Lonely

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1st - Sorry for my bad english ( its not that bad but expect some big fails ahead in this text )

Im young , i think im a solid 7/10 guy with a 7" dick ( no need to lie since you cant see me ) but i feel a crippling lonelyness , also i have anxiety . When i wake up in the morning it seems like i cant wake up , i have no reason to.

some days i wake up with a very good self steem but most of the time when i wake up i disgust myself ( i said im 7/10 because thats the impression girls i have had sex with gives to me ) . i have no friends no and i have no way of making new ones since i cant go to partys etc... a little bit of backstory about why am i in this situacion :

>Be me , 15 years old , october 2010 , mum gets diagnosed with cancer
> 11/9/11 mom dies from cancer
> 12/10/11 grandmother ( i lived with her ) dies of alzheimer
> my parents divorced when i was 6
> now i live with my aunt (55 yo morbid obese ) and my sis ( 25 yo , scientist )
>started feeling like i dont deserve that and became kinda depressive .
>november 2014 i start flirting with a girl
>realise girl is crazy af , abort missiong and start dating with my colombian ex gf
>have a discussion with my friends bc they never invite me to anything
>stop talking with them
> months later i hear that the crazy girl is dating now with one of my best friends of that group , known them since we were little kids
>this bitch lies and tells them i was a creepy stalker ( when i was flirting with her )
>they get angry and never again talk to me or hang out with me , also they almost call the police .


So here i am , without friends and without gf ( i dumped her 1 year ago bc she was slutty ). how the fuck can i make new friends if i cant go to partys ? not mentioning i feel really depressed and anxious.. i feel like noone needs me / likes me .