Happy Valentines Day /b/
How about a feels thread to remind me why I'm so damn lonely?
my ex left me months ago. i'm single since then. that girl fucked my head. it's like, i don't even know how to approach girls anymore
Personally im on the high end of the middle class, but nobody even wants free stuff from me
we are more than the sum of our mistakes.
i just want to feel comfy.
i watched rick and morty a few days ago, are there any good suggestions, i need something funny
I remember being in history class in high school and the teacher told us what he did over the weekend.
A group of girls in the class asked jokingly "do you have a wife?" and continued laughing. "No" he replied with a straight face. The girls asked him why he isn't married and he said "I mean if it happens".
This was really sad to see and I wonder what was going on in his mind and I felt the same way about being married
Loathsome I've become.
A creature so undone.
Wretched and broken.
Cannot find my faith.
Any God will do.
Nothing said is new.
Nothing said is true.
Fly away my hope.
The embrace of shade holds me dear
Eats me away.
Loose the dogs of disgrace upon me.
I have no faith.
Raise the poor outcast I have become.
I am undone.
Calm is the air. Still is the sea.
The valley of death keeps calling me.
Rest my eyes from the world.
This dying place, it's so absurd.
Oh, Christ above, whom I love.
Lost to me. My snow white dove.
Make this day like the night.
Songs of darnkess. Words of light.
Pulling down my heart.
I won't forget my lovers heart.
With utter loathing and scorn,
I was somehow born.
Strewn in black decay.
None shall I obey.
The wreckage of my flesh
The nakedness of my death.
he is with her right now and they probably have been fucking all day...
this is killing me guys...
fucking this. she is with him right now...
thats fucking uplifting... thanks anon
If there is one thing I can think of right now that gets me.
Occasionally, I'll feel like I'm talking to someone. Not out loud, but thinking as though there's a conversation, but really there isn't anybody there. It's like being in a room with myself and imaginary images, but really, I'm just in this room by myself.
Realizing that kills me.
>>598346419 was not me but thanks anyways...
geez we'll meet up in like a month and just thinking of knowing that they are going to be all lovy dovy all the time and fucking just next door... should have killed myself back then
feeling like shit. everything was fine a year ago. people told me it gets better. it actually does get better, but better doesn't mean good.
i want to feel comfort. like:
>"everything is alright"
but i have nobody to tell me that. just myself
this reminds me of that greentext story where some guy goes into the woods and meets a nice girl and then months later realizes it was just his imagination and he is shizophrenic
No problem, anon
Keep in mind that if she really is the one for you, she'll be with you no matter what, if she isn't, then you will find the one for you either way
Don't overwhelm yourself with negative thoughts
I wish I could get over my ex.
I wish I could move on from how terribly I was treated.
I wish I could feel any attraction to guys anymore becuase of it, and I wish I could meet someone and be happy.
But I cant do any of these, so Im just going to sit here all valentines night, cry quietly, and pretend to everyone I know that I couldnt be happier.
I hate my life.
Every time I hear the word "Schizophrenia" I always think of Louis Wain. His art was fantastic.
>should have killed myself back then
this will not change anything. if you kill yourself, she will use this as a excuse to whine about her life and everybody will stand behind her.
t - thanks. i really needed that
thats fucking deep
we are all going to make it brah
i feel the same ... it's temporary
it really is
Dont feel too lonely guys. I dont really have anything that I can say to cheer you up, but I can say that I dont let myself get down about it and I feel great tonight; no loneliness whatsoever.
This is pretty much what I do.
Everyone I know, bar the two of three people I can be totally open with, know that Im just fine.
Im moved on and super happy and just taking a while single to chill and relax and enjoy muh vidya and roleplaying and all that good stuff.
A couple know the truth because I cant lie to them well.
Especially my best friend. She'd know.
Hope all of you, single or not, are having a good day. This day has way too much emphasis put on "love", when in reality its just another normal day.
