My family is currently gathering at my grandma's house to celebrate my birthday, and usually I'd be really excited because my extended family and I are close and I love family dinners, but all I can do is sit here and feel like shit.
I didn't go do the video interview with the police, the officer the appointment was with got called away, and I left my phone number so they could call me when they got a chance. He called at 11pm, and even though I was up and not ready to go to bed, I lied and said I was. I was supposed to go to work this morning, too, and I didn't do that either.
I feel hollow, and alone. I haven't told anyone about my boyfriend getting arrested, or breaking my hand. Now, I have to show up and try to live my life and everyone's going to ask how my hand got broken and I have to decide if I'm going to lie, or just tell them and burst into tears.
>>16724732 I think I have a serious problem, but I'm never telling anybody about it, nor do I say how bad it really is.
I'm suicidal on the daily, I was manic depressive, but now I'm just apathetic most of the time and can't wait for the day to die.
On the other hand I have big dreams, but I can't seem to gather the power to strive for them, as I did in the past.
Also I think I let myself be used by women, physically, I just seem to be some kind of male slut, but without wanting it, I just crave physical contact, sex and a women that tells me how much I'm valued, even if sex is all she wants...
I feel pathetic and have no self - confidence whatsoever.
How can I change to be the best me?
I'm not even stupid, I finished school with a top grade, I play piano since nearly 10 years and am a person that is a genuinely good person (that's what I'm told, even by the persons who use me), but there is something that feels off, something that makes me feel crippled within.
>>16724732 I actually wish my family was dead alot. So I wouldn't have to feel torn because of a shitty divorce that happened shortly after I was born. I'm sick of my strict dad and hoe fucked up I get living with him, and I'm tired of my strictly religious mother and how non - understanding she is. If all of my family died, I'd feel free
I think my girlfriend has bipolar disorder or smth. Some days she's super happy, wants to hang out with me all the time, says nice things to me and is overall just the 10/10 girlfriend I love.
However other days she doesn't give a shit about anything. Doesn't want to talk about anything really, just wants to be by herself and do nothing, has no motivation for her studies or anything. She starts acts rude and just goes quiet all of the sudden.
Some of her friends have noticed the same thing. It's like she changes to a totally different person all of the sudden. The few days when she's happy with me are everything I've ever dreamed of. However the days when she's not feeling it are really tough.
I've come to the conclusion that in the end the relationship is just hurting me more than it should. I've been thinking of breaking up with her soon. It's not going to be easy though because I still have really strong feelings for her but she's making it impossible for me to love her.
I just needed to vent... Has anyone had similar experiences? Any advice at this point is helpful...
>>16724761 Ha, I feel this. My best friend is pregnant, about to be married, and I'm her maid of honor. I wish she would've realized what I meant when I told her I loved her, and that I'd die for her, and that she was the only person I felt this way about. If I weren't such a coward I might have had a chance.. We both would be happier. I'd give her everything.. He can't be the support she needs. He doesn't deserve her for what he's done.
I'm losing my ability to be calm and confident around people, and I don't know why. I just went back to college, and I was anxious to the point that I felt a little sick. I was shaking all over, and the table was vibrating as a result. Then the professor told us to form groups and exchange contact information. So these people were talking to me.
I managed, but I don't know what's going on. I used to throw huge parties, sometimes with over 80 people in attendance, and now I can't handle a classroom with maybe 15 students. I can't think of anything that's happened in the past few years that was particularly traumatic or anything.
I really enjoy looking at pictures of myself. It probably all came from when I used to be super insecure and not confident, but I learned to appreciate how I look. But now I'm so into myself and in love with myself that I just don't care much for others anymore. I've learned to be my own best friend, my own lover, my own therapist, my own everything for the most part. Only I can seem to treat me right and love me right.
I'm sorry. I'm stupid, I always have been. I was alone, I always had been. To me, you were very unique. You were something I never wanted to let go. I tried to be something that I knew I couldn't. In the end, all we had was ruined. I thought I could stop myself from being me. How I longed to be so free. In the end, you're here no longer. It's just me, alone, left to ponder. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused. I hope your spark of light remains as bright as the dawn.
Farewell, my past, my memories, and my friend. For the are all the same in the end.
Some things are a process. Being able to talk things out and consider outside perspectives can still be small steps towards overall improvement, even if you're not ready to do the seemingly sensible thing yet.
But I mean, depends what you asked. If it was just like "pizza or burgers?" and you ignored that everyone said "pizza" then yeah not much to be gotten out of that.
Yeap, here we go again. I feel sick from myself, what I say, what I do. I swear, sometimes sitting at home 24/7 just to avoid doing ANYTHIG, you know, completely abstaining from action, therefore avoiding judgement, seems like a decent idea.
I can't shake the feeling of being lonely. Now, I don't mean the type of lonely that I live alone and have no friends, no. I have a relatively normal family and I have some pretty cool buddies. We go to the pub, watch the footie, go out and eat steak til we cant move, hell we're even planning on creamfields (Google it) this year. But I mean the need of a woman in my life kind of lonely.
I've been dating on and off for almost 3 years since my last 'full on' relationship. It was the typical early 20's soul destroying, heart crushing breakup we all go through. We wanted to get married. Have children. We clicked on every level...it was amazing. Like the universe had brought us together after shitty upbringing and pasts. We broke up in January 2013. I was fucked up for the majority of 2013 because of it. Truly a mess. Manic depressive and for a few months on anti anxiety pills to stop me breaking down every 20 minutes. Now with that in mind over the following 2 years I picked myself up and I'm now doing brilliantly. My career shot off and I've just landed a promotion after not even being at my company 2 years. Which leads me to this point. None of the women I've dated or been in very short relationships since her fulfill me in the way she did. None of them. And this is after I stopped comparing. I can and have taken new women on their own merits. Loved them even. But I always end up feeling alone because they just don't touch my soul like she did. I fucking hate it. I hate knowing that in almost three years I haven't met a single woman who makes me feel that loved...that amazing. They all leave me empty. Success is great but what good is success if I can't share it with someone who makes me feel that way?
How can I let go of this horrible empty lonely needy feeling? It's like she's poisoned my heart and soul against any other woman.
Fuck both of you. You'd think knowing someone for 6 years would make a pretty unbreakable bond...but I guess some people really are just that cruel. Oh well, their betrayal has only made me stronger...and now my ambitions have grown as well. Grown so much, it's bigger than the both of them and the petty drama they tried to create from this bullshit. It's nice, knowing people are scared of you and the power you hold over them...but I'm too nice to use it. They probably know this too, and are so happy they both got to use me, of all people... Fuck both of you.
I wasted a million good opportunities sitting around for some fantasy in my head thinking it was just a jealousy play. I should've used my brain. I'm Stiffler living as AFC for a fantasy in my head. Is my iq below 50? I rejected beautiful girls out of love for them because I didn't feel enough of a spark and they still hate my guts. I could've gotten laid when I was 12. What was I thinking? And nobody but me ultimately cares about this statement, yet here I am waiting for someone to validate this or something..What the heck is wrong with me?
I want to get out of this rock and live life on my own. I just want to finish this semester of college, go to the West Coast and spend a few months there, working small jobs and just spend a lot of time soul searching.
Do it, pussy. If you don't have the guts, you clearly don't want it bad enough.
Then what? What's the next step now? Feel like shit about it until life kicks you hard enough to kill you because you didn't have the balls to do it yourself? Fuck you, you're wasting your time doing something useless.
Get a hobby, get in danger and/or do something that'll bring you closer to either death or the temptation of it. That way, you won't die by your own hand like a bitch.
I hate myself so much. I have thing for incest and I hate myself for it. It is disgusting, immoral, and I'm starting to get even worse to wanting have a little sister to fuck. I'm stop watching porn AND FIX MYSELF!
I don't know where I'm going in life. Really I just want to make one person happy and stick with them the rest of my life, but I'm just a lonely loser with mental issues. I've had some urges in the past week to jump from high places when I walk by but I don't really want to kill myself yet. I look at the moon and I can't help but think that someone else is looking at it the same way, and one day we will find each other. Aside from a few weird religious notions I've been getting, my main focus is just to survive my unhappiness long enough to find that person.
