because you want to feel, will dump what I got.
i'm also working on my feels story, might post it, might not was thinking of heading to bed and posting tomorrow night
My close friend died on Valentine's day. A day after her birthday. She just turned 24. She was one of those individuals who are all around good and kind hearted. People like her restore your faith in humanity, and she's gone now. Forever. That last hug I gave her was our last goodbye. I miss you so much already. I feel so angry that you were taken from us but there's no one to get mad at. This all feels like a terrible dream. I want to wake up.
If any of you have someone you care about, do me a favor and let them know. I already missed my opportunity, don't miss yours.
thanks man but it is getting late, I feel myself wavering
you guys are still lurking right?
i'll try to intersperse the good and the sad
Guys, i feel fucked in the head and i have no one to talk to in my life. I recently started dating a girl and it started out as a fucked up hookup.
She asked to date me and we really connected- or so i thought... Turns out a month before we meet she started talking to this guy online from the US. They would call each other and talk every night and more.
This guy is getting a flight to canada and staying here for 4 days. (cont)
pfft... no friends?
come on my man, you always have your /b/rothers
Ok guys I need to finish my story, i'll post a few more pics when i'm done but then I gotta go
I don't know what it is anymore. Whenever I come across someone I like, I try to get them to like me back, I don't try anything special, and it usually works, But. the problem is, as soon as I know that they've developed feelings for me, My mind takes this huge backtrack, and I lose all interest in them it seems. It's fucking with me, and it usually leads to me furthering myself from this person, to the point where I'd hope they are losing interest in me, until they finally do. then, after, About 90% of the time, ill look back and go, "fuck." and get hella depressed when i realize it's happened again. this has kept up since my ex an i broke up, which, was quite a long time ago. even though the relationship lasted about 3 years. I just want this to stop happening.
they made plans to fuck while he was here (he's 3 years older than her) but we honestly do connect and we had a heart to heart conversation on sunday night about our life's and we really opened up. She told me it was the first time she was going to fall asleep and wake up with someone she cared about.
On Thursday night that week one of her friends snitched her out when she was angry. she told me her and the guy were still talking and he was flying over at the end of the month. I broke up with her on Friday. (cont)
posting to keep thread going
thanks man, it'll be good to know some will at least read the story
Is this not normal? I've had severe depression for years now, I've lost most emotion, etc etc. Every night I have really life-like dreams, and in those dreams, I'm happy. When I wake up, I transition from being happy to total shit, making me feel even worse every time I wake up
Seriously the worst ones are the ones that reflect you, I'm scared to change anything for fear of being alone, I don't want to burden anyone I want to carry others burdens, I've often considered suicide but that would be redundant because it'd just burden people
I feel the same way my /b/rother
here is a pic for us both
she lied a ton and begged for forgiveness. but her "friend" snitched her out again shes meeting him at a hotel when he gets into the city and hes giving her the key.
this bitch roped me into a relationship took my virginity and gave me hope i wasnt alone. (haven't connected with anyone for a while.)
i feel like shit but im gonna get her back for any future guys she trys to pull this fucked up shit on.
you have something you can do in this world that WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE, even if your life is absolute shit use that experience to help other people deal with their shitty ass lives
This happened to me this morning ;-;
>having cigarette before class
>see old man struggling to walk up the hill and carry his bag
>put out cigarette go over and ask if he wants me to carry the bag for him
>"oh thank you!"
>walking up the hill making small chit chat he asks if I'm going to the library aswell
>"nah my tafe class Is just over there"
>"I'm getting a bit out of breath.. It's a bugger getting old"
>"ah everyone does it"
>we start walking again
>"what's the alternative (to getting old) though.. All of my friends are gone but I'm still here.."
>I just go completely silent right in the feels
>"well atleast I'm still here so I guess that keeps me going"
>I just walk by his side and say that's good
>we get to the library and he gets all happy
>"Thank you very much! Very big help!"
>"no problem, have a great day!"
>walk of confused as to how to feel cause just did a good deed and made an old man happy but tearing up because right in the feels
my mom also told me she had an abortion and started crying non stop. i want to kill myself so bad to get away from it all. i hate hurting people who don't deserve it
Kind of similar to me. I am in a state of either apathy or depression. I mask it well in public though.
Just gotta find distractions like I do .
The worst physically feeling I've ever felt was when this girl I was such good friends with just stoppe caring about and avoided me, when she walked past me I just got this knot in my stomach, I asked her about it later and she said she'd found someone else, she turned all her friends against me and the knot only got worse. Lately it's been going down but she's trying to talk to me again and it's coming back. I want to hate her so much I should be done with her, but I just can't
Not sure how I would have handled that either; those are some strong words and very sad to hear.
Hope there are some anons in here who have experienced some good times recently.
I never understood reactions like this too well; I mean if I loved someone like that, then whatever made them happy would make me happy and I would be a little upset if she didnt love me, but if she was happy with someone else then I wouldnt have the right to be too upset.
then read my story tomorrow night you'll learn what that picture truly means
c'est la vie, I guess all i can do is sit and hope that it stops soon. this is the least of my worries, anyway. You know what they say. If you are unhappy with your life, never bring another person into it thinking it will make it better. You'll only make their life bad as well.
