I always freak out and get clingy when I feel like a guy is going to leave me. I blow up phones and need a good amount of attention. I get physically sick when I get rejected but only when it comes to romantic situations. I can't tell if I have autism or BPD or just an anxiety disorder. I feel compelled to blowing up their phones or yelling at them.
Oh and my parents were abusive so maybe that caused it?
The sick part is commonly linked with anxiety.
>>39511472
Would need a good amount more craziness for it to be BPD, I think you're just a clingy bitch.
>>39511495
What kind of craziness? I bothered the last guy for a couple of days straight and he wanted to pursue legal action lol
>>39511513
Do you often find yourself suddenly indifferent to someone you used to care about? Like suddenly they mean nothing to you? Do you lie or manipulate or do otherwise abusive things to people you care about, especially to keep them near you?
>>39511532
No.
I have before but not with the guy I was recently with.
Helppp
Need opinions
Probably not. I think you're just clingy with abandonment issues. One major sign of BPD is self-harm...
>>39511472
BPD can only develop from the ages of 1-6 due to trauma and neglect.
If you know you were abused between those age then you more than likely have BPD.
Past the age of 6, it will be trauma/PTSD not BPD.
>>39511703
but what if i fit the other symptoms like being into morbid stuff?
>>39512008
I dont even remember ages 1-6 but i was abused my whole life so yeah
no
but I do, this is my thread now
AMA
>>39512008
Source?
Interesting, but I haven't heard of this.
>>39511472
Talk to a therapist senpai lmao. Probably not.
"only when it comes to romantic situations"
I dunno if its just me but in my experience I get sick and clingy and paranoid of abandonment even with friends ive known for like a couple days.
Id really need a shit-ton more info to tell you, and even then, you'd probably be better off letting a professional hear it
t. anon with BPD
>Were you abused, neglected, or seriously abandoned by an adult, especially a caretaker, as a child? Bonus points for molested or dad left before middle school.
>Would you rather kill yourself or deal with abuse than deal with a breakup?
>Do you focus all your attention on the person that you're dating to the exclusion of almost everything else in life?
>Do you injure yourself, do drugs (including heavy smoking or drinking), have an eating disorder, have a bunch of dangerous or unfulfilling sex with strangers, or try to induce people to hurt you or otherwise intentionally put yourself in the way of physical harm?
>Do you want to kill yourself more often than not? Have you tried to kill yourself more than once?
>Do you feel unreal a lot, like you're a ghost or dead inside, your body is just meat that you're inhabiting, or your life belongs to someone else?
>Do you ever have visual or auditory distortion under stress, like stuff gets smaller or further away, it seems like people are louder or quieter?
>Are you scared or yourself when you're mad but get mad a lot?
>Does it feel like you're going to OD on negative feelings when you have them, like you'll die or go insane from how bad you feel?
>Have you had at least one abusive partner? Do you end up with partners who need you to boost their ego or want something to fix?
>Would people you've dated say you're their crazy ex?
>Do you ever feel like a little kid, either fully regressing or just helpless and unable to care for yourself or manage your own feelings?
Magazine-quiz style, if you answer a lot of these in the affirmative you're probably borderline. If so, I suggest not reading books or googling BPD a lot until you feel a little secure about yourself and reading stuff about Complex PTSD instead, which BPD is almost certainly a manifestation of.
>>39512121
about me:
>no friends
>loves morbid/creepy stuff
>anxiety
>depression
>clinginess
>abusive parents
>mood swings
>can be mean to romantic interests
>obsess over romantic interests
>feel empty
I don't really have friends though and when I did, I didn't really care about them like that. I don't self harm. I always look out for myself lol, I just get crazy with guys.
>>39512207
Sounds like you might potentially be BPD, but keep in mind that a ton of cluster-B type personality disorders share a ton of traits.
You sound like you fit the bill, though.
Is there a reason you're "mean" to romantic interests? Is it just something you do?
Back before I went fullblown robot and stopped being able to find potential S.Os, i'd be mean to my romantic interests as a form of loyalty test to see if they could put up with my ass if I had a real episode.
>>39512207
Why can't you obsess over me?
>>39512260
I think I test them, I guess? I usually either get self deprecating or get mean but not consciously. I don't want them to feel like shit.
>>39512321
What are some mean things you do?
>>39512321
Its more likely than not, still, we're r9k, and we can't fucking diagnose you properly.
Are you interested in getting treatment/trying to "fix" yourself?
>>39512340
I made a guy feel like he had to lose weight. I was constantly bringing weight up and I didn't really know he was bothered by it until we talked about it and then I reassured him that I thought he was fine.
Random namecalling.
Telling them that I don't feel anything.
Thinking I was smarter.
Acting weird or bitchy when they got emotional.
I'm a bitch.