Om shri Yesu Bhagavate Namah Hope you guys figure it out

>>16836319
Btw on the root chakra #4 u should know that will keep the kundalini at the bottom of the spine, and ultimately the "serpent" should travel up the spine into the sahasrara.

Same with the navel chakra holding in the "sexual fluids" also revitalize chi, and to move it up you do have to abstain from explioting sexuality

>>16836319
roll

>>16836319
I love these Hindu beliefs. So roll.

>>16836948
Same guy. I got 8. So I should answer all the no:8 questions right?

>>16836334
I didn't want to feel uncomfortable anymore

>>16836319
rolling

I'm not exactly sure how this works. Are we supposed to post our answer to the first chakra#, then move up and onwards, rolling once for each chakra? Or?
Still rolling anway.

>>16837130
0 on the first go,really? reroll

>>16836319
Roll in the loo

Roll

1/7

>>16837165
Yes, multiple times I have been unable to resist jerking off in public restrooms, restaraunts, friends/families homes, work etc. This also ties in to being forward with women at times.

Roll 2/7

>>16837178
I've been practicing music, graphic design and launched a clothing company this week. Always striving to improve creativity. To be more creative I could allocate more time and incorporate better time management to my practices.

Roll 3/7

>>16837216
It does not bother me much. I personally understand that people hold different beliefs, and when I encounter someone that tries to tear mine down with so much will it just makes me understand they they are unsure about their own.

Roll 4/7

>>16837224
Goal is set.

I'd prefer to keep its nature and planned fruition to myself.

Roll 5/7

>>16836319
rooll

>>16837250
>>16837250
reroll

>>16837241
Basically I apply the "is this how I would like to be treated" rule and a mass of gut feelings. Sometimes things just feel wrong/right. I search for new ways of deeper guidence every day.

Roll 6/7

>>16837262
I was in a place physically and mentally and a relationship that was not healthy for me. I knew I had to get out and one day I just had the strongest feeling I had to get better and get out. One month later I was out and on the path of self improvement. It'll be one year since I left on the 16th of this month and my health and all other aspects of my life have improved tenfold. I like my instinct and willpower.

Roll 7/7

1/4 roll

>>16837352
when i was a kid i used to bully others and hurt most of them, i bitch slapped others a lot.

2/2 roll

>>16837396
it makes me angry, i dont like others to question me.

3/6 roll

>>16837147
When i break in the house of my neighbourhood ( which were gone in hollidays), to jerk off on the panties of a girl, and someone come in.
I was panicking but i successed to hide in the room.
It was just another neighbour who came to feed the cat.

>>16837442
I was fighting the younger brother of one my friend, but i don't remember why.
So sad, he wasn't a bad guy.

>>16837454
My engineering internship was pretty hard, but i graduated.

>>16837426
i was on my way home when i was about to get in the buss, i saw an old man looking for someting in the floor i approached him and ask what he was looking for, he asked me to help him find his wedding ring, i did so, we found his ring and i missed my buss, didn't care.

4/6 roll

>>16837480
reroll

>>16837472
I can do Geopolitical and strategic analyst all my life without any regrets.

>>16837491
By how it's advance human species, how many lifes it saved, or how much happiness it's bring to people. it's depend on what it is.

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>>16837486
just do it, also meditation.

5/6 roll

>>16837500
reroll

>>16837508
Sport and learn to play music instrument (guitar)

>>16837506
i depend on my parents incomes, to break that dependance i should be able to look after myself.

6/6 roll

>>16837480
This made me smile, anon.

>>16836319
roll

>>16836319
Roll

>>16837714
Okay, got that earlier today, rolling again 2/7 for me

Hgftjcrjcufdghhhhhhhhh

>>16837774
Done
Roll

>>16837786
Women rape me for my sperm

>>16837799
All girls have been the same

>>16837804
Lots of success and money

Baby

>>16837808
I feel loss of her

>>16837817
I haven't felt truly excited in nearly a decade

>>16836319
Porn or cigs
Just stopped

>>16837827
Good then ended badly and couldn't get rid of her

>>16837830
Roll!!!!!!!!(276268299

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>>16837836
Annoying especially if it's not constructive criticism

>>16837864
Extreme anxiety and social anxiety

Few years and just got back from living in Australia and travelling around asia

>>16837853

The first and last time I asked a girl out, I did it because I thought I wouldn't get another chance. It was a disaster but we still friends so its cool

>>16837861
I don't think I'll ever be completely mentally secure no matter what I do, so I'll just say that I should come out of the shell every now and then and move on.

>>16837888
Learn to control them and make them work for you

>>16837890
Roll chain

>>16837900
New slide

>>16837891
I love someone now and he probably will never feel remotely the same way. I think about him constantly and I can't stop. I'm pretty sure our friendship bores him.
Oh well.

>>16837908
Stop caring what people think of me

>>16837906
1. Make money
2. Get an apartment
3. Finish my degree
4. Make the football team
5. Get bigger stronger faster

swear im not a highschooler

>>16837921
Stop being so selfish

>>16837915
I've tried, but I can no longer fight the fear of failure anymore. The only way for me to lose this fear is to either be the personification of perfection or to never leave my house and never do anything productive so I have nothing to fail in, and therefore nothing to fear.

