ITT we discuss mental illnesses and different problems we have and deal with.
>>39485909
Have to see shrink once a week for 14 sessions then back to twice a month for PTSD with psycboric features and MDD also anxiety all that shit I think therapy is a joke for me but might as well try
>>39485939
>I think therapy is a joke
Me too anon.
I cant stop being self destructive. Whats wrong with me?
>>39486018
>I cant stop being self destructive. Whats wrong with me?
You probably have anger issues.
Work at an under-staffed bus transportation company. Have to handle shit load of freight, label the freight and sell tickets to passengers at the same time. It is fucking ridiculous.
I haven't left my house in 5 years but I only feel lazy. How do I know if I'm just literally retarded?
Why do I overthink so much? Why am I so insecure? When I talk, my lips don't move. I feel trapped.
>tfw OCD
>tfw depression
>tfw paranoia
>tfw anxiety and panic attacks
>tfw insomnia
should've been aborted desu
>>39485909
>believe I'm my own god of imaginary beings
>don't want that power because the responsibility is too much
>sometimes believe shutting or moving something hurts someone in another dimension
>sometimes believe I did something I didn't actually do and think everyone is out to get me
I just want off the ride
>>39486055
How does one deal with anger issues?
I can generally contain myself but I also have a drinking problem and I'm prone to vandalism and telling everyone to fuck off. I stomped down the roof door of my building and woke up with one of those red light poles next to my bed. I'm probably gonna get massive shit from this, and this kind of stuff happens all the time.
>>39485909
I have ADHD and OCD. Had struggles with education and work all through out my life.
>>39486112
Maybe too much coffee?
>>39486080
>haven't left my house in 5 years
I can relate anon i too am a hikikomori been one for 11 years and my reasons are the following.
>Be bullied throughout both middle school and high school for having autism and being myself
>Lots of drama going on inside family home (Will not go into detail)
>Socially awkward
>Hate going outside
>Do not agree with a lot of things in this society.
>Feel betrayed by own age peers because i was not socially accepted by them
>Shit parents (Still love them to an extent though)
>Closeted pedophile (Could never tell my parents i dont wanna be disowned for an attraction i did not choose)
>To red pilled about the world to live a normalfag lifestyle i guess thats what happens when you're on the internet 24/7
>Hate most people
>One part of me loves being alone, this part of me loves to get away from everything and everyone.
>Feel protected when inside my room
>>39485909
>ITT mental illnesses are badges
Stop with this shit
>>39486169
Nope, I rarely drink caffeine.
>>39486193
>>ITT mental illnesses are badges
No No No thats not what were saying at all you just dont understand normalfag.
>>39486136
>How does one deal with anger issues?
meditation
>>39486167
I know how it feels, ADHD is hell. I am on adderall but it has turned me into a shell. I hate it but I hate being a retard without it. I can't imagine livingg till 30 I hate living with this meme mind.
>>39486112
>should've been aborted desu
IKTFB
>>39486226
Psychology is 50% pseudoscience. You can't classify everything wrong with people.
My experience with mental health professionals was a bad one, and I learned that they only care about milking insurance and will give you any label and drug to keep up appearances. You should accept that quickly.
I attended therapy for half a year, and the long and short of it was I had severe depression spurred by unchecked childhood depression that spurred prodromal stage of psychosis.
I've actively begun hallucinating at this point. Visual things, such as flashes of light, brilliant balls of fire that rocket across a night sky, more subtle green beams streaming in front of my car while I drive, and constantly seeing someone hiding beneath/near my car when I'm walking up to it.
They don't really emphasize the hearing aspect enough. I hear laughter, voices, singing, music, loud clanging, metallic scrapping, a lot of shit that has spooked me far more than anything I've ever seen.
I left therapy to attend a psychiatrist, who diagnosed me with psychosis, but once my parents found out I was going to take medicine for depression/psychosis they threatened to throw me out if I didn't tear up the prescription.
So now I'm just quietly suffering until I move out.
AMA
>>39486294
>but once my parents found out I was going to take medicine for depression/psychosis they threatened to throw me out if I didn't tear up the prescription.
That doesn't make any sense. Why wouldn't they want you to get help?
