Vent and get stuff off of your chest.

why can't you just care about me the way i care about you

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>>39389982
I've been incredibly lonely since all of my friends and family forgot my birthday. I think it will go away. I have even devolved into shitposting for attention. I'm not very happy.

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to whom it may concern

>tfw 0 friends
>tfw no gf
this loneliness is too much to bear, i have nothing to say but i nontheless want to talk

t. anon

>>39389982
I finally got around to getting a headset and it feels so good to talk to friends and play games again. Nothing really to vent about, just feels good.

>>39390091
I'll talk to you, anon.

Original mamas sauce

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Add fringewizard on skype. He will never ghost or block you. He runs an esoteric board. [Eight] ch . n e t [slash] fringe

>>39390091
Got any recommendations of reading anon? I need to reread my rommel and campbell myself. It's ok to feel lonely sometimes just remember you have us

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>>39390060
Hello fellow anon. We're your friends and I love you!

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>>39390091
B-but we're your friends desu senpai!

>>39390145
if you do not mean that in the hurtful partonizing way many anons seem to do, please post a way so i can talk to you and you can ghost me after

>>39390162
sorry anon, but i do nothing besides lurking r9k all day. hopefully a kind anon can reciprocate your affection for books

>>39390243
Play overwatch with me. Or just talk to me. Pls don't talk to me like other anons. All they do is meme and hurt my feelings

>>39390343
We got shit else to do brother. While in the prison of our minds lets see if we can liberate our souls. If you like fiction it's kinda a long book but the count of monte cristo is a lot of people's #1 mine included. Regardless I'll probably catch you in some other thread anon. I'm around

>>39389982
I am nothing. You are nothing. Friends are temporary and love isn't real. Life is meaningless and all my actions and accomplishments are pointless. I am a infinite pit of sorrow and despair. If he is real may god's hell fire claim me for he knows I am not worthy of entering the eternal kingdom.

>inb4 edgelord faggot

I'm just bored of pretending to have real friends , they just take, you have alcohol, they want some, then you friends. I'm not asking for a best buddy to do everything with but just someone nice who doesn't fuck my ex who I still love.

>>39390544
Embrace the edge. There must be a reason for your feelings. Even if we're destined just to have been potato/rice farmers in another life we've been given an opportunity. I agree life is meaningless but we should be able to derive some purpose.

>>39390591
Get over her bro. If you could have gotten her even if you think it was just luck chances are you can do it again. Realistically no one really has friends unless you grew up with them. There are collections of acquaintances failed normies use to project the facade of a social life but no one really has "real" friends. If you are looking however you will probably find people that are ok just chilling

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>>39390091
Hey dweeb I'm >>39390060
We are both lonely pls talk to me. RevyRiv#2855 that is my discord. Please don't insult me unless it's just playful teasing. Sometimes I have a hard time differentiating teasing though.

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Happy birthday
I hope you're doing well and are content and all that, I really do. It's been a while since we last talked, I doubt we will again, but I just wanted to say here (since I wouldn't dare message you directly) that I remember, and if you needed to talk for some reason some day I'll most likely be there. silly huh, there's not much of a reason for you to ever need or want or even think to talk to me for anything, but still. Have a nice day man

>>39390962
What's the name of the birthday boy?

>>39390962
This is a very rad picture. Who ever you're referencing should be happy to be your pal.

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>>39391432
here's another one for ya
we're not really pals anymore at all

>>39391470
I can dig it. Unless something bad happened i think you should talk to them. However I obviously don't know your situation.

>>39389982
I dont want to go back to fucking uni because I'm scared I'm gonna drop again

>>39389982
You ever have one of those days where you just want someone to hold you tight and tell you that everything is going to be okay?

>>39391653
Same here,
Too bad I entered my transcripts and will get emailed if I'm accepted into the school

>>39390755
>real friends don't exist
I feel sorry for you. I think you're just a shitty person

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>>39389982
I thought I'm gonna get better, actually live instead of just existing. I met a perfect woman. I mean, I didn't even think about sex or her being my gf, I was just happy to hang out with her and be friends unironically. And I fucked it up by saying one, just one, stupid, "didn't-think-about-it" thing. Now she probably doesn't want to see me ever again. It was never so bad, not even at the time I actually wanted to commit sudoku, back then I was just lacking, now I've experienced what I could have and ruined it by hurting the one person I was devoted to and it's my fault completely, I can't duck the guilt, not this time. I try to delude myself into believing she'll eventually forgive me, to no avail. I would do anything to get her back, but there's nothing to do, just drinking and crying.

>>39391878
Why did you drop anon ?

I feel like complete crap. I posted something in another thread that made me remember why I'm alone. I was fine for 10 goddamn years, man, and now it all just hit me like a ton of bricks.

I want to fucking kill myself so damn bad.

