Are any anons on this board hikikomoris? and what was the reason you became one?.
>>39487688
Oh fuck. I looked the term up, and yeah basically me. I've always been an outcast and had a shitty childhood. The outside world is terrifying. So here I stay with my vidya and anime.
>>39487790
>The outside world is terrifying.
I can absolutely agree to that.
>>39487790
Same here i can relate i been one for 11 years and my reasons are the following.
>Be bullied throughout both middle school and high school for having autism and being myself
>Lots of drama going on inside family home (Will not go into detail)
>Socially awkward
>Hate going outside
>Do not agree with a lot of things in this society.
>Feel betrayed by own age peers because i was not socially accepted by them
>Shit parents (Still love them to an extent though)
>Closeted pedophile (Could never tell my parents i dont wanna be disowned for an attraction i did not choose)
>To red pilled about the world to live a normalfag lifestyle i guess thats what happens when you're on the internet 24/7
>Hate most people
>One part of me loves being alone, this part of me loves to get away from everything and everyone.
>Feel protected when inside my room
>>39487812
Yeah. I didn't plan to be this way, obviously. It just kinda happened. You get into habits and before you know it, thats the norm. I've been less of a shut-in in the past, but now that i'm older and have nobody forcing me to go outside, i've just become a crazy reclusive person. Its truly hell but the alternative seems worse. Going outside, interacting with strangers... who knows what they're like, what they do, what their intentions are. I want no part of it. People only care about what you can give them, what you can do for them, or at the very worst, what they can take from you. I feel much safer cloistered up.
>>39487903
Basically describes me as well, minus being attracted to kids. I prefer to gawk at fat women and milfs. But yeah, being sexually fucked up in some way probably plays a role in this
We still have a few robots so yeah there are some hiki here(myself included).
>>39487933
>>39487933
>Yeah. I didn't plan to be this way, obviously. It just kinda happened. You get into habits and before you know it, thats the norm. I've been less of a shut-in in the past, but now that i'm older and have nobody forcing me to go outside, i've just become a crazy reclusive person.
Same here anon.
>>39487965
I like women too its just the pedo side of me thats sexually fucked up desu wish i didn't have it.
How do you guys afford to even do this kind of shit tho?
If I was a trust fund baby I'd be a hikki for the rest of my life but I'm not and thus I'm starting college in a few days.
>>39488113
That does sound awful, anon. How young we talking here? I find myself attracted to teen girls, but then again im 20. I still feel like im in high school so 13yo+ I dont feel bad about finding attractive. But lusting over pre-pubescent girls must be a fucked up feel. Have you tried anything to make it stop? When did you realize you had that problem?
>>39487688
How do people just sitting around smoking cigs and drinking booze with 0 social contact and no fresh air?
I at least need pot or I feel sick especially from cigs and booze
>>39488171
when you graduate and move home after having fun in college and the job market is saturated as shit and you can't afford to move out but you don't have a car either so you just kinda lapse into spending time on the computer and doing random shit around the house
what happened to me, at least
>>39488171
>How do you guys afford to even do this kind of shit tho?
Most hikikomori ether leach off their parents or get money from the government just like N.E.E.TS. do.
>>39488171
Basically having family members take pity on me because its obvious im not all there mentally. I didnt even finish high school because I had no motivation or desire. Mom was abusive so I never focused on school. The downside to this life is literally being a manchild that people have to look after and provide for. I had a couple jobs before but I was awful at them. My family knows Ive tried but at this point I think theyve given up
>>39488212
Do you feel like you're a failure? What do your parents/friends/family think of you?
>>39488226
How much can you usually get?
>>39488230
How rich are we talking?
>>39487688
I turned 20 a week ago, so yeah I think now I can no longer say I'm just a late bloomer.
>>39488209
>How do people just sitting around smoking cigs and drinking booze with 0 social contact and no fresh air?
Some people just like it indoors but hikikomori is pretty much the same as a agoraphobia
>>39488289
Yeah but don't those cigarettes and booze make you sick to your stomach and how do you enjoy life without pot?
>>39488242
>How much can you usually get?
Me?/ i get 67 dollars a month from the government
>>39488305
>how do you enjoy life without pot?
Never cared to try it i only drink sometimes and i dont smoke.
>>39487688
>tfw Hiki
>tfw no Misaki
I get so anxious around people, two to three hours are the most time I can spend outside, aside from the deepest hours of the night. Afterwards I tend to fall asleep for 10+ hours from mental exhaustion.
