i found out today my ex from 7 years ago had to have a shotgun wedding after getting pregnant and having to move to bumfuck, texas. all this after she swore she hated marrage, kids and was going to live overseas.
i love when reality destroys a person slowly
I do not understand why lonely people assume that a girl to love them will fix their problems. For me, it gets even worse. You start caring about not just yourself, but for someone else, too. Your mind goes wild, concerns flooding in, constantly worried that whatever can go wrong with your relationship will go wrong.
The more people you care for in your life, the higher the chance is that something really bad will happen with at least one of them.
this is will surely happen to me. but fuck man i cant help it, i need to have someone to talk to and i want to feel what tits and pussy feel like. im waaaay to spaghetti to go for a prostitute.
For me, it gives motivation to achieve things. To take an example, my flat had been a dirty mess for months. The last time I really cleaned things up was the last time a girl I cared about came. And it applies to almost every field of my life. I actually don't have the motivation to do anything of my days. I barely get out, only if I need food, barely shower or clean anything, have a shitty rythm of life, bad sleep, don't enjoy anything. Like a full blown depression ? So yes, in the one hand, it means more worries, but in the second hand, the times when you're with her are so amazing that it's worth the worries and it gives me the motivation to live better than anything else.
get the book "how to make friends and influence people" my bf was very anti social and had never kissed a girl before (21) and i had a few gfs and bfs before. all because i easily talk to ppl. the more you talk to ppl the more likely you are to hit it off with ppl. practise on strangers in passing. tell them you like their shoes, or what a nice day it is, or look familiar did you work at (?) just talk and it gets you in. if you wait for her to come to you then you can be waiting for who knows how long.
About to lose my chance at yet another girl that likes me because I'm too fuckin nervous to make a move with her. We both like each other a lot but I just get so nervous when I feel like it's a good time to go in and kiss her.
sleep is like dying but without the commitment
That's another way to look at it, anon. I replaced my personal life with the love for my job, so I need to keep myself neat and tidy regardless. The painful thing is that my family keeps looking at me as a disappointment just because I refuse to settle down with a woman and have children, regardless of the fact that I have a nice career. Even my little brother who is nearly a decade younger has a serious girlfriend, so that makes things look even worse in perspective. I hope they come to grips with my choices and shut the hell up.
Alone, but not lonely.
also dumping what I have, also old things...
i was thinking about this a few weeks ago
thanks for the advice
I get occasionnaly motivated by my work, studies, hobbies. But it never lasts very long or come and go. Right now, I'm in between two periods of motivation. Being social and around other people help a lot. Problem is, as soon as it stops, I get back to my place and I'm back to my fbf life style, with no interest in anything. A girl is the only thing that so far managed to really push me through the roof.
Good for you if you enjoy the way you're living. I doubt I could be really happy in your stance, but good for you if you are. I don't understand your family's disappointment. Parents always want grandchildren sure, but that shouldn't come before respecting and supporting you.
But you know what I say? I used to be like you. Few years. Fucking lonely and I hated myself. Now I'm in relationship with beautiful girl for 2 months. And it didn't end.
Nothing hurts more than friendzone from person who you truly love... But you have to believe in yourself. Drop few pounds. Start meeting with people, though you hate them.
I totally know what do you feel, Bro. Family just hurting, friends remember about you only when they need something, nobody to talk to - but /b/...
Life can be fucked up, bro. But there is no point in crying. It does not help.
Tell me your story.
> was searching for feels thread
No. OFC you think about that person and do everyfuckinthing to make her/him happy, but mainly: caring about other person stops thoughts about what kind of fuck you are when nobody wants to even hug you. Caring can hurt, but not as much as thoughts.
When you are alone, you are your worst enemy. Not wirld, but you and thoughts.
You sit behind your computer watching people posting and you not knowing them and yet they understand you. You sit back alone at home, even it's weekend and you should be out with a girl or friends but you are yet here, alone, home in the darkness, thinking about everything. You sit and you maybe talking to a girl and you are just feeling sad and lonely even you know that she wants you in her life but you are not that kind of a guy any longer.