If you are feeling bad, go out and do something you love to you and treat yourself to something nice. It worked for me.
>she will use this as a excuse to whine about her life and everybody will stand behind her.
she actually has it pretty rough herself, except for me and her bf she delay doesnt have anyone... but well, thats 2 at least, i got non.
If anyone is really in need of someone to talk to though, I will be here all night and there are plenty of other /b/ros around to help you out.
No problem man. I enjoy helping others out on here.
Lily. I've known her for twenty eight years, loved her for thirteen years and was in attendance when she got married late last August. We were on and off for so long and have lived far from each other for so long.
Things never change for the better without effort. No one is going to come along and hand you the key to happiness out of the blue, that's just not real. The things and the people we want in our lives, we have to take steps to make that happen. More importantly, we have to be ready for them when they arrive. I think that's what my problem was, I was never ready for her to be a permanent part of my life and that was a mistake. I never felt like I was good enough, even though she was there, telling me I was.
I know that sort of regret will stick around for a good, long time. She's been a big part of my life for so long that how could it not? I also know that it'll eventually give way to the memories of good times and that's how I'll remember her.
>mfw I just broke up with my girlfriend of 6 years of my life and i couldn't be more happy
Anyone else see the idea of themselves actually going out with a girl as something foreign and unordinary.
Been single for my whole life and this is the mentality I've cemented. I don't even do the tfwnogf bullshit because for me that wasn't realistic to begin with so I don't care about it.
I havent had a gf in nearly 4 years and I am kind of detached from the idea, but only about 80-90%.
I dont even know how to handle those situations well anymore and I would probably just spaghetti everywhere.
Dont become too apathetic though.
I have had girlfriends, but I do see the possibility of settling down impossible. I can't imagine myself with only one person for the rest of my life, or even a long time, they bore me and I also can't help but overthink that everything humans do is just egotistical and self centered in the end, love is just a lie people made up to feel better about themselves, in my opinion.
HOLY FUCK ICFOUND YOU ITS ME I HAVE AN UPDATE LOOK AT THE PIC
I remember that thread, of course. I havent been to a thread since then actually, had to go home for the weekend. How have you been anon?
>>598345875 im that guy
no strenth to go on but cant rest at eas
noones gonna carry, noone ever has and probably noone ever will
im just too much of a burden for anyone to bear
the fact that i know that there are at least 6 or maybe even billion people in this world who have it waaaay worse than i do makes me feel even worse. and i totaly forgot where i was going with this
i just think to much
all the friggin time
and i kant fucking stop
...so... you guys like sports?
>This is what i want so bad
I've been looking for you, sorry for the all caps. In the thread I posted I had the relationship problem. Well, I can now say its solved and we couldn't be happier. Yesterday we both had a great time with friends together. Spending tommorow together again as well, I can't think you enough. You inspired me to put forth an effort. I wish there was some other way to contact you so I could thank you. Gracias, you beautiful person
I would just like to remind you that you are (probably) lonely the rest of the year as well.
I thought like you once, when I lost my one true love. Then after a couple months of depressive thought I realized that I was in control of my own happiness. Instead of berating myself all the time, I decided to go out and find something that would either distract me or be better than a relationship. While nothing can replace it (I know this now), there are some things you can do to be happier.
For me, it was helping others out, especially here on feel threads now. Doing nice things for people and helping them out and seeing them become happier is great.
You need something to put your mind at ease, and that is something you know what you can do, because I dont know you. I can only tell you how I dealt with shitty situations.
If i didnt answer you fully let me know.
Ok, if you faggots want a baww thread rather than grabbing life by the reigns and taking control, by all means let this cart drive itself off a cliff and crash into a few thousand tons of TNT.
Idk, I guess this is gonna be a weird 'outlier' issue here, but whatever.
Transitioning has been the best fucking decision i ever made, Im much happier in myself, I dont lie in bed for hours at night crying and hating everything about myself.
