Has any of you ever had an awkward sexual or arousing experience with children in an accidental way or without actual intention from your side? That is, of course, without being or considering yourself a pedo.
I have had two experiences. This is the first one (my English is not so good, sorry):
>Be me, 25 years old. Pretty regular guy going to college and at that time in a long distance relationship with an asian girl.
>On a certain day, parents and relatives attend a funeral. I stay home to complete several assignments from my courses, so my cousin leaves her 6 year old daughter (which from now on we'll call "Mars") under my watch in my house.
>Mars and I get along really well. She has a liking for art stuff and I have good drawing skills, so sometimes we draw and paint together and I teach her cool techniques.
>Mars, as most children today, also has a good grasp of technology and has this kind of intuition when using computers, phones, tablets, etc.
>So, I get to work on my papers while Mars plays online flash games on my laptop.
>Some time later I head to the bathroom to take a shit and take my phone with me.
>Bored and not finding much to do with it, for some reason I decide to play a porn clip with the VLC app. The progress bar moves, but nothing shows in the screen. I lock the phone and put it back in my pocket in order to continue with my endeavors.
>I'm constipated so it takes me a while to finish. I wipe my ass, wash hands, and head back to my room where Mars is.
>I can still hear the music of the flash game Mars was playing, but she's not doing anything with the keyboard, just looks attentively into the screen. Looks at me, then back at the screen.
>I get closer and go around her back to see what's going on.
Should i continue?
>What I find next is a jap porn video playing in fullscreen mode. I then understand that what I actually did with the VLC app in the bathroom was to remotely control and open the video in the laptop, not in my phone. Stupid me.
>It is a blowjob scene with a close up camera. The man's body is not visible anywhere during the clip, just the actress's face and the cock, so I think Mars has not really understood what is going on.
>Instead of immediately closing the video - which by now has been running for almost 5 minutes - and giving a clear sign that she's looking at something "wrong", for some reason I freeze, thinking of what to say or explain to her in a way that I can convert the situation into something irrelevant that she'll soon forget.
>Mars is too young and confuses the actress in the clip with my Asian girlfriend which she had met only once a couple of years before, and asks "what is that thing and why is your girlfriend putting it in her mouth?"
>The actress does look like my girlfriend....
>I think quickly and tell her that that "thing" is just a candy and that my girlfriend just happens to like it.
>Mars keeps looking at the screen and says that the "candy" looks like a “big fat finger”, then says that it looks tasty while briefly passing her tongue around her lips.
>For some reason, the way she so innocently said it gives me a sudden boner. I wonder if that is an example of nature and the human instinct working at their best? She's just a child, yet she seems already attracted to it?
should i go on?
same fag here. if u don't continue this very second imma bout to get Ferguson on yo ass niga
>Right after that, the video arrives to the cumshot part and the actress catches all of it on her tongue, then swallows it, to which Mars asks "what flavor is that?". I say "lemon, maybe". For some reason my boner gets harder, I feel so awkward!!
>The screen fades to black and the scene is over. I'm still kinda shocked that she watched the entire thing and keep thinking of ways to convince her that it was just "my girlfriend and a candy", hoping that she pays no attention to it and moves on.
>Mars then turns to me with excited eyes and asks "Do you have one of those candies? Can I taste it?"
>My dick is about to burst out of my pants and at that point my mind starts imagining her playing innocently with it. I know it's completely fucked up but the idea of having someone curiously toying with my dick without actually knowing what it is got me horny as hell.
>I begin to think of ways in which i can take advantage of the situation and it occurs to me that if I lay on the bed under various layers of bedsheets and just stick my hard dick out through an orifice, she would be able to play with it without associating it to my body or as "my candy", thus kinda preserving her innocence. (That is until she grows up and understands what really happened).
>I suddenly shake my head in disgust trying to break free from such sick thoughts, and just before doing something really stupid, I stand up, tell her I don't have any candies and that those are not for her age anyway, restart the game she was playing and leave the room
>I spend the rest of the evening downstairs, and when the horniness dissipates, I feel incredible amounts of guilt for having had such thoughts, even though nothing happened and the whole video situation had been all an accident.
>I then swear to myself never ever to fall into that sick shit.
>Took me a couple of days to brush off the shame and even considered going to a psychologist to share my story.
Some weeks later everything went back to normal and Mars apparently didn't remember anything or just decided to ignore it. Our interaction continued as before and we still drew and painted together from time to time...until another accident occurred and this time also involved a friend of her..... Let me know if you wanna hear the second part. Also post your own experiences.
God dammit OP, you pussy faggot. You're such a shit for not ruining her life.
Shit's hot as fuck.
i dont think i would go to a psychologist. they are supposed to maintain privacy.... but they also have to tell law enforcement to protect anyone they feel may be at risk.
better not to invite the man into your life.
