If you've had 8 hours of sleep and you're not hungry and you're not thirsty and you don't want sex, you've had enough exercise for the day and you've got entertaining things to do and you still keep craving something, what the hell do you want?
There's a vague craving and it won't go away and it's driving me off the goddamn walls.
Play video games. I had the same feeling until I bought a game console and Fallout 4. Now, I lead settlements, provide people with clean drinking water, build housing and expand our territories.
If your life is too shit and boring, get into vidya.
Just connect it to your PC monitor like I did (I live in a very small space too). There are cheap cable adapters for that that will do the trick. You don't need an entire huge TV and a huge table just for a console.
If you don't have the finances, save up or make some money. Sell useless shit you don't need, for one. And try to get a job if you can. If you can't, apply for government assistance/disability.
Also, if you have clinical depression or some other disorder, you may be eligible for free disability money. So seeing a psychiatrist might be a good investment.
I am already getting NEETbux just by not having a job or a partner that has one.
And I don't think you know what I mean with "no space". There isn't space for a console. I stash my laptop under my bed when I'm not using it (while sitting on my bed) because there is literally no even surface to place anything on.
My sister still somehow tends to manage to find a way to step on it and then yell at me for not taking proper care of my belongings.
You can buy a special case and attach it to a wall, like in pic related. Also, you can find a very cheap used computer screen on various auction sites (like eBay), and attach it to your wall as well.
Lastly, if you're that low on money/space, you can save up for a while and buy a used trailer/rv, and live there. There are plenty of parks and other spaces nowadays which provide free water, electricity and parking space for trailers.
With all due respect, do you see wall space?
A trailer would cost more than rent, with all the heating at this time of the year. Do they need a lot of maintenance?
Clean your room you disgusting pig.
The wall color is atrocious and doesn't match the furniture, the books on the shelf are unorganized and they're clothes sitting on top of furniture. Not to mention some dumb fuck put an exercise machine in the worst possible part of the room. Clean the room, then bomb the whole house and start from scratch.
There's clothes on top of furniture because if they were on the floor, people would walk over them.
None of the furniture is mine, the papers are my mom's, and I literally cannot throw anything in here away.
Tell your mother she's a whore.
I love videogames, but you guys should understand that videogames are like empty calories for "Life Purpose".
The entire point of videogames, at the heart of the entertainment, is tricking your brain into thinking you've achieved something, that you've been successful. Think about it literally, so many videogames have "awards" and "achievements" and a bunch of little triggers for that success/dopamine response in your head. You feel good when you complete that level, you feel like you did something worthwhile.
But it's an empty replacement for real life achievements, the ones that matter. It's escapism for people who can't find success elsewhere, which is fine, but it also INHIBITS people from finding success.
So basically, what these people are trying to tell you OP is that you need to find some sort of direction with your life. If you want that to be videogames, that's fine, but it's also not going to carry you anywhere else in life.
>But it's an empty replacement for real life achievements, the ones that matter.
Many of us don't care about real life anymore. Many of us don't want to live. It's better to just spend one's time in a comforting illusion of happiness that video games create. There aren't really any good alternatives.
You're craving peace of mind. Apatheia. Acceptance that nothing needs to be changed to be 'ok'. Not just the mental knowledge that all is 'okay', but to truly feel that knowledge resonate in your soul.
That is indeed the highest goal in the pursuit of Virtue: Serenity.
There are people who live in much worse, yet are happy. Why isn't he?
For that matter, there are people who live in far better, and remain in misery. Obviously, his housing is not the issue.
His question is clear: when you have everything you need and still want some unknown thing more, what is that thing?
That 'thing' is peace of mind. Apatheia.
>guy wrestling with the fact he is in the closet
you crave a gay life partner
just because other people's housing situations aren't contributing to their misery, doesn't mean his housing situation isn't contributing to his.
if I had to guess, it's partially the crampedness and chaos of the living situation itself, and partially OP's feeling of lack of control over his surroundings, that's making him unhappy. it can take a pretty long time, as in years, to get to the point where you're comfortable and at peace literally anywhere. how many people do you know who can actually do that?
not saying he shouldn't try for it, personally I think we all should, because most of us could get by just fine with less money/stuff/space if we did. but it's a long term solution. OP could really use some useful short term solutions too.