>>39389982
M
I am really sad that you didn't laugh or smile when I showed you the "M" i got tattoed on my foot written in comic sans.

>>39392240
fear
didn't have license or car
still dont , I'm going to take the bus or will see if I can get license before end of the year.

>>39392462
Story please

48699

I am sad that I'll never become independent or have a job.
But I am also happy and comfy at home.

>>39390962
initials?
it's my birthday and I want to know who is this from.

>>39391743
You mean every day?
I'd even settle for being the holder but nobody would ever want that from someone like me.

>>39389982
This isn't the write thread for that OP image, OP. You should know this. That image has a thread already.

>>39392776
Yeah that's exactly what I mean. Being the holder would be nice as well, but I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to be as comforting or convincing as someone would need me to be.

Get the fuck out of my head or I swear I'll fucking KMS I can't deal with this anymore
R

>>39392034
I know this is a longshot for sure, but are you Jonathon?

>>39392872
Nope, I'm from former Eastern Bloc, we don't even have such names here. Are you a girl who was wronged by some Jonathon? Would you give some advice if I told the full story?

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I have this story I imagined in my head for years since I was a young child and still imagine to this day because I have autism, basically a giant sci-fi war of unimaginable scale. I think I fucked it up though and now I am really mad at myself. I always imagined myself as the main character and "roleplayed" as him in my head, having his internal monogloues and so on. The first one was Peter, he died when I left seventh grade and I imagined him and his wife Emily dying in the escape from the giant crumbling fortress that as my school. Their son Orion became the main character. He did everything, all the memories I look back on fondly were of him. He even looked like me. When I was 19 I had him die in a battle I'd been building up to go months, in which he sacrificed himself to kill the main villain Timeless who had been in the story since its beginning. Orion wrestled him into a pit of energy, catching timeless off guard because he would never expect a sacrifice. Now years later Orions children became main characters, Leo and Andromeda. All the family had uncanny reflexes and brief visions of the future but andromeda had them more strongly than anyone else. She had the equivalent of IRL "wallhacks" and could "see" visions of the future clearly. She was effectively the kwisatz haderach from dune. Now this meant that my attention was split between Leo and andromeda and I felt like the story had lost its main character. Leo was too "chad"like for me to really get in his . Orion wasn't a beta robot type but ...i don't know. He was different. So I decided to have a "resurrection quest" by andromeda who had never met her father, only heard his voice over the radio when she was born. So she set out with Leo and some side characters. I had constant anxiety as I built up to this, trying to justify it and wondering if i should go through with it.
Continued below.

>>39391879
There are people I trust with my life and I'm genuine when I call them friend but it's a man's nature to doubt. If ever came the time they'd betray me then so be it I'm fine dying this way. I probably am a shitty person I have no need to defend myself

>>39389982

Enough is enough, OP

>>39392941
Nah, I just know a "pal" that had the exact same situation. He never really had friends and he finally got a friend with some girl. She was probably his closest friend (cuz only friend lol.) All I know is that he was extremely empty before also. He said something (can't actually remember since I wasn't too invested in the guy) and it set her off and she won't ever talk to him. Ever since then he just drinks and smokes weed all the time. He is pretty different (cheerleader guy, extremely edgy and just dead inside, fishes (lol)) But yeah, that's really all I know. I know the girl too and I've talked to her and in my opinion she was extremely bland and was unbearable to talk to her. She would literally whine and complain and act like I'm going to care. Sorry for rambling lol

>>39389982
I truly hate the person i am. I have no motivation on living, but I'm too pussy to do it. Never been loved (both romanticly and by family). Molested at a young age that messed me up a bit (also bad ADHD/autism). Only thing I ever wanted in life was a friend, but things don't always go the way you want desu

>>39392988
What i ended up doing was having the enemy bring Orions burnt body to the ruins of an ancient city, following andromeda and relying on her and her visions to lead them to the exact location. There they ambushed her an put Orion into the chamber hoping to bring him back as an assassin to use againt andromeda. Timeless' successor, dauntless, beat her in combat and had her pinned down choking her when Orion rose from the pool of nanites and pulled dauntless off of her, telling him to get his hands off of his daughter, before fighting and killing him.

So Orion was brought back. Yet I regretted it afterwards and felt strange inside, like I'd done something unnatural. I felt as though I'd ruined everything. Did Orion become the main character again, over twenty years after his death? And if not what happened to him? Who becomes ruler of the city that Orion liberated and now Leo rules by birthright? I know its autistic to be upset over an imaginary story but it's one of the mid important things in the world to me and I feel as though I've ruined it in a vain quest to preserve what once was.

>>39393246
>>39392988
neat, anon retconned his own fantasy world. I don't really have any advice, I just found it interesting and wanted you to know that someone read it.

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>>39393351
>retconned
Yeah I really did fuck up didnt I.
Thanks for reading though.

