Hello /adv/, I'm fucking scared right now and I obviously need your advices.
My life is getting worse and worse everyday, I am someone who believe in God but I never really cared about all the "going to church on Sunday" thing. However, recently, like two or three days, I started to think that litteraly everything has a meaning. And pretty much every hour, I look at the sky, saying "Please help me God, show me what I should do", I'm litteraly begging for him to show he is here.
For now you think that OP is a faggot, but It's not over.
If I want God to help me, I shouldn't fap, right ? So I tried to not fap, but it was too much and I fapped. The scary part is that, right at the moment where I cummed, a guy was talking on the TV, in the room just next to mine, and said "You are possessed ! You are possessed !"Or something like that. It wasn't exactly this sentence but there was something about the Devil and being possessed.
Then 5 minutes ago there was a rolling thread on /b/,I rolled, and guess what were the three last digits ?
Seriously, I asked God to show me his presence, and all of this happens, he is clearly showing me that he's not happy, right ?
What would you do/believe if you were me ?
I say it's all coincidence, however I could be wrong.
I Mastubate often, yet pray everyday.
God is an unknown force and if you fear him, than satan can take advantage of that and torture you mentally.
Trust that he will forgive you, everyone masturbates.. surely not everyone goes to hell.
As long as you give time to him, he'll be happy. Church isn't mandatory to love god.
This is my opinion of course.
The problem is that it is hard to imagine, even more when you do believe in God.
At least you made me smile anon
That's also more or less what I believe. Fapping is too common to be a sin that cannot be forgiven, but of course, he's probably not happy about it.
I don't especially fear him, but I fear the unknown.
>The problem is that it is hard to imagine, even more when you do believe in God.
Well, that's an epistemological problem on your part.
If you can't put yourself in a shoes of a newborn baby (atheist), you are severely limited in your imagination and intellect.
Go read some Aquinas or something.
I write porn for money, masturbate frequently and am really into systematic theology.
I don't think God is going to accept or help you less if you're a sinner; you're already a sinner. The fact that you're trying to make amends is enough for Him.
The only thing I can imagine is that this hypothetical world where religion doesn't exist will destroy itself.
(Just like it would with a world where religion exists, though.)
>Nothingness after you die
>Reason to live ?
>Even more likely in this world that in our, because there is no doubt about the after life
There is also nothing holding back people from doing fucked up things.
Still, I am a sinner and I continue to sin even though I know it is bad.
>>Nothingness after you die
According to who? Old texts? Have you observed this?
>>>Reason to live ?
We're different you and I. I don't need to see the end to have a reason to live.
I don't need to see the end and its incentives to be a good person and live a good life, with or without an afterlife.
>There is also nothing holding back people from doing fucked up things.
True. Religions are man made and thus are suceptible to corruption and evil.
The golden words of your holy book are just words. No one can really attain them. And if they can and strive to do, I won't blame them as long as its not harmful. Who am I give someone shit if they find what works for them.