>>16837924
Just work on your business projects and work hard

Also finish degree

ba'hi presdimi

>>16837930
Reroll

>>16836319
Roll1 :)

>>16837931
Making money
I don't find anything completely absorbing and want to do everyday

I don't know what I would enjoy doing every day

>>16837942
Mother beat me and threatened me when I was too young to really understand but I'm not sure I have ever really loved anyone

>>16837922

playing football I saw a kid not paying attention, so I hit him full speed from the blind side. He didn't play the rest of the game and it felt really good.

>>16837948
Some girls
Not sure what else

>>16837953
Saving a friend from being raped while drunk

>>16837951

In middle school, she was my next door neighbor a true qt, I was a no friends loser.

>>16837959
Nothing else really needs to be done
I cycle for nearly four hours a day

>>16837936
There aren't many times when I refuse to go out of my way for people, so nothing absurdly specific comes to mind. I don't mind offering help with tasks or projects or giving advice or comfort when asked so that's that.

>>16837964
I do not know the answer to that question

Next slide

>>16837968
By understanding why I failed and using that to change my general course of action, I guess.

>>16837974
I wouldnt

>>16837981
How I feel while doing it

>>16837975
I'm not quite sure how to answer that. Reroll.

>>16837986
Be completely self sufficient
Move country

>>16837962
>3
One time in highschool, some kid put me in a choke hold. I almost passed out but I wasn't really hurt.

Everyone dies
Enjoy life

>>16838003
Hurting her and causing her so much pain

>>16837998

If I knew what I had to do I could just do it. How can people just become creative?

If someone has an idea I can make it reality but personally I have no creativity, my ideas/solutions to problems are all simplistic or straight forward.

>>16838005
Listening to her and not changing school

>>16837989
I have decent self-control but if I ever lose it, I'll just stop myself and remove myself from the situation, or make things right, depending on what it is.

>>16838013
7 done roll

>>16838012
>4

I'm addicted to wasting time on the internet even when I have other things to do.

I can control it by leaving my house to do things but a lot of things that I would have to do require the internet so it's only for a few activitys.

>>16838023
Learn the right move and don't repeat the weong

>>16838033
I'm not that passionate about anything! But I want success and this is the problem! I have no place to put all my energy so it gets scattered and becomes unproductive

>>16838027

I get excited about football, I've spread this into the rest of my life by making my life about football.
Ive started going to the gym, doing full skill drill workouts, doing more then the bare minimum in college so I can transfer to a D1 school. It's all going good so far.

>>16838045
I guess fapping before bed sometimes. Sometimes when I'm tired and want to go to bed I get the full boner and it keeps me up for like 10-20 min until I give in and rub one out. If I want to avoid it I just have to wait it out.

>>16838042
This is a new slide

I dunno
If I feel bad about something I generally don't do it
Maybe I could have been run over idk

>>16838061
Both have their uses in certain situations sometimes compassion is needed but may not be totally logical

>>16838068
I don't believe in the left right side brain theory

Well let's see how this goes!

>>16838059
Questions that can be easily answered by paying attention or searching google. This goes more for when one person asks a lot of dumb questions in a short amount of time or multiple people ask the same question even though they all should of heard it asked the first (couple of) time(s).

>>16838074
Think about what people are saying and not be on auto pilot

>>16838081

My ultimate goal in life is to be respected

>>16838083
Tried to have sex with two blonde average girls who were quite willing and had nice asses

Made out with both woke up before the sex.

I have no idea, I honk I'm obsessed with sex

I have a hard time being faithfull

>>16838097
I wish I knew
I have so much trouble with that

>>16838104
I wish I knew when I was and how to control it

>>16838092
I resist all temptation. It's a blessing and a curse. I'm able to see now and later in all situations.

>>16838113
Don't drink

Next chakra so roll time

>>16838120
Ok I'm done
Pretty good
Pretty intense in places

>>16838115
Can't really overcome it, I just accept it and keep going.

>>16838132
>4

I was not fast or strong enough to play college football. I'm still not fast enough but I've become strong and I'm working on speed.

roll 1

>>16838149

I understand my emotions very well, probably too well to the point were it hurts me more than it helps me.

>>16838209
>7

People defend their opinion because it's what they've invested their emotions and reputation into. If you held a good opinion about a person or group and then your opinion was wrong what does that say about you as a person?

>>16838224
>6
I couldn't care less

>>16838230
power play

>>16838234

>Make the team and start
>Lift 3xweek
>skill drills 3xweek
>get proper nutrition

>>16838245
I was rejected by a girl, I had a chance but I waited way too long

>>16838252
football

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OP here, if you guys want some other suggestions to help open your Chakras:
>Root, cut off at least one material indulgence, understand this is physical on the spectrum with physical on one side and metaphysical on the other
>Sacral, abstain from explicit sexuality and learn temperence, drink more water
>Solar Plexus, what makes you strong? Sometimes we forget how powerful we are, especially when motivated, that inner drive, the core, never forget.
>Heart, remember a time you once were happy in your heart and distrubute your love
>Throat, speak up! Don't be so awkward! Also, don't go on speaking too much, our words are very powerful and can be great expressing ideas or nasty speaking nonsense about other people
>third eye, focus on it, count breathing, that thing where you see "spots" in your vision. Even coffee through filtered water energizes the brain and also is not loaded with flouride.
Crown, you can feel this one, my favorite here is to research about space and connect to the cosmic conscious.

Rollllin

>>16838258
If I had more money I wouldn't have to be as stressed about my budget.

