I'm going crazy over my recent breakup, /adv/.
I've been having nightmares reliving the breakup every night for two weeks now (two weeks since it happened). I can't sleep, I can't concentrate, I'm overeating to a horrid extent. I've spent every day crying at least 3 or 4 times, sometimes many more.
I love that man with my whole heart and soul. he broke up with me over something really small, he found a (admittedly, flirty) text I'd sent to an old friend and thought I was cheating on him. I haven't even seen that friend since we started dating, and I don't know what possessed me to send it in the first place but when he showed it to me I was so apologetic and honestly didn't even remember sending it.
I've messed up my relationship with the love of my life. I'd do anything to get him back, even as a friend, to start building up trust between us again, but he won't talk to me. everyone says to "give it time," but I'm literally losing my mind and afraid I might do something drastic. I just need to talk to him and set things straight and see what we can get accomplished together instead of being angry and/or miserable apart.
what do /adv/? should I send a letter? is that too overwhelming, since he's blocked me? can't we meet halfway?
yeah all you can do is give it time. Cut contact and distract yourself. Wait until both of your emotions have settled before contacting him again. It'll be absolute hell, but its the only chance you have really. Right now he's angry and hurt, so giving him space is the best option. Otherwise you risk making things worse.
source: I went through a similar situation and ruined any chance I had at getting her back because I couldn't leave her alone. Learn from my mistakes OP.
Uhh the advice here is that you moved on. We can't absolve you of your guilt, Dumb Fuck. You either take responsibility for your actions and accept the fact that since he's blocked you that he wants nothing to do with you, or you can act like a princess and feel like "the world is against me" because (1) he has a zero tolerance policy and (2) strangers on the internet are not inclined to make you feel better about yourself.
If you were not looking to be absolved of guilt then why are you giving your life story here? Why are you claiming to be "so apologetic" if you're not looking for your guilt to be absolved? It's completely inconsequential information to giving you advice.
My advice, in case you can't read, is to just move on and not flirt with other people unless you're in an open relationship. My advice is to learn to take responsibility for shit instead of crying about how your SO is holding you accountable.
How old are you?
Forget it OP its over with him. What you should be focusing on is how to soften your landing from the drastic change that's just occured. The mental throes of a sudden loss can do some permanent damage so you need to figure out how to distract yourself somehow. Obsessing over him and thinking of ways to get him back is one way. But if you can figure out something else not involving him, do that.