Ill try to be around for the thread tomorrow then.
I try to come here as often as possible.
Im so used to it that I dont think its fake anymore, rather im amused by how apathetic I am. I mean, someone almost hit me at about 50 mph the other day on the highway and I just sat and laughed as he missed me by a few feet. I dont know anymore
What women want in a man
- certain amount of money
What men want in women
- not batshit insane
Really shows the state of women nowadays that the two characteristics that should be common in a relationship have now become so fucking rare.
What's worse, if your game is strong, you can fuck someone else's woman. It's not hard.
So what's the point of getting into relationships, guys? You're just going to get destroyed.
I am not really one to blanket judge, but from my experiences and people I have met, this is kind of accurate. I would say guys arent as great as we say; alot seem to want the same things women want.
The men and women who want loyalty and other good things are diminishing in number unfortunately, which is why I have remained single for four years.
I was pretending to not to care at all about problems. I was evading them, I couldn't let my friends know. I was that guy who you'd never know where does his jokes come from. "You're so funny, anon" they say a lot, but reality is at night I look forward for these threads and I regret having to fake an appearance. On Valentine's Day I fucked things up, I did wrong, a mistake. Yesterday I came to the realization that the girl i liked just thinks -and knows- I'm an idiot. Indeed I am, I deserve it. I deserve to feel.
Sadly, I can't fake tears.
These commercials almost get me.
I try to retain my record of not crying in about 2 years. I can feel the tears coming when I watch this and similar things, but I will not cry.
No. Hard times come and pass. Suicide is never an option. I hate the idea. Makes me sick and sad that someone would give their life up. I was nearly broken when I found out my younger sister cut herself. You will only hurt those who care about you.
Mistakes can usually be rectified. People can think youre an idiot in a good or bad way.
You are right and people should be able to feel and express their emotions, its what helps define us as human.
We have these threads to help out people with their problems, so tell us whats wrong mr anon
Second bump. Will let this die if intended.
Could just space dump.
It makes me feel better atleast to know someone else is in the same position. Once somebody crosses that's it, there will be no sentiment to hold back my wrath, and have ways to cut deeper with my parting words than their actions ever could to me. If not allowing yourself to be used or fucked over means being alone then I still I think I'm on the better end of the deal. You truly realise that most people will shit on you given the chance once you find yourself completely alone in a city you don't know when all you've been trying to do is have people in your life, even just a couple, to care about and have them care about you. I've always disliked the way people isolate themselves once they start dating someone but I'm wondering now if I ever find someone to give myself to, maybe they'll be all I have.
Try doing it with no vices at all, I've never drank alcohol or smoked or done drugs, I decided not to when I was 16 and saw my friend drunk for the first time. I'm not depressed though, I have my days but mostly it's just suffocating loneliness, family is estranged, friends are gone, just desperately looking for work so I can survive now, somehow I come across as normal, I think that maybe it's because just having the chance to even communicate with someone else is enough to make me smile at the novelty of it.
>mfw when I never understood why these threads
God i am crying like a fucking baby.
I used to bottle everything up.
Started seeinga therapist a month ago.
Is it working.
Why am I sad.
I should be happy.
I used to feel nothing.
Now i'm just sad.
for those without friends to have someone to talk to during hard times.
I enjoy at least attempting to help others out.
>edgy to not cry?
I just dont like it. Do you not feel like less of a guy for crying? I do. Maybe its just me.
I fucking love drugs. I love alcohol, weed, acid, shrooms, painkillers, Adderall, etc. I just like being out of it, it makes me laugh my ass off and feel good, it makes me feel something.
Not everyone is like you though.
Some of the anons in here may have not talked to anyone in months or years and we are here to help them.
I come here to talk to anyone who needs/wants someone to talk to.
Not everybody is "emotionally resolute" as eachother. Why do you care if people are acting sad in a feels thread anyway?
no, it's a god damn cowardly way out. it's just fucking giving up. and that I cannot abide by
She just posted pictures of her new boyfriend.
I'm sitting in my room for the 3rd week straight.
It's been 3 months, and I'm still obsessed with her.
We dated for years, and she didn't even care when we broke up, she rushed into a new man and I'm just heartbroken.
I can't even find the motivation to look for someone new or anything like that.
I'm just exhausted, and I can't even enjoy videogames, I'm just sick of life.
you fucking beta, stop being so gay and move on.
i understand your point and it's good, but some anons just want to keep depressing more and more just for the sake of being masochistic
Birthday on 19th, turning 20, one more year and ill become an alcoholic, drink the sorrows away, untill the next day, when ill do it again, still living at home, shit job, not in school, one friend, bad at making this post because, of, too, many, commas, all I got is mg best friend, who's the girl I love
Been there, anon.
I had dreams for 3 years after the breakup, and am still single 4 years afterwards.