>>16838282
>6
I drive out of state to pick up my niece and nephew when my sister cant

>>16838287
rest

>>16838274
Fapped earlier today so gonna go with the next question
Yes, all the fucking time unfortunately

>>16838297
>1
I can indulge their idea that they struggle even though they have more advantage in terms of wealth and connections then people who actually struggle.

>>16838302
I've playfully hurt friends physically
I've unintentionally hurt my girlfriends sometimes

>>16838310
rollrollroll

>>16838315
manning up and going through with it i guess

>>16838342
singing

>>16838348
i get to see where i went wrong and improve from there

>>16838353
I had a dream of cheating on my girlfriend and feeling terrible about it.
I guess it means that i want to explore other options but still have her

>>16836319
CAN YOU FUCKING DECIDE WHETHER SEXUALITY IS LINKED WITH ROOT OR SACRAL CHAKRA

IT'S NOT FUCKING BOTH

>>16838316
true, I don't care for the bullshit though so their loss.

>>16838317
roll for super hot on the track

>>16838380
rerolling for the cosmos liked my song

>>16838385

I could try to imagine things more rather then looking for physical examples for reference

>>16838367
The sexual center is the reconciling for your moving and instinctive center.

>>16838398

I could try to activate my right side more, previous post related.

>>16838447
I could get a real bed and my own room

>>16838453
I had a dream that I was a dominating athlete 2 nights in a row, I might be telling myself I'm better then I give myself credit for.

>>16838464
The only way to think with clarity is if all the information you have is 100% true, this can never be the case unless you yourself is the one gathering all the information from the source

>>16838480
roll for clarity.

>>16836319
4-get

>>16838490
4-get?

>>16838485
man every time I try and meditate a million things have to happen, at least I got it done i guess

>>16838535
looks like my journey is over with this one

>>16836319
Roll

>>16838707
My first bout with sleep paralysis

>>16838716
Ugly girls aka butterfaces

>>16836319
rollin

>>16838831
explore the limitations of the physical form on a regular basis. play outside more.

>>16838848
honor and follow through with creative impulses i am already experiencing. give them a place to grow.

>>16838853
i adapted to unforeseen problems with forced laughter which actually made it really funny after the initial awkwardness

>>16838859
accept myself without judgement. express opinions and emotions creatively even if just to observe them outside of myself. this one was harder for me to figure out.

>>16838894
i would take back that time i laughed at my friend brandon when he told me his ultimate plan was to have a pirate ship and crew. i always felt like shit about that. he would be a good captain. i like to envision him sailing gallantly quite often to make up for that laugh.

>>16838908
write what i would like to live and then draw it. write down dreams. find my own drawings and and writings in lucid dreams and then recreate them in waking life. stay present.

>>16836319
roll

>>16838932
I avoid my responsibilities. I set them aside to focus on whatever puts me at ease with myself.

>>16838936
1. I could start jogging again frequently.
2. i could find someone that makes me happy
3. I could be more open to people and less sensitive
4. I could earn more money
5. I could make artwork that i am proud of

>>16838961
My ultimate goal in life is to have the perfect son or daughter that can live a happy life

>>16838965
I was rejected in grade 12 by a girl who lied about never going out with people. She then told my friend she just didn't want to hurt my feelings, then went out with someone months later and never spoke to me again.

Murrr

>>16838973
The guiltiest i ever felt was when my dad caught me watching porn when i was 14

>>16838978

Lol. So I had an obsession with an ex who represented permanence as we were codependent and then I decided to break the cycle and leave. I've also been obsessed with drugs as they gave me a feeling of control over my internal state.

>>16838987
If i got all my work done on time

>>16838992

I beat a guy up in a hotel room once for harassing my friends.

>>16838719
Walking with her to the end of the tracks that stretch out over the river. She was wearing a skirt with polka dots, holding both my hands in hers but leading the way. I admired her all the way to where the tracks ended and she turned around to kiss me hard. Even though it was the first time, this time, before we even began I knew I had fallen in love with her.

She sat me down against the abandoned building and climbed on top with the selfassured gentleness of a nurse.. she rode me as I embraced her, not once letting go. I remember the scent of her perfume and the tremors of her body as she came.

I was so afraid, and kept looking over her shoulder, but she put her hands on my face and turned my gaze to hers telling me not to be stupid. It's the way she was. I finished, and there beneath the stars I fell for the girl who broke my heart.

>>16839059
Getting nine twice in a row and having to remember something this painful after dreaming about this girl out of nowhere for the past week must mean something.

I'm pulling out /x/
Gotta try to find a way to shake her off

roololol

>>16839497
probably when i thought i was going to go to prison

>>16839503
when i was a kid i teased a friend at the wrong time and he kicked my ass

>>16839507
because it hurts their confidence/ego/self-esteem if they're wrong

>>16839518
productivity, exercising, creating, singing, dancing, reading, eating well, meditating, be with friends, have fun

rol

>>16836319
Sure hope this is a joke. Fascinating to think that Chakras are the trendy meditation style in this day and age and is probably one of the more dangerous paths you could go down. Will be interesting to see so called gurus get burned in the next 10-20 years.

>>16839543
did 3 already gonna do 1
feelings because there's more truth to feelings than thoughts

>>16839600
looks like i gotta roll again

>>16839606
1. have fun
2. exercise
3. meditate
4. sing
5. see friends

>>16839612
if i have temptation, I am more likely to give in than overcome it
there has been times where i'd be so close to give in and then i stop myself last second just so i can continue my goal of quitting

>>16839630
gotta roll again

>>16839636
when it comes to making decisions on many things i'm dependant on people because i'm afraid of the risk of making a retarded as decision and regretting it.
I guess being on my own more often could break it

>>16839647
usually reading, exercise, meditation, sex, and smoking weed helps me sleep better

rolling for one last round of this

rolling. sure i will give you one. honest answer.