>>39393627
Have you ever thought to make this into a book or something? I'm sure the pre-retcon stuff is pretty good and if you can deal with your dissatisfaction with the post-retcon content I'm sure it would still be interesting.

I wish a nigga would confront a nigga instead of using his girl to do it.

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dear r,
i hope you're doing well. It's been a while since i've talked to you and I don't have any updates on your situation but i hope that it all worked out for you. YOu seem like a good person and i genuinely hope your life gets back on track.
As for me, well, time is dragging on and the days are starting to bleed into each other. I imagine it would be worse if i were still in jail, so im thankful that i'm out.
but i still dont have any direction. I dont know where my life is headed: jail, probation, acquittal, death. Right now death seems the most attractive. Regardless of the outcome i don't know how i can bounce back after this ordeal. my life is in ruins and I feel so lost and confused. Nobody around me understands what I'm going through; not my family, lawyer, doctor, or anyone else. They just don't understand what it's like to be in my situation. But you do. You know EXACTLY what i'm going through. while i was still locked up you gave me guidance but now that im out i have noone to help me. i guess ill have to figure it out on my own.
thanks for everything.
-J
p.s.
fuck this life

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>>39389982
I love Jesus but I'm addicted to porn. I've got a large collection of fetish porn in a folder on my computer right now and it makes me wonder if I can even call myself a Christian when I know I'll likely make no attempt to even stop my addiction.

I'd like to be in a nice healthy relationship and have some friends but I'm too paranoid from being bullied and betrayed all my life. I don't think I have ever had one normal relationship in my life.

>>39393051
Does her name start with an A?

ytfisitnotoriginalwowgoddamn

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>>39394155
Don't worry, Jesus loves you no matter what.
Sex is normal and as long as your fetishes don't cause any harm God doesn't mind.

But remember that although the desire of the flesh itself isn't a sin, you should try to free yourself from these chains. Temperance is a virtue and brings you closer to God.

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>>39393731
I have written about 300,000 words (about 560 pages) of it but it's very fragmented and I need to cut it down if I am ever to finish it. It wasnt really a retcon just a shitty heavyhanded redurrectiom story. Which I guess is kind of the same thing.

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I done some bad poos and now I'm gonna be in a lot of trouble.

>>39394379
Not him, but will Jesus love me if I'm having impure thoughts about men? Can Jesus help me stop this?

>>39389982

If those faggots at the garage hound me about my parking again I'm gonna public database them and ruin their fucking lives.

Stop being colossal faggots, I will destroy your family and everything you hold dear holy shit bros

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Writer's block. I know where I want to go, but not the right steps. This hasn't happened since I started rewriting my story. I've been trying to write little stories from inside my story's world, but it's not the same.
I've just been very depressed lately. It feels like a part of me is gone even though nothing bad has happened. No job. Ill family that yells at me a lot. Only friend is ignoring me. Don't think my meds are working anymore. Being awake is unpleasant.

>>39394542
That's pretty impressive; proofreading would probably be a nightmare though. As far as "cutting it down" goes, unless the scene is really retarded in retrospect I don't see why it would have to go. It's sci-fi; it's supposed to have in-depth stuff. Don't feel obligated to delete some of your story for space issues, this story is yours after all.

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>>39394602
Anon, God wants you to be happy and live a good life. Follow his guidance, help those in need and praise his name.
That's literally it.

He doesn't care if you love a man or woman because before him we are all equal. Don't listen to those who spread hate and fear, sometimes they just don't know any better.

God is always watching over you. He knows your dreams and desires. Don't try to hide it because there is no use. Ask God for guidance and he will show you the path.

>>39392941
I want to hear the story, anon!

>>39394813
But what if these thoughts and that path is becoming the gf? Wouldn't God dislike that I would be turning my back on the body he gave to me? Please don't think I'm memeing, this is a serious question. I've never been very religious, if I had been I'd probably have a priest or something I could talk to about this.

WHY WON'T ANYONE TALK TO ME LIKE A PERSON

I JUST WANT FRIENDS

The only people I talk to are people I have group work with in class I just want people to talk to me. I know I'm not doing the greatest job but I don't want to look like an idiot because I feel like that will make it even harder to make friends why why why why what do I need to do just to make friends I just eat, go to class, and sleep I hate it I miss my home and I miss my friends why couldn't I be born normal instead of having all these mental issues man what the fuck did I do to deserve this

I think I'm gonna schedule for visits with a psychiatrist again. Maybe pills and some guidance can help me like it did before

>>39390036
lol. You sound like a cuck

I hope you're not as miserable as i am right now
I miss you, bubby

I've been getting really bad road rage lately. I get physically upset, my hands start shaking and my heart hurts. Shit like people honking at me for coming to a complete stop at a stop sign or red light like I'm going to not look and let a car slam into me to let some chucklefuck go one millisecond quicker. Trucks with their grill on my bumper in heavy traffic like it will make a fucking difference. People regularly almost merge into me or smash into me because they're trying to weave around me in the middle lane at 90mph. I try to drive defensively but it's hard when nobody drives like they give a fuck about their own lives. The only pro about living where I used to in bumfuck nowhere is that people drove like HUMAN BEINGS.