> Be 30-something
> Have to help 10 year old stepdaughter in shower
> she is naked (of course) and arching her back to wet her hair
> stare at her tits and little bald pussy
> She turns and sticks her ass out to wash her face
> Dick as hard as diamonds
> Help dry her off, trying not to linger too long on her body
> Send her on her way
> Beat off violently and cum buckets
Did that shit on and off until she got to 15 or so. I wish I could have fucked her.
Don't worry OP, you're by far not alone in having thoughts like this, even though you are just some pedophile who made this all up to and added that psychologist shit that you know will end badly to make you feel better.
That pic and where it comes from and "ruined her life" does not match.
>get home from church with family
>waiting for aunt to come over so we can do family lunch/cake/etc
>go upstairs to bedroom
>take off church clothes
>hanging them in closet
>hear loud laughing from outside
>see neighbor girl and friends sunbathing next door
>wake up late that morning so didnt get to fap before church
>decide to get quick one in
>pull computer chair over to window
>pull dick out of front hole in boxers
>watch neighbor girls
>cumming within few minutes
>lean back in chair
>lay head back, eyes closed
>spend a minute massaging softening cock in after-fap bliss
>stand up to get roll of paper towels out of closet to clean up and get dressed
>notice door open
>i had forgotten to close the door
>standing there in doorway was little cousin
>she's staring at my cock poking out of the hole in boxers
>her eyes dart up to meet mine
>share surprised 'oh shit' look
>she darts down the hallway and back downstairs
>she avoids eye contact rest of day
>A few weeks later I'm home working on school projects, when my family is all out of options and I need to watch Mars again.
>The time comes and they drop her off, she asks to play games on my laptop again when I am overcome by an urge to remotely play porn on the laptop again...
Should i continue?
That wasn't me. And no I wasn't. I don't want to get into too many details because I know she comes here and probably didn't know I was beating off like mad because of her. She needed help with something in the shower that one time.
Guy with pedo picture you responded to. I know I don't have to harm anyone, but the love I feel toward children is not accepted right now (possibly never because muhh chilluns), and thus, the sexualization of children in any way, especially having intimate feelings for them, is harmful because they'd have to keep all parts of the relationship secret. This weighs on her shoulder as much as mine, with me facing lifetime consequences just for wanting to be happy and make someone else happy, and she'll be labeled as a victim of sexual "abuse".
>in other words
I will never be happy, will never have a lgf, move on with life being depressing.
>I then understand that what I actually did with the VLC app in the bathroom was to remotely control and open the video in the laptop, not in my phone. Stupid me.
>nephew is 5
>sits on lap
> starts getting excited because Micky mouse club house is on
> starts squirming in lap
>move him to my knee because i love my nephew.
let kids be kids op then fuck em when their legal
>be 17,gf 15
>parents out of town for a week
>10yo bro staying at a friend's house down the road
>fucking her on the couch
>she randomly asks me "where's your bro?"
>he's at a friend's house
>"no, i said THERE'S your bro"
>turn around and see my bro and his friend standing by the front door watching
>casually ask them how's it going
>"good just needed to get my xbox controller.."
>he gets it and they leave
>me and gf kinda laugh
>so where were we? oh right the sex...
>She comes here
Well I know you either extremely failed, or extremely succeed on how she treats this site.
Oh, I see you've actually give some thought into this and aren't the typical "it hurts them" faggot.
Okay, so this was my second experience a year later from the previous events.
>There is a family reunion at my house for whatever reason I can’t remember (it’s kinda common). Various relatives come and everyone is in the backyard while we throw some steaks on the grill.
>Of course Mars is back, but this time she’s brought a girl friend of the same age with her, which we’ll call Jupiter from now on.
>Mars is typically quiet, but Jupiter is a pain in the ass and also drags Mars into her pranks. They are running all around the house and it’s seems it’s just a matter of time before they break something. Mars’ single mom is really irresponsible at parenting and is not watching the girls to prevent them from doing a mess.
>Mom comes to me kinda pissed-off and asks me to do something.
>I’m not a gamer and it’s been ages since I played something but I still keep my old PS One, so it occurs to me that it would be the perfect bait to keep them under control at one place.
>Bait works like a charm and in a few minutes I got them glued to the TV playing a Sponge Bob game that I know Mars likes. I return to the backyard and things apparently go smooth from there.
>After a while I decide to go check on the girls and make sure they have not destroyed the living room. I take a quick glance from afar trying not to call their attention and get to see Mars really focused on the game. Everything seems okay, so I decide to go up to my room.
>I open my laptop and find this e-mail from a friend that always sends porn pictures and shit. I copy them to my desktop and start looking at them. I’m slowly getting a boner.
>Decide to go and lock the door, return to my desk and start unzipping my pants… when I suddenly hear someone coming from the closet doors behind me!
Not who you're replying to, but I feel you, man. Even though the sexual contact would be harmless, society would fuck everything. I'd like to say I'm content with the nonsexual relationships I have with little girls at the moment, but the amount I fap to them kinda belies that.
Don't want to greentext on my phone but I was at some pool party and there were a lot of people I didn't know outside with young kids so I was watching tv inside and a naked toddler girl, kinda pale tan came in, and hnnnng she actually had such a nice ass. I wished we were alone but I probably wouldn't have done anything cause that's fucked but I did not know that about myself till then.
