I think I'm depressed.
I'm 25 years old doctor, virgin, lives in Iraq.
My salary isn't that well, shifts are long, exhausting and tiresome and have to deal with "patients" that are faking illness and more than likely to assault me if I don't do what they want if not straight out kill me.
Recently I've lost interest in my old hobbies, On my days off I just hang in my room, just lying on my bed.
And even when I sleep, I get waken up in the middle of the night thinking someone is calling me.
I even started to get irritated by the silly stuff, And this upset me even more, Today I cried because my watch battery need to be replaced.
Every time I look into the mirror I no longer see myself in the reflection.
And in the next few months I have to apply for my permanency, Which has it's own issue to solve.
I guess at some point of my life I've passed the sign "Point of no return" and now I've been left with no option but to go on.
Just rambling of a depressed doctor.
daily reminder that:
-all it takes to be a virgin regardless of age is to not have put a penis into a vagina
-losers get laid every second
-4chan is retarded and you're retarded for being on it
Yeah, though its winter here.
I didn't eat anything today, although I'm hungry I don't feel like eating.
Tomorrow I have 48 hours shift, just thinking about it gives me headache.
I hate to say this because there is a big problem with doctors coming to the US for education and never returning their home country to do good where it's needed most, but...maybe it's because you live in Iraq?
True but usually anons are virgins cos they are socially inept, so we/they have missed a huge part of learning to socialise.
Sure losers get laid but paying lose your virginity is....
I just thought becoming a doctor would force you to socialise.
That's a contributing factor, but yes.
I think socializing make me feel worse.
Having to force myself to maintain a face that's not mine.
>Every time I look into the mirror I no longer see myself in the reflection.
this is what happens when you follow a life path drawn out for you by society and other people and you haven't truly tapped in to your muse and found your THING.
when you find your THING it blends with your self-image and identity in the most perfect of ways and enhances your self-esteem day by day.
when you're on the wrong path in life, you experience what you're experiencing, more and more doubts, depression, uncertainty, feeling lost, confused, like you don't know what you're doing anymore.
maybe being a doctor is not for you, op?