I hate myself so much, I have no self esteem. The person I'm closest to takes every chance she can get to jab at my self esteem.
I really hate everyone. That's part of what destroys me. Not only do I hate myself for the mistakes I've made but I feel like everyone is a piece of shit, and will just end up taking me for granted.
What do I do guys. I'm not in this life just to be around for myself, but everyone sucks.
Really leaves little hope for the future and dying seems so nice. I died once before and it was so peaceful. When I came back it was back to the bullshit.
>I died once before and it was so peaceful. When I came back it was back to the bullshit
>i hate myself
than take the time to be someone you'd like.
>i have no self esteem
self esteem comes from completing and experiencing positive things, like mastering an instrument, or an art, or simply finishing your hike. do more things and see them through and you will start to see what you are capable of.
>i really hate everyone
you have no reason to. maybe stop being a cunt.
>>will just end up taking me for granted
whats there to take for granted? you literally hate yourself and have no self esteem. to take some one for granted, there has to be something there worth appreciating that gets ignored. if you have nothing worth appreciating (hence why you hate yourself) how can they take you for granted.
sounds like you see the worst in people because you refuse to find anything good in yourself.
either get your shit together and make a life worth living, or stop whining.
Have you considered seeing mental health professionals?
They can help with the suicidality, the depression, and the self-esteem, and help you take steps to improve your life. You don't have to do this alone and you don't have to do it blind.
When I have a relationship (romantic or non romantic) I always try my best to be good to them. Things go on for a while and I always end up being treated like I'm just easily disposable.
I hate myself because I ruined the one person that didn't do that to me with drugs.
Haven't had any luck since. I it just makes me feel like everyone just wants to take and that no one wants to go out of their way to care for another person if it doesn't somehow benefit them in the immediate short term.
Still working on getting insurance for that. Poor as fuck. I have been wondering if it's even worth it. I mean, what are they going to do? Put me on a medication that makes me forget that everyone is such a selfish ass?
there are good and amazing people out there. if you cant find anyone, be that person yourself.
untill i started lost everything i thought things have a value, no they dont, and the potential you hold as a person is infinite. find someone who you can lay all your thoughts and doubts on, and if you cant, face them directly. you have one life - you either live or die, and doing nothing is the essence of death.