>jacked off to fag shit again

>>38949750
link it my dude wanna see your taste

>>38949750
I've stopped stopping myself.

I've just embraced it, I'm closet bisexual.

honestly it really helps me cope with being a loser, I can't get a gf so it's only natural I should be pounded mercilessly.

I know that feel bro. Why do I fap to it then feel sick?

>>38949750
Same. I get really horny when I see a cock but feel so ashamed when I'm done fapping.

>>38949872
This is the gay shit that gets me going. Ramming a worthless fag like yourself into the ground isn't even really gay it's just a duty to emasculate the pathetic.

>>38949986
if you have a small dick then you're just as bad and coping

>>38949872
>I've just embraced it, I'm closet bisexual.

I just can't give up. Not because I give a fuck about being gay or straight, but I know gay sex would never make me happy. Girls give off a very positive uplifting energy, it just feel right. But gay sex, even without having it, I can feel the energy is negative and self destructive.

Its not about whether you are gay straight or bi, its about managing your impulses and making the right decision. But identifying with your impulses removes that power from you. Its like saying well junk food taste good so I must eat it, but you have a choice. That's the trap of sexuality labels, to make you one with your self destructive desires.

>>38950311
yeah don't do it then, you'll just mess with your head.

my pride and self respect has been diminished to such a point I don't care, plus it feels good.

>>38950371
>my pride and self respect has been diminished to such a point I don't care, plus it feels good.

I feel you. I think thats why the fantasies appealed to me so much as a beta male, you can just give up, relinquish you responsibilities as a man and live off of cheap gay sex until you kill yourself or die of AIDs.

I was knee deep in the shit, but I made a string of good decisions during one of my self improvement runs and I had a moment of clarity where I realized that I may not be 100% straight, but going down the path of faggotry isn't the answer either, nothing good or meaningful can come from it, its literally the same as masturbating to porn in your room alone only way riskier. That's how I managed to find some semblance of peace with my faggotry.

>>38950489
for some reason I fail to muster the motivation to tell you anything significant.

You may be right, and every moment to the next is filled with the brutal fact we form our reality. But it's always more complicated then that.

i feel like the more I fight the more it consumes me.

I do regret doing sissy hypno though that shit fucked with my head more then I thought.

>>38950489
I guess it comes down to dopamine and habits forming around your reward centers in your brain.

I was doing a job search and I was feeling really good, actually getting something done, writing a resume.

my life is fucking ruined dude.

>>38950489
oh god it's starting to sink in

>>38950664

I'm not telling you not to fag it up, just trust your feelings. You know when you're doing something stupid and when you're not, and thats what kept me from going down that road. If I was just madly in love with another guy I wouldn't give a fuck, that would be worth it.