I am ticked pink that our conversations today were less stressful than what they have been in the past few days. I just hope it isn't because he's sick and doesn't have it in him to guilt me left and right like he has been. I know he's more than allowed to express how he's feeling in the current situation that we're in.
I know everything will be okay, it'll just take some time... but so far, it's been a rough ride. Then again, it's only been 3 days.
I want to play my game again, but I promised you that I would not touch it for as long as we were together; I did tell him today that I asked a friend to log in and trash the offender from my friend's list, because I honestly felt that it was the right thing, but it only upset you more; I feel as if I cannot do anything right.
I am being served divorce papers after being in an abusive marriage for 3 years. I am not being allowed to see my son and all my friends have moved away. On top of all of this I have been out of work for 6 months for reasons both mental and physical. I was the primary caregiver for my son and now I am probably only going to be able to see him under supervision. I never did anything but treat my wife and child like royalty...and now I'm getting screwed again.
I'm still in love with her, and I'm hesitant and scared to tell her I can't be just friends anymore, since I won't ever see her again as I'm certain there is very little circumstance under which she would be attracted to me again.
I started balding at around 22. Didn't notice until someone pointed it out, and I basically had a panic attack. I tried to comb it over a bit (since it wasn't THAT bad), but ultimately I just started wearing a hat everywhere. I even shaved it down but I was so self conscious about the shaved look I still never took off my hat. Probably didn't help that my girlfriend at the time laughed at the buzz cut.
But you know, we broke up and I realized how closed off I had been. Hiding under a hat all day, getting scared that the weather would be too hot for it or the wind would blow and knock it off. I avoided swimming for two years because I'd have to take my hat off to do it. I gave up too much to hide my head. So I shaved it off. Completely, no buzz cuts or any of that shit. With shaving cream and a fucking razor I cut it to nothing.
And you know I don't miss it. None of my friends really cared when they saw me bald, and most of my family thinks it's a good look. I can go out and swim and drive with the windows open and all sorts of shit and I don't give a damn what people think anymore. For the first time in years I'm happy about how I look and I'm glad when I look in the mirror every morning. Sometimes I miss having hair but by the end that shit was just holding me back. It wasn't worth holding on to. The price was way too high.
So to everyone out there, balding or otherwise, let nothing hold you back.
I don't know if my boyfriend is with me because he actually loves me, or if he's with me because it's comfortable and safe. We've been dating and living together for four years now, but I'm his first and only girlfriend. I love him so much, but I'm scared he's just settling for me because he doesn't know what else he could get.
I don't understand why you have to be such a cunt to me in public. You know how insecure I get when you're around other guys, especially those athletes. The least you could do is hold my hand or fucking smile at me. But no, you completely ignore me and when i try to touch you you act like i invaded your personal bubble. Im your fucking boyfriend, bitch. treat me like it. if i treated you like that around other girls you would cry and cry and cry and get your mother to scream at me.
>>16728183 I know how you feel and have been in a similar situation. Tell her how you feel. Say she either gives you more affection or it's over. If she doesn't, end it. You will not get what you want from her, so stop trying.
I'm going to get put back on antidepressants Wednesday. It's hypocritical of me to think I can help myself or cope by abusing alcohol, adderall, xanax, cocaine, etc., and yet be paranoid about getting damaged from safely taking antidepressants prescribed by someone who has SOME kind of idea as to what they're talking about. Here goes. Hi mom!
>>16728208 This is the worst, most amateur followup to a heart-crushing. If you do one thing in this life, reader, please never say this to somebody. It gets stored under "dismissive shit your mother would say".
I can't breathe, I'm suffocating. I'm panicking. I'm so, so fucking sad.
He's leaving me. Again. He's leaving me again not even a week after I tried to kill myself. Again. Of fucking course.
But this time it'll be forever, and it's breaking my goddamn heart.
He doesn't want me. He doesn't love me.
I'm nothing to him. I'm a complete fucking idiot for ever thinking that I could actually mean something to him. I'm a worthless piece of shit who's only talent is sabotaging and ruining everything, especially the person/thing I love and care about most.
I just want him. I want him to give a shit about the fact that I was in hospital. I want him to love me again. I want him to let me love him. I want him to be happy. I want him to hold me and tell me everything will be okay again.
Ok, now I've hit the bottom. Drained, husk of a person. And no-one can tell. I'll just carry on with my work and ignore any emotions I have. They just hurt me anyway. Won't speak unless spoken to. Won't do anything unless asked to. Fuck everything. Can't help anyone, only make it worse. So I won't.
I have desires to kill myself. To force myself to stay alive, I order continually more outrageous sex toys online and enjoy them, so that I know that if I off myself, my family will find them and my reputation will be ruined. It forces me to continue.
why would i think feelings went both ways? you're obviously straight, i've already found this out the hard way. i don't know why i keep forgetting it. sorry for making everything uncomfortable, i know you probably just want a drama free friend. i hate myself.
Fuck you. I hope you still think about me and remember what I did for you though. It all felt like it was thrown back into my face in an incoherent and jumbled manner. I really don't appreciate how I was treated when I tried to bridge the gap, but I know that something has been clinging to you ever since I did that. I'll still remember our fun and all of our experiences, but oh well, those times are gone now. They're just memories. I admit sometimes you cross my mind, but not like you used to. Maybe one day I'll run into you and things will present themselves naturally, who knows.
I know you'll never be able to forget me, I guess that's mutual. I'll probably only exist in the back of your mind now, but that's okay, because that's mutual too.
Lastly, I wonder how you feel when you're lonely and anxious, and I wonder if you ever get depressed. I wonder how your parents are going... Also, I still don't even know if you live here, but I guess time will tell.
If doing the right thing is such a bother to me why am I even doing it? The hell to it all. I'm going to stop everything that is such a bother to me and only do things that I want to do. I need no other reason besides 'fun' to do things. I much rather pick useless crap that makes me happy over other crap that make me feel like shit.
God I love you so much S, my darling. You'll never know. The poem I showed you, I wrote for you. I know you didn't realise but it was a kind of closure for me. Someone else sort of likes me and I think we'd be good together. So I'm sorry, but I'm going to be falling out of love with you soon. Be happy. You'll always be the first one I ever loved.
I fear that i'll lose my sanity as soon as i give up the fight against my urges. I want to kill people. I want to kill them in certain ways(different weapons, different kind of torture before and so on) just to see what happens with the body. I dont like hurting people, i'm just so extremly curious..
fml. I cant even talk to a psychiatrist about this because they'll put me into some kind of lunatic asylum.
>>16725920 You have to think of your experience with her as a phase of your life that will never be recreated. Like adolescence. We all sometimes wish that we can be go back to high school and relieve our glory days again, or go back to the early twenties and enjoy that youthful vigor. Yet we understand that that cannot happen. Take from it memories and a catalyst for growth.
I'm a fucking failure. I have student's loan, repeated my year in college 2 times, now i failed my finals well maybe not every one of them but probably will. My parents spent like 10-15k $ on me yet i always end up in shit due to my overconfidence and arrogance. And even after previous two faliures i haven't learned anything. I feel my time has come. I've felt like shit before and when they finaly will kick me out of the college i'm gonna break. I need response good or bad - desn't matter. I just need opinion on how it looks from the 3rd person perspective bacuse my self-loathing is so bad at the moment i can't think straight.
Losing a job as a cleaner. How low can I go. Girlfriend doesnt know yet. Its fucking terrible. Skill-less 24year old, I feel like I should kill myself. The only hope I have is that I actually have ADHD and if I get prescribed medicine, it will actually hrlp me to be useful.
>>16729071If i manage to not fail any more finals i plan to continue, even tho i will have to pay 300$ to have another chance for passing those 2 exams i have failed during next semester. i can earn 300$ by working for 2-3 months in fast food only during weekends. If i will fail more exams...i don't know. Afraid of thinking about this second option. Probably going to dump college and try to earn some money fast. I've took a nap and going to study for tomorrow's exams but it looks bad desu.
