I’m going to kill myself very soon. I’m going to try to do the old helium trick and if I can’t get access to a tank of it I’m just going to blow my brains out with one of my father’s pistols.
What should I do in the days before I end it? Should I write a suicide note? Will it comfort people I leave behind in any way? Should I make a will (I'm 20 years old)? Where should I do it? Should I go out in the woods or stay a night at a motel? Should I spend the last few days with my folks or just act like nothing’s going on?
Should I even go through with it?
I know /adv/ gets posts like this 24/7 but I don’t know a better place to ask this. If you need more information, I’ll be happy to post.
I know I'm just a stranger OP, but I was literally just released from the hospital Monday after I tried to kill myself.
You are loved, wanted, and appreciated. I know this is white knight faggotry or whatever, but try to at least call a suicide hotline.
The days before you end it will decide on whether you're serious about it or not. I'd say go about your normal business, but you will notice things around you more.
Suicide note could comfort depend on what it says. If you have an at least semi-logical reason (not "girls don't like me" or "i have small pennis") and don't place blame on those close to you it'll help.
Make a will if you have anything of particular value. If you still have immediate family they'll sort it out if you don't have a will.
Woods would be a better option than a motel, if you make a mess during the process they it'll have to be cleaned up by some poor fucker, whereas in the woods various creatures will more likely just have a feast.
Spend the last few days with whoever is most important to you.
Go through with it if you still want to when you're planning to. I'd like to hear the reason why also though.
your suicide will probably tear your love one's apart.
if you want to make it easier for them, however, there is one option.
you need to write a suicide note identifying yourself as a paedophile and saying you can no longer control your urges and would rather die than hurt a child.
your family will understand why you did what you did, won't blame themselves and think of you fondly as an selfless hero
I'm going to let you know right ow that no good will come of it. I attempted suicide and my life is still shit. But it would've been even shittier if I weren't here. I have three kids to care for. Please man, from an attemptee don't.
Oh that's easy, I hate the world and the people in it and I'm a fuck up. I guess I'm too mentally weak so I can't deal with these things. Granted, it's not a "great" reason to kill ones self but I literally can't mentally and physically keep going on in life feeling the way I do.
I used to take depression and anxiety meds but they only do so much and I can't get my hand on them anymore anyway (due to money).
It's not faggotry, maybe I should do that.
I don't think you'd want my stuff.
Sorry, I don't have a camera/webcam
That might work seeing how I have a lot of loli porn on my PC.
Please at least look into it as an option. I didn't realize people cared about me. Please at least try all of your options - suicide is a permanent solution to very temporary problems - nothing lasts. Only life does.
Uke pooki wanna dookie!??!!!
Oh shit! Let me hop on my tablet
They'd probably take me to the ER I'd assume.
I haven't had sex so if you want to take my virginity then sure ;^)
hmmm can't imagine that would even be worth it unless you want to see a shit quality video that you can barley make out what is happening.
I have a hot-line number from when I was seeing a therapist, guess I could always call it, though I don't know what I'd say.
Alright, will do.
Don't be sorry, you're fine
The dark angel is watching over you ;)
They're there to listen.
Trust me, if you go to the hospital, just be cooperative.
I still have bleeding under the skin from where I fought them while they held me down to draw blood.
Also threw a phone and some other shit at the doctor.
Make it easy, seek help. Don't be crazy like me.
I have more 3's
That makes me the winner
OP, I'm sure you're alright. I mean, look at all this human trash right in your thread. You're at least better than scum like this.
>le black and white eyerolling man
You must be fun at parties
You can email me if you want at email@example.com instead of posting it all out here
At least they're happy, I haven't been happy in a long time.
Join in the fun lad
Everyone dies, may as well make the best of life while you can
Lol they're not happy at all, my man. Don't be fooled. They're complete garbage and don't even have the courage to end their lives.
Since you're not a spineless peace of shit I think you should give life a chance for just a bit longer. Take a janitor job at a hospital and move away from your parents and town. Try living alone for a year or two before you bite the big one.
>I am such a cool and daring person for pretending to be a sociopath on teh chonz!11!one
OP, if anything, you can look at us with contempt, anger, whatever. It's not going to help your situation. Laughing at others' happiness to stem off your own loneliness is not a way to live. Neither is running away from your problems.
Please seek help. You are always loved, wanted, and appreciated. Your early 20s are rough. Don't let assholes bring you down because they're realized their existence means nothing.
Don't be a bully on an anonymous chinese weeb board fampai.
OP, please don't.
Your life is worth a lot. Do you realize that the whole universe changes a little every time someone dies? You taking yourself out not only deprives you of seeing all the things that can happen in life, but also will change the course of history, to some extent.
Every time I considered suicide ( I haven't in 8 years) or a tattoo. I'd think about it for 6 months and make sure I wanted it every day within those 6 months. Needless to say I'm still alive with no tattoos
Nah you guys can do whatever, I don't care
The universe happened on a fluke and I was born by chance. No offense, but the universe doesn't care what humans do on earth. The earth could erupt in flames in it would change nothing.
I hope I don't come across as an edgy faggot I'm just saying that I find it hard to believe things, especially my life, matters on that scale.
inb4 responding is defensive
I'm trying to help someone - and I'm only tripping for this thread. first time, probably the last.
I'm not offended by anything, but it makes me question why someone wants to look at happiness and be contemptuous of it - and why you want to spread that misery, honestly.
dissent =/= defense, I'm allowed to speak my thoughts, too.
Please stop embarrassing yourselves, tripfriends. Starting to get secondhand cringe here.
Like stfu for real, ofc kids change everything. You have a fucking responsibility to fucking raise them and raise them good. Having no kids however makes you a lot less responsible (I'm not talking about feeling responsibility, I'm talking about having it, like the mandatory part) you suck and I think your kids deserve better parents. Op: I'm thinking about it either, there's probably no way to make it better, no letters, no way. It's just a terrible situation and you'd better just get on with it if you really wish to, if you're not sure: get help.