>been struggling with depression for a while
>think i'm good at hiding it
>go to check up with Doctor
>Doctor is qt girl
>obviously male inspects testicles
>qt Doctor comes back in and finished up check up
>says i'm free to go
>right before I get up she tells me to wait
>look at me in eyes
>"Anon, are you depressed?"
>no i'm alright
>"Anon, you look really depressed, you have to tell me."
>no im alright
>grab my things and leave
i'll back you up on that. I have nothing else to do
She doesn't see anything of me past that person who looked so much like shit she actually had to ask. You think there aren't other patients like this? You think she doesn't have other hotter people as patients? She doesn't want the D I can assure you. Not my D
FUCK YOU OP. SHUT THE FUCK UP FUCK YOU AND FUCK EVERY FUCKING THING YOU'RE FUCKING ABOUT YOU FUCK. I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU FUCKING FUCK. I FUCKING SWEAR I'M FUCKING GOING TO FUCKING FUCK YOU IN YOUR FUCKING FUCKHOLE. YOU FUCKING FUCKED UP PIECE OF FUCK. I'M GOING TO FUCK THE FUCKING FUCK OUT OF YOU UNTIL I CAN'T FUCKING FUCK ANY FUCKING MORE. FUCK I CAN'T FUCKING STAND YOU YOU FUCKING FUCK HEAD. I'M GOING TO FUCK YOU THE FUCK UP UNTIL YOU CAN'T EVEN FUCKING SAY "FUCK." YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKING FUCKER AND NOW YOU'RE FUCKING FUCKED BECAUSE OF IT. FUCK
>Doctor is qt girl
>obviously male inspects testicles
The fuck? Last time I thought I had ball cancer a female checked them. Luckily I didn't have it. Coincidentally it was the first and only time a woman has touched my balls.
Don't kill yourself. That just proves to the world you're weak, this is your life man. You just have it harder.
Pull down shorts. Guy looks at balls. Doesn't even touch it just glances. Says there is no problems. Walks out door. Pull up shorts.
Males inspect males and females inspect females here.
Take the pills then and hope you get the right dosage
And try to find some bros. you might feel better isolated and crap but find some freinds that fucken care you'll feel better. At least that's what happened to me
this kind of happened to me yesterday. my local pharmacy sells lottery tickets and I went to buy one. the cashier lady was busy with someone and the pharmacist saw me standing on the lotto side of the counter so he came from the back to sell to me. when he was handing me the ticket we looked at each other and I can tell he saw a fucked up individual on the inside.
>be me, introvert
>dropped out of college
>not cause of grades, just couldn't handle it
>parents kick me out
>living with grandparents
>the only thing I look forward to every day is going back to sleep
on a moar serious note
>laying in bed cuddling with gf of 3 years
>looks up at me
>"I love you so much, Anon."
>"I love you too"
>gf died a month ago in a car crash
>cry in the shower
oh god are you me?
I feel for you man.
All I do all day is play KSP and browse /b/
Is there anyway out of this misery? I just want to an hero more and more every day
For real. I was that way as a kid until in 8th grade I met the love of my life. Shes marrying another man soon and wont so much as speak to me. Story too long to tell. Now when im not working im holed up at home because I hate being around people.
Well you obviously enjoy video games. Have you considered becoming a programmer? May be take a course that involves something similar? That could possibly make college bearable. Or may be you can make your own games. I like fighting. I want to be a fighter.
Oh you are OP. It`s sad.
Such porn scenarios sadly don`t exist in RL.
Besides that I would recommend talking to your doctor. I didn`t because I was a fag. Even though I did come over it myself doesn`t mean everyone does.
>tfw no black cock team to spitroast me
Also, she is trained to push depression/ antianxiety medication on you. They do this indiscriminately.
The best way to make a gamer hate games is to show him how the industry really works.
He should do a job he doesnt give a shit about so hes not dissapointed seeing something he loves ruined by corporatism.