>>39394368
No, it is Kali

I'm going to kill myself very soon. I have no friends at all, I don't know anyone. I have no one to talk to and the girl I really liked and wanted to meet with rejected me. You can't even imagine how much it hurts. Oh, i also have SAD and clinical depression to make my life better.
I'm sorry, no one besides my parents will miss me, I don't know how to talk to people or how to respond to their messages. I know literally nothing and I'm a living trash.
I wish I was never born.

I've known her since I was 5, and we've grown up together, though it wasn't until we graduated to High School that she noticed me. Long, hot afternoons sitting in the park, talking and eating ice - cream, sometimes with friends, sometimes by ourselves. I loved her. I loved it when she sat next to me, leaning on my shoulder, both of us sharing a pair of earbuds after she finally got me to listen to that one song she liked. All those nights, chatting to each other until the sun trickled over the horizon and realising, but not caring, that you weren't going to do anything the day after. Drinking coffee in town on a frigid winter day less than a month from Christmas, sharing our finals results and crying and laughing because we could both go to the colleges we wanted to, and a mountain of other precious memories I'll never forget.

But that wouldn't be right for absent thread, would it? I wish it was a sudden, jarring moment, because that would allow it to heal, but I haven't talked to her in months, leaving the pain to gnaw away at me, distracting during the day, and even worse at night. Fate happened to bring us both to a house party. I know she fucking saw me, and she had to have thought likewise, but we didn't even create eye contact, like all those years meant nothing! Maybe I should have made a move past being extremely close friends, but it never seemed like the right time! She was the one person I clicked with, my one soul mate, and now she is nothing more than an initial on an imageboard filled with complete strangers who help briefly with the strain, but will probably never think of you the moment they wake up the next day with their own set of issues in life.

I loved L, and she loved me, but I was too much of a pussy to make a move.

I LOVE YOU
I'm drunk right do
But I love you
Clarissa

>>39395295
I know the feeling, anon. Do you have any online friends at least?

>>39395070
in practice? no. mentally? probably.

>>39395262
Don't just out Kali like that.

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>>39394990
A priest is often a good idea but before you take any advice from anyone you should find your own relationship to God.

If you truly want to defile his creation out of spite and on purpose then yes that is probably something he wouldn't like.
But as I see it right now it doesn't seem like you intend any harm or act out of malice. Only you and God know your true motivations so I won't speculate any further. If your reasons are pure then I don't think he minds how you look to other people. After all our body is just a mortal shell that is meant to be discarded after it has fullfilled its purpose.

>>39394990
>>39394813
>protestants

Absolutely degenerate.

who is Ellen actually?

C,
I know this is not a letter thread but I just wanted to know what'se been going on in your life lately and if everything is ok.

A

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>>39394745
What's your story about?

FUCK I WOULD KILL FOR YOU TO FUCK MY ASS AND SQUEEZE MY TITS UNTIL I CUM OVER AND OVER

I KNOW IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN BUT I'LL KEEP DREAMING

>>39389982
Getting rejected by girls so often is slowly killing me inside

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>>39389982
Lonely no real life friends. The online friends I thought I had abandoned me one day. Only thing keeping me going is my boss who reminds of my grandfather(rest in peace) the gym, and the dream of becoming a Marine. Still cutting weight so far lost 40 lbs about 20 to go I don't care I've lost a ton of strength just being able to do pull ups for the first time was amazing.

You don't care that your partner won't do even the minimum of housework for you, or that they are a financial burden to you and your roommates. You never will, no matter how much I show you that I can do all that for you and more. One of these days you'll love me, and if you don't I'll just never stop loving you.

>>39395844
Good luck anon make America proud.

I keep destroying myself. I use alcohol, meth and other drugs constantly. I have pushed away all my friends and keep doing it. My family who loves and supports me. I live in an apartment by myself with no job, I can't hold one i have tried countless times. I drink away the pain i manipulate and abuse those who just want me to get better. I feel like human garbage. I want to die but I can't I have tried many times even ramming my car into a retaining wall at 70mph. Someone wants me alive. There is still something I have to do...

>>39395394
>you should find your own relationship to God.
If you're still around, how do I do this? I just feel so lost right now when everything I knew to be wrong feels right and I feel like I don't even know who I'm supposed to be anymore.