I have been wanting to discuss our relationship for quite some time now. Whenenver I bring it up, you always seem to steer the conversation away from the obvious flaws that I am bringing up.
You almost never write to me on your own accord. You never make any time to see me, even tho' we live about 30 minutes apart. You always get worked up whenever I make a comment, like the one time I asked why you took of the necklace I gave you for Xmas. You seem to always be on the defensive and it makes me feel like you are prolonging the inevitable.
I love you, honestly I do. But if you dont love me back you need to make it clear. Even if you do have feelings and they are fading somehow you need to tell me. I cant find myself being with you if our relationship is a burden.
I know you said that you dont like to use social media etc, but you're still flagged as "Single" on your page. And this may sound childish but I commented on it about 2 years ago, and you still havent changed it. I really dont care about it anymore, but it kinda shows the level of dedication you are putting into this relationship.
I want to make this work. But for it to actually work we need to go at it together. A one-sided relationship feels lonelier than being single.
>Was together with a girl for a few weeks. >She told me she was older than she really were. >Proceed in telling everyone that we were a thing >She breaks up with me beacuse im not "cool" enough for her. >Starts in my school a few months later and prentends she does not know me. >I am made laughingstock of the entire school.
I however succeed in turning it around because she tried to get together with the most obese guy in our school, which was a taboo for all girls.
I just realized that i was jealous of your boyfriend. I kept telling myself that i was the better man. I'm still mad at your boyfriend tho cuz of the things you've done for him and you get nothing in return.
I just want you to know that i really love you for the bottom of my heart. And i'm willing to change just for you. I can say i love you everyday. And i really want to do it.
What does he have that i don't have? I know for myself that i am weak. I just can't get this off my chest. I guess i'm not the new me.
It's truly awful how I completely understand your point and I've lost count how many times I've said almost those exact words when people ask me how I am in regards to moving on from her. "I'm fine. I've moved on and I'm eternally grateful for the experience and how she helped me become the man I am now. I honestly would not be as successful as I am now if she wasn't in my life at that time. I was blessed" Yet when I think about it, who the fuck am I trying to convince? Them that I'm happy inside and 100% over her? Or me? That I'm okay with knowing I might be condemned to mediocre relationships and 'settling' for that second best feeling because who the fuck wants to die alone without a wife/husband and maybe kids?
I sure as hell don't. But I sure as hell don't want to settle for normal. I've had 2 short lived relationships in the's last 3 years and I ended both of them at 3 and 4 months because fuck mediocrity and settling for being just 'okay'. I want to fall in fucking love again. I want to believe that I'll feel like I did for her again. I accept it'll most likely never be her. But I want that kind of love with someone who I Will one day call my wife and be rushing to hospital because she's gone into labour with our first kid. Am I fucking delusional to want that? I could grind for the next 2-3 years and be on six figures in my line of work but fuck not being able to share my life with a wife who I'm in love with. I've been in love and money ain't shit compared to that.
Sorry. Rant over. I'm a passionate kind of guy. Haha
I have really fucked up morals. I sometimes see things that aren't really there (Something from my nightmares popping up and disappearing after a few seconds/someone walk past me etc.) I hate being alive and all I do is watch anime and play games all day. My grades have dropped massively and my best friends I suspect of being gay seems to be in love with me, but I am straight. I was bullied when I was younger. Beaten the living crap out of me by groups of people double my size. I am socially awkward. I enjoy watching small gifs of people die.
A WTF mate? I actually mean wtf? Just because a girl wants to talk and be friends, like you offered, dosent mean they want a relationship. I was just trying to be considerate of the other party within the matter... Now things are going to be awkward as fuck... especially with your new nerd glasses... Why can't people just be straight up and honest instead of playing bullshit games?
I want to die so much. I'm so exhausted. If I wasn't so lazy and a pussy I would have slit my wrists or jumped upfront of a buss. Currently I'm a wage slave so I can buy a gun and shoot myself. The first though in my head when I wake up is >why I don't have it hard by any means but I'm just so tired of trying to live , caring for people is so hard. I feel so fake. Everyday I feel trapped by my family. Feel like I'm just living for someone else it's hard to live for myself.
I've loved this man so long and its making me ill to be without him, I have tried and I can never get him out of my head, he flirted heavily for ages and I fell for him hard, I had two other relationships and a couple of dates since I've known him yet now I can't date anyone because I can't get over him, he sort of asked me out then asked me to marry him and I had trust problems and wasn't in the right frame of mind but I really wanted to take him seriously and I was so terrified and the whole thing is overwhelming but I cant be without him anymore, it distracts my work and my whole life and he ignores me for ages then suddenly starts appearing everywhere and it's killing me, he is all I need, no pills or chemical highs can give me what I feel with him, the chemistry is so amazing and I've never felt this way about anyone and feel I never will, yet still we are not together, I just need to make this happen then I feel he doesn't feel the same and he's playing games, he backs off then comes on strong and I can't deny him and I just can't get over it I don't know what to do, its not that i'd kill myself, I feel i'll die of heartache, any other relationship is pointless and I hate him sleeping and dating with other people, I need him so much and its all so empty without us, I just don't know how to cope. I've tried every other way and I cant get away, I need to get out but I can't, I need him and he must know, I can't stand it, i'd really love him back, I would and i'm so desperate I can't consider others, I tried and its not me, I wish I knew what he wanted
I love the girls on 4chan. So many of the ones I see here are so quirky and weird and eccentric, which is such a nice change from the girls in my city, who are all just carbon copies of the same boring template.
I told you that I was ready for rejection and it's OK, but it fucking isn't, I hate you but I can't stop loving your eyes. You have been drinking and dancing only with me whole night and when I want to ask you for a date, you don't want to? What the fuck is wrong with you, I've just stopped smoking and now you are making me want to smoke a pack. I can just hope that you will change your mind. Gonna gain weight and build some muscles so you will see that you have rejected the wrong guy.
you'll probably never read this but in the off chance you do, you've threatened to wreck me and destroy me in whatever means necessary. Its you who should fear me. you are a psychopath, your mental illness isn't something i'd use against you, it will be your own downfall. enjoy your miserable life.
Ran into someone, had a beer. Keeps obsessively looking at my hand for some reason (nails were real clean), is all frigid when i hug her goodbye. Don't app her for three days. Throws me off fucking facebook, i mend refriend yadda yadda. Send her something. Have to initiate every fucking thing, all these passive agressive "i want a boyfriend" while she's getting railed by these partyboys 2 times a week. I don't even know if her posts are directed towards me, i'm just staying the fuck away from this headcase.
Second girl i reconnect on OkCupid. She's all feminist and hippie and fat. First time we hang out her best friend calls me a boring faggot because we're not sharing spit yet. She gets a nice neutered beta boyfriend, we hang out again. She's okay with cucking her bf. NOPE. Also, have to initiate every fucking thing. 3 months after the fact she gives me a birthday present. I'm thinking "bitch, i don't want a birthday present, i just want you to initiate some conversation bc it seems you don't give a shit". And all these damn fights about sexual objectivication made me sick.
Third girl is so fucking precious, i'll admit i went too fucking far. But really this shit. So i stalked this lonely sack of shit hipster. Shy as fuck if she doesn't get intoxicated. Smokes a metric ton of weed and want's to be an artist. Whatever, she's a cute shy attentionwhore, just my type of fucked. >Find out where she lives >Stalk her IRL near her house >First time she's kinda scared but intrigued, yell she did a "great job kid"; calls me a brony faggot on twitter (I'm fit, 6'2'', good hygiene, just a dress-shirt and jeans + sneakers. no fedora). Apparently she saw it as an insult. >Second time her friend tells me to fuck off. >Third time she practically runs out of the door to buy some tomatoes, broad smile ear to ear. >xth to yth time she's all "let's get married and make 20 babies" too scared to speak again. So in my dumb obsession (or infatuation) i'm thinking this is going somewhere. Nope, nothing of the sort. Her friend either tells me to fuck off or she's too scare to come talk. The last time i really stalked her, it was dark and raining, she first pretended to call the police, put on her jacket (didn't come outside) took it off, opened her curtains, and just kept sitting there in front of her window. I mean, i'm happy to oblige this princess and eat her out all night, but i wasn't willing to catch pneumonia just to admire a sorta ugly girl (coming off my infatuation). Had an offday, stalked her one last time. And now she and her friend are like (come bakkk *girl* needs someone nice like uuu). Jesus christ, i've cucked myself for this little vixen.