I actually live with the "condition", "mental disorder", "disease", whatever you want to call it, so yes, I've put quite a bit of thought into it.
I'm jealous of your relations with children, though. Little girls seem to love being around me and hanging out, but the feelings I get around them (Love, not all just lust) makes me feel extremely paranoid 24/7.
>pic related: She's pretty af, would love her
>people who tell a story, then stop to ask "should i continue?"
why the fuck are you here if you don't wanna tell your fucking story, you dumb motherfucker. just tell the story or get the fuck out.
>living with cousins basement
>they have an 11 year old daughter
>wait for nightfall, walk around the house naked
>find the daughter's slippers and sandles
>fap furiously and jizz all over them
>spread them across so its less visible
>in the morning i smirk as i watch the innocence of the daughter when she steps into the slippers with my semen layered all over
>It is fucking Jupiter son of a bitch trying to scare me!
>She almost gives me a heart attack, but I still manage to quickly hit Command+Q to close the picture, then quickly turn around my chair and angrily ask what she’s doing in my room.
>She can’t stop laughing at my horrified look and sweaty face. I demand an answer but she’s still laughing, then she looks behind me and says “what is that”?
>I turn around and… oh shit! I had hit the wrong command! Instead of closing the picture as I had thought, I had just inverted the colors of the screen! (I have a custom shortcut that is very similar).
>Anyway, since colors are inverted I think she probably didn’t catch the picture, but before I close it I can hear her exclaim a surprising “oooohhh…!!!” with eyes wide opened and the expression of someone who has just learned something new and amazing.
>I immediately close the picture and tell her that she needs to leave and go play with Mars. She asks me what was in the picture. I say I don’t remember. She asks again and I tell her it’s a secret. She literally begs me to show her my secret. I have an idea.
>I go back to my computer, quickly download a picture of Sponge Bob to my desktop and show it to her while colors are still in negative, then ask her “What do you see?”. She has a puzzled expression and keeps trying to decipher the picture. I tell her “Can’t you see Sponge Bob?”, then I switch the colors back to normal so that she can see it clearly, and hopefully make her believe that whatever she saw was just her twisted imagination.
You can just shorten those "condition" etc to "Anyone has the right to brutally murder me". But really, I do as well and have no lolis to be around, only my pointless, pointless CP and cute girl pictures.
Oh, I see you've actually give some thought into this and aren't the typical "it hurts them" faggot.
> STAY in school /b/
> implying I haven't graduated at the top of my sniperstuff marine class and I won't hunt you down until your dead. I'll have you kno... (etc, etc)
Honestly eat a dick man
> 15 years old
>camping in tent with 17 yesr old cousin girl
>wake up at 6am realising I had a wet dream
> sticky patch
> move away from it
> hour later cousin wakes up and sits on the wet sticky patch
>"eww whys it wet here"
> must be condensation
> she smells it
> she gets up and goes outside
> I can see whiteish stuff on her panties on her ass cheek
My youngest female cousin tries to hump me. I figure it's just a phase. In other ways she reminds me a lot of myself at that age.
>she sits down on my lap while I'm reading
>starts moving up and down
>pretty much grinding/bouncing herself on my leg
>I gently push her off of me
> Be 14
> be on family vacation staying at this big house with all of my cousins
> lying on my bed on my ipod
> 6 year old girl cousin walks in
> "come play with us anon"
> "no im busy"
> she reaches for my dick through my pants
> "if you dont come play with us then ill keep touching it"
> my other cousins (10 year olds) were in the room so i had to say no and push her away
similar thing happens afew days later
>wait for nightfall again, walk around the house naked
>find cousins daughter's school lunch for the next day (tuna sandwich) in fridge
>open up sandwich, proceed to fap furiously and jizz all over the tuna, then put the bread back
>she now has a layer of my personal special sauce in her sandwich
>next day wait for her to come back from school
>i smirk as she tells her mom that todays lunch was particularly delicious
>Anyone has the right to brutally murder me
pretty much yeah. You explained the life of a pedo perfectly.
We live with a particular sexual orientation that society condemns. It's rough, and understandable to wish you were more 'normal', but you shouldn't hate on yourself any more than a gay person should have 100 years ago.
It's definitely tricky interacting with kids. I try to let them see that I think of them as genuinely interesting people, but appear to their parents/etc as if I'm just tolerating their company.
>6 years old
>met a few years before
So you're telling me a 6 year old remembers a random lady she met when she was 3? Bull fucking shit. Also stop living at home with your parents you piece of shit.
not really a good story, but at least it's 100% true
>with my cousing 9 years old
>''do you have hair under your arms
> - yeah I do?
>''do you have hair on your penis?''