>>16839664
did 4 earlier gonna do 9 instead
I was at a small party where a girl was thirsty for my dick
I pulled her into a storage room and we fucked like crazy while people were right outside
i found out later that she had a boyfriend lol

rolling. sure i will give you one. honest answer. trying one more time because i don't feel like medetating for 5 minutes.

>>16839690
wow im getting a lot of 0s

>>16839701
probably to find clarity in my life and be more established

>>16839717
good sleep
meditation
healthy food
exercise
playing
sex

>>16839698
i'm gonna take that as how to be more creative.

I would say read poetry. It's the biggest bang for short reading. Then maybe philosophy(same thing) then look at concept art websites.

>>16839726
did 6 already gonna do 3
flirting and getting touchy with other girls despite having a girlfriend

>>16839748
if your not creative at the end. you will be a whole diffrent nigga.

>>16839758
i have no fucking idea, meditation? reach enlightenment?

>>16836334
wut

Lets go.

What now?

Never had one.

Freak winter storms are no fun, especially the lightning and hail. I needed to get home as fast as I could despite having no car, I was only two blocks from my house.

A girl confessed her love to me in high school. I didnt feel the same about her and said nothing. She repeated herself but I didnt say anything. At the time I had low self esteem and didnt see her as more then a friend.

My obsessions dont last forever but their pretty intense. Basically anything that gets me stimulated with adrenaline just thoughts.

Row two

Stupidity when making big descisions that affects lots of people. Why? It couldve been avoided.

Some kid punched me so I rushed him knocking him down.

Third row

Cant think of significant situation, I just used whatever I had at the time to try and fix it.

Understanding your emotions means you have control and therefore move in the best direction.

Thats what they believe and what they believe is apart of who they are. They are essentially defending who they are.

My ultimate goal in life is to help alot of people in the way I see fit. Ideally I would help by giving people more opportunities.

Experiencing emotions alot and learning what situations bring them on.

I was deaf, got surgery, no longer deaf. Had to learn language via sound. I just did it.

Fourth row

Get gf. Will become fit, and venture out into the world more.

Care about them in the first place.

Having positive experiences and influences.

Self improvement, its something that can always be done till your dead.

Read up on everything and analyze everything.

I was abandoned by a good friend in my time of need. I understood that they didnt know any better but I eventually got myself back up.

Asking girls out or convincing them of other things, in the past never worked out in my favor.

Fifth row

Ok

Sixth row

Visualizing things, The minds eye is merely mental imagery.

Thinking things out before you act. Always try to think about the consequences.

Thought usually is grounded in reality, so it is the best choice for the most part.

Helped a guy out, didnt have to. Reward of good feelings.

>>16836319
Rolling

>>16841928
I'm not sure bout this one, I use to obsessed over a person but twas a phase.
Guess high school love dose that to you, even more so if u never had a legit gf before

>>16841934
Ahh shit I'm in cc ATM
Re rillin

>>16841943
>>16841943
Because it was something I had faith that would go well. I believe in my ideas and would defend them to the death

rell

>>16836319
imma do this instead of writing today.
roll.

>>16843031
base.
i could do a tad bit more for my health.
next roll.

First roll

>>16836319
le meme roll

>>16836319
Rloo

>>16844802
I constantly avoid going to classes. I'm a lazy person overall, but lately I've been through a deep depression, I think, and I just cannot get myself out the bed. Also I feel comfortable in my bed, and although I know I'll have a great time seeing my friends and learning new stuff at university, I feel so disconnected with everything that's going on in the real world, I feel like I cannot keep up with the situations that take place in real time. I'm just out of phase. I postponed a lot of things and now I can't do any of them right.

I guess I prefer to stay on the comfort zone sometimes, but then I hate myself so much.

>>16836319
Rolling

>>16844856
I like being dominated by a female.

>>16836319
Svadhisthana roll

>>16844874
I have an internet addiction.

I can overcome it by spending less time on the computer.

>>16844848
>describe obsession with object or person

There's a person who gives me all these signs that they have feelings for me but I know it's bullshit. Unfortunately, I have emotions and the desire to be with someone romantically and therefore can't help but have feelings for them. I'm obsessed with them because I think being with a person will make me happy.

>>16836319
roll

>>16836319
Manipura roll

>>16844892

I punched my sister for some stupid reason and realized I was like this guy I went from being good friends with to enemies. He was nice but grew incredibly rude and violent, so our friendship ended. Anyhow, that punch, while I don't think it was that bad, it made me realize I was becoming like former bad friend.

>>16836319
Rollin'

>>16845436
Red heads, always get the better of me.

>>16845451
I've been really recluse recently, I could use more friends.

>>16845453
I had a major fall out with my older step-brother. He pushed too far and insulted my deceased father. I punched him in the jaw, but that was the only good hit I got on him.

>>16845462
10th grade I avoided an ex-girlfriend even though we had established a healthy friendship a few weeks after our break up.

At the time I felt weak around her because I told her a lot of the things even my closest friends didn't know.

>>16845467
I've gotten into a really bad fight with that same step-brother, we drew heavy amounts of blood for a 15 and 17 year old.

Any lurkers can tell me if I'm doing this right?