And maybe one day i shall be bright and i'll shine into the world again... But that's just maybe.
you know what? That "shinny tomorrow" never will happen. Ever.
Fuck you Haven.
I know, but that's for those who don't know.
Without knowing - hope is still alive. Hope sucks, leads for nothing, only hurts.
Hurts as fuck, bro. And you can do nothing with it.
>tell them you like your shoes, or what a nice day it is
I personally never really understood how and why trivial questions and remarks like this seem to get suck a positive reaction.
Sure, i'd say 'good morning' back to someone but I never actually cared and I doubt even they care and are simply extending a social normalicy.
These past few months have taught me that I'd much rather have emotional pain than physical. Been dealing with Crohn's disease. Painful stuff. Been in and out of the hospital. Need to get some heavy biologicals in two weeks to prep for surgery. Feel like shit this week. Stomach pains, over heating, dizziness, weakness. I feel wistful for when the only pain I felt was depression.
Now I'm optimist. I found person to be with. I fell in love, and I know that I'm important to her too. It's best feeling ever.
It wasn't easy. She was drug addicted, but she ended with it. She's young, so I live without any kind of sex (but kissing, only).
Being with person who you love is best feeling in that world.
but it can lead to social interaction and meet other person, and show yourself that you are not fucked up shit. It can help, though faking human being sucks.
Hopes is used by pathetic people, onces who believe in shitty things such as better tomorrow. It's better without hope, i like it this way.
Sorry. Worked for 8 hours today and I fucked up my glasses, so I can't see a shit.'
I must admit, I hate such people - which are mostly girls it seems.
> oh this is exactly how I feel!
> this song is everything I ever wanted to say
> it's so meaningful to me, there's nothing to add!
I love this threads but they are unactive after 15 minutes. During my 6/7 years on 4chan i could say that i will always stay till 404 in baww
Wow I couldn't relate to something harder if I tried
true. Imma woman, though I hate it too. Song is just poem. Using song to describe what exactly you feel shows how poor language you have, when you have to use other person's words to describe your feelings.
I know it ain't the best, but when i got to this strip, i just opened /b/, ctrl+f "feels" and came to share it with you guys.
I dunno, it just gets me.
When faced with challenges, the like of which you have never seen, what do you hope for? What is the future you seek?
nothing. Only think "oh, anyway i have nothing to do here, so lets do some shit like that".
Are you certain? You are filled with doubts and fears. You have not fully reconciled with your past. Now is the time.
How many of you expects to go to sleep and not wake up at all?
You simply need to get yourself out of the stagnation you wallow in. Do something different. Change your eating habits, learn a new skill, join a club. Live every day with hope in your heart. In doing so, you create the future you dream of.
I am OK with my past. Is it bad when I don't give a shit about anything?
Hate myself, hate my past, but now I don't hive a shit about it.
Goddamnit every time I start read these stories I see some dipshit writing about how "depressed" he is even though he hangs out with his friends and his grills, living the life I wish I could have.
I haven't had a close relationship with anyone for several years, the closest I get to people is to respond when they greet me I walk past them in the hallway, just because I'm a nerve wreck and can't handle the basics to maintain a social life.
It just hurts so bad to see other people with healthy relationships and people to confide in claim how sad they are when they really have everything I would hope for. Fuck other the ungrateful bastards.
I had a 2nd date today with a girl I've been really into. Wouldn't have been able to go on the date if I hadn't switched shifts with a friend at work. Even bought him lunch to let me take his shift. When I got off work she wasn't there. Hasn't called me back, hasn't texted me. Currently drinking Jack and Coke because I don't have anything else.
I also have extreme bouts of paranoia when shit likes this happens, and the voice in the back of my head doesn't go away. It's been 2 hours since work. I'm not drunk enough
You didn't see what I pointed. I have for 2 months person who I love and I care about her. I don;t care about anything, but her. Without her I'm nothing.
