How the fuck do I get to enjoy my life again?
I can't find anything that interests me. Everything sounds like a dumb and shallow stuff for kids. I can't find a single book, movie or video game that might entertain me. Sports got boring after finishing college.
I'm slowly losing my taste of life. I always tried to be an alpha with a lot of friends, but it gets tiring as fuck. I don't really want to pretend that I like going to parties or get drunk. All of this stuff I do just to have a lot of friends and spend friday nights with some people makes me fucking sick. I'm even losing my sex drive. My whole life is a fucking imitation just because I didn't like being a beta - I have a girlfriend just because I don't want to feel like a piece of shit.
$10 says there are things that you're turning down for made up reasons, when in reality you're just anxious or insecure about trying them. You'd probably enjoy the shit out of being amazing at something very difficult or significant, but the challenge can be a huge turn-off. Get over it. Do something worth living for if you're this desperate to find meaning in your existence.
Shoulda stayed true to yourself homepai.
You're gonna have to tear down your personality to bare ego and start over. Any preconceptions about stuff you had before; 'scifi books are for queers,' get rid of it.
Start trying new things. Ditch your girl.
First and most important priority is to completely ignore the whole "Alpha/Beta" shit people came up with and recognize people are more complicated than that. And don't ever be afraid of being labeled a Beta - you don't give a fuck about people anymore, remember?
Second, if trying to entertain yourself or be social no longer appeals to you, then try self-improvement in any way you like. Exercise, study for a new better paying job, learn a new skill just for the sake of learning something new (play an instrument, learn to draw/paint, learn how to shoot, take up a martial art or boxing), try to be more spiritual by going to church/mosque/temple more often (or hang out on Atheist discussion forums if that's your thing).
No, none of that stuff I just mentioned is guaranteed to restore your taste for life. It's just something for you to do so you don't sit on your ass and waste away doing nothing. This way, when something comes along that kindles your interest, you'll be better prepared to handle it.
Are you seriously trying to tell me that your tired of getting laid?
>Everything seems childish.
Two possibilities. Either you need to grow up, or you have realized that the modern society is infantalized to a ridiculous degree. If it is the first (ie, if you don't want to do fun things because you're afraid you won't look 'cool'), grow the fuck up and enjoy what you enjoy. If it is the second (ie, the interests of your friends genuinely seem retardedly simple and of no merit to you) then you need to seriously think about what you want out of life. And, honestly, you still need to grow up and do what you want to do.
Also permanently get rid of the words 'alpha', 'beta', and similar. Honestly you are giving off the air of someone that has completely externalized their self-worth, which means that sooner or later you are going to lose it.
>Are you seriously trying to tell me that your tired of getting laid?
Not the OP, but kid, once you get to a certain age you suddenly realize there are bigger priorities than getting your dick wet.
>tfw never felt a pussy bareback
Also I have no idea why people act like if you have sex with a condom on that you've done it congratz gg no re
Bareback or gtfo
>tfw havent ever done it period