I'm 25 this Saturday but I've only had one friend since

No idea. It seems you either have that magical friend making ability, or you don't.

Really, now. What is it that you actually want?

watch fight club
look for support groups listed in your area
choose wisely
go to a few meetings
after the meeting, approach the girl
tell her it really touched you, when she talked about her loss. for years you had kept it all inside, not knowing that there were others out there like you. you though you were the only one who had literally skinned a cat, and the shame that you feel.
make out with her for a few minutes
and then she'll either do you right there, or invite her back to her place

>>16852106
hahaha this is so foul

>>16852075
You just smile and be polite. Say what's on your mind. Sympathise. It's easier than you think.

Anyway I'm in your shoes and I'm gonna msg a qt on okc when I get out of work on Tuesday. If it doesn't work out, I'll try another or go to a boardgames night or something.

Get a job if you don't have one, helped me a lot.