>>16845474
Will do later possibly, first must see through the first chakra.

chakroll

>>16847597
7 has been done
(1) be set on a straight path on my dreams and goals and striving to move forward

Rolll

Roll muldahara

>>16848343
Muldahara 3: I ran over someone and threatened people with a sword in order to save my ex who was in my car, from being run over. Even though I drove off, I say that I faced the situation head on because I let her stay in my car and repelled the attackers with my car and sword.

>>16848347
Also, I did it because I wanted to protect her. Also because she was too young for me and didn't want police involved.

Muldahara 7: the time I was most fearful for my life was probably when I was living on a park bench for a while. I wasn't afraid of dying, but the fear of living as a homeless person for the rest of my life far exceeded my fear of death at any point in my life.

>>16848353
Same roll, so I'm going to 9

my most memorable sexual encounter was when me and my best friend double teamed some slut. I couldn't get hard because seeing his face as I tried to pent rate her seemed super weird. Couldn't fuck her ever again either, kept seeing the little fuckers face every time I tried.

>>16848361
Muldahara 1: to feel more secure in my lifr, I can continue to work and try to get in the military. I can get a better job as a backup plan, and I can stay sober.

>>16848344
Okay done. Also, awesome.

Roll again.

>>16848371
>What can you do to feel more secure in your life?

Leave my significant other, three years of abuse is too much and it clearly isn't going to get better. I think that yesterday will really help, I can leave, now that it won't be a blindside for him. If not, my friends will make me go sooner or later. My god, I love them so much.

>>16848368
Muldahara 8: I don't feel as though I have an obsession with an object or another person, if anything, I guess it would have to be drugs. They were my only escape from life, and the only thing that made me feel happiness. However, I feel as though the obsession has been removed.

>>16848377
>Tell when you were most afraid for your life.

When I had that gun in my stepdad's face. He was bigger than me. So much bigger. I wouldn't have survived, at all, clearly, had he gotten it out of my hand. Thank god for decent bluffing.

>>16848378
8 again
I have let my lust get the better of me. Came in my ex quite a few times because it felt so damn good. Hell, just fucking her in the first place was an act of letting my lust overcome me, because I already knew she was batshit crazy

>>16848380
Roll for Svadhisthana.

>>16848378
Roll svadi

>>16848387
>What do you get excited about? How can you bring this enthusiasm to the rest of your life?

You know, I can safely say I don't need to work on this. I'm an excited, excitable, happy person. The things that come to mind are my book (I'm so happy it's close to done) and my acting and the films and serials I enjoy. Those are all really, really exciting. I do manage to be enthusiastic about everything in my life that doesn't actively hurt me.

>>16848389
Svadi 9: it's hard to make me angry. Alghough, the things which make me angry are when people are disloyal to me, when i trust them. AlAlso when people try to take advantage of me

>>16848392
Svadi 2: I'm not a big fighter. So, a time when I physically hurt someone was when I ran over that dude with my car.

>>16848390
Roll Manipura

>>16848397
Svadi 7: i get excited about drugs. Doing them, selling them, cooking them, talking about them. It was such a passion for me that it still excites me. To find that same excitement I just have to throw myself into other aspects of my life the same way.

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>>16836319
Why split the soul into 7 parts when it should be whole?

>>16848404
>Tell about a time you struggled to overcome an obstacle, but eventually succeeded.

I thought that I'd never become a decent actor due to my lack of confidence, which in turn was due in part to my BDD. Thankfully I have overcome my fears and am at least able to project confidence (occasionally it internally lapses, but even this is getting to be rare). I don't have to look good to me, I just need to look good enough to get call backs for roles.

>>16848407
7 again. My worst addiction is to anything which inebriates me. I overcome this every day, simply by working hsrd, trying to better my life, and staying away from people who use drugs or alcohol

>>16848414
4 again.
I don't think I had a first love. I thought I loved a lot of people, but it was just me trying to love someone else the same way I should love myself.

>>16848412
>Tell about a time you overcame temptation.

Leaving Sam, in that bedroom, at that party. Just because my relationship is going to shit doesn't mean I need to make it go any worse, and I certainly don't need to sink to his level because of how he treats me. I will end this gracefully; I will not set myself on fire to keep him warm, and I damn sure won't smear myself with the same mud he's painted on. I am so, so, so much better than that.

>>16848425
>How can you overcome a fear of failure?

Continue taking on roles I'm not confident about. The people around me think I can do it, and I damn well better not let them down. Similarly, by sending my book off to be published. It's fucking awesome, because I wrote it, and I'm a damned good writer.

>>16848421
1 again:
1. I can stay sober
2. I can keep pushing toward my goals
3. I can enroll in college if the military won't take me
4 I can start talking to more people
5 I can do this excersize

>>16848428
>How can understanding your emotions be beneficial?

It helps me to know what I need more of in my life and what I need less of. The more I can determine that, the better decisions I can make moving forward and growing. I can prune the hindrances and make sure that I don't make the same mistakes.

>>16848433
3
people haven't really tried to physically hurt me before. One time, some dude tried to jump me but I was so fucked up that I laughed hysterically as he hit me. He also happened to be the best mma fighter in town.

>>16848437
>Why do you think people defend their opinions so much?

They lack a sense of true self and have come to define themselves by their opinions; because of this they take all attacks personally, rather than objectively.

>>16848442
2 again.
I gave in to temptation every time I relapsed in the past. I even knew that I shouldn't be doing what I was doing

>>16836319
roll

>>16848449
I'm not sure how to become more creative. I've never been too creative, andthe drugs ddidn't help that.