It ended up me showing my pubes, she begged for it and promised she wouldnt tell anyone,
>be me, around 15
>hang out with my 1 year older sister
>mom and her friend stop by, moms friend has 2 children with her
>boy 8yo (Don)
>girl 10yo, (Maria) super cute
>she has a crush on me and I know it
>she insists on being close to me and hugging me, makes me really uncomfortable
>she always tries to sit in my lap
>we are eating some fruit, oranges and apples mostly
>she takes an orange slice, looks me dead in the eyes (while sitting in my lap mind you) and starts slowly and seductively sucking on it
>i'm confused as hell, my sister is silently freaking out, we don't know if she realizes what she's doing
>mfw she starts grinding on me
>I'm really uncomfortable so I leave
4 years later i get a 16yo gf who tells me that her first sexual experience was with that same girl. they are neighbours and they masturbated each other when she was 14... Maria was 12 at the time. Made me realize girls mature sexually way before boys. I wish I was a pedo back then.
i have no idea where she learned anything like that
anyway the similar situation was me lying on my back
and she walks in sits on my dick and starts bouncing up and down
she would come in and jump up and down on my bed all the time
so to her this was probably just the same sorta thing
>it is middle of the day, cousin and his wife at work
>their daughter is at school
>i immediately raid her room, began pillaging her drawers
>find innocent panties, proceed to fap furiously and jizz all over them
>spreads the semen out so its not noticeable
>i smirk as the next day while shes at school, i return to her room to find that the missing panty is the one that i smeared my cum all over
That's what I do as well. When I'm talking to the kid, I give them my full attention but I'm always mindful of parents/people in general watching or that could be watching, so I either back off with the hands-on talking and just sort of respond sincerely to what they say to me, thinking to myself "god dammit, she's so cute and perfect..." the whole time, knowing I'll never be able to take the conversation or relationship or anything to the next level.
Also, talking about pedophilia gets repetitive after awhile because there's only so much you can Do about having the attraction or what to do about it. It's a very subjective topic.
>be at the end of a dxm binge
>in a bad relationship
>homeless because of dxm
>staying with my gf that sent me to jail
>still have an epo out on me from the case
>at work wearing girl clothes
>too high to work
>managers nephew comes in
>she is like 7 or 8 but for some reason I popped a boner
>boner is visible in these tight ass girl pants
>lean awkwardly over counter to try to hide it
>they probably knew
>She looks at the screen with a dubious look in her face. As I’m about to close the application her hand quickly moves to the arrow key and presses it, moving to the next picture which is the one she had actually seen: a woman holding two massive hard cocks close to her mouth, in full resolution and color. Damn! These brats are much more literate at computers than I ever thought!
>She’s there with an open mouth. I quickly close the computer lid but it’s too late, now she knows that it was not her imagination.
>Before I can say anything she runs out of the room and heads downstairs. I start getting really nervous thinking that she’s going to tell everyone in the backyard what she just saw, which would mean big, big trouble for me.
>I run behind her, trying to catch her to talk, but when I get downstairs I find her gossiping and giggling with Mars. When they see me, they laugh and run away.
>It makes me feel more at ease that apparently she was surprised in a “good” way, but it still worries me that she’s telling it to Mars, which will probably trigger her memories of the last time she saw the blowjob video in my computer, and who knows if after remembering it, she decides to tell her mom….. I’m really worried.
>I try to go after them, but every time they see me they escape somewhere else and I don’t want to chase them looking like a pervert.
>Finally, Jupiter comes to me and asks me to show my secret to Mars. I refuse, but she blackmails me saying that if I don’t, she will tell everyone in the backyard. I’m really fucked.
>We go to my room, and I open the picture of Sponge Bob in inverted colors, then switch back to normal, and tell her that that is the secret. Mars knows I’m lying but doesn’t insist and just leaves the room. Jupiter stays and closes the door. For some reason I can’t explain, I’ve got a really bad boner. And she knows it.
>Jupiter might look like an innocent girl, but I swear she is totally acting like a whore who wants the D.
>Jupiter asks me to show her the picture again, but I refuse. She then directly asks to see my “peepee”.
>I won’t lie. Her whorish attitude has me rock hard. For an instant, I think that it wouldn’t be so bad to give her some biology lessons if she’s asking for it. Maybe show it to her, letting her play with it to satisfy her own curiosity, then masturbating and letting her watch me cum. And just as I start unzipping my pants, I hear Mars calling Jupiter downstairs to finally leave home. Jupiter yells back saying to wait a bit and quickly returns her attention to my crotch.
>She has an impatient look in her eyes. She can’t wait to see it. I think never before had I seen someone desire my dick so much….not even my girlfriend.
>To her misfortune (or my fortune), Mars interruption wakes me up from my stupidity and I immediately zip up my pants and tell her she needs to leave.
>She insists to see it “very quickly”, but I (very, very wrongly) say “another day”. She insists a couple more times, then leaves.
>I go downstairs just to make sure she’s not telling someone else of what happened. They get in the minivan giggling and gossiping while looking at me, and finally depart.
