Had a good childhood, aside from disliking my dad.
Parents got divorced when I was 8, all good.
Elementary school is good.
Starting to get bullied from 5th grade on.
Life sucks
Make friends in 8th.
overweight, but aside from that:
Suddenly have a bunch of friends, get along well with everyone.
Education is going well too.
Financial situation is good.
Everything these days should be great, but:
>absolutely hate myself
>wanting to die, attempted suicide twice
>self harm
>feel empty, numb, emotionless
>have no motivation to keep on going, wish i was inexistent
seriously, the fuck is wrong with me?
Shouldn't i be happy with life?
Op ask yourself what you want out of life. Remember that with no goal there will be no destination.
You can have great surroundings and be well off but doesn't mean your happy, that's just the staple to being happy now you just have to do what you love
>dysthymia: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/persistent-depressive-disorder/home/ovc-20166590
>major depression: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/basics/definition/con-20032977
If any of these look like they ring a bell, go see a psychaitrist.