>>16848446
>How does it feel to have another person decry your opinion or belief?

This has a lot to do with politics; when it's something they can effect with their ability to vote or argue legislature, I have a deep and fundamental need to convince them of my side, as my side is the one I feel is best for humanity. A good example here would be the right to abort or the decriminalization/legalization of cannabis. When the belief is more internal, IE when people tell me my gods don't exist, I can easily recognize that the opinion is subjective and that their thoughts don't matter to me on this subject (though if they're reasonable or interested I'll gladly tell them about it).

>>16848454
Times I struggled to overcome an obstacle and succeeded

bringing myself out of living on a park bench. I had so many plans, so many potential options. I just went with a whim , and my life got better

>>16848457
I've already done 7, so 1:
>What is your ultimate goal in life?

To be self-sustaining in my writing in acting and to owe no debts. Ideally, I'd like a nice house and good health, but I recognize that whatever is causing my pain is likely to have no real answer, and I don't want to become dependent on drugs or something to deal with it. I also want to be happy with the way I look, but due to the BDD I accept that this may never happen.

>>16848467
Why people offend their opinions

People defend their opinions because what we believe defines us as who we are- at least to an extent. Nobody wants to lose a piece of them self.

>>16848471
I've already done 1, so 9:
>How can you better understand your emotions?

It would be a good idea to keep a consistent journal detailing how various events and situations made me feel in the moment, so that I can look back on them less objectively later on and better recognize my issues and emotions.

As I have now completed all Manipura activities, this is a roll for Anahata.

>>16836319
Muladhara (3):
I approached somebody that was larger and tougher than me and trash talked them and demanded him the money that he stole. He was backed up with 3 friends and I could of easily gotten beaten up at any time. I usually never talk in peoples faces like that. I did it because I didn't want to be taken advantage of and I didn't want to be a coward anymore. I wanted to be someone you wouldn't want to mess with.

>>16848474
Already did 4 so I'll take 1:

my ultimate life goal is to be happy. To be happy, and to be able to support myself.

>>16848481
>How can you show more compassion towards others?

Stop holding back because of Oliver. Just because one stupid, filthy man raped me does not mean all men are rapists, and to be happy and have a healthy relationship with the men in my life I need to accept this.

>>16848485
How can I overcome a fear of failure?

To overcome the fear of failure, I have to live in the moment. To face every task head on. I know that if I give my all, I will never fail.

>>16848486
>Tell about a time you went out of your way for the sake of others.

When I stopped in the hall when I was fourteen, and set down all my things, to gently take the things the man with the sling on his arm was carrying and rearrange them so they were easier for him to carry. I have never been so thankful in my life as I was for his kind words after that, and I believe no one has ever had a greater impact than he had.

>>16836319
God this is hard to do, I'm stuck on the first one and I can't think of anything.

>>16848489
How can I better understand my emotions?

To better understand my emotions, I need to stop over thinking things. I've always understood my emotions, they are intuition. I just use my brain too much, and it acts as a fog for my emotional intelligence.

>>16848493
>Tell about a time someone did something horrible, yet you still loved them.

My best friend continually let my cat out against my wishes and requests for her to stop, and he never, ever came back. I loved that cat. Dearly. He was so sweet and so kind. I miss him terribly.

I will never stop loving her.

>>16848500
Moving to roll for Visuddha

>>16848498
How understanding my emotions will be beneficial

if I can understand how I feel, I won't need to change how I feel. I won't be in search of things which don't make me happy, solely because I have convinced myself that I'm feeling a way which I am not

>>16848508
Tell about a time I overcame temptation

I was very tempted to choose to beat off in the first part of this exam. Chose not to because I thought it would be better not to, it's not as deep.

>>16848507
>Sing
Sang Florida Keys by LDR.

>>16848512
How I feel when people decry my beliefs:

I feel threatened when I know that they are intelligent people. Usually, though, I just assume that they are ignorant and want to troll them. I guess that's a reaction to being threatened though.

>>16848525
>What is your biggest regret?

Turning down that fucking role when I was sixteen. I'm glad I didn't sell out, to a degree, but goddamn would I be further in my acting career.

>>16848533
>What do you feel guilty about?

Everything.

Not breaking up with him yesterday. Eating. Doing this instead of writing. The thing I have for one of my friends. The actions I've taken or haven't taken.

>>16848537
Already did 7 so 2:
>Tell about a time you turned a negative experience into wisdom.

Living with my mother was hell. I no longer have any compunctions about cutting people out of my life, once they have fucked up badly enough.

>>16848545
Already did 5, so 1:
>How do you determine right and wrong?

I compare the action to my prior knowledge of such situations, and evaluate who may be impacted negatively by my actions before proceeding.

>>16848528
Adapting to unforseen problems has been a strong suit of mine. I had to do so when I was abruptly kicked out of my mom's house for smoking weed in the backyard. I quickly began to ration my money, to sell all my drugs, and found a nice spot in the park to sleep

>>16848552
Anaharta 2:

I can fully devote myself to the pursuit of happiness. Finding ways to enjoy every moment of my life has always been difficult for me, but it is what I believe heaven to be. I try to every day, but it's hard some days.

>>16848562
Anaharta 3: My ex stole a $150 bong from one of my close friends. If most people had done that, I would spend a lot of time trying to ruin their life. But, with her, I had no interest in it. I payed my friend back myself, because I wanted no tension between them.