I just don't give a shit about my life. That's it.
My wife of 4yrs left me a year ago and took my two kids with her. The whole time I was begging her to come home. She lead me on making me think she was coming home. Just found out today that she's been fucking another dude since July. The kicker is I recorded the call where she admits to it. I have proof of adultery. No alimony for that cunt. Still feels bad. I had hope until this morning. I miss my kids.
Alright, you need to get yourself some self-worth. You need to realize that crying over this one person is not going to be good for your life. You need to actively accept that you need to move on, and that you're only feeling this way because you enjoy the rut you're in.
You like this situation because you can blame your misery on others, while that makes you seem shallow and selfish to those who still know you, which may cause them to distance themselves from you, which will probably make you feel even worse!
This is an endless cycle that only you can break. And if she comes back, you need to have the fortitude and strenght to say NO. Because of how you feel now, you should realize that you cannot risk yourself by putting yourself in that situation again.
You're the only one stopping yourself from living an active, healthy, normal life. As soon as you realize it, accept it, and make actions that will drag you out of your feelings of self-worthlessness, you'll be a lot happier.
You say that cause I'm in baww thread?
I love that threads. For 4-5 years I was in every baww thread I could. You were my only friends, and when somebody said "it will be better" or "Know that feel" i didn't feel alone. Now, I'm not bawwing. But I feel like I have to be there. Kind of feeling inside of me. I can't explain.
I destroyed an ex best friends life because she is a miserable slut that loved to fuck with people and be a disgustingly licentious woman and I've also torn her away from my other friend who was going to be put in the same situation as I once was.
Sorry this isn't feelsy, just showing that fucktarded people get what's theirs eventually
That feeling something you need to get off of. It's not going to benefit you in any way.
And I originally came in here to piss about and quote Chi-Ji, but you responded and your problem sounds very similar to one I had about a year ago that I pulled myself out of with the yelly method I just posted.
Ive fallen in love with a girl. She's everything I could ever want.
She likes me too.
We argued a long time ago, and I said something awful. She won't be mine because of this. I need her...
Tal with her. Totally. Words and "sorry" can do everything. Trust me.
I just love that threads. I hope I won't be depressed more, but I know that won't be true. There is no sense in talking about it.
until last week i had a girlfriend. on the surface she seemed like the real deal; pretty, great bum, sweet, cute, caring, loving, loyal. but i've been burned before.
she swore she'd never pursue other men but i thought 'all women are like that, sooner or later'
she swore she really loved me for me and not just because i gave her vagina tingles, but i thought 'all women are like that, sooner or later'
she might've been a tad dull and a little vacuous but she tried so hard to be everything i needed. reassured me through attacks of psychotic paranoia and dis-associative episodes. fucked when i wanted to fuck. brought me presents and cuddled me to sleep every night.
but i'm stupid and selfish and i had this awful feeling i was wasting my youth on one girl when she'd eventually turn out to be like all the others. my eyes wandered. eventually, so did the rest of me.
i cheated on her, and she found out by chance. i will never forget the look on her face as she confronted me. not anger. just pure, bitter heartbreak. tears streaming down her face as she wondered how i could hurt her like this.
she's the girl i never thought i'd meet. the sweet, loyal girl i didnt think was real. and i will never forgive myself for hurting her. i will never forget the pain in her eyes, her sitting at the end of my bed quietly crying because the person she loved more than anything threw her away like she was nothing, for no reason.
pic related. im so sorry sweetheart
Her words: "there's some things sorry just can't fix". All my friends say she is being dumb and that she will get over it, but I'll never forgive myself. I'm more lonely now that ever
You don't need her.
You don't need anybody.
But that doesn't mean you shouldn't consider to clear the situation up. >>570985636 is right, given the right circumstances.
If it didn't work, man up. It's not the end of the world.
Well, I hope you feel better soon. Here, imma throw a handful of Chi-Ji quotes at ya, now I fancy paying him a little visit.