Im almost actually happy, even, for the first time in my life.
But holy fuck am i desperately lonely.
I have no partner, and I dont expect to have one cos who the fuck wants a transgirl. No one.
So im resigned to it, but it still cuts deep.
And then I cant tell anyone how much it upsets me, because ill just get a lecture about how I should be happy,, Ive done so much blah blah blah.
Its...a really shitty place to be.
Didnt realize you replied to me.
I cant even comprehend that I did something so useful to another human being.
anon, I hope greatness keeps coming to you. Its surreal to me.
I can't even crop a picture right
how fucking sad am I
currently working on moving my soon to be ex out and it's the first time I've done this without getting emotional about it.
On one hand kind of sad that this has happened enough to make me used to it, on the other hand it kind of feels good to know I've reached a point where it doesn't destroy me anymore
If its in your best interest anon, then good on ya man. Some things have to be done, relationships dont always work out and I had to help at least 2x some of my friends to move out.
Its not great at first, but now each of them have found the "one" and couldnt be happier.
I wish you luck in the future, man
wait a second, were you the anon from kentucky that I talked to the other day? I just now remembered that fact, and also I saw the time on your phone and it sin the same timezone as me
im tired of existing for others
i want to live myself for once and that appearently is something the universe does not want me to do. Everything i try and like i fail horribly at and i just have no motivation to go on anymore.
there was this last shining light in a dark, dark room, and even though i dont want to admit because its the only thing that ceaps me somehow going, its vanishing, if not entierly gone.
... 8 months. i can't even. being with someone at this point seems less realistic than getting a nobel prize.
won't try getting the nobel yet though.
I'm outta baww, but here's to all you bastards.
I hope you two have a long and beautiful relationship together Anon.
valentines day--reminded how the main reason I'm alone in my 30's is because I refuse to cave in and start a family and women my age are starting to freak the fuck out because they're crotches are drying up.
Mother/Fathers day-- Reminded how long it's been sense I've spoke with my parents '16 years', and why 'substance abuse'
veterans day-- Not one of my shitty friends take me out for dinner or drinks or even call and they all know what I went through.
You dont have to exist for others. I dont have anyone to exist for but myself (my family really doesnt count, because I do not live solely to please them).
Everyone is good at something. I mean I dont have perfect grades, but I am good at lerning new languages, which really isnt very useful now.
Find what you are good at and enjoy, and devote time to it. It will cheer you up, well at least studying german intensively did for me.
I realize not everyone is similar, but I will still tell you what cheers me up.
Well learning german and studying astronomy/cosmology, listening to music, and going on long walks at night to look at the stars and such.
I had a girlfriend once upon a time.
It was euphoric as fuck for a little while. Time went by and I realized how bad relationships are. Mine are always wastes of time, money, and care. You can put all you want in and nothing comes out. Not to mention the people who always fuck with me and look down upon my relationships to make up for their shitty ones. I shouldn't let that get to me but it does.
Recently I've become hollow. I don't feel much emotion anymore, because time has gone by and shit has gone down. Excitement is only experienced in short doses and from only extremely fun things that never last long, except for one thing.
Now I have found that there is one thing that gets to me and stays. The desire for another.
What would happen if anything were to happen is inevitable. I would be the same as it always was. It's like a threat looming over me.
But at least I have something going for me. In recent times, more shit has gone down, and I can trust that I couldn't have a relationship even if I cared.
I feel like a circling shell with shit family, friends, a shit social world in general. Somehow happiness just cannot be achieved. I just can't live the nice life I used to before something happened. Whatever it was.
>mfw the world happens
This is scary accurate. Though I really understand that fact that im just another face in the crowd; another name; just another brick in the wall. I am noone special and havent done anything to earn such a blessing, so thats my reasoning for thinking that I dont deserve those great things. I would rather have others happy than me because I have no idea how to handle being happy, because its only happened to me for 5 months of my entire 22 year long life
I hope someday you'll get to see the love of your live that had to move away, I really do.
