Today at work I felt insanely down, I can't even describe

suicidal ideation

it's when one idealises suicide as a means of escape, giving one a temporary release/distraction from their current feels

>co-worker jovially asks me "what's up?"
>just put a finger gun into my temple and make a bang noise
>"That's what's up"
>customers smile nervously

>>39281696
I bet your "work" is sitting somewhere. Probably on a PC. Go work manual labor and see if you can be sad.

I cant describe it either. I have this weird feeling of something in my chest hurting, either my heart or stomach. Its just this dark feeling that i cant explain. I think about being being dead, and somehow it makes my mind and heart feel clear. I cant even cry anymore, and that was the only thing that allowed some form of relief. its just numb now. i dont feel real.

>>39281720
Are you neet Christ ?

If it wasn't for benzo and alcohol abuse I'd be already insane. Being stuck in reality scares me.

>>39282160
nah, but i've been battling chronic depression and ptsd since childhood so i know a bit about conjuring images of death at times of high stress

>>39281696
>today at work I got saaaaaaaaaaad
Could you just kill yourself already?

>>39282209
>Could you just kill yourself already?
I could, in several ways but I am too vengeful to make it easy for people like you. I want to be an annoyance.

>>39282237
Youre anonymous dude. You have no power over me. Besides, you'll die at some point. Whether that's before or after me, I still win

>>39282289
>Youre anonymous dude.
Yeah that's the point where you don't actually win because we never met, you don't get to see my defeat.

>>39282340
Whatever. Im gonna sleep easy at night knowing there is a little bitch out there who's gonna die. I don't need to see your defeat, knowing the inevitable will happen is good enough

>>39282383
>a little bitch out there who's gonna die
we're all gonna die, anon. every living thing. memento mori senpai