>>16848570
Vishuddha 2: I try to turn all of my negative experiences into wisdom. I suppose having my old "friends" steal from me on a daily basis made me realize what someone looks like and acts like who i cannot trust. I've used it often.

>>16848583
Vishuddha 3: I feel guilty for a lot of things. Lying to my mom, pretending to be sober for months just so that I would have a place to stay. Lying to a few friends in sobriety, so that they would think that I had no part in helping one of there members leave the sobriety group. Never paying back someone who left me money.

>>16848591
My intuition tells me what is right, and what is wrong. If I do wrong, my internal voice will agonize me about it continuously. I don't always listen, but it's a good measure.

>>16848594
Vishuddha 4: I don't really want to take back anything which I've said or done in the past. I'm pretty confident that I'm on this path for a reason.

>>16848601
My own failings in the past keep me dependent. Because I've given up everything I had at one point or another just to get high, I'm still stuck at square one. Almost like I just got out of high school, with no plans, trying to push through with a new course of action.

>>16848618
Life is a learning experience, I don't have to turn my failure into anything. As long as I review what happened, and where I went wrong, I can always change the present and future.

>>16848626
Vishuddha 5: A part of me regrets giving up all of my past opportunities. College, living in a house with a bunch of other cool guys, etc. It's all part of my path, though, so why regret a vital step in the path?

>>16848632
A monologue of something I am passionate about:

Lights. Fire. Friends all around. The smoke rises into the air. The bass vibrates the bodies of everyone present. This place is uncomfortable, yet, at the same time, it is home. It is a place where I am not alone, where I am with people who are just like me. Yet, it feels so foreign. I cannot speak to the other mes. I stand apart, and I simply watch the show.

>>16848484
finished

>>16848649
roll

>>16848670
Ajna 1: Thought and feeling need to live in balance. Making decisions purely based on thought or feeling will leave me helpless. Rather, I must combine the two in order to make the right decision.

>>16836319
Muladhara (1): I believe moving to a location outside of this country, maybe to Australia, would help me feel more secure. Knowing that this country has a lot of drama and hatred, it's definitely going down. I think making a lot of friends, getting a decent job that I could enjoy at least a little bit, and perusing my hobbies would make me feel secure too. I just don't feel not knowing what's going to happen the next day, next week, next year, ect.

>>16836319
I had sex with my best friend as a kid a couple of times. I really don't like thinking about it, and this is the first time I've ever written it or admitted to it.

>>16848678
Ajna 8: The whole both sides of the brain theory is ridiculous and disproven by science. I suppose this equates to balancing my thought and intuition.

>>16848686
To increase my intuition, I can simply stop overthinking things to such a degree. At work it could be as simple as asking someone what kind of meat they want on their sandwhich, but already deciding based on forethought what they want.

>>16848694
Thinking with clarity is very tricky to me. I suppose it's as simple as not second guessing myself.

>>16836319
Muladhara (5) Plenty of times. I feel that I can control it to an extent, but I don't let myself.

>>16848704
I can sleep better by maintaining a healthy sleep schedule, and not taking naps during the day.

>>16848715
I already detailed how i can use my minds eye in number 4

>>16848723
I recently had a dream that I was informed to stop changing the radio station at work by one of my coworkers. i continued to change the station, and two days later one of my coworkers warned me to stop, using the exact same wording as in my dream.

>>16836319
Muladhara (2): I have always avoided the situation of talking to people that I don't know. I have a bad case of social anxiety and OCD. I wish that I wouldn't avoid it but the thought of messing up and ruining my reputation terrifies me. I know that I'm a fun person when I open up, and I would be have a better reputation as an outgoing person rather than a quite person, but I just can't. I don't know why.

>>16848725
Learning to better control my actions is as simple as using my thought and intuition together. Usually I get myself in trouble when I don't listen to my internal voice.

>>16836319
Muladhara (7): I fortunately haven't really had any terrifying events occur throughout my life, but there is one that will always stick with me. When I was 11, I woke up in the middle of the night and my bunk bed was rapidly shaking. I had never experienced anything demonic/supernatural activity. I didn't know if it was a person or a spirit. I didn't even move at all because I was so terrified. And it didn't stop. I was awake for 3 hours and decided to sleep through it because there was nothing I could do. I woke up at 12pm and it had stopped, but I had the most paranoid and timid feeling I have ever felt.

>>16848750
roll for Svadhisthana

>>16848734
roll

>>16836319
Svadhisthana (5): When I was 14 I began stealing things. I stole things from walmart, I stole money, and I stole things from other people simply just because I wanted it. I think I could have avoided it by thinking about the consequences and asking myself why I was doing it.

>>16848767
Svadhisthana (7): I get excited from receiving materialistic things or preparing for something good to happen. Sometimes I just get excited by thinking of something that I think that I could do. I also get excited by accomplishing things and staying on the right path. I think I could bring that enthusiasm to every aspect of my life by only thinking positive. But whenever I do that and things don't go as expected, it makes me really depressed and discouraged.

>>16848764
roll

>>16848790
Rolling for Manipura

>>16848795
Manipura (5): I ask myself that question a lot, especially when it comes to anything that requires social action. I think that if I slowly achieve instead of going for it all at once, I could progressively fear failure less and less each time.

>>16848810
Rolling for Anahata

>>16848819
Anahata (9): Learning from mistakes and moving on from the past. Having a deep relationship with someone else could probably enhance it too because I can learn how they deal with their emotions and compare theirs to mine.