Old macbook and no money ;_;
I know nothing about programming. And I literally have no interests that could turn into a job. Idk what the fuck to do with my miserable life.
>Stop seeing people because i get the feeling no one enjoys hanging out with me anyways.
>hardly see people
>no one even notices
>nothing at all
>good friend of mine stopped hanging out with
>He went too deep into drugs.
Don't get too sad /b/ros. Dropped out of high school after finishing junior year. Introvert. Social anxiety. Lived the NEET life from 17 to 19. (2007 to 2009) before getting a job. I was INSANELY overweight. Kitchen job. I worked and worked, and lost about 170 pounds. Late 2011 I met the love of my life at work. It was remarkable how much my life had changed at 22. I just turned 25 a few days, and she left me at the pinnacle of my love for her.
So now I'm fucking miserable and feel dead inside. But don't look at results. Look at my journey. You can be me too anon's. Just don't drink... and uh, don't fucking fall in love either.
I've lost the lust I had for black cocks. I indulged in black cock for several days and loved it, couldn't get enough. Now the past several days I've just been going through the motions, getting fucked.
I hate her for what she did to me but I miss her everyday. I loved her so much...
ITT:fucked up or fucking stupid things you did as a teen.
>me and my friends were a bunch of hooligans
>i get crazy idea
>me and friends walk to nearest park
>I find all the slides and shit at the bottom of them
>we hide up in a tree and wait
>about 15minutes later a mother and her small little girl arrive
>this little slut can't be older than 8
>we wait for her to get on the jungle gym
>she motions towards the slide
>she sits down on the slide
>the mom hasn't noticed us yet
>my friends can't control their laughter
>we see her go down the slide
>Then we hear frantic panicking and screaming as the little girl tries to climb back up the slide
>she inevitably fails and falls down into the shit
>she hits the ground crying covered in shit
>we all jump out of the tree laughing our asses off
>we all meet back up at friends house
> MFW her pink jacket was just covered in my shit
It has been a year and I have had other girlfriends but I cannot get her out of my head... I know she is a crazy bitch but we spent 15 years together... Why can't I forget? The worst part is: I left her.
I got her back, /b/
five years of ups and downs
a year apart this last time
I got her back
but she hurt me so bad last time
i can't feel it any more
we both know
Get over here bro.
I need a feels pic with a tighter embrace.
We're going to be ok buddy.
I don't know what to do either man. I hate people asking me what I'm doing, have I got a job, what do you want to do? etc. It feels like the only thing I ever say is , "I don't know". I'm so aimless, I've absolutely no idea what to do. I thought this kind of thing just figured itself out by now....
its not like their is anything that can be done for depression anyway. i guess you could fill yourself full of chemicals like a lab rat to try and find some balance in your brains composition. otherwise depression is a permanent life long thing.
Don't try to sugarcoat this buddy
Depression is your brain's way of telling you something's wrong. Don't go down that pussy road trying to kill yourself
Man the fuck up, grab your life by the balls and fuck it into submission.
You're supposed to feel shitty when you fuck up, your life is a movie, BE THE FUCKING HERO SON
Yea that's not the problem, even if we hit it off and become best buds I will eventually just abandon you for no reason. This is how every friendship I have ever had has ended so I just don't bother any more.
More sadness! I love pictures of sadness
OP here. This is my escape song. The song I play when i'm feeling close to suicide. I don't know, just feel like its going to take me else where, over vast lands.
Whenever I get in my Abyss state, I just lay my head back and say, "Take me Spanish caravan, yes I know you can."
this in really nice words:
Jordan Peterson: Dragons, Divine Parents, Heroes and Adversaries: A complete cosmology of being.
