Why are you okay with being a virgin?

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>>39421404
>Why are you okay with being a virgin?
because I have hands

I've been one for so long that I've become completely apathetic about it.

I'm 30 and a HHKV.

Sometimes it still gets to me, but compared to when I was younger, it's really nothing now. I think the worst part about it for me is that I know I'll never have a family, no wife, no kids, so it makes "putting in an effort" into life seem pointless.

I was recently diagnosed Schizotypal personality disorder. I wonder if I had this forever, or if I just slowly developed it over-time from not being a normie.


Physically I'm fine, I lift, stay in shape, healthy clear skin, I'm not ugly, I just can't function socially and keep to myself and honestly have no desire to be social. Again I'm not sure if this is because of failures to be social and my brain just coping by becoming Schizotypal, or if I was just always Schziotypal to begin with.

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>>39421404
When you don't have looks you just have to accept that you will never be in a relationship.
I have never had a single girl show a romantic attraction to me. What the fuck am I supposed to do?

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>>39421404

im not okay with it theres just nothing I can do about it

>small dick
>fat
>ugly
>autistic beta traits
>assburgers

I have no chance OP

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>>39421885
>just nothing I can do
>I have no chance OP
This hit me hard

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>>39421404
At this point, I'm less concerned about being a virgin in itself than I am with the general feeling of being alone.

Sex is nothing, really. If I cared that much, I could pay somebody. I cannot, however, pay somebody to genuinely love and care for me. That requires effort and, perhaps more importantly, luck.

When the lust seizes me, I masturbate and the feeling subsides. When the loneliness kicks in, I talk to myself and pretend that the isolation is absolutely oppressive and that every day isn't a waking nightmare. Suffice it to say that this is a hell of a lot less effective than rubbing one out.

At this point, more than anything, I really just want a hug.

I would be ok with it if every normie didn't think I was a freak for not having sex. Most of my friends don't know I'm a kv so they don't treat me weird, and I hope they don't find out because then I would get treated like a freak. Despite it not changing anything about me.

I'm probably the most low key virgin in the world. I don't get nervous around girls, I don't stink like shit, am fat, or creepy. I'm just slightly ugly and never had the chance at intimacy in high school so i have no idea how to initiate it now.

After being alone your whole life you mostly just get use to it. So it's not a big deal. It's like If you were born blind it would be easier to deal with then suddenly losing your vision.

>>39421850
Read Neil Strauss faggot.

>>39421514
>>39421475
A mix of these two

>>39421404
It is too much of a hassle trying to not be a virgin

>>39421404
Because I'm literally autistic and don't crave physical or emotional intimacy

>>39421404
No, im not. it isnt the worst thing ever, but still not the best

>>39422182
game doesnt exist faggot. That picture does though.

Because I only have two options:

>Cope and be ok with being a virgin
or
>Constantly freak out and feel upset over it while being able to do nothing about it

It's gentle acceptance

Hasnt really been a priority in my life since high school. ill probably either kill myself first or lose it but then realize that that wasn't even close to being a justification for living and kill myself a few years later.

I have to be ok with it or I'll have a mental breakdown.

>>39421404
I don't understand.
Why does everyone care about virginity and such? It doesn't bother me at all.
Yeah I wanna have sex, but it doesn't bother me every day, or much really.

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>racist
>the girl would have to be white
>white girls are sluts
>vagina turns into a roastie before 18
>fuckno.jpg

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Because I can masturbate all I want, it's virtually the same shit regardless, sexual pleasure

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>>39421993
>At this point, I'm less concerned about being a virgin in itself than I am with the general feeling of being alone.

I feel the same

>>39422073
Omg are you me? The few people I trust and told about my virginity refused to believe it at first.

I just never learned how to get intimate with girls and they never initiate it. So we always just become friends.

Nobody wants to date an unattractive autistic NEET.

I can kinda get that but the loneliness persists.

>>39423451

no its not the same. you'll never touch a girl like Rei, feel her body against yours, the eyes meeting, kissing, cuddling, having sex.