This is simple man... But the fucking truth.. Anyone that fucks kids take their innocence away and is a faggy neckbeard that should stay locked up in the dungeon aka their basements
>be 13, cousin 21
>cousin is sleeping over at our house for a couple of days
>sniff her used panties, try to spy on her change, etc.
>getting bored of this teasing shit
>i insist she sleeps in my room which had a pull out bed so that two beds are available
>i use my 13 year old mind and stay up until 3:30am
>notice cousin has finally passed out
>she has her tits kinda out and shes laying on her arm straight out so her hand is hanging over the bed
>grab her tits and get super hard instantly
>get the best idea to put my dick in her hand hanging over the bed
>i take her hand and basically give myself a handjob with her hand
>i cum all over her hand
>she wakes up and asks what time is it and i tell her the time with my heart racing
>she looks at her hand and looks at me
>shes half asleep at this point
>after looking at her hand she just goes back to sleep
every single family event since then has been awkward as shit, im 19 now
Thanks Buddy, it's actually easier done than said. It's really REALLY hard to find a partner to Fuck. It's easy to get hugs and kisses and the good stuff, though. Sex is nice and all but that's pretty damaging to her vaginally, and anal requires working up to it (which also requires some sort of repeated interaction, i.e. living with each other with is near impossible unless you're related or babysit). Oral would be awesome, and it's honestly not that bad for the child. What's the worse that happens from it? I don't know, man.
But anyway, yeah. Don't fuck children, got it. Because I don't want to go to jail, nor is it my intention to cause them harm.
I saw Jupiter again two years later on one occasion I visited Mars’s house and they were playing outside with Jupiter’s younger brother. Everything seemed very normal and actually Jupiter didn’t seem to remember me. They were throwing stones from a distance trying to hit some empty plastic bottles while my dad, my uncle and I sat outside with a beer. At some point I was challenged by the kids to hit the bottles and ended up joining their game. It was then, at Jupiter’s turn, that she said “if I hit the bottles, you show me your secret”, while giving me a naughty look. Thank God she never hit them and then I left.
It’s been a year since I don’t see Mars and Jupiter. It really worries me that they do remember what has happened, and it frightens me to think of how they (mostly Mars) are going to look at me when they become adults. Are they going to think I was a pedophile or that I abused them? Are they later going to tell other relatives what happened and cause a nightmare for me? I never had any intention to sexualize them, it all happened kind of accidentally. I repeat, I’m not and I have never been a pedophile, but I wonder to what extent it is normal to feel aroused when you have to face two really young girls that are much more curious than they should be at their age.
This is always the worst problem. Im great with younger kids, especially girls. A lot of the times, they totally have crushes on me. I really just want to hug and cuddle, but how would the parent react to this? I've never gotten the opportunity to be alone with an irl loli
I don't get to talk about pedophilia much so I always enjoy being able to share thoughts with someone who understands, even if it's just the same old 'we're not monsters'.
I think, almost paradoxically, physical contact can help with that split attention thing. If a little girl is cuddled up on your lap with your arm around her, she feels loved and noticed, and you can talk about other shit with parents.
>Be me, I think I was 15
>My 5 year old cousin wanted to play "doctors" with me
>He tells me to sit on a couch for him to examine me
>He begins fondling my boobs and says he needs to cut them off
>Does a sawing motion with his hands on my boobs pretending to cut them off
2/10 b8 mate made me read it only to conclude you're a wak job that since can't post cheese resorts to story telling to get others to "see where you're coming from". Social engineering at it's finest on retards ... you'll do well on B with these idiots lmfao.
No you don't fuck kids because it's wrong, it'll hurt them physically, it'll hurt them mentally, and it'll hurt them emotionally. The fact is there is nothing acceptable about being a pedophile.
nothing actually happened really, but
>be at gf's stepbrother's place
>watching movies and drinking
>step brother has 8 year old niece
>she changes into "pajamas", which was just a tshirt with nothing underneath
>keep glancing over and seeing flashes of her vagina
>someone else comes over, no room on couch for everyone
>she likes me, jumps on my lap
>mfw i make eye contact with the step brother
>heart racing, begging my dick to not get a boner
>she starts wiggling around
>boner mode engage
>say i have to go to the bathroom, get up and hide in there until boner dies
>let her have my seat and just sit on the floor the rest of the night
the way the brother looked at me was clearly a "you better not be enjoying that" look. Later he saw me looking over at her when she was sitting indian style or whatever with pussy on full display and made her go put pants on. I'm sure he knew what was going on but he never outed me as a pedo
>work at gas station
>cleaning bathrooms one night
>see hole in ceiling tile things in women's bathroom
>stand on toilet to lift tile and check out what's going on up there
>realize I can get to tiles in the men's bathroom and vice versa
>go back to men's bathroom and place camera in ceiling above the tiles to record through hole in women's bathroom
>profit in faps
Dont feel so bad man. I know this lil girl she is 10. She crushes on me. Flirts. Constantly touching me. Sits near me. Stares at me and when i look at her she looks away. One day playing tickle in my room she felt my dick over my pants. I freaked out man! Wanted to kiss her and fuck her. I probably could have and am sure she wants the experience. Am a good looking guy a the ladies around my house all want me to fuck them. Lil girl knows cuz she asked me. Her exact words were "why does ever girl want to fuck you?" She is 10. One day i showed her my phone. She is my screen saver. I told her she was the prettiest and i am waiting for her to be old enough. She giggled and poked my belly. Is har to keep it together knowing i can but its wrong...
