I can't take it anymore

>>39617587
>packaging
>"food"
>lower my intelligence
nah that seems unlikely since you're already retarded

i've got mild to moderate ocd, reading posts like these it makes me wonder how you can go through life without killing yourself. i feel your best bet would be living by yourself where you can routinize your impulses so you spend less energy on the stress of it (no outside influences to deal with).
how much do pollutants/dust bother you aside from when you;re eating?

>>39617727
I can't make any food anon. There are too many points that I think it becomes contaminated. I even tried making """fancy""" organic microwave meals and I can't eat anything that was heated with plastic, so I have to take it out of the package and put it in a ceramic dish, but that could be contaminated, and then I need a fork/spoon and those could be contaminated. It becomes a nightmare.

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>>39617587
>fake freckles
this is why i refuse to have a gf

>>39617587
OP
listen to me very carefully
I fucking mean it

exposure therapy
I also have very severe OCD
I spent 99% of my life suffering terribly from it
I was referred to a very experienced psychologist who specializes in OCD, trauma and exposure therapy after years of being misdiagnosed and going through shit therapy

we did it for 8 months
those 8 months were hell on fucking earth for me, but I never missed a session.
I did all of my fucking homework, I did absolutely everything that my psychologist asked for and recommended and holy fucking shit dude
the intrusive thoughts and the accompanying compulsions have been reduced to almost nothing.
I still get the thoughts, every day, all throughout the day, but they've been minimized to be a non-issue. They're just thoughts. They don't have control over me anymore. I have control over my own mind. I'm the one that's in charge. I don't have to do stupid rituals to feel okay. I don't feel compelled to do these horrible things to live.

I cannot fucking stress enough how much my life has changed. I've had the concentration and mental capacity to hold a decent job. I'm no longer so frustrated and angry and distracted that I can't have a healthy relationship. I can have sex. I don't want to hurt people. I can enjoy movies, going outside, driving, fucking sitting at home alone and doing nothing. Everything.

Please look into it. Please try and find a doctor who can try it with you.

>>39617752
If I didn't have to deal with this, I would be extremely relieved. I watch cooking videos on youtube and wish I could make that stuff so badly.

I am extremely sensitive to smells, so if I smell anything bad/strong/artifical, I need to get away from it and perform breathing exercises. volatile organic compounds are what concern me with that. With the food, I am worried about something toxic being on the food that I then ingest, maybe bacteria, who knows.

>>39617761
Anon, surely you must realize that the food is packaged in factories where the food touches the air, right? As well as the people that work in the factory. They probably come in to contact with it at some point too.

>>39617853
I think about that, but I don't know for sure and have no choice but to believe that it was as sanitary as possible when it went into the packaging.

>>39617800
I'll probably go to something like that after I move. I definitely want to talk to a psychologist about it.

>>39617587
>air is dirty and contains pollutants
anon you've been breathing air your entire life, if it was destined to kill you, something would have happened by now

>>39617587
You are retarded. There is literally nothing you can do to prevent the food you eat from coming in contact with the outside are. Most shit that's sealed has air form the outside world in it.

>>39617895
First off, you are ignoring that there may be toxins that are affecting him/have affected him and as a result made him less healthy than he should be, this perhaps being outside of his knowledge.
second, not all air is equal. most of the air we are exposed to nowadays is full of pollutants.
something doesnt need to be immediately life threatening to be unhealthy.

>>39617587
Ironically you're probably not OCD enough but just in the right way which you don't seem to be doing. Do you even get notifications of the latest food recall and outbreak locations? You're right, food could very easily kill you or make you so sick you wish you were.

>>39617964
hey, if you're cool with dropping your pizza on the fucking floor in a cafeteria and still eating, cool. but don't pretend you couldn't have not dropped it. there are preventative measures that can be taken to minimize harmful exposure to your food. not all exposure is equal.

>>39617853
>>39617895
>>39617983
>trying to reason with OCD or make someone feel worse
ahahahaha
it's completely irrational you faggots

>>39617886
I hope you can find a competent doctor dude. Don't cut corners and see a therapist without a license, get an actual doctor with a lot of experience. I promise you, if you can commit to the therapy and be honest about how the OCD is affecting you it can help enormously. It did for me, at least.

>>39617895
I consider the air I am near when resting(my bedroom with my bed and computer) to be the air that I am used to. I go days without leaving it because of my anxiety and OCD.

The pollutants when going out to buy food at the store, the weird smells in the store, the exhaust fumes from the traffic, all cannot be safe and I do these exercises when I come home and finish placing the food in my room

>wash hands 3-4 times, twice up to elbow, last times just up to wrist with hot water
>go up to bedroom trying to not touch anything with at least one hand to keep it clean
>inhale in bedroom, exhale outside bedroom door through both nostrils
>inhale in bedroom, exhale outside bedroom door through left nostril, holding the other closed
>inhale in bedroom, exhale outside bedroom door through right nostril, holding the other closed
>blow around mouth for any particulates or pollutants that came out of nose or stayed on my face from going outside
>repeat this at least 3 times
>put face in front of air conditioner as some kind of change of temperature, breathe out and in a few times
>re-do the inhale/exhale/mouth routine, 3 times, same as before
>gargle water 3 times, over 1 minute each time
>hawk out any snot or anything in my mouth that could have collected pollutants from outside air, 3 times

I have to do that every time i leave the house. even just opening the bottle of water to gargle water, I have to blow on the sides of the cap to make sure there are no pollutants/particulates, the blow on my hand/wave my hand for the same reason, then open it carefully to make sure my hand doesn't touch the nozzle.

Just the breathing exercises take 15 minutes or so of constant strong inhaling and exhaling. It is extremely uncomfortable.

