why can't i truly love someone. no matter who it is, no matter how perfect they are, i just fucking lie how i feel to try and feel something. i've done this for years and im just tired trying to get this 'compelling' feeling to just love someone.
everything i do is out of jealousy, anger, the need to manipulate and just to make people hurt. i don't want to do this, i hate doing it but i do it anyway, I've had a fair few people who've just fallen for me, who love me and who seriously love for 'who i am' but im just a fucking lie, everything about me is just a fucking lie and nothing is true
>>38927927
I feel like you do, anon.
It's like I'm not me. I don't have my own personality. I don't care about myself or anyone else truly, it just feels like a lie.
I feel like I'm losing my mind.
At least you have oldschool runescape
On that 99 fishing grind btw
>>38928178
where do we go from here tho
>>38928182
i recently staked my bank then sold it, i died after taking that screenshot. Unrelated heres another image i screenshotted after i crashed some guys at bandos
>>38928290
how do you die at bandos
Osrs thread?
I'm on a grind to my first osrs 99. Idk what though. I had 6 in RS2 pre EoC. Been thinking about going for Crafting or Smithing.
>>38927927
are you my ex?
(orig)
>>38928290
i have no idea...
originelli
>>38929426
what's your ex's initials?