Chi-Ji says: Tell me, Son of the Earth-Warder: What is the nature of hope?
Wrathion says: Hope is...a belief of a better tomorrow.
Chi-Ji says: You speak, but doubt your own words.
Chi-Ji says: Rise, son of Deathwing. I will give you my blessing, for you need it more than any I have ever met.
Chi-Ji says: I challenge you not to think of hope as a vague and unimaginable future.
Chi-Ji says: Live EVERY day with hope in your heart. In doing so, you CREATE the future you dream of.
Forgot pic. Hope I don't do that again anytime soon!
Talk. SorrAnon. You have only one live. Sorry can't fix, but maybe things what you do..? Try, you have only one life. Everybody will die in the end. Nothing to lose.
If yóu cheated on her, you didn't really love her. She might have been a great girl, but you would likely have been unhappy sooner or later. Still, it's an awful feeling. Remember that in the future.
Heads up bud'
Take a deep breath and let the nervousness consume you for a few seconds, then empty your mind and swallow those feelings into the depths of hell and do not think, just make your move, DO NOT EVEN THINK OR PLAN HOW YOU WILL DO IT. Just move and think later.
3 years ago, my marriage ended.
My wife and I had been together 11 years total, and things had been falling apart. We weren't happy, but I was determined to make it work. We -had- been happy. We were just broken.
I can fix broken things.
I honestly felt like I could fix things.
Then she left. Gave me about a days noticed, told me a friend was helping her move all her stuff, and I bawled as she walked out the door.
I later found out that she'd been fucking coworkers and what not. Had another boyfriend within the month.
I was viciously depressed for a year. I lost joint friends. I lost -old- friends that had been with me for 20 years. I lost women I tried to date after her because I didn't know how...
I'm finally out of it, and happier. But... fuck anon, that shit is hard.
and all we had was a dog.... I can't imagine....
Almost everyone has someone like that. Most people will at one point in life see another person as the most important person ever, but that's only a temporary state of mind, one day you will forget about her. Not in a "don't care about her anymore" way, you'll literally forget that the person existed. It's all a passing phase, just like life itself.
I had a girl...Greatest girl in the world.
But I couldn't have her...
The way she walked, the way she giggled and laughed. Her scent and her piercing, soulful, innocent eyes.
But I couldn't have her.
She wanted me.
But she couldn't have me.
She was married.
To an evil man.
So I got fit.
Took speaking classes in college, and started my own business.
Made more money than her husband.
I offered her to come along.
I fucked her hard. For a week.
Then I called her a slut because she was cheating, and she wouldn't be faithful to me either.
So I got a hotter girlfriend, and she got fat.
Those happy feels.
>the literel love of my life
>doesn't want to date me
>has a new boyfriend
>keeps bragging about him
>making me feel worse
>don't wanna tell her to stop talking about him
>he's the only thing that makes her happy
>inb4 someone tells me to man up and tell her to shut up.
i dont think thats true. its just like a switch goes off in my head sometimes and i can just put all moral considerations and consequences out of my mind so easily.
i truly love her, maybe we wouldnt have been happy forever because we had not too much in common, but the reality is i just wanted a new pussy to fuck and didnt think she'd find out. i am genuinely ashamed.
And it's going to keep doing that for a long time. I'm going to take a wild guess and say that you're in your twenties like many others here, which means that by modern medical standards this cycle is going to last at least another 50-60 years. We will have plenty of time to experience and wallow in these feels, unless we do something about them, although I don't expect I will.
You fucked it up. You will feel what you did when other woman will break your heart into pieces. You fucked it up... sadly.
I was that for five years.
It does go away over time. For me, it went away when I had the last word. I got to say goodbye MY OWN WAY, and not hers. She's gone now, and I'm very comfortable with that. I then realized she was a cunt and I stopped checking in on her Facebook to see how she was doing and I blocked her number so she couldn't message me back. I was just like you. You gotta get past them my dude, and sure it'll take some time, but eventually things will go back to normal and you'll be wondering why you even cared in the first place.