My girlfriend is amazing and I love her more than I've ever loved anyone, but she's trapped living in the same town because she's obligated to care for her disabled sister with cerebral palsy. I want nothing more to help her get away from it and see the world like she's always wanted, but I don't know if we'll ever be able to until her sister passes.
I don't know what to do. I'm angry at her parents for trapping her in this situation, but I'm also scared I'll end up trapped by her circumstances too.
I constantly feel the urge to unblock my ex gf, message her telling that i forgive her and i want to stay friends, make her comfortable for a month or something and then slap her with "you naive dumb bitch did you believe that i'd forgive you after what you did?" Like seriously, if she makes a move on me i'm 100% sure i'm doing this without any regrets.
>>16730144 Now we're going to rant about girl -1 and 0.
GIRL 0 , this is real gold right here. Right from the start i saw her i just wanted to ravage this thin blonde. She had no tits but whatever. So we talk and talk and talk and we're playing footsy she's like "just platonic, no lust" and i'm thinking "sure whatever, this'll change right, we'll share spit at some point". Turn out she's xtian. That's okay, fine. We keep talking, this girl keeps dolling herself up more and more, wears these cutest little heels, her hair all perfect. She keeps pushing me away and making me sad. At some point it literally felt right to rape her, and i think she would have consented, but i wasn't half the man i'm now.
Stalk her later on, find some cute video of her signing. Liked and subscribed her channel. She subtly let's me know i'm her #1 and she's still a virgin. Like literally, going against her verbal wishes would've been the better alternative. I'd probably be married to her right now if i had just forced myself on her.
Girl -1, fuck girl -1. Literally spent a year trying to court this upperclass amazon via MSN messenger. She's getting dicked by literally every guy in town and keeping me on a fucking leash. Wants to be an actress, too ugly to an actress (i'm fuck yeah). If i ever meet her, i'll consensually rape her and quit it.
I wish i had a real fucking dad (not the pussyass wankwizard dad i have) who could've told me these kinds of things baka. Welp, not mad anymore, time to hit the sack.
>>16730130 I got currency and a job in the best field. Just need to find myself a bitch before i'm that one guy who wakes up at 40 and discovers there are other things in life than work.
2 of my friends fucked the ex I was getting back together with. Now she's seeing one of them and I want to smash the fucker but my other friends just want to sweep it all under the rug. Always being stuck doing what other people want out of fear of not being liked is seriously pushing me. I'm getting nothing from it but disrespect and dishonesty. What should I do?
I don't know if I should message you, but I guess you would have messaged me if you wanted to talk
There's only one thing bugging me, why did you call me last week to make plans and then went no contact for what, six days already? I dunno, buddy, don't you have any respect at all towards your friends/classmates?
>>16730188 Dude just click the no. in the post so we will know who you're responding to.
Let's keep it short. Bitch wanted us to get back, i agreed. It was LDR, and she insisted every fucking day for a whole month that i come and live with her. Bought the ticket, sold my stuff so i could have some money. She kept saying that she's "so happy" and "she loves me so much" 1 Week later, she basically tells me she had a talk with her ex-bf and right now she doesn't know what to do with us. I'm like wtf. She swears that she doesnt want to go back to him, but she wants to cut the ties and since i was involved (fuck yeah bitch involved me on her own, nobody asked me if i wanted to participate in that shit) she's reluctant to do it. We agree to try to figure things out. Next day i get a message on a fucking facebook that she can't do this, and it's over. I'm like fuck it, do whatever you want. Again fastforward for 1 week, she asks me if we could talk on skype. She's like "i don't want to lose you from my life" and "could we leave this as it is, and maybe someday come back to it?" Got fucking triggered, but kept my cool. Next fucking day i AGAIN get a facebook message that she apparently cant do it, and all that shit. Kept silent, told her if she's an adult she has to say it, not write it on facebook like a fucking child. She agreed, we were set and she fucking ignored that. That was it for me. Gave her the taste of her own medicine, wrote a message about what i'm thinking about her and what she's doing (no insults, just my point of view) and blocked the shit out of her. 1 Hour later her fucking friend calls me and starts threating me with court and all that shit. Like seriously, i'm out for blood right now.
Even if I could hold a conversation, I feel it's impossible to speak with people in such different mindsets. People who actually have some energy left. How the fuck can I ever relate to these people? I'll never meet a fellow dead man.
>>16724732 Seriously? You're ignoring another message? wtf is your problem? Why are you turning this into some sort passive-aggressive game? Im sorry i removed you but there was literally no reason i did that other than jealousy, you seem to be projecting other intents onto it or something. If you're not into me, you're not into me, no big deal, but at least for the sake of courtesy don't leave me hanging like this, as friend. Who does this shit? Idk why i even messaged you to be honest, you do this shit to everyone from what i can see. Are you one of those super insecure dickheads that just wants attention from people no matter how it makes the person feel? If so then fuck you, I dont even want to continue a friendship after this.
>>16730383 I have never been in a relationship with this person, and they have expressed interest, which is what makes it frustrating. I guess they're just playing games like everyone else in the dating world these days... People.
You are not welcome inside my head. GET OUT! I don't want to be infatuated with you. I never did. Why do you think I pretended not to see you for 8 years? You are a cunning bastard. A beautiful glorious one, but still. I WANT TO MOVE ON.
>>16730387 Okay, taking my words back then. Just cut the drama, ignore, block, whatever. If it would make you feel better give that person an earful and move on. Thing is you gave this person more credit of trust than he/she deserved. We all done that, there's nothing wrong with it. Take it as a lesson and next time be more careful.
>>16730234 Do yourself a favor and never speak to her or her friends again. You gotta remove yourself from shit like that and never look back. Dealing with people like that will fuck your brain up. Trust me man, too many women out there to focus effort on one crazy ho.
>>16730405 It was the removing as a friend that caused the drama in the first place, I don't know why she cared about the removal if she didn't care about me. She just wants another admirer it seems, someone to feed her delicate ego.
>>16730413 That's what i'm doing, cut the ties and went on a rampage with my friends. Partying, hanging out in places and stuff. I'm perfectly fine, but sending her dog after me made made me want to obliterate her. I have no clue why she did that, but i'm a kind of guy who will jump on your head if you stain my pride. Maybe it's childish, but that's how i work.
>>16730423 You're right. I just sent her a message and removed her and told her basically what I did in the post. I'm sure she'll say she had no idea and all that, but whatever, I don't care about her excuses anymore, I'm not gonna have my emotions leeched away from me by someone who clearly has no regard for other people.
>>16730442 Exactly, as long as she is in your life you will continue to feel like shit. Having people in your life like that is like having a poison in your body, you'll never feel good again until you purge that shit and work on your recovery. Good luck bro.
Drinking too much lately, haven't worked at all this year, got divorced last year because she put her hands on my kid (couldn't control her temper) and left me NO choice... I have a business but am not very good at being a 'go getter' or making money so I barely get by most of the time. I play in a band, write music and do a lot of 'artistic stuff' but I still empty and hollow inside (mostly). What to do? I feel like I don't agree with most people most of the time anymore about anything. It is hard to stick to the script when you don't believe the story... All hail Discordia!
I really wanted to spend this public holiday with my bf seeing as though last year he was overseas but apparently being a gf means absolutely jack shit.
It would be fucking fantastic if he stopped avoiding me and just got it over and done with.
It would also be fucking great if he stopped lying to me when he says he 'loves' me. It's pretty fucking obvious he doesn't and we both know it. I've always loved him more than he apparently loves me. He doesn't love me and I question if he ever did, and he never will.
He's going to shatter my already broken heart, again, anyway.