>look at me when they become adults. Are they going to think I was a pedophile or that I abused them?
see this is why all of this is so fucked.
this whole, sex being a big secret bullshit.
how is it people take their 8 year olds hunting, and force them to gut and skin an animal, thinking it's all perfectly fine and well, but the moment they see a picture of a dick or some tits and their mind will split in half and they'll never be able to function in society as a normal person.
this shit is why people are so fucked when it comes to sex. hell, I wouldn't be surprised if it was why pedophiles existed in the first place.
god I hate how stupid people are. I'm sure kids knew about sex way back in the caveman days, it's only cause some faggot wrote a book and said YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED FOR ENGAGING IN SOMETHING THAT'S NATURAL.
I think they'll remember you pretty favourably. They got to see interesting things but you never appeared overly interested in them. That feeling of turning down an eager young girl is the worst in hindsight though.
I had the opportunity to get really close to my younger cousin and we've had some moments, but now I just regret everything.
Yeah, I get it. I enjoy talking to people about it, like my close friends and sometimes just random people to get their opinion on it. I never deny that I'm pedo, but I don't go around parading it like a maniac, simply because sexuality isn't a topic you bring up on a whim, and it's pedophilia which makes people defensive.
I'd also like to fix that mini-quote of yours:
>"we're not monsters" should be
>We're not ALL monsters
because some pedos have mental problems just like normies and rape/molest/kidnap without a second thought. We're all people and some are bad, even the worst of the worst.
See, everything you just said is related to how society deals with the aftereffects of sexual experiences when young.
I got one that I still don't know why I did it to this day.
>be at home with 9 year old sister
>I watch her everyday while my dad is at work
>one day I am just on the computer looking at porn like I always do
>my sister comes walking into the room and heads towards me as I close every tab of porn
>she walks up to me and as I am sitting there like an idiot looking at a Google screen but she's too young to realize what I was doing
>she looks at me and asks if she can go on
>for whatever the fuck reason for being horny I grabbed her shirt and lifted it up exposing her belly button and then reached down and pulled the front of her pants down and stared and looked at her pussy for a good 5 seconds
>I suddenly realize what the fuck I was doing and let her pants and shirt go, the underwear made a snap noise as it hit her belly
>she just stands there giving me a look like what the heck was that for and looks down and back up again as my heart was racing in my chest
>I expect her to start tripping out or make a scene about as I'm waiting for her to say something
>"So can I go on then?" Is all she asks not seeming affected by it
>I say ok and immediately leave the room
>mfw I went to the room and had a guilty fap
>mfw I forgot to delete the computer history
Somehow I've been lucky enough that little kids want to cuddle with me. So I just wait for them to approach. It's only very rarely, and with a girl who has approached me for cuddling on her own many times, that I will initiate. To be honest I would be completely lost if the kids didn't make the first move.
the "tits of GTFO" is relevant only when the fact of being a women is useless to the context
but in the story, its necessary to understand
go lose your time to ask your demand on a cancerous "i'm a girl btw" thread at least, not here at the end of a dying random thread
>riding train home from school with friends
>girl ~12 comes upto me and starts talking
>I pretty much ignore her
>she gets annoyed
>asks if i'm gay
>i say no
>she goes to a random guy on the train and tells him that I like him
Yup. But i would never actually act on any thoughts. I'll just stick to my animated stuff for fantasies. And I have no problem getting it up for adults either, so I can still have sexual release without having to act upon certain urges which can harm. I live my life by the first tenet of the Hippocratic Oath..."First do no harm"
I have this weaird thing where cp seems to turn me on. but not children. I think im turned on by the porn being illegal, because no situation with any young girl has ever created sexual thought in my head. I think I just have a weird porn addiction...
no, if you have pedophilic thoughts they can place you under surveillance by the police as well as remove any children in the house and any device that can be used to view and download child pornography.
fuck shrinks with a rusty knife.
Yeah you're right, some pedophiles are no doubt monsters. But no one goes around saying "straight people are monsters" and "gay people are monsters" just because some of them have done terrible things.
Would you mind sharing some of your experiences? Why do you regret them?
i hope you don't save it/have a collection. Having a good fap isn't worth going to prison for. The courts won't care that you never touched a girl, you'll be locked up with the rest of the pedos when they raid you and find your C:\Porn\fbiplsgo\notCP\CP directory
I'm the same way. Weird shit just turns me on. But I have never gotten turned on by a child in my adult years outside of pictures. Shits weird and i am ashamed most of the time and feel like shit after i cum.