A woman should never be your everything, she should only be a piece of your life that, once removed, another equally unique piece can fit.
Sounds like what I heard from my ex girlfriend. Called her names and shit in a stupid situation. Broke her opinion about me immediately. Had to swallow that for many weeks.
Still, loneliness is just the feeling you have if you think you're dependant on other people.
It's important to focus your life on you, not other people. People come and go, do something you like or always wanted to.
After a while you realize that you're mostly idolizing everything around them.
In the beginning, pic related is the only thing that kept me going.
He's been the only one, besides my brother, that has been with me the whole time. I've made new friends and am dating a new woman now.
But I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.
shes not the love of your life anon, i know you've heard it before and you wont believe me but you've built up this idea of her in your head.
the right thing to do is to tell her you cannot be friends with her, because its not fair on you to pine after her when she's not available to you. thats not friendship. tell her to contact you one day if she changes her mind, then say your polite, neutral goodbyes, and delete her on every social media account, her phone number, any pictures you have of her, any messages from her. purge her. get a site blocking add on and block her social media accounts with that. cut her out of your life, because you will NEVER be with her and pining after her will only cause you heartache and prevent you from living the rest of your life to the full.
i know you wont do it. but its what you should do.
I get it OP, I had a nasty surprise a few days ago and since then I've been constantly pissed off. However it's time to stop wallowing. It's Saturday night and I going to get back out there and keep taking chances.
All I can tell you OP is to put a clock on it. I know you can't put your feelings on a timer but you can decide to stop letting it hold you back.
You're not down. No one is really down, they just want a band aid solution. Muscle through. Shit is tough, but you'll make it. Keep pushing through and eventually you'll be a better person than you are now.
She's not going to watch over you forever, you'll get back up on your own. It probably seems unlikely for you now, but when she moves on to study/work you won't fall apart, but instead you will rise again, likely bitter and disappointed, but you'll rise.
Hey /b/ I've been depressed my whole life and recently got a girlfriend. shes all i could of ever asked for and im really happy now, i just needed to tell someone..
It gets better guys, just hang in there. Killing yourself isnt worth it.
Don't you think that you'd never even consider to cheat on somebody if you really 'love' them?
Love should be the feeling which makes you do everything for them. Without anything in return. Just for the person.
Risking it should be impossible.
Dont get me wrong, maybe i'm a little delusional about this. But this is something I tell myself to clear up thoughts inside my head when I'm in a similar situation. Avoids the pedestrializing of those 'loved ones' and makes space for a more objective way to think.
Truth is, I never needed her. Lasted 3 years. turned out she was a compulsive liar and my family hated her. she broke my heart and i was in a dark place. cool to know all my friends hated her. i was blind. Now im fixing my life and things are much brighter. I used to think she fixed my problems but i was lying to myself. I was just dependent on her. funny how you can be so sure of shit but be so wrong. Now i have a hot new friend with benefits. i love my life now
I see that pic all the time and it makes me think of high schoolers.
The problem is that people think a love interest will make their life better. They won't. They might encourage it, but it's ultimately up to the person their self to be happy.
>Tfw when its 2am and you are watching this tread from the beginning
hey, i just want to say thank you for posting this gif, because I'm currently in a painting class, and I am the worst painter in my class, because for some reason i just cant grasp it rofl, and cause of that I was really discourage tonight, but this gif inspired me to keep on trying :) so thanks made me shade manly tears
I had a partner of near enough 5 years.. Doesn't sound a long time but I'm only 22.. We have 2 daughters together whom I love dearly..
But things weren't working.. We hadn't been working for a while but I knew I loved her and was sure it was reciprocated.. We still done everything together, we still slept with each other hell I dunno.. I dunno how it fell apart..
All I know is basically this morning my life crumbled, she went out last night straight from work, with not even so much as a message before coming home in the morning..
I confronted her and she admitted sleeping with someone, instead of letting me try and get over it she turned into a bitch and made me take the kids so she could sleep, I spent the better part of the day looking after her niece and nephew also because she wouldn't move and threatened to phone the police and have me forcibly removed.
saying I'm being abusive..
