So sometimes I get too horny for my own good and do stupid things. Last night found sketchy craigslist guy and insisted he wear a condom. He came over with lube, a toy and yes a condom. Toyed me for like 20 seconds then put condom on and started fucking me. This was nice and I liked it maybe too much, because then he started going on about how condoms suck and he couldn't even feel me and how much he wanted to cum inside me. I didn't really know how to say no at that point with him in me already and have a huge semen fetish so I kinda gave in. He came and I loved it until he left. Since then I've been worried about getting HIV and I know I can't even be tested for over a month so fuck.
Please tell me I don't have HIV. It was just once and I'm probably fine right?
Seeing as he didn't hesitate to not cum inside without a condom, he probably has nothing to fear. Probably had HIV and you probably have it now too.
There's a reason STD's exist you know, to weap out degenerates like you. Picture yourself as a kid looking into a mirror and then seeing you right now, his future self. Knowing he will die from being a faggot. What will he think?
I mean can't have AIDS before HIV. What are my chances of having HIV? You can't even get tested for it for several weeks it's bullshit. I'm kinda freaking out and thinking my life is over.
If you are this afraid go to your doctor today. They can give you anti-retrovirals right now that could ward off a primary infection. Also, of this is what you are into, you can get a prescription for trivada, which prevents Hiv transmission and is widely available to high risk groups. If you did context Hiv, ultimately all that would happen is you would need to take treatment and inform.future sex partners. You will not have a doomed life. The stigma in your own mind would be worse than the virus. Also, Caucasians man to women sex in the united states has quite low transmission rate as is, it's far more prevalent in other populations.
Hopefully you learned a lesson, you retard. And I'm not shaming you for your sexuality but your insanely reckless behaviour.
>single act of unprotected receptive anal intercourse the summary estimate is 1.4%
Oh man, why don't you all kill yourselves instead? Sure you can reply with even more bigotry but we all know you post that kind of stuff because deep down you realize you're a failure at life. So just end it and stop wasting so much oxigen please
Yeah but I don't remember any of it. Do you? And I don't think we went into specifics really beyond use condoms and even then you're not 100% safe. Also stop calling me a faggot.
I sort of do feel raped. He basically made me say it was okay to take it off when we agreed before that he would wear it. Doesn't that seem wrong?
>I sort of do feel raped. He basically made me say it was okay to take it off when we agreed before that he would wear it. Doesn't that seem wrong?
Now I'm pretty convinced this is bait.
I tried saying no but he kept saying like he couldn't even feel it and condoms made sex suck and things. And none of this started until he was already fucking me. If he'd brought it up before then we probably wouldn't have even had sex because I would have refused. Guys are really pushy when they're horny and you probably don't know what that's like.
I'm not going to talk to the cops or try to press charges or anything. Or probably ever contact him again. Just feels shitty that I'm here in this horrible place because he pressured me into letting him take the condom off. Idk why I even keep sleeping with strangers like this. After this it seems self-destructive but I get lonely.
So I went to the CDC and WHO to find the answer to this question, assuming that the guy actually had HIV. We don't know for sure that he had it, but "sketchy Craigslist guy who hates condoms" is probably the riskiest demographic in the developed world. So let's go with the worst-case assumption.
The infection rates for a single act of exposure to a known-infected partner turn out to be lower than I thought they would be. I am not going to give you the exact numbers, partly because they make the risk look lower than it really is, and partly because your case is somewhat unusual anyway: the studies don't mention transfolk, and so there is little choice but to extrapolate a bit.
But I will tell you the following:
1) It is imperative that you get tested as soon as possible.
2) It is important that you abstain from unprotected sex and drugs until the test results are in.
3) DO NOT do this again. If they want to take the condom off, shut them down. The risk goes up exponentially with each act of exposure.
4) Despite the previous points, you have PROBABLY lucked out, THIS time. It is good to be worried, but there is no need to freak the fuck out.