>adopted 9 year old enters the family
>she's from Russia and obviously had some sort of sexual abuse for a good portion of her life
>can tell by the way she walks, her body language and the regular crotch-check when she's around any older male figure
>one day she comes into the bathroom while I'm showering and everyone else is out
>she gets on her hands and knees outside of the shower silently
>I get out and go to grab the towel when suddenly a mouth leeches onto my dick
>let it happen
>sit there and enjoy it
>no regret even till this day
>I was 14
not even pedophilia
Whats the statute of limitations on possesion of cp? I deleted my collection but I know you can pull shit off hard drives. I swore off it because it disgusted me when I actually considered what I was looking at.
My friend's mom is a psychologist. She once had a client confide in her his struggles with pedophilic thought. She contacted the police after the session, and now he's on some watch list even though he never acted on his desires. And of course my friend's mom went on to tell everyone about her victory of "saving the children." Apparently it's not breaking a confidentiality oath if you don't name the client.
Pedophilic thought WILL be reported. People are so afraid of it that its mere existence implies imminent threat
Sounds like you had an erotic experience with a minor, not that you've been an obligate pedophile. Those people are pedophiles since birth. Good news! Your thing has a cure rate of like 85%.
A book to read would be Stop Child Molestation Now, it's about how this usually happens. And it touches on some treatments.
Also, like, you're actually a hero for restraining yourself. Good work, anon.
Good work, /b/ro.
not sure. If you aren't downloading a lot (to the point where you eventaully run across a honeypot) or sharing any of it, you're probably safe. If you want some peace of mind just do what I did and wipe the hard drive using a program like Eraser a few times and bury it like 5 ft down in the woods behind your house if you have them.
Exactly. Swore off it because of how disgusting it was. I don't want to develop a problem either. I'm not attracted to kids now but I don't want to look at my future daughter sexually because I looked at too much of the shit.
My cousin and I would do things together, such as holding hands, cuddling, sleeping together (stopped after a few nights of when she was around 8 due to me keeping her awake with touching), sitting in my lap, etc.
I had fallen so hard in love that there was no stopping the feelings. Despite her being my first cousin, I felt absolutely nothing wrong with it. As time moved along, I moved away from her and she grew older (12 now). She's not as physically attractive although she still has the body of a 10 year-old, but I still get the same lovey-dovey feelings when I look in her eyes. Shit's hard, man, because I know she only loves me as a cousin.
she would always initiate things, like pretending to be asleep wanting me to touch her, and sometimes even reminding me like "hey anon, look, I'm about to sleep." and jesus my boner would rage harder than 1000 suns. What started it all was a tickle fight that led to me poking her butt because she was hot.
Sorry I suck with storytelling right now. Not in the mood.
I can believe this.
Must be weird going from a place where your sexuality had been awakened and was part of your desirability and worth to a place where everyone treats that part of your identity as dirty and shameful.
I'm 9, 2 cousins, both sisters one is 8 the other is 7.
>Go to pool at grandmas She watches us all the time
>Go play have fun come back
>Dry off, then change
>Look at each others privates on the floor
>Look at 7 yo cousin and see a frekle on her pussy
>She says Oh yeah i have it here and one inside
>I say one inside?
>So she spreads her pussy open and inside her lip is a little brown frekle.
>Me confused and very hard i ask if she peed because its wet
>she says no it just gets wet sometimes and the 8 year old sister confirmed. She spread hers but hers was dry.
Didnt realize until later that she was getting turned on too. I get hard thinking about it.
I have a lot of storys with these 2 cousins one extremely sexual. Should i post more?
i don't know, i guess she was a little old to still be doing that but younger girls not wearing underwear to bed doesn't seem too weird. It was a long tshirt but she kept sitting with her legs crossed which let you see everything, otherwise it wouldn't have been a problem.
As soon as I can get a better laptop this one's getting destroyed. I started looking at the shit because I had limewire as a kid and back then it was girls my age so it made sense. Bad habit FOR SURE. I've NEVER shared and obviously never will. I don't think I've ever had more that 20 at a time on this one. Won't have anymore now.
>be me, 24
>nephew, 6, staying at my place for a few days
>tell him im going to take a shower
>he asks if he can come with
>sure i dont care
>we get in
>notice he's staring at my dick
>we make eye contact
>few awkward seconds
>he says "yours is like mine"(both uncut)
>yup sure is
>help him bathe some
>no pedofag thoughts the whole time
not sure if im cutout for /b/ anymore...
That's the problem, just admitting to being sexually attracted to minors is the equivalent of telling a psych about your fantasies of buying a gun and shooting up your school.
just means you're straight anon. Nothing wrong with that. A 6 year old boy could be sitting in front of me right now with his asshole spread and my dick wouldn't move. Replace that boy with a 6 year old girl, though...