>>39486294
I also genuinely believe I am God's chosen one, and that everyone and everything in life exists just for me. Any replies this may receive were predetermined.
I wholeheartedly believe this.
>>39486074
Just get a new job anon not that hard.
>>39486332
I think it's just something meant for me to move out, like sort of a push. It makes no sense otherwise.
>>39486344
I am here to serve m'lord.
>>39485909
Major depression w something called "schizoid features." Never explained to me so I don't care. Meds = Zombie chuck and no meds = crazy chuck. Raped by a cousin when I was 5-14. Didn't help. In and out of homes and programs. Don't want to an hero but NEET on disability with no high school diploma, and basically just Ambien myself into oblivion nightly. Have a restriced ID because Alaska so no booze. Fuck my life
>>39486425
>NEET on disability
Same here
>>39486294
You really do have my pity anon.
>Shitty childhood gave me PTSD and depression
>Too much of a sperg to socialize in real life
>Even annoyed my therapist
I like to wear adult diapers and hide under thick blankets. It's one of the most effective ways for me to relax. I just want to have some semblance of a normal life, but I can't even have that.
I should fucking kill myself already.
>>39487002
>I like to wear adult diapers
>I should fucking kill myself already.
Yes you should you are a degenerate.
>>39487055
This whole board is degenerate
Why are you here?
>>39487055
What's wrong with wearing diapers? It's not like I shit in them. The most I do is pee.
>>39487118
>What's wrong with wearing diapers?
Its a disgusting fetish.
>>39487200
You already implied that. What's wrong with it though?
>>39485909
See a psychiatrist every two weeks.
Got referred after I told my GP "I drink too much and want to stop."
>already Dx'd as Bipolar II ten years ago
>lamotrigine 200mg
>heavy drinker for 4 years to combat pervasive night depression
>see psychiatrist, he is very thorough
>tells me I have schizoaffective disorder as well because I have had episodes of delusions
>wants me to change to a more potent medication but won't just yet because
>wants me to go to rehab there and then for alcohol
>spend a week in detox, on a multitude of pills so I don't have a seizure
>detox week was like being in the 7th dimension and completely painless since all the pills, also have serious amnesia
>finish week of supervised detox now tapering off pills
>tried going into work, had a nervous breakdwon every time and have no idea why
>I was open to coworkers and friends that I went to rehab for drinking, they didnt know I was a drinker
>coworkers supportive
>boss not so much
>beginning to wonder why I even tried to detox and if it really is worth it since my brain is now scattered and before I was functioning even though I drank heavily, now I can't go five minutes at work without having a catatonic embarrassing breakdown
Mental illness would always be my fate though. My brother is worse off than me mentally. Grandfather jumped off a building, also had Bipolar.
>>39487252
This, brother. If I could buy alcohol here anymore I would. When I was drinking I had a job too. Lost it when people found out and got slapped with a purchase restriction. Not beacuse I got drunk at work or had cirrhosis or anything from the drinking. Just that I was. No booze. Couldn't cope. Job gone. Now neet
>>39487362
Sucks man, I'm sorry.
So I suppose that means you're sober now? Has being sober made your mental health better or worse?
>>39487241
>What's wrong with it though?
Its degeneracy
>>39487401
Posting on 4chan is degenerate too
Did yall just goto your doc tell em you're neet or got major depressive disorder/bipolar/schiz/ etc? What happens when you get employment/ re enroll in education etc. ?
just curious
>>39487455
Your medical record is private. How would they know unless you tell them?
>>39487455
>Did yall just goto your doc tell em you're neet or got major depressive disorder/bipolar/schiz/ etc?
>Implying being N>E.E.T. is a mental illness
>>39487399
Both I guess? When I was drinking and felt depressed the ideas and paranoia and echoes would drift in, but I could ignore them. I was also a lot more stressed but felt more motivated. Without it...I guess when the sounds and other hallucinations do come they're scarier and shake me up more. I'm far more anxious now. Its a trade off I didnt choose and I would go back because drinking, as fucked as it is, was more sustainable. I made $12 an hour cashiering and the human contact was good too
CPTSD from hearing mom get raped and beaten and abused by mom
PTSD from getting raped and beaten
that pretty much covers it
i'm a mess
>>39487711
Is there a way you can move out of the area so you can get a new job and are able to purchase alcohol again?