Yeah. I went to school with this girl and she had a Facebook page but it was taken down recently. She got married not too long ago and now her Facebook page is gone. I wonder if she's dead or in a psychiatric hospital. The two in previous pic are sisters.
lol no faggot don't tell the doctor shit. They way the healthcare system is set up she will make a little not in her computer and it goes to your online medical record and it's there forever. say you wanna buy a gun and your not depressed any more. sorry bro your background check came back can't let you buy it
I feel those feels OP.
>come home from work
>girlfriend of three years moved all her stuff out
>note on table says "I love you but I'm not IN love with you."
>know that she found someone else
>"anons puppy! are you there?"
>nope.jpg she took my 8 month old puppy away from me (technically she bought him and he is in her name.
>can't say anything because if I get diagnosed with depression my military career is over
pic related its my puppy
Anybody got that youtube video where the black guy goes to his friends grave, strikes up a conversation with his dead friend and ends up crying halfway through? Honestly I think that the saddest thing I've ever seen.
I was there
Kicked out of college after 90 credits
Move back home, become depressed beddwelling neet for a whole year
Kicked out to my grandparents. Eventually get job and establish residency. After awhile i think im going crazy waitingto go back to college so i run away to a city and live wth an online friend, cept hes fuckin crazy and im too chill for his barbro with angry gf life
Move back to grandmas, dad visit for a month and we reform a close relationship because ive been mostly sober for ahwhile except when i lived th my friend and sometimes i go have drinks at a restaurant or movie theater by myself ;_;
Re enrolled in school, have to go to CC for a semester but no big deal, because i was a neet in 2013 i got a pell grant :D of $5700
Nw things are looking up, once i figure out my school schedule ill find a super part time job and i will be making more progress towards independence and bein a man. Im 24
Never give up bros, ive been a druggie mess, but im pulling through. Almost done with this fucked up journey of earning a degree and leaning how to deny myself addictions. Its been and still can be so hard
Never give up /b/, never. Yolo
I think I'm finally starting to get over her but I still miss my dog so fucking much.Most night I just get wasted and look at pictures of him crying. I don't want another dog.
Just know that your little /b/ro is happy and taken care of.
Not to be short, and a dick, but yes. It's going to end, and you're going to feel a fuck load of pain.
Like >>558191169 said. Just don't...
Watch the movie the secret
>the more you be a pussy
>the more it's gunna appear in your reality
>suck it up like abella anderson faggot
Hey anons exercise has been proven to be a highly effective treatment to depression. Try that along with your therapy/medication/diet/mindset/etc treatment if you haven't.
Gonna go on a 8-10k now. good luck bros
>Be playing wow
>Meet wonderful girl
>We have great fun together and even have little skype nights and occasionally talk with her untill she falls asleep
>She has a husband
These feels /b/.. I cant cry internally enough
Ride the waves of life like abella anderson rides dick
Here goes nothin'
>be me, 23, living at home with mom
>no girlfriend, car, job, etc
>been working out and running lately
>quit cigarettes, feel "myself returning"
>beginning to see the light
>have a cat me and my mom got when she was so small she could fit in your hand
>lives with me, mom, her boyfriend in a house
>friend comes over one day after mom and her boyfriend gone
>he's high on nucynta, dxm, alcohol and cigarettes
>continuously aggravates the cat but i neglect to tell him to stop
>later i find cat hiding with catshit everywhere
>shes alive but apparently scared
>tell friend to leave
>friend calls me a dick on facebook for telling him to leave
>i tell him i'll make him look unrecognizable to his closest relatives if he ever does anything like that to my cat again
>fast forward a few years
>cat is traumatized and doesn't like being touched
>retards think it's funny to mess with her and make her growl and hiss
>one day i'm in the kitchen making pb&j
>i know cousin is on couch messing with cat, he's messed with her before
>i hear her scream and suddenly i lose it and rush over and plant 4 or 5 hits to his torso
>he lays there on the couch like wtf
>me and cat are like best friends
>i can pick her up and hold her with one hand then try to touch her paw with my other hand and she'll swat at my hand and growl and then look at me with her little eyes
>mfw so cute
>have no friends but starting to become socially better
>until then still play with cat sometimes
>one night, i hear on news there's a tornado warning
>says on news several tornados spotted only 10 miles from house
>still don't care
>can't find cat
>she's under the bed hiding because of loud thunder and lightning
>go back to room and keep computering
>hear strange sounds outside
>cat is meowing really loud
>go find the kitty
>sit on bed and hold her
>she's still meowing and scared
>mfw roof is being ripped off
>decide to hold the kitty one last time
>I cant cry internally enough
That's these threads in a nutshell, I'm not going to pretend to be some badass alpha male, but you anons have to realize that you're not the best choice for procreation
I mean if I got dumped, I'd be down for like 3 days tops then I'd be over it ready to move on with my life
But hell, some of you guys have cried for over three years about girls that not only have you never dated, but probably don't even know you exist
Don't you find it a little bit selfish that you're willing to make the entire human race a bit weaker by breeding your inferior genes in, instead of someone that you know, might not cry everytime life throws them a curveball?