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>>39389982
All I have ever wanted was to be left alone. I never ONCE wanted any of this! Nothing has ever given me the motivation to live my life! Please just let me live in some shack, hut, cave or bridge and forget about me.

>>39396190
What's that something you feel anon? What kind of hobbies you enjoy?

>>39395586
lmao I almost hoped that was for me
goddamn I'm delusional
I miss my A though. Good luck to you with your C anon.

>>39396513
How do you know it's not for you?

>>39396591
The A I'm thinking of wouldn't be browsing this board or 4chan in general. I don't think so at least.

>>39396423
too bad so many jobs are not hikki or at least robot friendly. otherwise you could afford a hut away from everyone.

>>39396433
I like cooking, and am passionate about home brewing alcohol. I don't know what that something is but im stuck her until it happens

>>39389982
Freaking the fuck out. They tell me it's schizoaffective disorder, but I don't believe them. I think it is something else. I don't know what my next move is.

I tried for you. I really did. But I don't mean anything to you. And I just fucked up my second chance. I should have just cut ties to begin with after you rejected me.

Now I'm hurting all over again. And it's causing me to throw my life away piece by piece.

>>39395051
Sounds like you have clinical anxiety, desu.

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>>39389982
Equal strength and equal hell
Crash the car because of the pills
Scream in vibrant horror
Waking up not able to move
Thought processes were supposed to be clearer but now they are completely dimmer
You tell the one with the doctorate degree
Take more pills I am not free
Off balance unable to walk
Slurring of words unable to make sense I am alone I cannot tell anyone
I cannot cry because emotion is gone
I am not human what I had before the pills is gone
Self esteem is not real
I have been told I'm sick
I am wrong
It's cool cause my dick doesn't work anymore either
What have I done god damnit
What did I do to become apart of this specific timeline by chance, was I ever sick or am I becoming sick
I am not a sociopath I loved so much
But not anymore I am becoming the monster I am assumed to be
Psychologically raped
We can all be worse off but that doesn't make it alright
Alright
Have to trust me for once
Misunderstood
They give you a guitar as you're drugged and can't play, they laugh and mock you
I cannot sing
I cannot scream
I cannot cry
I cannot feel anything


Any robots ever take any Pharmaceutical meds that messed you up a little bit?

N,
I don't know about you, but this isn't working for me. Being not-friends feels terrible and yesterday I heard Quinn talking about how nice you were and I just want some sort of closeness between us. I know I'm sending a whole lot of mixed signals here but I don't know what I want or what I should do to feel better and youre the only person whose been there for me

>>39396660
Try grabbing a job at a restaurant and make your way up the chef ranks? Try and stick it out. Whens the last time you called your parents?

>>39389982
I don't fit in anywhere, I'm not a robot or a Chad or even a normie, I'm just a shitty cyborg. People invite me to hang out but its just so they're not lonely rather than wanting me specifically. They invite me over and make me go pick up drugs or alcohol while they're already wasted just as an errand boy. I know this is the case every time and yet I still hang out with them. I'm just so lonely and I want people to talk to. I know none of them care about me and if I died tomorrow their reaction would probably be "dang, we need a new errand boy". I don't even know what to do anymore.

>>39396761
lots of them. what kind of meds are you taking?

>>39394774
Yeah. Alot of the plot are just pointless battles so I can probably brush over them pretty quickly. But even so I still probably would need 2million+ words to write the whole story.

>tfw always choke when trying to get a girlfriend
>tfw when outside of school I'm really a loner
>tfw when I hate life somedays

I'm sick of the real world, so I made my own one up that involves incredibly autistic shit that I won't get into. But it makes me happy to live in it and I don't mind life so much.
I just go to work and school and daydream inbetween the rest of it.
It's not even very plot driven, it's just a better life.

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>>39396831
No SSRI's anymore they found out Bi-polar type II and SRRI's are dangerous together and cause more damage.

Now

Welbutrin 300mg = anti depressant
Hydroxyzine 50mg 3 times a day = anti anxiety (does not work)
Seroquel 50mg = antipsychotic (fucks me up the most) though is an extreme low dose

Exlinol 5mg CBD oil half a tincture 3 times a day. (best thing I have ever tried my entire life out of all pharma medications) just moved to Florida where you don't have to be dying of cancer or have constant seizures to have CBD. Originally from Missouri.

The meds I took before were the ones that really destroyed me

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>>39389982
You fucking "d"s,

I want to kill you all. All of you fucking dickheads, who socially ostracize women who are intelligent, educated and/or talented, esp. the ones who are aware of those traits in themselves. Just to MANIPULATE ALL women to avoid being so, so that they would be more DEPENDENT on men, so that you too could have a companion and sex life. There's a LOT of you among the INCELS, including male Elliot Rodger fans. I want to kill all of you, or at least cause some SEVERE PAIN to all of you. Also I want to PUNISH all of those brainless, talentless, uneducated bitches, who gladly receive your acceptance, even your admiration, while knowing how you spit on women who are intelligent, educated and/or talented. All of you shitheads deserve a PUNISHMENT. Do not know yet what it is. Maybe I'll show up in the next ElliotCon or something, and explode your heads into the thin air. Because YOU ARE RUINING IT TO ME and because majority of you are fuckheaded, manipulative filth, making it worse for all women.

