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How do I fix knowing how to act around others at all?
I have ADHD, aspergers, clinical depression, generalized anxiety and a panic disorder, sadly, all officially diagnosed. I have been bullied in all my years in school (quit 1 year ago) and emotionally abused at home for another 6. I basically don't feel like an equal human being most of the time. I think all of these things are making it very hard for me to socialize, and I often avoid social interaction.
I never really know how to act in social situations, other than stupid small talks and making uninspired unfunny jokes. I have the very social basics down, such as making eye contact, proper posture & body language, knowing social borders, awareness of surrounding, etc. But I can't seem to click with anyone ever. I currently hang with a bunch of social rejects (the kind everyone would avoid - bronies, furries, socially incompetent geeks, weeaboos, generic losers) because we have games, series, movies and occasionally some flat out geek tabletop/board games. That doesn't require any social interaction. Take that away, and I practically fall on my face in any social situation. And even with these distractions, I am uninteresting most of the time, but that seems to be fine amongst the people I hang with. But here's the worst part: I don't even enjoy hanging with them. I'm often told I'm an alright guy, but no one even bothers to maintain contact with. And after a long period of not being so disappointed I stopped talking to everyone, I have even forgotten how to start a conversation and keep it going. It's so bad that depression seems to be creeping in from all sides. I want to become a better guy before the depression takes away the will to, because it all feels like one big downward spiral.
What do I do? Am I a lost cause? Please help me /adv/, tell me what I can do. I am desperate at this point and don't want to live my life this way. I need a way out.