Hope this doesn't 404 before I can type it out...have to be brief
>be 16 regularly babysit neighbor's daughters aged 4 and 7
>one night babysit them and their 2 cousins also girls about the same ages
>happens to be the day their mom showed them a book about where babies come from
>evening starts out with many questions about what I know and what I've done
>not even answering
>girls all get changed into their nighties
>everyone wants to sit on my lap while watching tv
>let them take turns, starting to get a bit aroused, but just sit there and watch tv
>one cousin decides it would be funny to flash me
>this idea catches on...remain cool, just ignore and fix gaze on tv
>they all run upstairs to main floor
>minutes later get called to come up there
>youngest cousin is lying nude on the living room floor
>others want to "do it" to her
>tell them to get her dressed and go back to tv
>wait til they've all finally gone to sleep and fap like mad
>parents get home "any problems?"
>"nope all good" get paid and go home
You are welcome anon!
I don't even know if this is sarcastic doubt or not. Looking back on it I feel like every 13-17 yr. old boy needs an adopted sister who's a nympho. It'd make that whole sexual frustration thing easier, and they wouldn't end up doing self-sacrificial shit for over-entitled women.
Like... biting of the lip while looking at the bulge in someone's pants, then looking up to their face and back down... all while keeping a smile?
That's what a crotch check started as for me. Evolved into her actual hand "accidentally" rubbing right over my dick regularly.
We almost had sex a lot. Regular touching/fingering, blowjobs and her teasing me up until she was 15... then she got her first boyfriend. Did it while I had a girlfriend at 17 though. Whatever. No regrets.
>be 23 years old, normal guy over at my older cousins house, she has 2 children; one a 5 year old son and the other a 10 year old daughter.
>At home alone with said children, my older cousin asked me to watch her kids while she was out running errands/shopping.
>Sitting in a recliner watching TV when the 10 year old walks into the living room to see what I'm up to.
>She sits on the arm of the chair and starts to watch TV with me.
>she asks if she can sit on my leg, I don't see any harm as both kids like to sit in the chair with me and watch TV whenever I'm over anyway.
>I start to bounce my leg up and down like I always do when I'm bored (i'm even doing it while typing this).
>She scoots up a bit on my leg, close to my knee, I don't think anything of it, I keep bouncing my leg.
>I notice that she's starting to fidget around a bit so I stop bouncing, thinking it's uncomfortable for her.
>She asks me "OP keep bouncing"
>I pause for a second, still not realizing what's going on yet..so I start to bounce my leg again and go back to watching TV.
>a few minutes go by and I notice she starts to get fidgety again, since it wasn't bothering her before I saw no reason to stop this time so I kept bouncing my leg.
>I sit up a bit and notice the look on her face and I realize what's happening.
>She's feeling the vibrations in my leg going up onto her private area.
>her head is starting to tilt back a bit, her eyes were closed and she had both of her lips in her mouth.
>I stop the bouncing again and she almost immediately says "OP dont stop".
>My heart jumps for a second, I can't believe what's going on and for some reason I pop the hardest boner I think i've ever had. My lust builds almost instantly and I start to bounce my leg again.
>I'm watching my 10 year old cousin get off to the vibrations from my leg bouncing.
>I keep going for a few more minutes until she climbs off, acting like nothing had happened and walks off into the kitchen.
Picture related, it's her at 13.
>"hey anon, look, I'm about to sleep."
God damn, why can't I hold all these feels.
It must be rough to have basically lost a love like that, but I think you're lucky to have those wonderful memories. Thanks for sharing.
I wouldnt fuck my own daughter. But if it just became legal i have a girl in mind and am sure she wants it. Its what kills me. To know that when i tickle her she wants more then that. But its illegal so i hold back.
was her fat jiggling all over your face
When I was 15 and my sister was 13 she sucked my dick and swallowed. It was my first blowjob. I'm not going to green text this. So it was late at night and my parents were asleep, I was watching tv in my room and she was up and she came in and wanted to know what I was doing. It was pretty obvious but what ever. And after a little bit she said how she wanted to watch a movie, I knew what was on hbo at that time of night so I was like ok but you probably won't want watch what's on. So I turn the channel and it's soft core porn. She doesn't freak out or anything she just watches, and after a bit she told me that she was wanting to make me feel good like the guy on tv (it was a fake bj scene). I wasn't too sure about what to but I was super horny so I said ok, but we have to go in the closet incase mom or dad comes in. So we go in there and I tell her to get on her knees and she does, and I drop my boxers. It's like she knew what to do and without grabbing it she put the head in her mouth and started sucking it really nicely. Well I told her to put more in her mouth and she did but her teeth started scraping the shaft but I told her and she figured out how to fix it. Well she really started sucking my dick good and I mean good, she was getting most of my cock in her mouth and she was sucking on it so hard that I thought it was going to fly off. Well I knew I was going to cum and I put my hands on her head, and that made her turn her mouth into a shop vac. I started cumming and I wasn't about to not cum in her mouth, and I pushed her head all the way down my cock and she started gagging and the feeling of her throat contracting on my cock felt so damn good that I went cross eyed. And I held her there for what felt like an hour and she kept gagging and gagging and gagging, and then when I let her go she was mad that I made gross stuff go in her mouth and that she couldn't breath.
Best blowjob I've ever had