Period. Now start waiting for your miserable death that will eventually come.

I'd only make exception with Elliot himself, if he was alive, as he was so fucking gorgeous that he'd deserve to be saved.


yours, "Elliot Forever"


PS. I will also kill ALL dickheads feeling a need to attack me for what I just said, as they are on the wrong side.

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>>39397348
>yours, "Elliot Forever"
Dammit, it should be "Yours," with capital.

>>39397348
cool story bitch. good luck with that

>>39392034
I feel you anon. I did the exact same shit. It hurts. Real fucking bad.

guess that's good enough a basis to call E a baget for me OP

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>>39397424
Thanks for the support. Altho you seem to be on the wrong side for the way you called me a "bitch" so you can start waiting for you personal punishment already. I have a lot of "bitches" on my backyard, those with sharp teeth, who could be taking care of it. :D

Probably M is definitely your girlfriend. I doubt why she knows me. I'll accept his invitation to forget you.
I never allow for you to have deceived me, but I just want to kick you out of my life. Goodbye.

>>39389982
My gf didn't message me all day for the first time and I am dying from a lack of female attention. I didn't even realise how much my day is taken up by talking to her usually and how much free time I have if we don't talk. She's been getting more distant recently (one word replies etc) and seems uninterested/overly annoyed or critical.

Am I just a needy cuck? Or are we headed for a breakup?

>>39397572
its just you. ride it out

>>39397572
you're a needy cuck.

Why can't she be honest? It killed me. She just blocked me when I asked her to be honest. It would have been much better if she told me to fuck off so I can move on. 3 Fucking years and I still think about her. Why did she have to be the only one who treated me like a person. Why did I fall for it

>>39397572
Careful anon sounds like your in a pickle and yah don' wanna act to rash naw

>>39397599
>>39398144
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thanks lads

>>39398235
what did you mean by this

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>>39398173
The worst part is she won't tell me what I did wrong, like I just want a friend maybe she thought I liked her or something. I was in a really tough spot with medical and family and I'm sorry I was so clingy but I needed help. You were the only one I could talk to and I guess I messed up that night at the mall I was going to tell and its not your fault for not knowing. I wish you would have been honest with me years ago

>>39398290
sounds like your at a critical point and you should be careful with what you say and do because you might regret half-assed decisions years down the line. I don't know how to help you but just think things through and make sure not mess things up

I'm extremely clingy and when I like someone a lot I can't help but message them all the time. It's nothing interesting either, it's just mundane messages about nothing. I know it's probably stifling and annoying and I don't want them to feel that way about me. I'm trying to stop but I'm finding it hard to, even when I know that they're not in the mood to talk. The sperg I am even changed their skype name to "don't" yesterday, just so that it would remind me to not constantly message. it's not working too well.

>>39398386
Thanks, I'll keep it in mind

You know too much about me. More than anyone else, more than even myself. If I ever met you again I'd try to kill you. I love you.

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>>39394891
There are four people in this story, let's just call them by initials: L is my (probably former) close female friend, A is a woman I know briefly (but who trusts me for some reason) and K is a guy who lives in a different country than the rest of us; all four of us initially knew each other from a reddit-type (with usernames) board. A wanted to work abroad and K proposed she could live with him to save on housing costs. Then everything went to hell: A told me he keeps making sexual advances at her to the point she feels threatened, that she fears for her life unless there's another man in the house to protect her (there are several flatmates) and so on, it looks like K expected intimacy in exchange for accommodation. She won't leave because she really needs the money (our country is a really poor shithole). Before this happened, L and K started messaging online and she felt close to him; he basically complained about depression and suicidal thoughts and she comforted him (she is quite nurturing and seeks contact with, well, interesting robots and failed normies; that's why we met). Coming back to now, A writes me more and more disturbing things, K complains about her being cold and unreciprocating on our board (she got banned) and he proposed L to come live with him when A leaves. L doesn't take A seriously, saying she's just a dumb Stacy (she kinda is, but that's not the point) who makes shit up for attention and that K she knows would never do such things.

For me it looks like a pretty clear chain of events: K thinks he can get a relationship by helping a vulnerable woman, A doesn't reciprocate, so he hates her and makes her feel unsafe, but there's another girl to obsess over: L. And I've seen sexual messages K wrote her. So I told L I fear K has a pattern of poisonous (not "average robot" but more "domestic abuse") relationships with women. She stormed out and didn't want to see me again. (post too long, more details if there's any interest)

>>39393246
I thought it was pretty neat Anon. My story is basically a Mass Effect/Halo rip off with a self insert as the mc.

