>27
>"maybe this is the year i pull myself together"
>8 months in
>made little progress
>Halloween is less than 3 months away
>you can feel the seasons changing
>tfw hkv,probably won't lose virginity this year
>right now focusing on my garden
>thinking of planting rows of strawberries
>getting autistic with my diet and compost
>tfw making compost tea and measuring everything i eat
>people at starbucks are getting mad at me for going there collecting the free coffee grounds for my garden
when that cool late summer breeze comes in and caresses your person and you're instantly brought back to a time when you were in your teens. Sure they sucked but you had that glimmer of hope that you'll find the means to get it together since "you're still young" You had more doors open then,than you do now. Most of the doors of opportunity have shut. You realize you can't pull the young card anymore and it's time to get to work and start making things happen now to salvage whatever you can get. you don't have the privilege to relax, your brain won't even let you play video games anymore without it telling you to get off your ass but you're so used to doing jack shit that you stay stagnant because being in the little dirty fishbowl of your room is what you're comfortable with and the big waters outside your glass are too scary. So you sit in a cloud of the same shitty thoughts and consuming the same media you have been consuming since your younger years because it's what you're comfortable with and your "routine" seems impossible to break.
I've had enough. I don't want to see 30.
>26
>graduated my tech school and ready to start career
>kind of worried I'm starting late but at the same time I should be well established by 30 at this rate which isn't so bad
>can't find job in field for months now
>going to be right back where I started before school working in a shitty warehouse soon because I'm getting too far in debt
Why can't I find a job. I didn't even pick a meme career or degree, I'm a mechanic.
>>38821156
A mechanic for what? That sounds like the job prospects must be at least decent generally everywhere.
>>38820999
FUCK
Direct hit in the feels.
>finally got out of school
>still can't find work
>younger brother who was shit at school, but had friends got a high paying job right away
>parents starting to not so subtly drop hints it's time for me to move out
fugg
I'm just going to join the Army. I'm almost 25 and I really don't want to see 30. I can't kill myself. My family would be destroyed. I'm the only one that keeps them together.
>>38822546
>has a family that enjoys him
>is under 25
fuck outta here
>>38822845
Turn 25 in a few months. My family might enjoy me but I'm still a loser.
31 is 1 month away, or if you count starting from 1, in one month I am gonna live my 32nd year on Earth.
>>38821156
What careers are meme careers? Asking as I am interested in a career change
Finally at the age of 28 I realize fuck women. After years of being rejected, lied to and used by them I finally accept I'll be forever alone. And truthfully I finally feel free. Bout to get promoted at work and I'll get my finances in order. Then I'll take my spare cash from there and just go visit hookers for my sexual release. Fuck the modern woman. I'm no longer going to play into their manipulative games.
tfw wasted first 27 years of my life and now the hole is too deep to crawl out of
>>38820999
severely underrated post and triplets.I'm under 25, but I'm getting thrown out so it's already too late. I just lurk here to see the other side.
I'm 19 and should fuck off but as somebody who has done a fine job in messing up his life so far I come here to try and understand how I would feel if I don't get things together over the next few years.
>>38824536
Same here anon, Im 20 and I want to get out of this rut but I dont know anyway to really go about it. I guess starting school would be the first step but im not really motivated to actually go. Life feels pretty fucked either way I just want to take the route where I wont starve to death if im still just as unhappy.
If you're poor you're fucked, I can already see that this poverty leads no where and can never be fixed. I advise a killing spree while you're still young.
>>38824596
I'm planning to start school soon, at least I hope so.
I'm pretty directionless but I feel that I may as well try to have at least something to work towards.
>>38821156
I'm entering university at 25, is there even any hope I'll get a job when I get out at 29?
>>38825020
Relevant pic anon. The 25+ students had way more focus and determination than the fresh out of high school kids. In hindsight some of them also had this sadness behind their eyes. Now I know it's because they knew shit was serious.
I had my first kiss/sex ever last week !
I'm 26 working at a summer camp for retarded adults
Girl showed interest in me and eventually we kissed like something out of a movie
She lives in middle of nowhere nebraska but I think I'm going to move there
how do I tell her I want to move across the country after knowing her for 1 week without looking like a pathetic autistic who only just now lost his virginity?
>27
>fantasizing about losing my virginity to an escort
>watch more and more porn featuring hookers or ganbangs, because self inserting into the fat ugly guy and the manlet being the 12th to fuck the girl is more realistic than your average porn movie
>>38820571
>27
>"probably won't lose virginity this year"
OP's almost a 30 year old virgin
>>38824424
>I finally feel free
>resentful
Stop lying to yourself dude. The way forward is to be brave and to keep trying. Don't let anyone take advantage of you but don't turn into a resentful nasty little fucker either. That's how you end up as one of those disgusting middle-management guys in their mid 40s that everyone finds repellent.
Embracing hate can feel good and you're riding high on the anger but fuck women forever alone is a false solution.
>tfw constant fatigue from years of being a useless NEET that won't go away
>tfw sleep so much but still bodily and mentally exhausted
even fucking going outside for more than a couple of hours leaves me feeling exhausted and i drop into a deep sleep as soon as i get home
i thought my mind would go before my body, but my body is just fucking done with life
>>38825306
u fat or smtn?
>>38825334
Yeah, I'm pretty overweight. That probably has something to do with it actually.