Love is boring. Feeling this way while you're alone is the reason you're alone for starters. It's the reason you'll hold too tight when you do find that girl. The reason she'll leave you for someone who doesn't need her to be happy. Why can't you be happy while being alone? There's no greater freedom. No-one to hold you back. Take a knee, rub one out and be a man.
I am surprised someone remembered me and what I said.
Maybe one day, I plan on studying abroad maybe this fall, but if I do I have to wait till spring to graduate college instead of the fall.
I would love to meet her, but I know she has moved on from me many years ago, due to her having a new boyfriend for about 2 years now.
Hell I even talked to her about some problems she was having with him one day over skype.
But its all fine, I really dont get upset about it because she is genuinely happy, and thats what I want for her.
I've been trying to immerse myself in hobbies to take my mind off of things. Lately I've gotten into knife sharpening with whet stones and cooking. For the last three days I've been experimenting with a curry recipe. Also I've downloaded 5 games from PSN of old PS1 games to re-live those days. It's not so bad provided you can keep your mind busy on stuff. The worst is when you just sit around and stew.
I have never met anyone who just sucked at absolutely everything. I mean hell, I thought the same way until the idea of learning a new language was introduced to me, before that I felt useless and thought that I was good at nichts.
Nobody like you is worthless in my eyes. All it takes usually is a friend to carry one through hard times, or just a shoulder to cry on now and then. Exactly what these threads are for and why I am here.
You have value to me, even though Iwill never meet you most likely.
Fuck that shit bro. You can't win with it either way. Best thing you could do is find something, anything else to do with you time. You need to focus on yourself, maybe find something new that you want to do and just throw yourself into it I'm not saying forget your bro's, just.. do something that's nothing to do with them.
fuck you... you know? this remembers me of something... so... FUCK YOU -.-"
For most of us, happiness isnt just handed to us.
I mean, I had to search and figure out a few things that actually make me happy, and pursue them.
The world will never be fair, but if we dont try to counteract what happens to us, we will never be happy.
i actually even am a germanfag. guten morgen
let me give you an example
i love music, and i realy like playing the piano, think is i suck balls because my hand coordination and selfcontroll is just horrible, i used to have at least a bit of a feeling for rythm but leatly even that is just simply gone
like i never had it.
another thing: im realy interested in astrophysics but im realy realy bad with maths
barely made a D on my final exams.
My field of interests isnt realy that big asside from that. i gues i realy used to like playing viceo games but since im quite the horribe player at everything i cant even enjoy that anymore.
also thanks for listening, im probably quite the anoying bitch, i know that, belive me.
You could try and do something like join a new to snowboarding type club or group and, you never know if that could be the start of something great. If anything, youre not gonna be alone unless youre out in the mountains or hills alone and not around a resort type place or something. then there are tons of people there
get with the times mane
Trust me, I know the world isn't fair, and I know happiness isn't easy. The problem that I face is the emptiness and lack of something that I cannot seem to find. I have hope for finding it, but I
for me...you get to a point where your tired of people making you feel like shit and letting you down. It sucks to see someone you care about leaving you but after awhile you realize that if they just keep making you feel like shit then maybe it's a good idea they get the fuck away from me. I just might feel less alone if someone who's been treating me like shit leaves.
du wohnst in Deutschland? Toll! ich liebe es, wenn ich mit Deutsche Leute sprechen kann.
Playing piano is definitely something that takes skill and practice. I tried once and realized I could get better, but I was just not interested enough. I tried to pick up guitar instead.
I also am like you, I love astrophysics and such but I am not the best at math. I barely got a B in Calc (half beacuse I was lazy that semester). To me though, I dont have to be an expert in a field to say I enjoy it. I like to learn as much as I can understand without complex math.