>>39618034
>make someone feel worse
FUCK OFF moron

>first worlders who carefully isolate themselves from everything including dust get allergies and diseases by the dozen
>balkan kids playing in the mud drinking rainwater puddles for fun don't even know what allergies are and get a cold once every 4 years
Really ought to make you think that not only are you being fucking retarded but you're being counter productively retarded. Your immune system can't be strong if you never test it, same way as your muscles will only weaken if you never do fucking anything. Dipshit.

>>39617587
source request? image search is fucked

>>39618076
You are in hell, aren't you?

I'm so sorry.

>>39618034
If this person is only concerned about contaminants if they "make them bad or stupid" then yes they should be made to feel worse.

>>39618076
I want to go into your room and let rip a massive fart to contaminate your air.

All jokes aside you definitely need help OP. You shouldn't have to live like that.

>>39618311
looks like the contaminants already got to you.

>>39618345
Enjoy your Listeria faggot

>>39617587
> >food cannot touch the air with any reasonable suspicion that the air is dirty and contains pollutants i could ingest from the foods surface
That's life anon, but your body is made and equipped for eating dirty food.
> >toxins and pollutants from the air that I breathed in while leaving my room to buy the food
Joke's on you anon, the stale air indoors is way more polluted than outside.

>>39618245
I feel like the breathing exercises are hurting me at this point. I don't know.

sauce on the bitch?

>>39617587
That girl is very pretty, those freckles are qt.

>>39618164
https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5927516a72949

not op but i just fapped to it the other night kek

>>39618986
Downloaded. Call me old-fashioned, but I still have a porn folder.

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>>39617587
That trap would be cute if he didn't have those weird ink dots on his face.

>>39618076
Build yourself a class 1 clean room.

>>39619063
That's not a trap retard

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>>39619081
>short hair
>posted on trap board
Sure thing, buddy.

>>39618362
can't get lysteria if you're like OP

>>39617587
Not as bad as you but I have a lot of anxiety lately, especially over my health.

I'm having troubles eating food because I'm afraid I'll choke or that someone was messing with it beforehand

>>39619063
>>39619139
It's from a vid, surprisingly it's not a trap. It certainly surprised me

>>39620077
You're gonna need to drop sauce on that.

>>39620387
>>39618986
you need to read more

>>39620422
Fuck off, dumbo.

>>39617587
We all know that ritualized obsessive behavior is clearly abut the inner child trying to eternally sort out the patterns leading up to some trauma, right?

Like I'm not just now realizing that right?

>think it will somehow make me bad or lower my intelligence if i do not follow this
I have severe OCD with this exact thinking, except I'm not concerned with polluted air.
I have had several mental breakdowns from trying to stop all rituals at once, and feel like a completely broken human being.

>>39617800
This guy is probably right, you have to SLOWLY expose yourself to the things which trigger compulsions
I'm slowly now doing this which is fucking the worst hell on this planet earth and I relapse every week.
You have to expose yourself or you are going to get into bed-ridden state were you never leave.
FUCK someone help me.

>>39617975
>justifying hypochondria

>>39617587
i feel the same way op it's made my life a living hell except with me it's repeating certain phrases over and over and it starts to make me go crazy and that stems probably from me being very ocd about touching anything no matter what it is i can't touch anything because i think worms or parasites are on it and honestly i wasn't like this back in highschool don't know what happened but it happened

i just went out to get food and finished the exercises. I'm not going to do it anymore. I am just going to buy food online or something and quickly get it from the door step or something. I can't do this anymore. It physically hurts.

>>39621316
I don't understand how you justify this?
Isn't the food made in a open air factory? Touched by the workers?

>>39621348
some OCD things are very logical and actually aid you(learning a language, instrument, or subject, working out) but others are illogical AKA this. I have both.

>>39621387
I'm just telling you know if you don't do something about it it's going to get worse and you aren't going to be doing anything anymore.

>>39621316
Never leaving your house to get exerice and fresh air is going to reduce your intelligence, same with the breathing. Google what hyperventilation does to the brain. It actually reduces cerebral blood flow.

>>39621438
this anon has a good point ocd bro i mean people don't say "a healthy mind resides in a healthy body" for no reason

>>39621470
Don't even get me started what depression does to the brain.

>>39617587
You should just realize that if you die cause you touch fucking food, maybe natural selection has failed you and you should actually just die.

>>39621716
not die, be stupid or not good enough

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>>39617587
I bet you hate my room

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>>39617587
OP, give sauce for that bj gurl

>>39617587
I know these feels to a lesser extent. I'm fine with things that I touch or have been on a table that only I use because I know what's been on it. I only use silverware and dishes that I've washed.

>>39622755
pornhub view_video.php?viewkey=ph5927516a72949

>>39617587
This is the most retarded thing I have read all day, and here's why:
>your packaged food was packed in a factory probably by some dirty workers' hands
>even if the factory meets all the sanitary standards, dairy and meat products are pretty easy to contaminate, it happened before

>your "inhale in bedroom exhale outside the bedroom" method is retarded as fuck, when you open the door all the supposed "polluants" would come back in anyway
>exhaling wouldn't do shit even if there were any since you already got contaminated when you breath them in so you better buy yourself a gas mask

Finally your fear that eating normally like the rest of the world will somehow lower your intelligence, I can't even tell you how autistic that sounds. Einstein ate food that came in contact with air. By your logic you should be smarter than him yet you couldn't figure out that:
>you're afraid that the food will get contaminated if it touched the air that you are already breathing, which is fucking stupid unless you're eating something that reacts with oxygen to create mustard gas, otherwise you're getting the same germs on the food that are already in your nose, mouth, throat and lungs