Granted, society is shit anyway, so there's no reason to bother with going outside. I'd still like to earn a living though.
If I didn't attend college I'd pretty much be a shut-in, I only leave my room to eat, shower, piss/shit and attend college of course.
But hiki is definitely way more extreme, I'm not afraid of people I just hate them.
>>39488242
haha well that's a nice way to ask but no, I don't feel like a failure. I'm definitely getting older and my most exciting days are probably behind me but I have a degree and I was able to pay off all my student debt before graduating so at least I've got that to be proud of. Most of the people in my graduating class are still paying their tuition off. My family just thinks I'm lazy, I don't talk to my dad much but my mom's retired and she spends more time away from the house than I do. Don't have too many friends back here at home, or at least I don't talk to them anymore, but they'd probably think I'm a bit of a loser for going off to college in the first place if I'm gonna sit around. I'd much prefer it to have been this way than to still be working though, most of them still lived with their folks too last I heard.
>>39488321
Hmm I literally can't enjoy a single activity in life without pot not even video games
Been that way since a kid
>>39488345
dude
same
permabaked life
>>39488196
>How young we talking here?
As young as 5
>Have you tried anything to make it stop?
See if i could get rid of the feelings i would all i can do is control myself and not say a word about it because i hate myself for it
>When did you realize you had that problem?
At age 15 been hiding it as a dark secret from my family for 9 years now and i do not plan on telling them any time soon.
>>39488386
YES, Lolita, NO. Touch!
>>39488334
I pretty much have this same exact attitude
>>39488356
How do we afford it it's 50 for 7 grams and 200 for an ounce here soooo much money dood
Good to know someone else is the same tho I literally have never enjoyed one thing in life even after having sex with a qt I still just sat there depressed feeling and wanting pot
>>39488345
>Hmm I literally can't enjoy a single activity in life without pot not even video games
See i feel this way about my tv and computer i pretty much am online 24/7 except when i sleep during the day from 6 am to 4 pm.
>>39488310
>67
>6 7
Where the fuck do you live that you can support yourself off that little
>>39488422
lol I live in CA so a little bit spoiled but I can get ounces for $100-200, pounds for $1-2k. I used to buy ounces but I am a committed user so I stepped up to buying lb's to save money and hassle
I also grow my own at my house. not entirely enough to pay for my habit but it's a fun robot hobbyI have some undeclared savings from selling harder drugs back in college so I just pull from that whenever I need more weed or oil
>>39488454
I actually live in a group home with 3 other people thats for people with disabilities they never see me obviously.
>>39488442
I literally encourage you to try pot so you avoid 80 years of suffering
I'm not being dude weed lmao I'm literally saying dude you will never once enjoy life without pot just grow it somehow any way possible just try
You probably live in a legal state ask your doctor or donthe deep web shit or anything
>>39488493
Thanks anon ill. see what i can do actually i know a guy who knows another guy who makes pot.
>>39488334
>>tfw no Misaki
>tfw Misaki isn't here to rescue me
>>39488415
>YES, Lolita, NO. Touch!
This
>>39488242
>How rich are we talking?
Not really rich. Just well off enough to not die. The family member I live with makes decent money, and just like me, they can't stand the rest of the family. I'm just lucky this person wants me around, and is willing to take care of me for now. Once I lose this person i'll end it (provided I'm still this much of a loser)
>>39488334
Fucking this
>>39489077
Fuck I gotta get neetbux if producing music doesn't work out I'm going full stoner hikki mode
>>39489092
Get it anon it's totally worth it.
>>39487688
Yes. It happened after I graduated college and couldn't find a job. I'm ugly with heaps of anxiety and the world has always treated me like shit so there was nothing but misfortune to be found outside. For lack of reason to go outside, I stopped doing and resigned myself to the hiki life.
>>39489481
How? With that debt?
>>39489489
I don't have any debt.
>>39488493
Dude weed lmao
thats literally you
>>39487688
I wish I was still a hikiko. those NEET years were so comfy.
The thing is that it requires an enabler. My parents kicked me out when I turned 28. I was thrown into the world and had to get the 1st shitty job i could find, and a shitty roach and bedbug infested apartment. I live on the weekends as if I were still a hikiko NEET.
>>39488532
>a guy who knows another guy who makes pot.
>guy who makes pot.
