Any tics, ritualistic behavior, odd gait, self-talk, disheveled in public?
>>39640515
I often times will make this "heh" breathing sound like I saw or read something funny in public for no reason. I look insane sometimes.
>Walks fast
>Baggy clothes(esp with cargo pockets)
>Bad posture
>Looks at ground or nervously glances around
>>39640515
Yeah I actually have quite a few
- Talk to myself
- Chopping motion into hand
- Hand across scalp
>always look either sad or angry
>bite nails
>bite my cheeks
>pinch myself
>pull hair
>Sometimes hit myself when I'm alone or think no one is looking
I want off this ride friendos
>>39640559
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>>39641168
My sweet baby. He must feel so helpless and scared.
>inadvertently make quiet karate sound effects when moving body in specific ways
>autism gait a.k.a. the virgin walk
>zero eye contact
>wear same clothes everyday
I'm sure there are a bunch of other giveaways. I only noticed the first one when I met someone new and they laughed and pointed it out every time I did it, there must be a bunch of little things like that I lack awareness of
>when your autism kills a thread
Sorry guys
>>39640515
slight limp from injury sustained as a toddler, I have to focus on my steps or it will show, It's probably not noticeable, but the whole, "we're our own worst critics" thing.
>>39642509
What was the injury?
>>39641855
same, except i pretend i'm a boxer or an mma fighter
people can easily tell just by the flow of the conversation. even an autist like myself can tell
>>39640515
I will usually:
>Walk fast
>Talk to myself
>Glance around nervously and then continue looking down
>Bite my nails
>Touch my face
>Fiddle with things
I know there's more to add but I can't be fucked tryna think back.
>>39644444
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>>39640515
>told I walk a little odd, but they couldn't quite articulate how so
>hair and beard are generally on the long side and unkempt outside of some light combing in the morning. exception is if there's an event coming up that I want to look nice for then, I get it cut/shaved down
>usually can play it cool and lay low among the normies, but even so it's been pointed out that I have a defensive posture all the time
>nervously glance around
>never had any comments on it, but my fingertips are usually fucked up because I anxiously pick at my fingernails and hangnails
May or may not be related and probably isn't very noticeable, but I haven't had to get my eyes dilated in years when getting an eye exam because my pupils are usually large enough already.
I'm a very fast walker, it doesn't help that I'm pretty tall. I'm basically power-walking everywhere even though I'm in no rush.
Anyone else know this feel?
>>39645084
Also whenever I'm going up or down stairs I always take two, sometimes three, steps at a time.
>>39640515
>flap my hands around when I'm excited
>obssessive about always being home for dinner with the parents at 4am (which is ok, since I'm NEET)
>make comments to myself all the time when I'm alone
>have been disheveled all my life (I'm an adult)
>>39645128
also
>I've a really noticeable hopping gait
Never make eye contact what so ever. Extreme patience, everyone always pulls their phone out every 30 seconds or constantly using it. Literally just sit and stare for hours. I've started to pretend to use my phone and make a scrolling action just to not look awkward.
>>39645146
>I've started to pretend to use my phone and make a scrolling action just to not look awkward.
>tfw I do this every time I have to stand around and wait for something and hope to god nobody notices I'm just on the home screen
>>39640515
>tics
i make a weird "kkggh" sound from the back of my throat all the time. i also raise my eyebrows and blink super hard, constantly
>ritualistic behavior
rely on my phone to prevent anxiety attacks in public
>odd gait
right leg is pigeon toed
>self-talk
none actually
>disheveled in public
obviously nervous and stiff, walk super fast and cant stand anyone walking slower than me
why cant i just be normal
Fast, stiff walk, bad or very straight posture, baggy, practical clothes that haven't been washed in weeks, messy hair, avoids eye contact, moves to avoid other people, talk to nobody, always alone except when with parents.
>>39640515
I had many actual tourettes tics, but I don't do them quite as often as when I was young. I play drums so when I sit I'm always doing double kick rolls with my feet and tapping on things. Everyone hates it.
Ear/Headphones on at all times when outside.