>>16730209 She's a cunt, your friends are dbags. If you have any respect for yourself move on and find someone else. Invite them all to dinner, get there first, have a cocktail to chill. When the server comes to take your food order make sure you are on the last sip of your drink. You want to order last ok, when the server asks you what you'd like say I'd like to say goodbye to three fucking morons, finish your drink, exit stage left.
He was around all afternoon before class for seemingly no reason. I imagine there was nobody else to hang out with, or maybe his excuse was true and it was too hot inside (but I'm less inclined to believe this, it wasn't too hot and he tends to feel cold, not hot) but I'm still going to bed with a smile on my face because there's a tiny, tiny, tiiiiny chance it was because of me. He also talked and looked at me more. Or maybe it was just my imagination.
I'm fine with it either way, I'm enjoying this. I really like him.
I have 3 friends, they all live far away because I've moved and haven't seen them in two years. I'm lonely. they never call me. never. I always have called them. once I stopped it was almost as if I'd ceased to exist. fuck everyone. the only person I need is myself I guess.
i have so much to say and i cant express it properly.. but maybe this'll help...
i know you feel bad because of how you treated me earlier, even though i brought it on myself, i feel a different kind of guilt that you felt that you needed to apologize. i don't know though, were you saying what you were saying to be hateful, or were you unaware of what you were truly doing? either-way, we both feel like shit, so let's just feel like shit together.
you had me terrified this afternoon though.. you got the honesty you wanted and then needed to "think" about some things, saying that if i didn't know that you truly loved me then you were just wasting your time.. well, guess what chicken butt, it's your doing that brought the ideas in my head by the way you were talking to me today. deep down i know you do love me, though, but you have to remember i hear voices all the time and they tell me cruel things.. most of them pertaining to you and how you truly feel about me.
i don't know..
i cried myself to sleep, this i won't tell you.
i don't know why my emotions are doing what they're doing, because in my eyes, you should be the one who is angry, crying, etc but instead it's me. it's me crying like a little bitch every time we talk... hell, i'm not looking forward to tomorrow only because i'm scared that i'll cry in front of you and make you feel worse. i swear, i'm not trying to make this ALL ABOUT MEEEEE - i just.. i can't ... HORMONES, MOTHERFUCKER.
I want to do heroine. I want to do heroine. I want to do heroine. I need to find something to snort soon or I'm going to give in and get it. Drunk isn't enough. I need to escape this place. Where did you go? I need you to tell me no. When did I get like this?
I just fucked my relationship up I feel like a big piece of shit, I will never met a girl like you. This is the saddest I've ever felt about myself and I deserve it. I wish I can fix things up but is up to you. Waiting for your answer will be hell for me you know how impatient I am. I am really sorry and I will always be. I hate myself.
>>16724732 I cant start liking you now. fuck you. youre a horrible person. but we click so god damn well. i know for a fact that youre gonna be famous one day and the girl im with now wont be. i sometimes wish i had chosen you instead. but i know it wouldve gone differently than expected. right?...
I don't know if I'm in love with my girlfriend of about four years anymore. We don't even have sex because she's depressed and self-conscious and has no sex drive anymore. I'm so sexually frustrated and around girls that I could conceivably have casual sexually relationships with, as I'm in an open relationship, but my girlfriend is so needy that she constantly needs me around to hang out with her and not do anything else, so I can't have the chance to do anything with anyone else.
I kind of feel like my life is coming out of my control. I'm fucking up school a bit, not trying as hard as I should be, and I'm a very sexually person, and masturbation doesn't cut it after a while. I haven't just plain made out with a cute girl in a while.
If anyone has advice, I'm willing to hear it. I know I should probably just break up with my gf, but I'm afraid of what will happen if I leave her. She doesn't really have anyone else, and I still care about her. But we also bicker almost every day, and I'm getting sick of that as well.
Hurting right now, so I wanna take it out on somebody else which isn't fair. Sucks that it has to be my first Australia day off work in five years and nothing to do and my car is fucked. Fuckity fuck Fuck you britney, take some fucking advice you dumb idiot.
>>16731663 Honestly dude, breaking up isn't just good for you, but also good for her. It could be the wake up call she needs to re-think her ways and understand that her actions don't result in a happy, functioning relationship. She'll only continue to behave this way, she won't change for you. You will be happier when you take control of your life and start afresh, and she may find it more grounding when she bounces back to her friends/family/whoever was there for her before there was you and she can re-start her life again and re-evaluate where she's going. Good luck man. I know it really sucks to hurt her and you know she'll get super depressed, but she'll get past it. Just block her number if you're worried she'll do a "if you leave me I'll hurt myself!" thing. Been there, done that. Honestly best thing you ever do. I love you bro.
>>16731657 Not OP but,I am in a ldr and everything was ok. Last Thursday I came to visit my girlfriend. The first 2 days were great. But my girlfriend or ex I don't really now right now. She have depression and she can't have sex that often. Last Saturday I got drunk and tried to had sex with her she obviously turned me down and I got mad because of it. I haven't seen her since October and it was difficult to me handling with that. My reaction was really selfish and stupid. I basically said that who am I going to fuck if she can't. She got really mad at me. I spent that night in the couch. Sunday and today have been really bad. And I know it's all my fault. Today I'm going back home and I don't know what's going to happen. But this feeling is the worst I had, she is really great and I know I will never meet anyone like her I just hope that she forgives me but I havd little hope about it. I feel like shit and I deserve it.
bunch of selfish fucks think you can go around loving people and leaving as if it doesn't make a mark on them? It's much more sensitive to people with a mental illness so don't date them if you can't handle it and don't know what you're getting into.
when i told you that i was "done crying" over this, it wasn't intended to say that i'm off the hook and everything is fine.. i'm just tired of feeling sorry for myself and are ready to take responsibility for my actions.
no, there is no one else in my life. I know it'll take some time for you to understand that, if you ever do, but thank you for being so patient with me and not packing your shit and leaving me; i was so terrified this evening and i don't know who you talked to, but, keep going to them... they're giving you grand advice.
I just want to make friends with a girl my own age who treats me as an equal. I have mostly hung out with boys my whole life. And for a while was even panicked to talk to other girls because of judgment and insecurities. I just never shared their dating problems or boy problems. I never shared the drama or if there is one girl who wanted be alpha (which there always is) I wouldn't bend to their will.
I just want some one to chill with. I'm married so preferably they have a stable relationship too. I just feel like I fucked up in a major way. Partly because I have stubborn values that have fucked myself from getting along with my own gender. I really want to put myself out there this year and hopefully make a friend...but who knows.
I'm home alone with nothing to do on Australia day too. My bf ditched me, after basically saying we might do something, to have a bbq with his mates (didn't get to spend last year together either), and my parents are at a family friend's.
I just feel so empty. On the surface I do want a gf. But inside I think I'll just be a burden to her with how hollow I honestly feel right now. Am I just scared to start dating again? Is that's what's going on? Sure the last gf sucked horribly but why am I letting that affect me? Or IS it affecting me? That was over a year ago now.
I don't even want to masturbate anymore. I don't know what I want from a girl anymore. This honestly feels worse when I was just begging for a gf. At least I had a goal, although a shitty one but still it was something to look forward to. Now I just don't care anymore.
I've met some wonderful friends as time went on and they've been very supportive. So at the very least I know I won't commit suicide. It'd just be disrespectful to them, let alone my family.
I just don't know. I want a gf but I don't want to put her through my hollowness. It'd be awful to do to some poor girl out there.
i want to be able to scream without anyone asking "WHAT'S WRONG??" - I have so much pent up anger and stress that I know screaming would help, but, people won't leave me alone to take care of what I need to take care of. Fuck.
M. I know how you feel. Honestly, I feel the same way. More accurately, I guess you're in the "I'd be down if we were on the same continent" zone. I might take the plunge, but I gotta think about it.
However, as I grow fonder towards you, I get more concerned about you're interest in astrology, the law of attraction and other new agey claptrap. I like you a lot, and it's hard to watch someone I deeply care about fall for a scam. John Hagelin is a charlatan. Transcendental meditation is a sham, look into mindfulness instead. Astrology has no evidence. Your idol is Carl Sagan for christ's sake, he has a whole rant on all this.
