Should I just kill myself? I spent years going to university to go into IT and program because I liked it somewhat but now that I'm graduated and looking for work I don't feel I can do any of the jobs. Even the graduate positions seem too hard for me. I can't even be motivated to do project to try and improve and even if I did I can't just do nothing for months. I've already been doing that. I can't even be bothered to do things I enjoy. Nothing is fun everything is hard. Food tastes like shit and is a chore to eat. Exercising is tiring and seems to make me fatter.
I can't really do anything about it either.
Are you interested in getting better? I spoke to a counselor for a year and took medication for two years. I'm not fully recovered, but I would recommend to at least speak to a counselor. They may offer some insight.
I am, I just hate the idea of going to someone for this. I've been before and it made me feel like shit for whatever reason so I stopped. What if I'm just being a hypochondriac? The only reason it's happening is because of me so the only one who can fix it is me. I also don't have a few years to do nothing. I'm already getting questions when I apply for jobs why I haven't had one yet.
job openings always sound harder than they actually are, the team goes to HR with a list of features they want and then HR draws it up like you need to be literally every one of them to even have a chance at the job, in reality the hired candidate will be nowhere near there except for prestigious jobs
start interviewing you'll be surprised how easy it is honestly
I don't have kik, sorry. I'm a huge loser so no need for social apps.
Do independent projects while you have an excuse to waste time.
The biggest problem is I have such a broad range of knowledge nothing is very in-depth. jack of all trades, master of none kind of thing.