Gaming is one of those things for me that I think is a two edged sword; on the one hand it distracts me from the realities of life, on the other it kills any social life that I have.
Ich könnte für viele Stunden mit dir reden.
I dont consider anyone a whiny bitch; everyone needs to talk with someone when they are in a bad place.
I am always more than happy to listen. Thats why these threads exist, thats why I keep coming back is to listen to people who nee dit.
how would i know? some anime. and some pic i saved a while ago.
What music do you guys save for occasions where you are sad?
Looking to expand a playlist.
This is my walking music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0YRICEt7XiY
Nah son, my day went to all kinds of shit
> be me on friday night, planning my saturday
> gonna go lift at 9 am when the uni gym opens, have a good breakfast
> gonna get all cleaned up, go to my favorite place
> theres always my type of women there, Im a good-looking guy, everything will work out
> be 7:30 am, get a call from a friend
> "hey, need you to come help with this open house event at 8"
> "sure dude, I can help."
> rush over to the event
> turns out the event is 8 am to 2 pm (gym closes at 2), can't leave early because few volunteers showed up
> leave event dead tired and hungry
> eat some Wendy's because its where my ride went
>fall asleep in my room
> wake up at 5 pm
Theres more to the shitastic day if you want to hear it
You can only ask her not to leave and try and make it work out so many times. Then you get tired of it and realize, 'fine, you want out of the relationship so god damn bad then go, get the fuck out already!' A part of me feels like she'll realize soon what a good deal she had in the first place, like if she found out I was a catch by playing the field I wouldn't want her back.
What kind of looser would I have to be to take someone back that decided to re-roll the dice to see if she could get a better deal. And who the fuck is this person who's going to treat her better anyway? Last time I checked I bend over backwards for a ungrateful cunt daily but supposedly there is some saint out there that will do a better job of constantly picking all over shit up and dealing with stupid trendy diet restrictions?
I can feel you anon it's going to be ok
i would have never bet on that. (not asking for sauce and getting it anyway)
one free internet for you sir!
Wir können auch gerne Deutsch schreiben wenn du willst.
Thing is im not skilled at all. I just played an awefull lot and in the 3 years i have been playing activly now (have played before but with a huge break and not very active) i manged to learn to play
basicly nothing at all
i can play half a song what i quite hard i suppose but that is, and its littered with errors.
i hope i didnt mix up anything with the greading system because im retarded or something, but as far as i konw b is quite good isnt it?
Im from southern germany and where i live there istn any civilisation nearby at all. like 20 miles to the next city. Struggling to get my drivers licence at the moment because i am too stupid to even compleat a friggin multiple choice test.
Ich möchte es, in Deutsch zu schreiben, aber ich bin jetzt ein bisschen "blau", so mein Detusch schlecht würdet. lol
oh Ich spreche auch nur "Hoch Deutsch"; ich kann nicht Bayerisch Deutsch verstanden.
yes B is good, if I remember correctly 1 is bad in germany and 5 is best, and if that is right then b would be a 4.
Where I live here in Missouri my town is only good size because of the university ( 30000 with all students here) and if I drive 5 minutes to west, south, east, or north, then there is nobody anywhere, just farm. I actually enjoy sometimes just going out there by myself and thinking about everything.
I heard that it is so dificult and expensive to get a license in germany. That is why so many of my friends who came here got their licenses here. I have faith that if you study hard enough you will do well. I dont know the test though, so I cant really say anthing.
This could go either way, really. One of my math teachers was a really cool guy and, even though he was like 40 years old, half the girls in the school had a crush on him. He wasn't married until his late 30s.
Another teacher at that school was in his early 50s and was unmarried but he still got around. He was kind of fat and not really attractive but he was really confident and outgoing so women/people in general just kind of liked him also
i surely aappreciate that. have a nice sunday!
