How do I change a bad personality?
I feel like I am the embodiment of flaws. When I take actions I only think of myself, and am always negative about everything, cynical, easily triggered, socially awkward and have social anxiety. Because of that, I have few friends, I am just not fun to talk to or be around, and those friends won't even bother talking to me unless I start the conversation or they need something from me.
No, unless your insurance kicks ass, you will pay a pretty penny for mental health. Your insurance might not have to kick ass. I'm on state health insurance. your flaws probably run deeper than you know and you can probably shake them off easier than you know. doctors tend to be wise folks, by trend. some are out for your dollar, maybe, but they swear by a pretty serious oath to help and work for you, if you have the cash.
outside of that, I recommend reading. it gives you a lot to talk about. more things to talk about will give you less time to look like an asshole. There's lots of shit about this and I don't know your brain. Were you ever fucked with by outside forces? This isn't /x/ but were you? Tell me.
And everybody's jumpin
happiness is just around the corner
so if you like to party
meditate , try to develop some empathy.
read some jon kabat-zinn
I live in an Asian country, don't think fee is covered since I migrate here, not a citizen yet.
I was born like this, no traumatic shit ever happened to me to make me become like this, even before I was molested by a guy.
Does meditation actually helps? I never tried it but I am willing to give it a go but it just seems like minutes of doing nothing will allievate my flaws.
Meditation is amazing
I urge you to look into vipassana-samatha meditation. I pair it with Buddhist insights but meditation in itself is a secular activity.
Just need to give your mind a place to rest...