Now shes taken the kids to her mothers and I'm sitting alone in the dark in this empty house after seeing my life crumble before my eyes in a day..
Pretty shitty man..
I loved/ love don't even know.. I provided for her, paid her way, built our home together, down to the clothes on her back I provided it all worked my fucking arse off trying to provide and this is how I've been thanked...
This gave me lulz, then feels, then lulz again just looking at his face
too little emotions. Paitings dont have to show things "as is". They have to show your feelings. Paint whatever you want when youre extreme angry, sad, happy.. Try it. Release emotions.
I'm currently in the Navy and almost done with A school but...I feel so lonely that I don't think I can do this. I miss home. I miss my dog who I've been attached to all my life. I miss my parents and gf and worry I won't be able to take leave and get to see them. I struggle with relationships with friends here because I'm so sad. I feel like crying sometimes at night wishing to be home. I hope I can handle being gone for longer periods of time away from home because if not I seriously consider just killing myself. Feeling alone while pretending to be happy kills me everyday and worrying that your entire life will be lonely makes life seen unbearable to live.
Damn bro. That sounds like my relationship that just ended minus the kids and shit. I lived with my ex and we broke up and still had to live together for 4 months due to the lease. it was total shit. i had to sit in a dark house and i cryed like a bitch and got wasted and blamed myself. things will get better man. just love your kids and be a great father. YOU and them deserve that shit. be strong
i dont believe in love like that. thats disney love. its not real.
In reality people are fallible as all hell. in reality its entirely possible to be in love but still be led astray by a sniff of new skirt. its even possible to love two people at once.
life is messy and complicated.
>tfw Battleship snatches Boardwalk away right before I come to complete my monopoly
Thanks man means alot, I don't know what to do I literally moved across the country for this girl... I have literally no one it's shit but I'll get there I guess I'll just soldier on I guess..
Same here /b/ro.
Wonder if my id changed by now
Man seriously, the feels right now. When she moved out i lost 90% of my friends because we moved to southern California together and most of the friends i had were hers because she is extremely outgoing. im more real and dont act like a chameleon (if you know what i mean) so all "our" friends shuned me because she fucking lied to them.
I fucked hated my life but its been 4 months and its better now. im in a strange town and far away from my family but im still going strong. you can do the same.
Listen, I might be different but I felt desperate to get a girl, I felt like a loser for never having a girlfriend when everyone my age did. So I got one, she's cute enough and she loves me but I realise now I got a relationship for all the wrong reasons. I think I love her, I care about her but I mostly use her for the opportunities being with her provides. I feel too ashamed to break up because she's so invested in me and we live together. I don't want her to have to find a place to live but I regret this relationship.
You don't realise what you're giving up, at first she'll be awesome but as she becomes more comfortable the traits you don't like come out. >You'll realise you haven't see your friends in weeks.
>You'll realise you haven't played those games you love in weeks.
>You'll realise you don't have the money you used to.
>You realise you are no longer you and you are 'us'.
>You'll start cherishing the freedom
>You'll start trying to escape, you'll talk to new people
>You cause a rift
>You have to choose between her and everything else
>You pick her, it's the right thing to do but...
>You start imagining life alone
>You picture everything amazing you gave up
>You don't understand why tits and pussy was worth it
>You go buy a colt
>hold it to your head
>see you space cowboy
Tell me about it.
> ex returned in my life
> playing hard to get
> counting days
> till playing the game
/b/ Allow me to tell you my story. It is incredibly unspectacular, but some of you may appreciate it.
I will skip the seven years of my life, basically my mother was a drug addict, I was abused in the foster care system, was then adopted by two loving parents when I was 4. Then when I was 7, my dad died. It tragic for me. But I still had my mom.
I went through elementary and middle school being bullied, and was lulled into depression. So eventually I was hospitalized and put in therapy. There I found out why people think I'm weird and cast me out. Imagine an unspectacular version of Dexter. I was a watered down sociopath. nothing special, just weird. Then I found her /b/.