But do not allow this to happen again.
>He came in me anally yes.
How about you stop doing that shit, hmm?
Also, go to the fucking hospital pronto. It was last night so there's still time.
They can administer Post-Exposure Prophylaxis which reduces the probability of contracting HIV.
Yeah, this is why you stand your ground on these sort of things (any guy tries to fuck me without a condom, I would simply leave/tell them to leave) but he shouldn't have been so pushy.
There's a chance, but this guy is a stranger and you have no knowledge of his sexual past...I suggest talking to a doc or going to Planned parenthood or something and talk to them about this. You're going to want an STD test now and in 6 months. And ALWAYS use a condom from now on.
I'm going to call you faggot because you're a faggot you faggot. Stop living in 1980 and learn that words gain a new meaning to it.
I'm calling my friends faggots too if they do stupid shit.
Also yes I do remember rough % chances of it because I learned that stuff instead of sucking dicks in the school toilet. You sissy. Now that's an insult directed to you because you look to suck everyones dick. That's what you get for acting like a faggot.
So extremely low possibility that I have it? Websites I've been reading say I need to wait weeks to get tested. What would getting tested now accomplish if the tests won't work? I'm not even thinking about doing this again. It's not worth these feelings. If I could just find a nice bf this wouldn't even be an issue but that will probably never happen. So you're saying I can stop worrying now? I hope I can.
What does that cost? I have practically no money and I have to get to work soon. You can't really call in at my job and I can't lose my job. Hospitals take several hours just to get in to see a doctor...
This didn't come up at all until he was already inside me. I was really turned on and wanted more and I think he purposely waited until then to start complaining about the condom because I was so insistent before about it. What are you supposed to do in that situation? I wanted to keep going and don't think I could have said no then.
What about like psychological stuff? People can make you do things you wouldn't normally agree to under the right circumstances I'm pretty sure.
Fuck you. I'm having what's maybe the worst day of my life and you're here to call me a faggot and a sissy? Just please stop posting.
>B-but my j-job...
No. AIDS will ruin your fucking life.
Let's see how much money you have when you have to pay for antiretroviral therapy for the rest of your life.
Go. Now. Explain you had a medical emergency and was at the hospital.
Get note from a doctor. STOP HAVING ANONYMOUS SEX.
Make some friends and get some interests.
Consent can be removed at ANY time. When the circumstances change and you are uncomfortable you have the right to say no. Don't feel obligated to continue just because someone is pressuring you.
How do I stop having anonymous sex? Being serious here and I kind of want to turn my life around but I just don't know. I'm not really the type that makes friends and I crave human contact. I get really turned on and just want to feel close to someone. How do you deal with that? It's not like I'm doing this every week or anything. It's sort of an act of desperation.
I'm afraid to tell a doctor about what happened.
I don't even want to talk about the consent thing anymore. None of you seems to really understand the situation so whatever. He had my consent sort of I guess and that's probably all that matters to anyone other than me.
ITT: a trannie that fucks strangers is afraid their bad choices might have caught up with them, is looking for hugs and acceptance, and got lost on the way to Tumblr to ask advice.
>I'm afraid to tell a doctor about what happened.
Do not worry about that at all.
They don't give a shit. They don't even need a story.
Just tell them you had a sexual encounter and you suspect the person might have been HIV positive.
Ask for post exposure medication.
As for how to stop having anonymous sex, get some friends.
If you are at school, talk to people in your class. Join some clubs.
If you only work, find your interests and meet people using that.
Join karate, take swimming lessons, meet people on forums about the things that you're interested in.
You can even talk to the people sitting next to you on the bus, walking down the street, whatever.
Find some friends.
>So extremely low possibility that I have it?
Not high, but I wou;dn't call it "extremely low".
>Websites I've been reading say I need to wait weeks to get tested. What would getting tested now accomplish if the tests won't work?
If the tests won't work yet, then it's not "as soon as possible" yet.