>>16732066 Yeah those guys will be like, "Dude don't sit next to those emo kids!" also there was douchey who was the guy "Who fucking sat at the damn goth table and put his head down to mock the shit out of every one of those guys. Mean what the fuck were they going to do?" There are going to be pieces of shit no matter wht. Then there was another asshole who laughed next door at the mentally disabled. Mean as ever. Then you got an asswipe druggie laughing at the Arab kid.
So yeah do not follow these guys, they are pricks. Jad who isa awesome dealt with these pricks in his life and had to stand up to them. You'll be happy. Right now I am happy. I mean fuck assholes
Cheated on my wife, the first woman I have ever been with sexually and my partner for over 10 years. It all happened so strange. I planned it without any form of doubt or hesitation. I looked for a girl online and went with it... It almost feels surreal how it happened.
A little backstory: I was never a sexual person. I enjoyed sex with my then girlfriend, now wife, and that was it. We weren't freaky or kinky, just plain old sex. The problem was probably that she didn't really enjoy it, she was even less sexual than me. She didn't always orgasm and it put a bit of strain on our sexlife.
Occasionally there would be awesome moments where she was also into it, she'd put on nice lingerie and we'd go at it for a few hours and we'd both orgasm a few times. These moments were few and far in between and each time they happened, they awakened something in me. They left me hungry for more of these moments and I just couldn't handle the rejection every time I propositioned sex to her. I grew to resent sex with her, except when she initiated.
After handling rejection for over 2 months I was sick of it. I thought to myself, sexual death at 28 is not worth it, but I built up a life with her... I have children with her... I cannot throw it out the window! Or can I? I took the risk. I went online and searched and searched. And after 2 months of searching I finally found a woman. She's married, with a husband that is away a lot. The husband encouraged her to go through with finding someone online and to experiment while he is away. She was a Hotwife. Weeks went by with chatting online. I never told her I was married. I never told her I had kids. She never asked.
>>16732222 Finally the day of the meet happened and it was amazing. I was so confident with her and she was so shy. It took about 2 hours of talking and walking for her to be comfertable with me, I was charismatic and totally normal. She was akward but nice and sweet. An amazing body. I didn't feel the need for sex, it was just nice to talk to another woman for once... But we ended up at her place anyway and things became hot and heavy.
She probably thought I did this a lot, going back to womens places for a good time while in reality, she was the first woman I have ever been with next to my wife. She claims I was her first man other than her husband.
The sex was amazing, I never knew I could make a woman squirm like that. I made her orgasm so many times I couldn't keep count. I couldn't believe my stamina. I think something inside of me just snapped and thought "here is my chance to shine". She liked it rough so I indulged her and ended up liking it as well. We had sex for about 3 hours and then just say laid there, talked about stuff and cuddled. I wanted more but she was so soar that I'd just feel bad if I pushed her. I'd like to think I wasn't pushy at all and made her feel comfterable with me and her amazing body.
We talked about hooking up again in the future and how nice it was. Then I left.
The shame didn't hit me until 2 days after. Not the shame for cheating on my wife, (that came later) but the shame for lying to this amazing young woman. For not telling her I was married and what I was doing. For not being honest to the woman I broke the sanctity of marriage with. In the end, it wasn't just good sex but it was being with a wonderful person that I made a connection with, and it is all based on a lie.
I've been sick to my stomach for days now. I can't stop thinking about her. I can't stop thinking about the lies. I'm such a scumbag.
Say absolutely nothing. Get the best lawyer you can and divorce your wife on grounds of suspected infidelity (since apparently she doesn't want to have sex with you, she's obviously been fucking somebody else).
I know we won't ever be with each other again, we ended on an okay note, and even though I haven't messaged or talked to you in a while just know I love you. I'm keeping my distance because I care about you more than I care to breath. You feel the same way which is why we can never speak again. He can give you a better life than I can.
Just know that I'm doing what you said and making my life better. Even if it's difficult without you in it, without your laughter, your warmth that calms me, and your constant never judging attitude. I'm making myself better because of the love you gave me. And for that, I'll push on to make you happy. I'll push on because I love you.
You'll always be the one, even if that means I have to go on with my life alone.
Get over yourself I say under my breath, when I get annoyed with the thoughts in my head. I don’t deserve to say I’m sad, I don’t know what sadness is. I’m nothing more than complaints from a dumb spoilt kid.
I crave love, I crave attention, and I hate myself for this. I’m embarrassed by my depression, when I put things in perspective
It felt good, having finally built up some confidence. For the first time I felt like I was actually a worthwhile human being. In fact, I felt like I was better than everyone else. I saw myself as a god, above all else. It felt good. But of course they have to destroy everything. I'm back at square one. Pieces of shits gotta ruin everything, don't they? Truth is my mind isn't stable enough. There's never a good balance. I always wanted to be superior to everyone else. I wanted to look down on everyone and know that I'll always be better than they'll ever be. This makes me vulnerable to jealousy to those that are better of than myself. Those that have it easier in life. I want to take everything that matters away from them and make their lives miserable.
I'm not disciplined. 3rd time retaking this philosophy course at community college and I'm going to fail it. Didn't do any work at all. That's it, no more repeating it. Used up all my chances since 3 is the limit. All that money wasted that wasn't even mine. All those other classes I have failed. I feel so pathetic. Just seeing my mom's face when she thinks I'm doing well makes me despair. I haven't slept well in a year. Always up until 5 a.m, mind racing with thoughts of failure and lies. Only when I'm really deprived of sleep is when I have that lapse of "peace" but it's bullshit, and I wake up like I haven't rested.
>>16732653 Not having discipline is the worst feeling in the world. I feel for you my friend. I am the same way and it sucks. I can't say anything to make you feel better, just know you aren't the only one. You'll get there eventually.
I was hoping to lose five lbs by mid-February, but I've already lost four lbs in the past week. I am aware that weight fluctuates, but I am feeling pretty confident that I'm going to exceed that goal. It feels really good. I'm goddamn tired of being overweight and hating my body.
Nothing I type is safe Nothing I say is safe Nowhere I go is safe
There are eyes all around me collecting more and more details so that the very instant I'm not playing the game right they will crush me with their hate. they will crush me with their words. I have no life left, no autonomy.
These fine lines I walk have taken my freedom and I am trapped. I would much rather be alone, than to be an experimental rat.
>>16724732 you've put me through hell through our 10 months of dating..you made my life a soap opera, being best friedns w your ex's twin sister who is a homewrecker and inappropriate even tho she has a bf.. you made our relationship dysfunctional, blamed me for what you did wrong, and now after 10 months you finally will stop being friends with her...ive honesly been getting myself ready to break up with you for a month, and I was finally ready... I realized overall you made me miserable for the past 10 months, and none of it was worth it.
and i feel bad bc you stopped being friends with her, even tho you've guilt tripped me about it this whole time... i shuld have walked away a long time ago and not be with someone who stays besties with his ex's twin sister... like that is sooooo insane and i should have left you then,. i feel like an idiot for being so unhappy and letting my life be a soap opera for this long
the thing is, when you told me a wek and a half ago you were gonna stop being friends, i could have been happy then. but you took it back a week later, nd you hung out with her alone, and its just like..at this point the damage is done, and i know youre trying to fix things but you've made me so unhappy in my life that like im just fed up and i don't even wanna be with you really anymore idk what to do sorry
I hate you, your words are like needles that keep hurting my heart. I can't believe that I used to love you. Stop trying to become just friends with me or I'll stab you with a knife. Just focus on your new faggot you met and let me forget that you even existed.
Here's how it works: If someone fucks with my shit the way you did, I will never forgive it. I guess pretty weed-dealing boys think they can get away with anything. Because they'll always be some stupid bitch there who will take anything from them. But not me. What you did was fucked up and mean. I want you to feel real bad about it, because that's how I felt. You made me feel bad about myself, and so now I want you to feel bad about yourself.