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>>39394155
Good for you for trying to prevent it. Porn is degenerate, and not conducive to a healthy society.

To the 3 people I considered friends in highschool and half of college, then ghosted when they dropped out:
Hey Z, you're fucking crazy and your conservative shit posting on Facebook is embarrassing. Everyone laughs behind your back and thinks you've gone off the edge. I'm glad you didn't invite me to your wedding because you're a fucking generic moron and your on and off fiance is going to cheat on you if she hasn't already.
C, you were my best bud and a cool dude. You followed in the steps of your gpa and became an alcoholic, maybe the drinking wouldn't have been so bad if you didn't wanna do it every fucking night when we had classes and on top of being a violent drunk. Nobody thought it was fun to be around. Also good job getting that Mexican bitch knocked up. How did that workout for you? She's seeing another guy, hates you, and wants to run back to wetback Florida with your son. Gg man. Life's over.
W, you're a fucking cuck boy. You're as bad as Z when it comes to the Facebook shit, but being in the National Guard has made you more stupid than I thought was possible for you. You're not a real soldier. You sit at home all day with your flipper baby (flippers for hands. It's legit.) I'm glad C, Z, J, and I all gang banged your current baby mama and then you stuck with her I think of it from time to time and laugh my ass off. Go to hell you duck lipped son of a bitch. Also, don't idolize your crazy abusive piece of shit dad and I didn't fuck your sister cuz she's crazy and I didn't wanna take a chance of being tied to your shit family.

These are the only type of threads I really like that bring me to shitty site. I think I saw one related to me a couple threads ago. Everything's so relatable or is this just empathy?

>>39400428
Post more details.
Also >reddit-type board
Did you meet on Wykop?

Thank you, mysterious Omegle femanon, for listening to my self-loathing for a bit and trying to cheer me up
I'm sorry you had to
Tbh I've been working on myself for some time now, on being less of a malignant narcissist and on not hurting everyone I interact with, and this stuff only comes to the surface when I'm falling for someone. I kinda am, and I think she'd be better off without me, and it's complicated and stupid and I'm sorry for dragging you into it.
Thanks

>>39392988
I like your art. I'm not going to lie, it's trash. Seems like you have potential though. You ought to put some more effort into learning.

>>39401434
post initials senpai

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I fucking hate you you're such a fucking bitch back when we dated you wouldn't even give me a single fucking kiss and now you let someone who could be your dad touch you and you play easy to get; I don't want it I don't want to kiss you now I don't want to fuck you now I don't fucking want it

I want to go back when we were virgins

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>>39401426
Good call on my country of origin, bad one on the board. (Wykop has been highly cancerous for a long time, ours is a much smaller, 00's/pre-normiebook type board. I doubt you could guess it if you don't actually lurk there).

I don't know what details (save for real names and places which I won't do) I could post. Basically, L was already confused by the whole "sex and relationships" thing even before my blunder. Now she probably thinks I value opinions of some random Stacies more than hers (which isn't true, but she got even more mad when I tried to explain in my spergy fashion). She's probably confused by her attraction to both K and (possibly, I'm much more confused about this stuff) me. She's already felt a lot of pressure to choose between several male friends who want to be more than that and she likely now considers me another one. I believe she still would like to keep me around somewhat (I think I'm the only person who actually listens to her), but isn't sure if that could still work after I expressed open hostility towards someone she cares about. Maybe she even thinks I'm so jealous that I'd rather have her live in misery with her aunt in our country than be happy with another man (which isn't true, I was supportive in the past and before I learned all this shit I've actually encouraged her to leave the country, but K in particular gives me a bad vibe).

And I'm ashamed, because as a fucking 24-year old man I should understand such feelings and not hurt people I love. However, all of this is completely new to me, before the current year I left home only to wagecuck (if I could get a job) and to buy vodka, I had no friends and no other women in my life besides Mom, I've been just getting drunk, shitposting and being miserable since I left high school. She's helped me a lot, which makes the guilt even worse.

>>39389982
Why couldn't I have been here during the golden era

I don't know what love is. I'm not sure I've ever truly loved another person, or even an animal and I've been in a relationship for ten years

Dan,
I'm browsing /vp/ and thinking about you. Miss you.

>>39396770
I-intitials, p-please?

If you guys were worth my attention, you wouldn't be mutilating your own kids and running your stupefying scams.

>>39404026
im DS writing for NP but I doubt she'd be on here

>>39405153
I'm NS
But this was so close, there was even a Quinn too... I almost died. Idk why I still have hopes... Good luck with your N.