Clothing with muted colors
Messy hair
Look sad or mad
>tics
Sometimes twitch my head to the side, don't know if I do it because I'm an autist or if it's really involuntary
>gait
Can't walk straight, feels like one of my legs is longer
>self-talk
self-singing when I think no one is around
>talk to self
>long and unkempt hair and beard
>count my steps
>if I'm walking towards someone I glance up at them every other step to make sure I don't accidently bump them
>nod when I pass people in case they say a greeting
>keep nodding for the next 10 steps in case they don't and someone else was watching
>crack all knuckles including the ones on the end of the finger
>count out things I pass or take note of in 2's by syllable
>the last arrow point would be: two four six eight ten twelve four teen six teen eight teen twen ty twen
>if a moustache hair gets into my mouth i cut it with my teeth and cut it into small pieces in my mouth
>sometimes grab my nipples without realising it
>frequently ask: why x? Oh yeah because anon died
>come on this board
>miserable/angry expression
>slight stutter
>headphones always in one/both ears
>dark clothes
>Hoodie
>crack my fingers all the time
I used to have a lot of ticks and ritualistic behavious because of my OCD, but I've mostly gotten rid of it. I do talk to myself, but it's literally just one sentence I repeat: "I hate myself". I sometimes say it by accident in public too, but no one seems to have noticed yet, so that's good.
>>39640515
Don't know if it's OCD but I wash my hands twice after I take a shit. As others have said here, I too am a "fast walker". I also get a nervous tick sometimes in public where my neck twitches to the right if I make eye contact with someone, but it usually only happens once.
>>39646781
Forgot to mention - sometimes I stumble over my words and then awkwardly fake a cough to cover it up.
>>39640515
>used to have a tic where my neck jerked itself back and i didnt even notice
>constantly crack fingers/neck and check watch
>speedwalk everywhere with locked legs
>talk to myself especially when taking tests
>not really disheveled but i dress and look sorta like the virgin (fit instead of skinnyfat and wear a grey t/hoodie instead of a sweatshirt) with same hair and blue jeans
>>39646666
checked quads of devil
>Have tourettes
>need to try really hard not to spit out inapropriate shit
>me trying not to talk makes me twitch and move my head and make weird mumble noises and fidget with anything
Only time i really need to concentrate is if there are blacks, disabled or degenerate looking people becaude i normally say shit
>fucking niggers wish we could hang you
>fucking window lickers i bet you wish you cunts were normal
Friends and family and people i work with are cool with it. But its in public where i look like a sperg. Ive pissed off a few people mainly leftist types because they try to be so nice to me yet loose their shit when i start swearing at them and making fun of say their ears when really there is nothing wrong them they just get really insecure and dont like it. All my other friends just go with it and start making fun of me amd we jave a good banter session until my ticks calm down
>>39640515
Forgot the expression, the biggest part of robotism. Usually the quintissential robot expression is absolutely blank. Soulless eyes staring directly ahead, the lips curved in a serious straight face or slight frown.
Does anyone else experience random people smirking/smiling at you when on a walk outside? I'm constantly overthinking shit and try to realize what might be wrong, but even when everything about my looks seems to be okay, I still get that. Am I paranoid, is there something I miss, or there are actually people on the streets that walk with a smile on their face? Help me, I can't fucking tell anymore.
>>39641168
cheek biting, finger biting monster checking in. my fingers are fucked. its so embarrassing.
>>39647373
youre afflicted with extreme anxiety
>>39640515
i talk to myself all the time. Its what happens when you spend so much time alone after you lose interest in all the degenerate behavior or most people around you.
>>39647492
So what you're saying is it's not normal? I guessed as much, I tried asking other people if they could spot anything awkward, but only one told me that I was visibly nervous and uncomfortable under pressure, which at least means that I can conceal it somewhat. I'll just have to live with it and hope it goes away someday then.
>>39640515
I get in moods where I find anything remotely immoral unbearably revolting. To counter this, I continuously cross myself and say "forgive me, Lord" under my breath until I feel better. I will also count my steps, breathing, blinks, sips of water in sevens. These episodes can last for hours to days.
I try to keep it on the dl in public, but that doesn't stop me from getting weird looks.
I p-promise I'm not schizophrenic!
>>39647639
do you virgin walk or something?
>rub my teeth with my index finger
>widen my eyes too much
>forget to look away when people catch me staring
>often slur for no reason
>>39647653
I try to keep a good posture and a normal walking pace, so I think that's not it. But yet again, that's only my own perspective, so I could be wrong and it drives me insane.
I should also maybe note that I have medium length hair that fucks up a lot in wind, and I am cross-eyed. But not long ago I started wearing sunglasses and get the supposed reactions even on quiet days without any wind. Just what the fuck.
>>39647747
you sound eccentric and quirky just dont give a fuck man be cool
bee urself
>>39646666
Behemoth save me
>>39641855
>force myself to make eye contact
>it just worsens my panic
>forget to put on deoderant
>musk does not begin to describe it
>have worse than standard autism gait due to scoliosis
welp
>>39641855
>wear same clothes everyday
fuck chico
thats me