This girl was my life. She was the only person to ever be nice to me. We were best friends through middle schools and high school. Then my junior year of high school, my mother died. I really didn't like my mom, so her death was a relief to me. She was unnecessary. Eventually we graduated high school, and we attended the same college. Another 3 years went by, and my junior year she died. She didn't die in a car crash or of cancer or something cliche. She was drunk, climbed on a roof, fell and snapped her neck. Pretty unspectacular. However, this really broke me. I finished college barely, and now have a job. But it's been about 7 years, and I think of her everyday.
Thats all. Pretty god damn boring. Hope you like it.
She has told me that if I left her life, she wouldn't know what to do. She finds me like a brother to her, and at a really low point in my life, I almost attempted suicide, but was confronted by her begging for me to not.
you asked for this...
Still the same. Extrapolation(s) intended.
easier read than felt...
the other day me and one of my housemates were chatting shit while cooking dinner, about what would happen if a nuke got dropped on a nearby city, what would happen if that mushroom cloud appeared on the horizon.
i started to say that i imagine most people would immediately seek out their loved ones, to be close to them, to make sure they are safe.
I started to say that, then i stopped midway through as i tried to think who i would want to be with at that moment. who would i call straight away. who would call me?
i had to stop and take a moment as i realised how sad it is that there is no one in the world who is that close to me. i have friends, i have a job, i do ok with girls...
But there's no one in the world who considers me that important. that close to their heart. if that mushroom cloud appeared on the horizon, all the people i know would be rushing to find eachother, but none of them would look to me.
>2:25 on furiko
alright, I'm going to bed..
I just started seeing a $700/hr dominatrix. She's the first woman to ever completely satisfy me sexually and personally. And it costs me $700/hr to get her attention. Beat that, nigger.
>Date a girl, intelligent, caring and we have tonnes in common.
>Spend as much time as we can together, constantly texting when we aren't in each other's RL company
>Get a scholarship to study in the UK, decide to go when she says she'd be right there waiting for me
>We continue to skype, text while I'm gone, spend basically all my time with her when I'm back home
>Fast Forward 3 years. About to graduate, going back home in a week. Have endured lots and had resisted temptations to be with this girl
>This girl who spends more and more time with her own friends from Uni. Will sometimes go days without talking to me.
>5 days before my flight, explains that she doesn't want to see me ever again.
>One month later, starts dating one of her uni friends. The realisation dawns on me that she was probably interested in him last time I rejected a girl in the UK interested on me.
>She was apparently unwilling to make the same sacrifices I did. Much bawwing was had.
>A year and a bit later now. She's infected with hepatitis B, I have a new girl, who is even more intelligent, sweet and most importantly, would love to see the world with me (last girl wasn't as interested in travel as me)
To all anons out there who've had their hearts broken by a woman (and that will be quite a number of you), this shit does get better. For months I contemplated suicide, moaned, whined, alienated my friends and changed from the person I was. I changed back though, and now I'm in an even better position than I was before. The heartbreak still hurts sometimes, but it is manageable. It is bearable. Just pull through, and shit will get better if you show some persistence.
If you wait for it to happen, it never will.
Either you are happy right here, right now, without particular reason and having someone in your life only will make you happy more, or you`re unhappy with yourself and no matter how much "happy stuff" you will get, it all will sink without trace in that big black hole inside you. Not only you will waste it, but also suck it out from that other person.
you are not the emotional crutch of a girl who thinks so little of your feelings that she brags about her boyfriend to you when you obviously have feelings for her.
you are worth more than that. the harsh truth is that she will be COMPLETELY fine without you. and you will be fine without her, if you do the right thing and cut her out of your life.
until then you will go absolutely nowhere. she is the rut you are stuck in. move on. its not fair on you.
let go your earthly tether, enter the void, empty and become wind
I dont want it
I want to be happy, no matter the cost
Thanks man, sorry for the late phone died.. But basically I moved to a small Scottish island for her where the locals aren't keen on incomers at first... So alot of people wont consider my point of view so I'm gonna be screwed but its early days I guess dude I just have to keep on going and look up
>be me 23 y/o
>fall in love with cute girl from school which I had known for like 8 years
>8/10 but actually like her for her personality
>finally decide to ask her to go on a date
>waiting for her to come at the cinema, she doesn't show up..