> Missed out on the gym, a good breakfast
> remember this chick invited me to hang with her tonight
> she's told me she doesnt want to have sex, so I'm not expecting it
> shes like a 5/10, no skin of my nose
> I see her with this thirsty fuck-ass I know
> I know shes not gonna screw him, but theres that doubt that I'm wrong
> He's probably going to lie and say he did
> she might lie and say they didn't
> go back to my room disappointed
Theres one more chapter
and probably your time isn#t a waste...
i know exactly what you mean. i've never had a gf and probably won't for long time if ever. but it doesn't bother me at all. like i'm ok with it
sure. we never gonna know.
Its a nice thing to have, but I dont let it get to me while Im single, these past 4 years.
i remember once my estranged dad telling me I need to be accountable for my life and my actions and take more responsibility. I asked him why he never took responsibility for me. He told me that he believed I chose to exist, that I was a spirit floating around and chose this life, and the things that happened to me as a child. I didnt really know how to reply.
See you in those future threads too anon.
Because for now I am gonna go out, buy a few more beers and watch a few movies and treat myself to something good tonight.
If only it werent cloudy. Have a good day anon
na thats swizerland i suppose
German grades go from 1-6 1 being the best 6 being the worst.
where i come from (bavaria) last 4 usaly is given at exact 50% of maximum points, 6 is 33% o less
problem with that test is that its just retarded.
1100 possible questions 30 of witch you need in the acutall test.
some of those questions are just impossible to answer if you dont know what they want to hear because the way the questions are worded and which answers are expectet are just so inconsistnet that you cant even assume what is right and what is wrong.
im also realy bad with studying. thats probably the bigger problem because of millions of people did this test and didnt fail it 2 times in a row.
remember... we are on /b/
nobody has anything better to do.
Thanks for dumping guys. Only have my laptop here right now and close to no pictures on it. Your work is appreciated
fuck this, why not contribute sadness to /b/ros in need..
For whatever anon wanted to contact me,
heres my steam
so.... why aren't you? right now....
It's just nice knowing you're not alone in sadness, everyone feels it and if unchecked consumes everything.
Last one, then, I dont know
> be 7 pm
> get a text from a "friend"
> "hey come over to D's house"
> tell him I dont have a ride
> one of my actual friends asks me if I want to head out with him to a local arcade
> "my gf is being a bitch for me leaving earlier, lets go"
> I couldnt let him throw her under the bus again for my sake, tell him to stay home
> Hit up a friend about going to the other "friend's" party
> "hell yeah, I'll pick you up at 8:30"
> I'm feeling better, get ready to leave
> get a text from him AT 8:30
> "I'm not going, my gf is getting off work early"
> disappointed, hit up my drinking buddy/supplier (I'm only 20)
> he's too busy fucking his gf
> mfw I see its 10 pm and Ive got no other options
Now Im just catching up on Arrow, lamenting on /b/, wishing I had something to put me out
I've had two girlfriends before...
One was addicted to meth and adderall and fucked half the guys in the central United States while we were dating and is now a stripper.
The other turned out to be addicted to heroin and was very emotionally stunted and required a hell of a lot of constant attention.
I never got attached to either of them, though, and I'm glad they're out of my life now. They were just part of an experiment to see if I wanted to be in a relationship. I don't. Getting attached to anyone or anything is exactly how you set yourself up to lose something important to you later on. Life is better without imposing on yourself that you need anything to be happy. You can only ever be happy once you realize there is nothing missing from your life.
I don't know if spaceanon posted this pic (scrolled past a lot so I can male this post) but here's a smiley face captured by Hubble. The curved lines are caused by spacetime warping.
