of it even mattered.
But it meant the world to me.
/b/ro...I feel that feel. I lost my love and my best friend on the same day when they revealed they had been seeing each other behind my back. I wouldn't have even cared, but they were malicious about it. I never even blocked them on facebook, they did it first. Fuck them I guess, I never really hated either of them.