>police department calls
>hear she has gotten into an accident from the police, they found my number on her phone
>major panicking, go to the hospital to check if shes doing okay
>she had a severe concussion, and has to stay in the hospital for at least 2 months
>during that time fall in love with other girl
>still visit the hospital at least 4 times a week
>have sex with the other girl, feel horrible
>doctor tells me that I'm not allowed to tell her because it would cause a lot of stress
>keep acting like everything is fine, and keep seeing her.
>still in love with the other girl, but she finds out I'm also visiting the girl in the hospital.
>start feeling depressed, have sex with another girl from school.. don't even care anymore
>used to be confident
>been sexually active for quite a few years now
>never once blown my load in anything longer than about 30 seconds
>been with a reasonable amount of chicks
>confidence has been slowly dropping over the years
>practically crippling sexual anxiety at this point
>have turned down sex so many times out of fear and anxiety
>avoid sex now
>gone from confident to fapping all the time
I will never defeat this.
also gtfo /b/ you cancerous normalfag
Whenever we use something to feel good artificially, or to dim reality (drugs, porn, alcohol, etc.) we are doing it to escape from something about ourselves - usually a past torment. I've realized that good experiences never make us miserable even if they're taken away.
You can be sad about an ended relationship, but if you are mentally sound otherwise, you will always move on and accept it for what it is, or even look at it as a positive experience. You will only dwell on an ended relationship if in the past/present you've felt isolated from others for long stretched of time.
>after the first month start visiting her less and less, when I go she gets very emotional
>afraid to tell her about my other relation because of what the doc said
>sucking up my tears while being with her
>still dating the other girl which I met after she got in the hospital
>she wants me to break up with her
>stop having sex, feel even more depressed
>ask her to come with me to the hospital and see what its like
>they become good friends
>start having sex again
>after 1.5 month the doc told me I could finally tell her about my other relationship
>burst out in tears on her lap telling that I've done terrible things
>she its alright, and says shes not angry
>Cry even more
>she says that she understands its been very hard for me all this time while brushing through my hair
>fall in love with her again
ugh fml.. this story is on-going
feels like I'm playing in a bad drama serie
> been emotional betafag
> go for a qt girl
> no confidence but fuck it
> get heart broken
> introduced to b
> build confidence
> from beta to alpha in two years
> get in another relationship
> long lasting
> end up in breakup
> months pass by no contact with her
> she call me
> she wants to play a game
> hard to get level 100
> meeh... okey
It's funny how i'm watching her drown in her own shit tho.
i forgot what it was like to be alone. my gf is gone now and its my fault. i forgot how much its worth to have someone there who will kiss you goodnight. who will hold your hand walking down the street.
I forgot how much its worth to just have someone around who you know loves you. im so fucking afraid now.
back to tumblr faggot
we have enough cancer on this site already
Damn, even your buddy there looks depressed as hell...
I was planning to fap this afternoon and then listen some nice music and sing till my world doesnt feel so alone, to forget that its another weekend nobody notices im here ready for anything, yet no one cares. Instead of that, im in this thread getting the feeling, listening to sad music, yet i feel good when im depressed like this, nothing else matters, im too broken, im already addicted to this shit.
Thank you anon, /b/, for letting me enjoy this moments.
You afraid since your girlfriend left?
It's hard to know that only person no matter what will always love you is your mother. No matter how much shit you make, she will be there to support you and no matter how fucked up it is, she will accept you back. In my case i haven't talked with my mother in year or in worse cases what if she is dead and you are only 20 in your life.