The adoption was setup before i was even born. My birth mother age 15 sent me away to a relative who would basically give updates on whether i was worth taking back but far enough away so i would never know of her or if she decided i wasn't worth worth it she would cut all ties without me knowing she existed. I was given to a family with 2 kids already successful and out of the house my "parents" were around 50 and 54 when they got me. Since birth till now i've basically been treated like the lowest maintenance plant. Left in a dark room all day everyday the only familial interaction is the ones i have to force and those are kept short and curt. If i ever ask for help i'm met with annoyance and anger for asking. I'm 21 and the only real thing that shows that they actually care what happens in the slightest to me is the increasingly infrequent monetary help. A child asks their parent for help and the parent shrugs them off. Anyway thats been my life of neglect and loneliness. I turn 22 in march and an early birthday present to myself is a remington 870 express and a deer slug for my brain. No this has nothing to do with valentines day just that i'm getting the gun 2 days from now and tomorrow is mostly prep work and finding a nice spot to sit and watch the sunset in peace. Anyway yada yada yada suicide yada yada yada you're one of the few things that have given me any real joy in life /b/. Maybe theres internet connection in whatever place comes after this if theres such a thing.
this one is my personal fav because its all im feeling right now
Yearly reminder that you're Waifu isn't real and you're too ugly for a real 3DPD girl
nevermind dont have anything else to do -.-
I have been trying to forget you for a while. I have become successful a couple of times but then I go to show someone a picture from a while ago and I see your face, or I am going through my music and a song comes on that reminds me of you. I think about it occasionally, what happened. It wasn't that we just stopped talking or that we weren't meant to be together. I fucked it up, it's in me this time. As the time seems to pass it becomes easier to forget the things that happened but there is always something that comes up and reminds me of you. I'll never forget the one that I loved. You.
>I miss her /b/ I really do
I always felt like jumping is one of the worst ways to go out. Whenever I stand up on some height, I think about how hard the ground would hit me, and how big the chances were to survive the fall. I usually think it's rather bad. There's so many better ways to die - why do so many people choose this way?
At this very moment
the girl I still love for the past 4 years is with another guy taking her out to a fancy dinner and probably going to fuck.
I'm still happy with life
have great family,my guitars but my love life is total shit.
It started snowing tonight. For a moment, the excited screams coming from the people in my dorm coupled with the childlike wonder of seeing snow for the first time of the year made feel better after my shitastic day. I thought everything was going to be fine.
Then it stopped when the snow did.
Some people just aren't meant for relationships. It's nothing to feel bad about.
The first real one I was in lasted about 2 years. She pursued me. I never loved her, I just went along with it and wanted to get laid. Being with her was just something to pass the time/
The second lasted about 4 months. She was a dumb cunt who would end up crying every time I saw her. Any time we would go out, she'd get drunk and cause a scene. Then she would cry some more.
The third was the best, though it only lasted about 6 months. I genuinely loved her. It didn't hurt that she was hot as fuck. She was (legally) separated from her husband. He blew his brains out, blamed it on her, and mentioned my name in the suicide note. I'd only met this dude maybe three times and liked him. She lost her mind for a while. The process of getting over him was not going to involve me.
Aside from that, I've been on a few dates but nothing ever came of them.
Relationships really suck. Women are good for your ego and love it a really awesome feeling. It will cloud your judgment, though. When it comes back to bite you, it hurts BAD. Any time I get interested in a girl, I stop myself and and question why I am doing this to myself again. I'm perfectly happy being single. I like myself and enjoy my own company, as sad as that may sound. Why bring someone else in to fuck all of that up and make me feel like shit?
I feel this feel. Got a job in the oil patch working stupid long hours just to keep my mind off of things, my whole day would go great, I'd keep busy, hard work, no time to be depressed. I would think about going home and would somehow convince myself that I was gonna do all these things and hang out with friends and all this shit, immediately get home and fall back into the same shit routine and be depressed and fucking miserable. Praying the fucking oil prices go back up soon, not working nearly as much as I used to and I can't fucking stand being at home doing nothing for 4-5 days at a time.
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Wow, he probably should commit suicide if all he can get is pity from strangers. Protip: the woman didn't give two shits about him, she just thought she was doing a "good deed" by giving chocolate to the obviously depressed and socially awkward faggot at the mall.