I'm not saying you should stop worrying completely. I'm only sayong that you don't need to freak out. You still need to get tested, and you should worry as much as you need to in order to make sure you get those tests as soon as they have any chance of beimg effective. But you don't need to freak out, unless you wouldn't get tested if you weren't freaking out.
Doctors and nurses always seem to scold me when I end up in the ER. I really don't think I can deal with that right now. But maybe I should anyway. Idk I sort of want to just die.
Talking to people doesn't work. I'm awkward and weird and when I try to talk it ends badly with me hating at myself in my head. Sometimes it feels like the only times people like me are when they're fucking me or getting head. Probably makes me sound like a slut along with the rest of this fucking thread but I don't do this often at all.
I'm horrible at life and hate myself and I can't believe I ended up here. If I have HIV I'm just killing myself I guess.
Thanks for your kindness I guess. Doesn't seem possible to stop worrying. I don't even know anymore.
>I'm awkward and weird and when I try to talk it ends badly with me hating at myself in my head.
Embrace the awkwardness.
What I do when I'm feeling awkward is something I call the awkward game.
I intentionally do weird and awkward shit I think is funny until I feel more confident and happy.
For instance, I'll go up to girls and say bizzare, awkward stories like
>I got kicked out of my house for pranking my roommate
>I ticked his asshole with a feather
>Turns out he didn't like that
And just wait to see their reactions. Pretty hilarious.
Things are only awkward if you think they are awkward.
Just embrace the awkwardness and see it as something funny and you'll be fine.
You'll spend the rest of eternity dead. Try to enjoy yourself while you're here. There's no rush.
Get tested ASAP, op.
I was in a similar situation in 2011 and didn't get tested. I lived with doubts and fears for so long. I still remain unsure if I have anything, although I had blood tests done in a psych-ward in 2012 and no one told me of anything bad. Maybe they didn't even test for HIV or whatever?
I've just been too scared to go in presenting the story or whatever but it's wreaked havoc on my mind. To all the shitposters here, you're underestimating the delusional power of horniness that can make you make odd decisions you regret in a saner state of mind. I totally get where OP is coming from and feel bad for him.
Seriously if you've got this much social issues go and see a psychologist. If you're too afraid to go then it's up to you, keep feeling like shit everyday for the rest of your life. You're an adult, your choices, your life. Stop asking people to comfort you in your choices and to hold your hand when you reject every one of their advices.
I'm a med student also and we don't care how weird the shit our patients tell us is, we only care about it in a medical pov. Seriously with the amount of people we see do you think we're going to judge every one of them? We're too busy with something else.
I had social anxiety to the point even going to the grocery store stressed me out and I was exhausted when I got back. I still had to push myself to overcome it (I'm still not very good with social interactions actually) because I had no choice for my carreer path. My point is you're not going to get any better at anything if you just sit there thinking it's pointless and wallowing in self pity because boohoo it's too hard I'm so awkward. Now do whatever you want but remember everything that happens to you is the result of your choices so you better learn to take responsibilities instead of running away from your problems.
how long ago was this? generally speaking you can take the post exposure medication up to 3 days after. its a month long but it reduces the chance of you catching hiv. in the future id take this in gneeral as pre-exposure. it reduces your chance of catching hiv by 99%.
anyway, if you are too freakin worried, ask if hed be willing to go get tested and show you the results. hiv tests are free and take only 1 to 20 minutes if ur not in bumfuck egypt. just say you're nervous and it would help you sleep better the next few months.
if he says 'no' you got some problems
>was it rape if i have a huge fetish and let him do it to me?
no, its not rape. its him asking again and you saying 'sure'. coercion is not rape, especially sexual coercion. if that was the case literally ever having sex would be rape because someone convinced you to do it.
>I didn't really know how to say no at that point with him in me already and have a huge semen fetish so I kinda gave in. He came and I loved it until he left.
>Also so you think this was maybe rape?