>makes choices he regrets
>does nothing to change his life
since when did you have a right to fucking complain. You get the right to complain when you actively try to change your life. Grow the fuck up.
that goes for all you NEETs
Dude, tell her ring your doctor back and explain it all, it'll be the best thing you ever did, I've had depreesion for about 10 years and no it never goes away (not for me at least) but tablets and therapy help, not always but for the most part, you don't have to put yourself through this without help man it'll only manifest and get worse otherwise
"I have to tell you? I HAVE to? Are you fucking joking? So then what? You can give me some pills to make it all go away? So I don't have to think about it anymore? So I can just forget about how fucking lonely I am instead of trying to make my life better? Fuck you. FUCK you."
wtch, cry, have faith in us
Ya? Well these are my feels
It's one thing to be a little down, to want a boost from your brothers now and again
But this is different, this is a permanent state of incapability
Bro.... social anxiety is a lame excuse for being a bitch about being around people. You better get the fuck over it quick or you'll never amount to anything.
This is why they do public speaking shit in elementary school, to help people like you not be so damn anxious around people
>browsing the tumblr I made and maintain to make her happy
I really liked her man. Like a lot, more than any other girl. But then when I asked her she rejected me. Since then we've become really close friend s, I'm even with another girl, but I still can't stop thinking about her. Wondering if it ever could have been.
Well shit man, I don't know my fascination with these threads, and I wish I could help you guys I just don't understand
I just don't get how you could care for someone that doesn't care for you, if that were to be me I would be immediately insulted and hate the person
You guys need some self confidence or something, there's really nothing to be done but I still feel the need to do something
Get into some Brazilian jiu jitsu
Legitimately everywhere I have trained has a really good community and once you do it for a while it becomes like meditation/yoga but not gay haha
>dad left family about 2 months prior
>try to reconstruct life from ashes
>go to school
>start to come to terms with missing parent
>life starts to return to normal
>walking home from school
>open the door and see nigger on my couch
>about to run outside and call the cops
>mom comes outside
>says its her friend "Marcus"
>tells me to go talk to him
>sit on couch next to him
>he smiles and tries to make small talk about nigger things
>start flipping through the channels
>he puts his hand on my leg
>his monkey breathing deepens
>he leans into my ear and whispers
>"There is no need to hold the remote control"
>"Just chill, this shows got soul"
>"ITs hard to believe, but some of the best things in life are free."