I just wish you could have been born straight. We could have had so much more. but It's still nice to be able to consider you my friend. I'm gonna miss you when I leave

>>39405616
Lmfao, they're just not into you, sorry. The ole gay excuse.

>>39405672
Nah man, she's had girlfriends in the past. It's cool tho

I fucking hate these thoughts about being a girl, i dont fucking want to be one okay so just stop fucking thinking about it

I dated a girl for 2 fucking years, thought we had something special, left me a week before she went to study aboard. It's the greatest thing that happened to me though, decided to change so a woman like that doesn't disrespect me anymore. It's only Wednesday and since Monday I've ran a mile a day and worked constantly on my editing career. I've never been so motivated in my life to be someone's worst mistake.

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>>39401772
She wouldn't know because I didn't tell her, but S.A.M.

One of my coworkers is an extremely rude and petty cunt. She regularly shits on new employees, ignores people when they talk to her and is likely drunk for half of her shift given her completely belligerent behavior.

The problem is she's the oldest employee in the company, a manager, and has gotten away with practically murder because she's on the good side of the owner of the company.

I just got a raise, my job is otherwise insanely comfy, but holy fuck do I hate this bitch. I'm not going to sabotage my job by being petty right back at her but I wish I didn't have any moral fiber and would tell her to fuck off or file a complaint against her. The company is so small that she would find out immediately that it was me who complained. reeeee

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To the girl with who I had my first Tinder date after being alive for 26 years.

You didn't have to pretend to be enjoying our conversation and then run away while I went to the bathroom because I was too anxious. But worry not, I won't be trying to date anymore.
Thanks for opening my eyes to the reality of things.

t. a broken anon

>>39401553
I'm practicing more and more. Maybe I should stop drawing on index cards.

Please give me more affection. It's killing me that you are always cold.

>>39407038
>giving up because of one tinder whore who probably already had 9 cocks in her
I mean, I've given up too, and for less, so I can't judge.

>>39401553
Do you have any advice what I should do about my story?

I know I sound like a normie ,but God fucking damn I want to get back with her. I had a fucking chance in the spring but I've put on weight and don't look like I used to. meanwhile she's just gotten hotter. I was her first true love and she was mine at 21. now she's with a dude that is in better shape than me. he's shorter and I know he don't fuck like me.
I don't have her number anymore and no way to casually chat with her. I'm hoping she hits me up but damn women are just lazy. reading /Pol/ really made me push her away like an idiot. I need some advice guys, the anxiety is fucking me up. I know I sound like a normie but this place was my home in 2011 when I was a complete incel.

>>39409291
>reading /Pol/ really made me push her away
You deserve all of it. She won't come back. Kill yourself.

>>39396761
yeah bro. I got injured in the Army in Afghanistan and have some PTSD from it. they put me on seroquel and klonopin and it like made me a zombie for years. no emotion just numbly going through life at new civilian job. no one around to connect with PTSD. I'm off them now and man it's like having emotions again. took me a while to get off em tho

the family dog is barking and scratching my door to get in what do i do?

me

>>39409359
:( sad originally. I'm pretty down on myself too. she may come back, they never lose that first love/first good fuck.

>>39405878

If you play your cards right, it shouldn't be too hard to get someone like that fired through her own actions.

*as you sow, so you reap*

it serves him right

>>39411076
I'm sorry B

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I'm getting drunk right now, but feelings of guilt and loss over my beloved L won't go away. Maybe I should cut off a section of my finger, yakuza-style, and send it to her to prove my remorse and devotion? She does collect animal skeletons, maybe a human bone would be a welcome addition. And the cutting itself wouldn't even be that painful or dangerous.

I feel like I've grown more and more emotionally numb over the past few years. I don't even like my hobbies any more, it feels more like I perform them out of habit or as rituals.

Suicide grows less and less daunting by the day.

I'm so tired, anons.

I didn't know if you too looked at me at the trainstation. Or was it just coinicidence? Did I just make that up? Saw you every now and then, but I just realized how damn cute you are. I wonder how old you are.

Damn trainstation-girl I really wanna get to know you better

>>39411225
Send her your thumb

>>39408481
fuck it man, break up with her, she will eventually break up with you if she doesnt show you affection anymore. its not worth it...

>>39412321
He's the one not showing affection

H

I fell for you hard. Especially the way you treated me. You said you hid the truth cause you didn't want to hurt me. That you still wanted to be a friend. I fucked that up cause I was hurt really bad. Then out of desperation I asked for a second chance. I shouldn't have done that. I still love you. But I can't be with you. I fucked up my second chance to hang out with you because I couldn't handle how I feel for you and how you can't feel that way for me. I'm not well. I don't know how long it will take but I'll get over you. It just my new position at work fucked up my schedule, and you really brought back my depression. I added in alcohol and I became even more volatile. Sorry I hurt you. But you hurt me. Goodbye H.

K