As I have discovered time and time again, life is not fair and it will kick you in the nuts and laugh while running away.
All that can be done sometimes is to just let time at least mend wounds. If youre more of an energetic or outgoing type, hit some bars or go hang out with friends. If not, well, I dont have much that I can say, if anything that would help.
What got me through hard times similar to that was doing things by myself that helped me feel at peace/comfort. Tasks that I could do alone without anyone around that I enjoyed. (not jacking off or anything sexual)
I never cry, but for some reason, reading all of this sad bullshit makes me break. I'm barely tearing up right now, though, so come on you niggers, post some more sad shit. I need to cry.
Hmm, well I guess some could do that, though I am not sure why anyone would. I get no pleasure out of thinking about my problems often.
Oh well, whatever suits oneself best.
>been hopeless romantic as long as I can remember.
>super beta with stupidly high standards so don't get any girls.
>until i'm 22, start dating a hot, smart, charismatic, likely-to-be-successful girl.
>date for 7-8 months
>I have little problems here and there with her as she does with me.
>decide I don't love her and won't love her because things aren't perfect.
>break things off, shes devastated.
>months later realize every girl i meet pales in comparison to her
>all my problems were stupid childish shit and ideas of impossible fantasy.
>the only times when I feel hopeful about future love is when I indulge in those fantasies I know are wrong and caused my problems to begin with
You guys need to get over it. Sometimes one person is more into the relationships than the other. It happens. But it's not normal to cling onto it so much.
Relationships aren't as serious as you think they are.
When I was young my father said to me:
"Knowledge is Power....Francis Bacon"
I understood it as "Knowledge is power, France is Bacon".
For more than a decade I wondered over the meaning of the second part and what was the surreal linkage between the two? If I said the quote to someone, "Knowledge is power, France is Bacon" they nodded knowingly. Or someone might say, "Knowledge is power" and I'd finish the quote "France is Bacon" and they wouldn't look at me like I'd said something very odd but thoughtfully agree. I did ask a teacher what did "Knowledge is power, France is bacon" mean and got a full 10 minute explanation of the Knowledge is power bit but nothing on "France is bacon". When I prompted further explanation by saying "France is Bacon?" in a questioning tone I just got a "yes". at 12 I didn't have the confidence to press it further. I just accepted it as something I'd never understand.
It wasn't until years later I saw it written down that the penny dropped.
Don't know what to do about chubby chick. We were "dating" for 4-5 months, even before we met I planned on moving somewhere different. I did. Now everyday is just about her being sad and me not caring. Basically a daily reminder that I'm a terrible person. Don't know how to dump her cuz she might do something crazy/suicide...
>Grill ignores me "as a joke"
>Ignore her back
>I'm really fucking good at it apparently, because she's desperately trying to get me speaking again
>Tell her an apology will do
>She refuses unless I apologise too for ignoring her back
>Tell her no and go back to ignoring her
Problem is, I don't want to keep ignoring her. I'm just way too fucking stubborn to back down on this and now I'm not sure if I should get the sane train as her so we can talk it over in private or if I should avoid and ignore her until she apologises. I don't even really care all that much, but goddamn am I stubborn.
My favorite comic. I hope you all care about your father.
i had love once. after i lost it drugs filled the void. but its time for this anon to move on. have to believe there another out there. another love. even if its simply not true.
Met this girl back in 2013. Hardcore drug user but I tried being there for her and tried helping her. She had this look on her face like someone actually gave a shit about her and she was so happy about it. We lost contact for awhile. Decided to look her name up on google (tried to find her Facebook) and the first thing that came up was the obituary. Died from an overdose. Still can't believe it.
looks like i'm a little late to the party
Yeah this is the exact reason why I won't bother trying hardcore drugs like that. She literally had no one that gave a fuck about her except for me at the time. Just wish I could have done more.
That's good anon. I know how you feel though. My mom is the only one that gives a shit about me. I've had my struggles with depression and more, but I'm here because of my mom. She helps me keep on going.
i have depression, obviously. But not having someone to talk to isnt so bad, its keeping those feels and memories bottled up. not being able to do anything about them but remember, and thats the most painful part for me. my opinion feel free to ignore it
The feels are strong in this thread.
There was a time in my life not too long ago where I thought about taking my life every single day (I still do from time to time, it never fully goes away) but I am happy to say that I have moved on.
I still have pretty much nothing, no friends, a few family members and a couple of co-workers.
I'm 33 and have never had a gf or even as much as kissed a woman but I'm working on it. As much as I hate to admit it it was my own choices that made me get to this point and I have to live with them and take one day at a time to try and make up for it all.
Until then I simply take it one happy ice-cream pile after another, blissfully ignorant on what's to come.
contributing, fuck my life man. just so depressed these days. Hope everyone here can cheer up a bit
my ex gf thinks now that we have broken up that she can see or date whoever she wants. HAH! That is incorrect, the amount of time i have wasted on her WILL play a key factor on her coming weeks wether she likes it or not. She can believe she is free and all but she is far from it as she will see soon