>"So fella grab your girl and tell her that you love her"
>mfw when I live in living color
No no no, this man is right. To an extent. You shouldn't be discouraging these people though anon. Uplift them. Here's an example:
>previous 2 years of life wasted, didnt go to school, only worked part time and smoked weed, all my profits went to weed
>spend time on 4chan and had some friends
>fap n smoke weed basically for 2 years previous
>fap to hypno shit (protip: if u do this quit now, it isn't hard)
>move to city to go to college, get job at a bar, things looking up
>was bumming off a friend's apartment, decide I need to move into my own place
>have a friend who is dealer who lives in student housing complex, retardedly decide to not move in with him and move in with another friend I barely know
>roommates are nignogs save for 1
>be nice to roommates
>be so nice they see me as easy target and threaten to rob me
>eatbiggetbig ty based /fit/
>they realize they aren't going to intimidate me so
>they steal my phone and switch it with a burner, they could see all my messages, i didnt notice because case
>say nigger a bunch on texts because these niggers are being niggers
>they see it, rally the hood around it
>decide its not worth fighting nigs every day in my own place
>still didn't know my phone switched
>move out to dealer friends apt in same housing complex
>dealer friend knows my phones switched
>dealer friend betrays me, i get btfo, outed for being "racist/gay" w/e lots of hate
>he just didnt want to get arrested
>I put up a good fight so
>he took it to a whole new level and made sure I'm btfo across the board for hypno shit/ racist/ 4 chan b-tard wherever i went
>I didn't know this
>move to relatives place
>he lives in city, I'm btfo in a metropolitan area now
>well now this isn't good.jpg
>act suicidal and move back to safe original hometown
>still btfo, getting fucked with by all former friends, dealer friend was thorough about shitting on my life (w/ my sisters help)
>ok so this is how u wanna play.jpg
Yeah dude that's some weird eugenics shit brah. Most of this stuff is internal psychological issues , that stem from problems caused else where, not within their genes. You entitled to your opinion but as said before kinda eugenic and puts way to much on the seed and not the soil and its grower.
>get gym membership, go hard
>put on 20 lbs muscle
>ignore all fake people trying to fuck with me (not hard to spot disingenuity out)
>my mom and sister start trying to fuck with me
>at this point i just dont even care about being btfo doesn't matter to me in the slightest, people are bluepilled as fuck and retarded and getting btfo made me improve myself hardcore
>since my own mother is fucking with me something has to be done, my pos degenerate sister must pay
>my dad makes all the money and has recently divorced my mom
>get him to move back to original house in original safe hometown
>he kicks out my pos sister's homeless boyfriend (lmfao)
>when he gets here my mom and sister are moving out
>signed up for school got loans in order
>my dad is pleased with my actions and will have better job working from home
>my mom and sister will get what they deserve for trying to fuck with me
>mfw they get BTFO
>mfw i did this solo
>mfw I could have been a depressed little bitch but I perservered and obliterated my oppressors
>mfw I'm still btfo and probably won't have much of a social life but could care less as long as i put myself on track for making money
>mfw get shrekt
so as you see anon, even the underdog can win. don't give up.
I know I was so socially awkward and retarded that I did not make an actual connection with another person until I was 13. My mom was always strung out and too high to care and my dad worked all the time and came home and just drank. I remember how much he meant to me.I am 17 now and I do not want to go back to that isolation.
there's more to the story, something that happened as recently as tonight. my mom/sister know whats happening and are getting desperate, had a nice little run-in with cops tonight. I'll greentext the story of their battle-cry before defeat if anyone's interested.
>best friend died last year exactly 280 days ago
>we were on bad terms at the time and i never got to apologize
>don't even feel sad
>just feel numb
i thought all my problems would solve themselves once i got older
instead i've ended up a highschool drop out with no car, no job and no goals
it's a weird feel
maybe someday things will get better
sometimes that isolation is what you need man. people are fake as fuck. get one true friend and you'll be better off for it. partying is overrated, waste of time (do you make money doing it?) but you aren't in my situation so enjoy being social if you can, just let my story put it into perspective. Its all about the grind man.
make a plan and follow it through. that's how anyone got anywhere in life.
That's good man, trust me, it's better that way. But then again my story is fucked up. I swear to god my sister could be the fucking devil. But then again I realize that her time is up and I've won. Just remember, don't give your trust out easily and question strange occurrences. And never, never give up.