>mental illness
>existing
>>39487787
>>mental illness
>>existing
>Implying?.
What do you get on disability anyway?
>try to talk to therapist about issues that may imply depression
>family plays a big part of me being so down
>he says along the lines that since they're providing for me they can do whatever they want
therapy is such a fucking meme
>>39488025
$895 a month
origrinal
>>39487787
If mental illness doesn't exist then why am I a pedophile?
>>39488055
>therapy is such a fucking meme
This
Give me the blue whale game link please. I wantto play.now.
>>39488152
>Give me the blue whale game link please. I wantto play.now.
Go find a torrent yourself.
I used to have had major problems and shit but once I went out made some friends lived life a little ive literally been cured of most my problems (aside from other things). I get it, its hard and Life sucks, but after taking the hard road Ive gotten to a much better place.
Honestly I don't know what you have but believe in yourself anon youll make it
>>39486294
Hallucinations are horrible. I don't have schizophrenia or anything (well maybe bipolar disorder, haven't seen a psych yet) but last summer I was lying in bed trying to sleep, it was the hottest week of the summer (about 34C and it was night time), I felt like shit and couldn't fall asleep, I couldn't stop hearing a siren noise far away, so I got up and listened better and the noise stopped so it meant it was in my mind. When I got in bed again the noise returned.
>>39485909
Does dissasociative personality disorder count as a mental illness?
>>39488398
>Does dissasociative personality disorder count as a mental illness?
Yes
>>39488458
Fuck, this gives me anxiety. I haven`t gone to any therapist yet for any other illness that I have except for depression, because it`s really annoying. The only help that seemed to work for me is the anti-depressants. I at least hope life goes better for you guys
>>39488055
>family plays a big part of me being so down
Me too. My family literally played a big part in me being mentally ill
>he says along the lines that since they're providing for me they can do whatever they want
I would leave inmediately and don't pay him/her shit
>>39488485
I gave myself long-term anxiety by selling/abusing xanax for years desu
feels bad
90% sure i have autism
>>39488680
>90% sure i have autism
Like everyone else on 4chan
I dunno what's wrong with me. I have paranoia, anxiety, and delusions. Recently I've had issues where my vision will distort and warp in waves or I'll see shadows run behind cover after peeking at me. It's rare and only seems to happen when I'm tired but I've never hallucinated like this before, it started happening every once and a while a few weeks ago. Hopefully it's just sleep deprivation and not the onset of schizo or something...
>tfw complete fucking psychopath
I was set to deploy to Houston for an aid organization last week and I had a panic attack at the airport and couldn't get on the plane. Respect to all the people who do this, but apparently I've got a little unresolved ptsd from the first time the sent me somewhere. I'm also the sole caregiver for an aging parent and I get no help around the house from my spouse. It's important for us all to know and understand and respect our limitations.
Worry I have schitzophrenia but feel normal at times. Feels like cement in brain. Locked in my own mind. No sleep. Part of.me feels as if it's my fault for smoking pot and being anti social . Not sure what to make of it. But when I have positive social interaction. I feel kinda normal
I've been dead for my entire existence. I was never alive, I was disqualified.
>>39491248
What happens when you smoke weed, friend? Do you get all "holy shit tutti fruition" or do you just lose the anxiety? I have a medical card for chronic pain, but I can buy anything I want from the weed store.
>Anxiety
>social anxiety
>Depression I'm sure
>Generalized Anxiety
>all the ingredients for Bdd
Should I just kill myself
I don't even know what's wrong with me.
Extreme situational anxiety and mild suicidal tendencies. The side effects of the medication just makes it worse so I just deal with it
>OCD
>Bipolar
>OSDD/DDNOS
>Schizoid PD
>meds cause chronic constipation
>constant mood swings
>no sex drive
>cant form healthy relationships with anyone without being dependent
>literally a cripple irl
i literally have nothing going for me - suicide pact anyone?
95% sure AvPD
Tfw too terrified to go to a psychiatrist
>>39492299
Same, i fit every single symptom.
And recently the >tfwnogf has been getting stronger, what do lads?