I've been on my own and successful since age 16. I work stock markets now but i've been self sufficient for awhile. I made my first 100k year last year. But it doesn't matter. I'm dead inside. Given just enough to make me feel like a person and deprived of all the vital teachings and needings to let what little of a person i might have been die inside. Trust me i've tried everything i've gotten a girlfriend who loves me dearly and after 3 years i don't hate her but i can't say i'll feel bad for making her sad. I have friends but those relationships are empty to. I could live like a king for all my days and it still doesn't make me someone on the inside. So i've decided. I've had almost 22 years to make up my mind and it seems the best option. The most i'm hoping for is it just ends right there.
Everyone ITT has unfortunately not been told the truth about life.
It's confronting but it is reality.
The universe is an 'uncaring' place, there is no inherent meaning.
Life will be tragic and that word has a very specific definition.
Bad things do happen to good people and nobody or no thing that is at fault.
You will feel sorrow over it but the feeling of tragedy will be overlaid when and only when there was nothing that could have been done to prevent that occurring or rather there's no way to achieve any type of recourse.
I.e. the human being is doomed to feel tragedy and there's nothing you can do about it.
Why does it exist though?
Well it's simple, man is a useless passion. You always have a lack, meaning you will always have desire, desire over objects. Desire is a never ending unquenchable thirst.
Love is just an evolutionary process, a neuro-chemical state in the brain linked in with sex and ultimately the sexual reproduction process (i.e. sexual selection).
It is really a useless passion par excellence.
All things are transient including love/relationships/bonds, so through the process of evolution, there are mechanisms that were designed to help you cope with the post breakup period. All the things you experience after a breakup / post-love are 'designed' to help you regain equilibrium and hopefully get back on the horse again.
Literally all your mental / emotional states are conditioned by your biological imperatives. All of conditioned experience holds no significance. The powerful feelings you feel now are really are meaningful as why lightning strikes the ground at point x.
You're in an inescapable cycle until you die. These threads will continue for a long time, many generations in time.
I fucking hate my life. The only thing whats get me going is that i dont want to hurt my parents and my little sister when i kill mydelf but i hope everynight that i dont wake up the next morning
i don't have many friends and I've only had one girlfriend that ended up cheating on me so we broke up. that was two years ago and I've been single ever since. it gets lonely sometimes but i just keep telling myself that one day it will all get better.
Idk why I even come to these threads. All they ever do is make me feel like shit. Yet I keep coming back. Maybe it's because when I'm feeling good, it's a lie, and when I feel bad is real
I went out with some "friends" who have 9/10 gf's where a lot of girls are and they promised to get me a girl, instead they ditched me after the first hour. They constantly rag on me for being single and shit and it cuts me deep. They also constantly remind me of the girl I dated for three years who broke up with me in december saying she left me cause I'm a pussy. I would fight them, but I'm just so depressed I don't wanna even bother. So I was stuck at a place for two hours, just sitting in one place like a weirdo. Wot do?
I have this thought everyday, when my parents die I will be truly alone and then I can finally slip away from everything. I cant even remember the last time I liked myself, but I love them too much to hurt them like that.
Something somewhat similar,
>2 valentine's ago
>depressed cause I thought I'd be single for it
>some friend of mine set me up with a friend of his
>things were going great
>spend 60 dollars on a teddy bear and flowers
>spend another 35 bucks for her dinner
>next day breaks up with me
>she said it's not you it's me
>I tell her the whole time I've been with her I've been drunk
>hfw I told her I was an alcoholic
My parents are really the only reason my drinking problem is even slightly under control. If I didn't live with them I would just be totally hammered all the time.
I'd probably be dead in a year.
I feel that feel. I work all week and try to keep my shit together and keep the fake, "happy-identity" rolling, but in the back of my mind I think I'm fucking looking forward to when the weekend comes and I can just have a few drinks by myself and not fucking pretend anymore.