There are better ways to treat people. I've had one-night-stands that were awesome and chill. I know you like to think I"m some hysterical bitch but at least I'm not a grimy little grifter prison bitch like you.
I would have been a friend to you if you hadn't been such a fucking cunt to me.
I'm tired of pretending I'm strong enough. I want to be cared for, I want affection. I'm tired of always appearing happy-go-lucky and cheerful. C'mon, people, can't you see there's a void inside that I can't fill with anything?
>>16724732 I got cat-called today during an afternoon jog. It pissed me off even more to know the guys doing it were probably high school kids, treating me like a piece of meat with no value beyond my appearance.
What felt even worse was simply knowing that there was nothing that I could do besides ignoring them as they followed me for a while. I couldn't help but wonder how better, how much respect I'd have were I born a guy. Not that I'd have a lot of respest, the point is that it seems I currently have negative respect by default, and it makes me question how in the future I could possibly manage to be a boss, for example. It pisses me off, to say the least.
But then I thought how I can't control other people; that getting upset over it will only give them power. As much as it sucks, I can't give in to negative thoughts and feelings of inferiority like this because it will only prove damaging on the long run. Whether I'd have manage to run a company repectfully or not is way too far in the future for me to worry about it, I'll just focus on doing great right now and in the near future.
I am a sociopath/narcissist. The one thing that bothers me is that I've realized that I don't have a personality of my own. I always simply mirror the person I am speaking to. When two people I know are in the same room it's very frustrating. It's like my sense of identity is completely gone. It's not like I can stop acting a certain way and just ''be myself'', there is no myself. What I found that it's always easier to simply split up people and isolate them so I don't have to juggle between two acts, but there's all sorts of risk involved. If I have a person X and a person Y, and I try to separate them by turning X against Y it can damage my reputation. I am not sure what to do. Maybe I can construct a default persona to fall back to.
I'm pretty sure she's NOT "the one." But I'm terrified by the idea of breaking up only to find she was the best I could get.
My youth is slipping away.
She's fairly accepting of who/how I am, but she doesn't really stimulate me intellectually, socially, or sadly, sexually. I don't really feel like she's a good match for me, but there's a lack of friction or conflict. In other words, I wouldn't say our relationship is "good" or "bad." I want something more, but don't feel justified in ending this one.
I don't know what to do, and when I don't know what to do, I just wait and let fate push me in whatever direction it wants. I'm getting older now (31) and this is unfortunately my first relationship ever. My late start, lack of experience/perspective, and the ticking of the clock all make it feel that much rougher.
>>16733220 Stop drinking the kool-aid. Just because some high school kids were messing with you doesn't mean women are some sort of an oppressed minority that is treated like pieces of meat. That's completely insane. I am a guy and I've been cat called plenty of times, mostly by high school girls who just want a response. Teenagers are horny and starving for attention. As long as it's not black guys cat calling you there's no reason to be upset or scared. If black dudes are doing it then yeah, they see you as nothing as tits and ass, and they would rape you if they had the chance.
>>16733319 Dude, you have no idea. Yes, that catcall video was fake and stupid, yeah, Jezebel and Tumblr feminists suck, but you have no fucking idea the level of bullshit attractive women have to put up with from aggressive guys on an almost daily basis. You'd be floored if you understood.
Yes, guys have to put up with their own shit. It's different shit. Doesn't make this shit any less fucking tiresome for women (and occasionally scary.)
>>16733459 When I was 19 I lived in Chicago in a bad neighborhood I was a Virgin and scared of boys. When they yelled at me on the street I felt so humiliated and uncomfortable,. It happened all the time. Then one day when it happened I just smiled waved and said hi! Very little-sisterish and just walked on by. It shit them up quick. I do this in any situation when I'm walking by myself and some guy starts up with me. I just smile and say hi. Now I'm just old don't give a fuck and I crack jokes with them. But keep it very unflirty, shit it happened just last night lol
I think it's important to let these guys know you're a human being by just saying hi cheerily instead of walking past cringing in shame like I used to
>>16733319 I can't go anywhere without being cat called at least once. I'm not even that attractive, so it must be because I have a vagina. it's not just my neighborhood either, it's everywhere I've lived for the past 5 years. I wish it were by high school kids rather than 30-50 year old men. I'd feel a lot less threatened.
clever. I like it. when i'm not with you I want to be with you but when you're with me you don't want to be with me. well, if it works both ways you want to be with me when you're not with me and I don't want to be with you when i'm with you, although i'm sure none of that's really true, i'm sometimes afraid of everything, the opposite of anything, stand there, stay this time, it's only trust to overcome, we see each way, true love
Stupid. I still want you. I thought having someone else would force me to move on, but I knew I couldn't. Goodness, but I'm trying. I can't have you, because clearly I don't want it badly enough, nor do you.
But I can't stop thinking of you, and how fucking devastated I feel right now. Like, you might have been the love of my life. Now I'll never know, and I don't think I regret it. No, right now, I'm just fucking sad. And I miss talking to you. And I miss your dimples, and the way your face lit up whenever you saw me, and all those little things you'd do. I just fucking miss you, and I haven't the right to, do I?
I found a gorgeous flask today, something ive been looking for for a long time. I also got myself a little treat for finishing unified auditions, a smooth , sanded little box that you can keep small things like cigarettes or pebbles in.
The airport bar totally gave me a glass of wine without carding me. Im 20, but i guess i look older, which is great.
things are going great with T. Im excited to get home and see her. Im so hapy she got her period, because i was really scared when i came inside her accidentally.
I could potentially never look back at this time with pity of how inexperienced i was, i am afraid i will always be a 6-7/10 unsure beta faggot. I really can't move on with my life until i have had atleast one gf. I don't know how to talk to girls and it's killing me, I want to be outgoing and social but i'm stuck here, with my insecure virgin self. There is no manual on how to do life. :(
if this is..anyway, I don't think of what we may of had, I know we had, yeah don't fucking rub it in, unless its in me quite honestly. timing is important but I feel I do want it enough, so we can make up any excuse I suppose as to why or a vague reason that may not matter in the end but whatever, I still love the fuck out of you and don't see why we have to 'move on' if you're just trying to let down gently in my shy aspects, then seriously, fuck it, just say, I hate this, you know that after every time I just wanted you and went out of my way like you did to show you, when we were talking, it was real, you fucking know it, and now i'll be selfish and say why the fuck should I have to be without you? you didn't have to lead this far up the path, this hurt me more than anything, why are we here when we could be happy
>>16733929 Because you couldnt say you were sorry. Because you wouldn't talk to me. Because I tried to fucking hug you and you walked away and turned your fucking back to me. Because you brought two whores into the club and started yelling about how sexy they were. Because you rolled your eyes at me. Fucking roll your eyes and walk off with your arm around that stupid cow.
Even though she was an emotionally abusive harpy and cheated on me twice and didn't feel any remorse the second time I still have feelings for my ex 5 months after the breakup because no one else has ever given me the time of day in my 24 years of life. I'm totally alone and friendless even though I make ok money, get out, and I've put on 30 lbs of muscle since then. I have no idea what to do anymore and just want to kill myself daily.
>>16724732 I'm 21, and I suddenly feel bad about being a virgin. I know I shouldn't care, and ever since I was 16-17, I really hadn't cared. I had more important things I wanted to spend my time on. But now it feels like I've missed out on something. I never had that "two people awkwardly exploring each others' bodies" experience and I feel like I'm expected to have gotten over that and know what I'm doing. I feel like that guy who never got to play with legos as a kid, and wants to know what it's like to have that childhood experience, but is too self-conscious to let themselves indulge in that little fantasy.
I actually have a great girlfriend, a pop-rock band, quite a good job in marketing, but I just seem to turn more and more away from real world and waste time playing fucking video games, and what's worse, I lie about this shit to basically everybody. I have finals in university in 7 hours and I will fucking fail them because I didn't learn even a single fucking minute. Instead i poured 70 hours into Skyrim in this week alone. Why the fuck do I keep doing this to myself?
I gues it's time to man the fuck up and cut myself out from gaming and watching stupid lets plays on Youtube like a damn 8-year-old.