>makes pot
lolol
>>39488209
>how are people not complete normies
maybe you're on the wrong board
I guess I count. Not like I'm scared to go outside or interact socially though, there's just no need at the moment. I live with my parents and spend all of my time in my room. The only social interaction that occurs outside of my family is the rare occasion when one of my sisters friends come to visit her. I've found that I've gotten good enough at pretending to be a normie that I can converse with those specimens and I don't lose my ability to over time. I just became one because I'm more interested in videogames than the normie lifestyle. I'm pretty happy. I've been comfortable alone all of my life, it's just that I could never be alone for long when I was in school because I have some kind of innate magical charm. Even when I was a really awkward middle schooler that could barely even speak to people hardly anyone could bring themselves to dislike me. It seemed super weird honestly, at least it kept me from ending up like some of you guys though. I actually really like being in nature. Might want to get in on that travel meme at some point.
>>39487688
>Couldn't make friends in high school because I didn't hit puberty until 16 and was always made fun of for having the appearance of a ten year old
>As soon as I reached puberty I developed schizotypal disorder which meant that I couldn't talk to people without having a panic attack or intrusive, delusional thoughts
>Disorder is mostly under control now aside from social anxiety but I'm 21 and have no social experience and I'm not talented or intelligent enough to get any decent jobs or qualifications so I'm kind of just stuck here with no way out
I keep telling myself and everyone "at least I tried, no one can say I didn't try." I tried jobs, university, and military - failed out of all three. That's why I'm a NEET, I couldn't hold a job, couldn't hold a college course, and especially couldn't hold Air Force active duty. (Reasons being severe depression, intense anxiety, diagnosed with paranoid schizoid disorder but I believe avoidant disorder applies to me more, etc.)
Anyone else know these feels? Of failing out of absolutely everything? I keep telling myself "at least I tried, no one can say I didn't try" but I feel like I'm lying to myself, that I could have tried harder. But it's not my fault my inadequate neurotransmitters ruined my life.
I wish there was a board somewhere where only hikis would post. Every recluse/virgin board I've seen so far seems to have more wageslaves/students than shutins. 2ch has a pretty active hikikomori board, so there must be demand for an English language equivalent, what with how many shutins there are in Europe and the third world these days. Too bad I can't read Japanese.
I miss being a hiki so much. I'm just not made for society.
>>39491391
Wizardchan, faggot.
It takes normalfags about 5 minutes to legitimately want to kill themselves when reading it.
>>39491560
Anon thats such a normalfag answer
>>39491560
like I said, it's full of wageslaves and students. Posters don't even bother to omit mentions of their friends and female acquaintances anymore.
I am basically chad in terms of looks, social skill and opportunity, but I had a really fucked up childhood full of violence and addicts, it pretty much jaded me for life, when I am not at work I just come home and stay in my apartment browsing the internet and maybe looking out the window. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything or know anyone, I hate almost everyone and almost everything but none of my idiot coworkers know that, they think I am sociable and have friends and watch sports and shit but here I am. I have spent my whole holiday weekend entirely on 4chan
I've been one for 3 years. I live in a house owned by my mom and she recently put up some of the spare rooms on airbnb. Now I always have 2-3 normals coming in. 20 bucks for 2 hours of work per day (including talking to the guests, which is the hardest part) is pretty sweet, even though I start to feel outcast in my own house because I think that the guest think I'm a total wierdo. This little experiment or whatever you want to call it just proves that I have no hope of ever returning to a normal life.
>>39492182
Anon rhats not a hikkikomori going to your day job not socializing while out at work going home and staying in your room for the rest of the night is NOT AND DOES NOT MAKE YOU A Hikikomori being a hikikomori and a shy introverted person are not the same thing
>>39489830
Hikkikomori and neets are technechally not the same thing but they do overlap sometimes.
kinda, except I work a 9 to 5 in the city and have friends that I go out to bars and events with on the weekends
>>39493399
That's not a hikkikomori anon.
How are you people so socially inept yet so articulate in your posts?
>>39487688
I was one from March 2014 to August 2015. Didn't leave the house once. It happened after I dropped out of school. I started to become agoraphobic and extremely paranoid, my mom forced me to go to community college and get my GED.
I am now in college and moved away from home, if it wasn't for my mom I would be still in my room. Even today I occasionally get paranoid and want to revert back to my old ways but I don't.
Hope you guys get better lives cause its not worth it.