Beginning to recognize my trans feelings as a mental illness. What should I do?
don't want to age like a man(masculinize even more from my testosterone) I want breasts, hair I can grow out and style and actually look like a woman instead of a twink, or pretentious manbun. I want curves, and to be able to actually be proud of my legs and ass rather than embarrassed because that's not male aesthetic (cute booty with nice legs, not muscular).I just feel bored and unsatisfied living a male life. And I know gender binaries are social constructs, but I'd be kind open and OK with being trans (while being cautious of surroundings ofc). Maybe female with male genitalia is in support of social gender constructs then. Most people are attracted to secondary features like tits, ass, scent, hair, etc. A vagina can only get you so far, and ugly cis women know this too.
Am I wrong to transition for this? I'm OK with my dick and would still want PiV sex
Why the fuck do you seek confirmation for your thoughts? Do what the fuck you want, people will judge you regardless. It doesn't MATTER! Stupid bitch...
Go shave your legs, take the hormones, don't be so fucking pretentious and come here asking for advice or sympathy.
Although I wish I had a therapist to tell me "Yes" or "No, you're not trans". I unfortunately don't, or hope to find one (anymore). Just an unbiased look on where I'm at right now and discussion may help. I've been to therapy but all the therapists I've had have only really enabled me. I can't tell if this whole transgender fad is really the new frontier of equality, or just the popularization of a mental sickness.
I go out almost three times a week, but the day always ends on a notion of "What if I'm wrong.." or "This probably isn't me.." I think my mental state may be deteriorating and I'm not sure if it's from repressing, or acknowledging my problems.
I wrote my answer because I had feelings like this a couple years ago. And honestly it doesn't fucking matter what you do, you'll always be mentally ill. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia. It just part of the course, it'll either go away or get stronger. It doesn't matter.
I realized I would not be happy or mentally stable whatever I would do. So I cut my hair short, started working out, learned how to play a few instruments, began to paint and draw, create shitty poems and ignore this morally tainted and worthless society . Oh yeah, and called people who think they are special snowflakes out on their bullshit.
You will never be sane, you will never be a woman, people will hate or love you regardless of your intentions and actions.
Gender binaries are not social constructs. They are tendencies that are rooted in biology. Wanting to be pretty or whatever does not make you a woman. Being a woman makes you a woman.
Do not "transition". Get into fitness and work out your ass and legs if you want to but for christs sake there is no use in taking drugs or pretending to be something you aren't. Grow up and start being interested in things beyond how you look and how people see you.