What do robots, at this point I'm only willing to take advice from other fellow robots.
>23 year old robot
>lifelong depression
>attempted suicide twice some months ago
>literal drug addict
>went to rehab, stayed sober 2 months
>relapsed again
>use 24/7 again
>feel sick again
>chest hurts and I'm slender
>try going to NA meetings but it's full of Chads and Stacies
>genuinely hate everyone else
I am lost. I have a job but I might lose it soon. I am too pussy to kill myself and I can't stop using. I can't sit in NA meetings, I just leave after some minutes because everyone else's shit nauseates me.
I just want to be happy, believe me I try, but it's hard.
>>38947327
pls respond
oregano 69
>>38947327
You're probably highly intelligent; highly sensitive; and have a genuine heart. Unfortunately, many times it is not uncommon for men like who have these traits that I described to be lonely and isolated.
>>38947327
My advice to you is to JUST DO THINGS and stop STOP THINKING so much. Average people have a tendency just to do a lot more than think. They're also more socially and materialistic ally driven. For someone like me, seeking out high music and high art is the pinnacle of a quality life. But for many others it may just be making money fucking bitches or hanging out with friends. Do all this stuff but just do it. I'm still a virgin but I know if I want to fuck I just have to make the effort to find a girl. It may have to be any girl.. just as long as she doesn't have any stds
>>38947327
Addiction is not a disease.
Blah blah changes brain chemistry.
Guess what?
Everything does that masturbation releases more dopamine than eating food. Hence nofap fags.
It really is a mind over matter thing.
I was an alcoholic for a couple of years and only recovered thanks to me stop being a little bitch. AA meetings didn't help me. You know what did?
Being proactive and doing shit that wasn't drinking. I learned how to code and made some shitty apps. By the time I had figured out how to do that I was 1 month sober without even realizing it
>>38947327
You may also suffer from depression which completely clouds your judgment and distorts reality from your minds perspective. I think I have that. Let me tell you that last night.. I was thinking about a girl I kind of liked at my job and I tried to fb search her.. I couldn't find her. I had talked to her before at my job. So I immediately thought she had blocked me because she thought I was weird.. this was just a wild assumption.. it turned out to be completely false. I couldn't find her because I didn't spell her name right. The assumption I made was entirely false. I managed to convince myself very very well of something that wasn't even real. I now realize that it was the depression that caused me to make this assumption and thus cause me to feel down about the situation. My mind tricked me into denying reality.
And fuck drugs. Street drugs were designed to fuck people's lives up and make money off addicted people. That's why drug dealers are shit stains! The drug crisis in this country is devastating and should be addressed by our gov.