As I said, i didn't tell this to anybody so far, so I'm just taking this off of my chest.
Fuck it, I'm done trying to sit here and figure out why you're ignoring me and just being a straight up cunt in general. I'm done feeling like a worthless pile of shit when you're too much of a god damn coward to just be honest and act like a fucking adult.
P.S People at work are catching on to your shit. Nobody trusts or wants to work with the girl who goes around saying shit. Especially after someone had to apologize for accidentally giving you an anxiety attack when you weren't doing your fucking job.
Find out how, but do not get attached to people who talk nonstop, but never want to get anywhere with you. Doesn't matter if they are good or not. You can be good too. Get attached to meaningful people. Nice or Not does not matter. It would not even matter if one day they confessed to other people they are having an interest do not get into it. It will ruin you. If they are all up defining crap or perhaps trying to throw you into teenagish stuff and spreading it.
Believe me watch yourself go to one place to the other and see what happens. Nothing right? Really, nothing. It would not even matter if they get people who are grown adults to dismiss you or even the entire place. Guess what, nothing. Don't get caught up in it. They all could be chasing you everywhere. And it would end with you back to where you started. I wasted upon hours talking nonstop.
Fucking shit you are a man not a pansy. Do you need teenagish people? No you don't. I mean fuck this shit. Why am I even focused that I am inside a damn National Lampoon movie and not reality. I'll tell you guys it is all about those triggers and the attention given by it and seeing them talk. When you hear talking about you treat it like the dog next door who won't bark it's head off. However I will say I did care about these people, but this is stupid. Really stupid! Fucking stupid! Don't get into it you guys. Doesn't matter if they were your friends, they never were to begin with and are trying to find ways to use you with nonsensical drama that teenagers use that I should not even be apart of.
Fucking hell. I bet all of you feel bad about not approaching the things you want in life because of crappy drama and probably am just as crazy as me about things. Don't dive into it okay. You see a girl saying specifics like let's say you are the only overweight guy:
WELL FATTY HERE JUST SAID!
Like oh my god he eats so much cheeseburge-
Don't give in to it. Politicians deal with this a lot.
I'm a skinny fucker. Why do I worry so much about what I eat? I've made myself develop minor emotional eating/binge eating issues. Luckily I caught them and fixed them for the most part before getting myself fucked.
This is all because of anxiety. It's anxiety. Fucking hereditary Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It has reaches IN EVERY PIECE OF MY LIFE.
I hate not feeling good enough. I've been trying so hard to cultivate more self-love and I believe it's been working.
Creeped on my ex's facebook page today. She found out she's having a baby boy. That's good for her. She seems so happy. I want to message her and say congratulations, but with how things ended, and the fact that we aren't facebook friends, I feel she'd be a little put off by it all. I miss her sometimes.
As I wade through another year of soul-crushing depression, I wanted to take moment to acknowledge your part in this. Your constant abuse throughout my life has broken me in just the precise way that turns one into a sucking black hole of need and self-doubt. Because of your constant berating of me, telling me I’m stupid, ugly, useless, unwanted, whatever, I’m completely unable to discern the nature of any kind of interaction with another human being. I’m always doubting whether or not people like or accept me, so deep down I always assume people hate me regardless of the circumstance. But if someone is nice to me, especially if that someone is an attractive male, the utter lack of any kind affection or affirmation of love from you leads me to assume that he MUST be romantically interested in me. This was all fine and good when I was single, but it’s fucking awful now that I’m married.
>>16734813 continued... Any kind of positive interaction with men leaves me lusting after them as I crave their attention to make up for the abuse and neglect you visited upon me as a child. Don’t get me wrong, my husband is a wonderful person and meets my every need, but the damage you did is so severe that even his love isn’t enough to repair things. I’m just glad that I have more faith and fortitude than my biological mother, your messed up younger sister, who thought whoring around instead of raising her kids would get her the love she missed out on being brought up by your psychotic harpy of a mother. Way to keep it in the family. And since we’re talking about family, thanks for bringing my fucking sociopath of a sister into the world. She’s meaner and more vicious than you ever were and was more than happy to dish out any beatings you may have forgotten to give me. She treated her own daughter so terribly that it drove the poor kid to heroin use and an early death. Honestly, why no one ever nominated you for Mother of the Year is beyond me.
You've been up for five days on meth. They always say they'll never slip, they'll never fuck up their life like other people who do drugs, etc. You've been doing this for just over a month now. TAKE A FUCKING LOOK AT YOURSELF AND LISTEN TO ME BEFORE YOU END UP LIKE THEM. I'VE SEEN IT HAPPEN FROM START TO FINISH BEFORE. IT'LL BE NO DIFFERENT WITH YOU.
I've survived amongst the normie hordes by "assimilating" and acting in a similar way to you.
I learned that simply being quite and keeping my mouth shut would just make me that "creepy quite guy"...
It wasn't just about hiding my powerlevel by not showing it... It was more of a distracting them away from my powerlevel by giving them a "normie" persona to relate to.
I get that way around multiple people too. Groups especially. The got this whole herd mentality "burn at the stake for witchcraft" thing goin' on when they get together so... for an outsider like me - it's terrifying.
Anyway, I've found that ambiguity is key. Let nothing be certain about you... I mean, holy shit I had some degenerate drugged up mudslime and a hardcore christian arguing about the kind of guy they thought I was.
Naturally, the mudslime thought I was a player who just didn't speak about his conquests... thought I was living the dream but keepin' it low-key (I honestly do not know what led him to believe that - but I never corrected him), while the hardcore Christian thought I was polite, well-mannered and well... "good".
I find that if you can get them argueing against each other about who you are... then you can basically laugh and nod every few seconds and you won't actually have to say anything or reveal your (lack of) personality.
For the record, I'm not a sociopath. I've felt both guilt and love. This is just how I survive day to day against the "normie" hordes who'd alienate me if they could.
You know what, FUCK YOU J. I'm done. Obviously the pussy is too good for you to abandon your friends and family.Its not even you i'm mad at, its me. How stupid of me to devote so much time and energy to you. I always felt you would disappear on me after seeing you do to others so many times. You better hope she doesn't leave cause we both know you'll be left with nothing.
It's not that big of a deal anon. You're only 21, you'll have plenty of opportunities in the coming years to lose your v card. Don't sweat it. No one will really be able to tell unless the topic of sex comes up in a conversation.
>work at shelter >5 puppies come in on same day from different places >one of them is 4 months old and deaf >find fosters for all of them except her >take her home myself >have 8 month old pup at home >everything goes well at first, they have fun playing in yard >go inside >still going well >realize she resource guards the couch >growls at and stares down my dog if he goes near her while she's on it >keep her off couch to avoid this >my dog runs over and sniffs her as she tries getting on it again >she turns and they get in fight >my dog normally loves other dogs but doesn't take no shit and fights back >she has a very small wound on the back of her leg now >tfw keeping them in separate rooms for the night and bringing her back to the shelter tomorrow
I know it's beyond my control but I want to cry. I've been in a tough spot in my life lately so it just feels like another thing I've failed at
It should look better in a month once it grows out some. Are you single or taken, because I would kind of see it as a positive if you're in a relationship (keeps guys from hitting on you- that is if you're a girl).
If they don't want you, it's their loss. Time will heal wounds. Cherish the company of friends and family around you while recuperating. If you're alone or feel like you are, the door's always open here.
>still living at home, dumping most of my money into savings >always had to pay for everything including 'rent', insurance, phone bill, paid off two cars in their entirety and never got desperate since I can budget >two well-off people (spoiled/can't budget) I know moved out last year >both always acted shitty when they found out I was still living at home >get shit and overhear shit talk from them ("Anon is probably going to live with his parents forever lol." "Never gonna get a gf living at home dude. Hahaha!") >go to visit both end of last year >both couldn't budget worth shit, didn't save for emergencies and are living in squalor >both had to move back home this year tails tucked between their legs >one with zero cash and the other with outstanding bills/debt
I don't want to feel good about it, but after all of the 'mom's basement' jokes and 'pussy repellent' jokes made at me since I live at home...
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