>slowly losing all touch with reality
>talk to myself constantly
>have multiple personalities
>what sanity i have left in my brain is screaming for me to come back
>getting a name change soon and not telling my family
>literally changing my real name to one of my alter ego personalities that has taken over my life
>tfw lie to everyone and say i have a wife and daughter but i've never had a gf and i'm a kissless virgin who hasn't even held hands with a girl
>tfw constant mental breakdowns
>tfw went out to my truck on lunch the other day and cried for 30 minutes while punching myself in the head
>tfw put my pistol into my mouth and thought about blowing my brains out on lunch
>tfw went back in like nothing happened
>tfw thinking about saying fuck it all and going out by doing everything illegal i ever wanted to do
>tfw know i can "fit into" society but could never fully be accepted by it or have any friends because i am a compulsive liar and a shitcunt excuse for a human
>tfw i am completely insane
at least i have a nice dick i'll never get to use i guess
dick rating threads belong to /b/ don't they?
why not go to a therapist?
>>38840487
i lie to the therapist too
like i know they're supposed to help but i didn't want to keep paying them for some pseudo bullshit answers, i probably need electro shock therapy or some kind of mental enema
>>38840543
im curious, anon. what would make you happy?
>>38840558
at the moment having a motorcycle and some freedom to go places without going broke would make me kind of happy but i also hate being outside and around people, i've been riding a bmx bike around but i look dumb and i've explored every inch of my city to the point of boredom
i have shit credit and a shit job too, nobody wants to finance me for a motorcycle and i'm too stupid + old for college and i don't make enough to save for anything because my mom takes over half of my paycheck for rent and bills
not waking up tomorrow would be nice right now
>>38840400
Have you ever tried weed?
>>38840659
how do people manage to find drug dealers when they're antisocial
>>38840690
you would have to use the dark web
>>38840757
how do i log on
>>38840840
im not sure. i think there's a subreddit to explain how everything works though.
the only thing i know is that you absolutely must use bitcoin.
>>38840690
Got FB? Message someone who you think might know a dealer.