I'm feeling anxious over the fact that I enjoy this type of porn way too much. And in combination with sissy hypno videos I might have turned myself into a huge faggot at some point.
I feel like I can go back before this porn obsession hit me, but I don't think I can forgive myself or accept the fact that this was possible. The possibilty that if u watch enough perverted porn, it can basically turn you into a faggot over time.
Anyone that feels/felt the same? Did you find a solution that made you feel better?
I feel as if I can't take myself seriously and can't feel manly after all this perversion.
>>39381762
You took the blackpill. Why do you think there is all the shilling about traps/blacked and other porn here?
It's so bad that if you don't have a remotely "sexy" or "pornographic" image on your thread you'll get no reply at all.
>>39381762
go watch some cwc videos and know that is your final destination if you continue
if your perversion rules your life you'll only suffer, so don't be a dumb cunt and get yourself back in a not-absolutely-retarded state
You are just horny. I fap to trap shit but when in normie setting I feel nothing and not attracted to anything that remotely resembles dick.
No matter how many times i fapped to dicks, the idea of kissing another male will always be disgusting
>>39381762
Stop masturbating for some time and start with normie porn gain
>>39381991
I can get myself back in a "not-absolutely-retarded state". I know.
However, my problem is I'm having anxiety over the fact that this happened. I can't accept my faggotry in the past. How do I get over this?
>>39382048
I can guarantee that without porn the rate of people identifying as traps would be ridiculous lower.
Porn is literally the cultural cornerstone of the entire trap phenomena. and it's bizarre to me that they aren't more self aware
>>39382055
just don't do it again, as long as there are no permanent effects you don't really have to worry. because you have self awareness enough to realise it was bad and why, I have no doubt in you
try to keep a clear mind and think about how some people may try to manipulate you over it when they do (e.g. people calling you a closet homo to win an argument, "become a trap" threads on r9k)
as Hulk Hogan used to say stay true to yourself, to your country, eat your vitamins etc
>>39381967
>>39381991
>>39382019
>>39382048
What is your opinion of this:
The other night I was smoking weed out of my window (high as fuck). Weed makes me mad horny sometimes. I saw a nigger on the streets (didnt make me feel anything).
Then I thought to myself: "what if I focus on the guy and think of the bbc/sissy at the same time". And it made me feel really horny for a couple of seconds.
Now in hindsight I feel disgusted and feel as if I crossed a line.
>>39382157
Thanks thats helpful. I wonder what your take on this is? :
>>39382185
>>39382226
extremely degenerate, but you were not in a natural/sober state of mind so its not really something you'd normally think/do
the main issue is the weed which itself is pretty bad, why would you want to dull your mind and destroy your brain with drugs?
stay off them otherwise you be able to stay true to yourself
>>39382303
also forgot to add, why even let your desires take a hold of you in the first place? trust me when I say it feels better to not need something than to need and indulge
food for thought, the Buddhists weren't wrong when it came to this stuff in particular (though I wouldn't subscribe to the entire thing)
Just drop the dumb fetishes cold turkey. Whack it if you want but don't whack it to porn. Just use your imagination and think of gentle loving sex in the missionary position between a completely vanilla white couple. Do this for like 6 months straight and then just go ahead and try to beat off to retarded fetish porn. You'll think "How did I ever like this", but you'll probably want to try it again later. Just don't. Go straight back to vanilla fantasies and stick with them, you only pick up fetishes by exposure to them.
>>39381762
These pictures keep getting more and more disgusting and shilled.
>>39381967
Then if you're aware of the current state of r9k why would you care about this kind of people replying to your thread?
What the fuck are you still doing here?