>>16848839
Anahata (4): I will step outside of my comfort zone. I will stop feeling bad for myself. I will push my emotions and fears away from reality. I will start devoting more energy into my school work rather than video games. I will work so hard to the point where my life will all be school work.
Over all, the goal is simple. I WILL DO WHATEVER I CAN TO BE HAPPY AND PROUD OF MYSELF. I WILL HAVE NO REGRETS.

>>16848856
Anahata (6): I think that's my problem. I never go out of my way for others. I can't even think of a time I have. I'm not sure if it will change me in a positive way, but in the end I'm doing something for others and I will feel good about myself for once.

>>16848863
Anahata (3): As soon as a read this I automatically thought of my father. He abused my mom emotionally and physically, he put his life over others, he threatened to kill my family and friends, and he killed a man and got away with it. If my mom ever did something like this, I would never forgive her and I would cut my communication with her. But for some reason, the love between me and my dad have never broken.

>>16848877
Anahata (7) I know for a fact I can enhance it by pushing myself and become motivated. Every time I try to stay fit and I actually enjoy working out, I give it all up. And what I have noticed is that this happens when I skip a day of doing it. I think I need to work out every day and think of the results I will get out of it.

>>16848886
Anahata (2) I want to devote myself to changing my activities daily. I want to not know what I'm going to do the next day, rather than know I'm just going to go to school, go home and play video games, and sleep. I want to expand and pursue new hobbies and never find myself bored. I want to never be bored or feel like I've been doing something for too long. Maybe I'll start creating art or building props of some sort. I should probably start finding outside activities too. Most importantly I need to devote myself to facing my social fears.

>>16848900
Rolling for Vishuddha

>>16848907
Going to listen to September and sing some Tears for Fears.

>>16848938
Vishuddha (8): Being an optimist, turning a failure into a learning practice is something I do a lot. It helps me cope with the fact that I have lost something that I didn't expect to. But maybe I don't do it enough, or maybe I don't do it correctly. Maybe I should look at my past failures. I've failed to do a lot in my life. I have missed many great opportunities. I have said things that I didn't want to say. But I think it makes me stronger every time I fail or make a mistake. Because now I know I won't do it again. I think my failures might benefit me. In the future, it's always possible that something really important comes up, possibly life changing, and I'll know what to do and what not to do. It makes me realize, failure isn't that bad. It will come in handy one day.

>>16848997
Vishuddha (5): I regret rejecting the chance to meet great people. I worried about what others would think of me, when the bigger problem is people do need some way to think of me either way, whether it's good or bad. Otherwise, you're just a face in the crowd. I wish I would have talked to girls that liked me, I wish I would have just been down to earth. I would rather regret saying something wrong or embarrassing than regretting to not have gotten to know someone. Everyone embarrasses themselves, everyone makes themselves they look bad. I know that I'm a pretty fun person to be with. I have nothing to worry about. Whether I'm outgoing or introverted, the outcome will be no different than what others get.

>>16849031
Vishuddha (1): I determine what's right and wrong by thinking whether it will effect anybody who doesn't deserve it. In my opinion, it's not wrong to steal from a rich man, but it's very wrong to steal from a poor man. What's right and wrong for me is whether or not someone is getting what they deserve.

>>16849052
Vishuddha (2): Not too long ago I had a psychotic delusion and ended up affecting a lot of people. It was a scary experience, and it kept going on. I was very close to committing murder. Luckily I was medicated at the right time and I'm perfectly fine now. And I did get wisdom out of it. It made me realize that people don't choose the be evil. Evil chooses the people. Everyone has a reason for doing what they do, and it's not their fault. Everyone is born with a different personality and you can't change that.

>>16849314
Vishuddha (4): I have told my mom that I had hated her and that she is nothing to me. I still do feel that hatred, but if my kid ever said that to me, I would be heart broken.

>>16849330
Rolling for Adjna

>>16849337
Adjna (7) I need to start going to bed feeling happy. I go to bed depressed a lot.

>>16849348
Adjna (8): Expand my activities. I spend too much time on only one thing. I need to spread things out so that I can activate certain parts of my brain.

>>16849367
roll

>>16849387
Ajna (1): Feelings are most important. Our thoughts distract us more than anything. Our thoughts can NEVER overcome our feelings because thoughts can't hurt, feelings can.

>>16849404
Adjna (4): I need to focus on the task at hand and not overthink. Too many thoughts makes mental clarity less clear every time. The process is simple. You need to think of 3 things.
1. What you're trying to think
2. Whether or not it is benefit or not
3. If in the end it makes you a happier person

>>16849434
Adjna (5): I need to think for myself. If someone told me that the sky is cloudy, I would probably believe it. But if I look with my OWN eye, I can see how cloudy it is, if it looks like it will rain, and if it really is even cloudy in the first place. The same goes for my minds eye. Sure, I can take what people tell me as a fact. But seeing for yourself and looking BEYOND the fact and learning things for yourself allows you to use your mind to take information rather than other people giving you the information.

>>16849465
Adjna (6) Learn what you need, meditate on it after. When you're told how to do something, you learn how to do it first, rather than ask questions at the same time. Focus on what you're learning, take the information in, and put it together after.

>>16849483
Ajdna (3): I have been having dreams that my mother is yelling at me. I'll say ask an innocent question and in the dream she'll scream at me and I don't know why. I think it means I'm under too much control. I'm too afraid to act on to things because I'm afraid of how my mother would react.