>>38820999
>consuming the same media you have been consuming since your younger years because it's what you're comfortable with
To be fair though there isn't a shortage of good tv/movies for past years. Today's product is mostly kike garbage anyway
>>38820999
Delete this right now senpai
>18
>finish school
>go to university, living with my father and two brothers, parents divorced
>play WoW, watch TV, 4chan
>no real friends, can only socalize while drunk or high
>panicattacks start, suicidal thoughts
>fallout with my father
>19
>go to another city, studying something else
>live in dorm
>lots of new people, drink a lot
>hangout in bars mostly
>everybody does
>psychiatrist puts me on meds
>kinda connect with people
>studies going well
>20
>discover electronic dance music scene
>discover opioids
>quit weed
>days at university
>all night escapism, nightclubs
>'friends'
>studies ok, live of government and parent money
>21
>fall in love
>first time sex
>she doesn't want to date
>drugs, alcohol
>depression
>self-harm
>22
>don't go to lectures anymore
>start having withdrawls from opiods, cope with alcohol, abuse benzos
>suicidal thoughts
>little contact with parents, friends
>blackouts
>meet new girl
>she's just as fucked up
>'try to get better together'
>toxic relationship
>destruct each other further
>seperate
>23
>pull myself together
>lose weight, work out
>no more alcohol
>more kratom
>integrates with day to day live on the surface
>money problems
>party, girls
>catch up with universitystuff
>have to move out of dorm
1/2
>>38825416
2/2
>24
>move in with the girl i first had sex with, one-room appartment, platonic
>feels like couple, no physical contact
>start doing weed again
>she's sometimes here, sometimes not
>sometimes fun
>mostly feel like the useless housewive
>panic attacks come back, think i'm losing my mind
>lose grip with my studies
>cope with alcohol, benzos, phenibut, gabapentin
>she hates me
>i hate her
>live from loans
>move into small town a little outside
>get a thing with roommate going
>25
>full on 24/7 on whatever substance is available
>'i don't have a drug problem'
>withdrawls
>lose grip with reality
>can't sleep
>suicidal
>go to detox, 3 weeks
>hell
>want to stay clean
>she leaves me for someone else meanwhile
>hear them fuck when i get home
>almost losing my shit
>don't
>holiday semester
>wait 3 months for rehab
>support groups
>rehab
>deal with my childhood, youth, parents, learn, get fit
>4 months there
>she moved out
>26
>lose some friends
>make new ones
>join orchestra
>get bachelors degree
>it's standard in this field do go for a doctorate
>fed up with this shit
>quit
>want to work
>for 4 months i'm applying now
>some interviews
>live of government
>sometimes frustrated
>confident for a good future
>>38825416
>>discover electronic dance music scene
>>discover opioids
>>quit weed
>>days at university
>>all night escapism, nightclubs
>>'friends'
>>studies ok, live of government and parent money
Fuck off normo
>>38820571
> 22 y.o khv
> By the grace of the gods I managed to find a job that was robot friendly.
> Leave NEETdom from which I was stuck since 17.
> Use money to start turning life around. Start working out, getting new interesting and legit /out/ hobbies.
> still socially awkward overall. But happier.
Fast forward.
> 27
> In good shape, have decent facial structure (according to /r9k/ and /adv/)
> Still KHV.
> Decide to try and return to uni after flunking out in first semester years before as a teenager.
> Everyone is 17/18/19 and social, no one talks to me.
> Classify in the vast grey void of 'failed normie' now
> Company I work for just got bought out and is about to be shut down and outsourced.
> Might give a shotgun a blowjob before I'm 30 desu
>26
>NEET for four years
I actually got a call about an interview recently, but got way too anxious to call them back. I'm such a fucking mess.
>>38820999
First post, realest post.
I've tried my best to embrace NEETdom, but Depression and Anxiety prevent me from enjoying any of my usual hedonistic pleasures. I still do them, but only to help drown out the suicidal thoughts, which are getting harder and harder to ignore.
I could get a mind-numbing, dead-end job, but I can't imagine how that would make me any happier, even with the added structure to the daily routine. I'd be making money, sure, but at this point I doubt if money could really make me any happier.
I could go back to uni and finish my meme degree in Anthropology that I chose because it had the most lenient graduation requirements out of all the equally-boring liberal arts-y majors (I was 2dumb to get into anything other than the liberal arts college). But I am so fucking sick of reading and writing about shit that I don't care about. The prospect of going back to do that work nauseates me. And it's not like a degree like that would really help my career prospects anyway, so why bother?
I exist thanks to my perhaps overly-sympathetic father, who tells me it's totally fine that I'm still living at home and that he's still proud of me anyway. But he's in his 70s and I know deep down he won't be around forever, and that safety net is one day going to immediately snap and I'm going to drop drop drop down into oblivion.
If I had a gun, I would shoot myself. There's nothing in life that I want to experience at this point. I just want out. I'm tired of feeling bad, regardless of how justified or unjustified those feelings are.
>>38820999
DELET
DELETE AT ONCE
>>38820571
>25+
>strong, almost roid tier
>day job boxer, night job dubious security
>other hobbies are offroad driving and guns
Man, I'm a real catch, am I?
>horribly, pathetically addicted to a cartoon horse show and the universe around it
>my thoughts revolve around it
>my dreams revolve around it
>my life revolves around it
>and its fucking dying
God help me
>>38827132
You had so much going for you, Anon
>>38825120
You try.
You will probably fail, but whats the difference between failing where you are now or in the middle of Nebraska. At least you can say you tried to get what you wanted.
>>38827284
I did, and now I think I'll finally off myself when the show ends
When I had the capability, I lacked the motivation.
Now that I have the motivation, I lack the capability.
>>38826707
I'd still get a job, gives you a place to go every day and helps set routines. If you work some shitty job like security you meet all kinds of other weirdos but it gives you a new perspective. I hated my current job at first but now I'm on /nightshift/ and it works for me.
Like you said your father won't be there forever, you'll need to take care of it when he goes. Start small
>>38827531
I hear ya. A night shift doesn't sound too shabby. My sleep schedule's already fucked up, so it's not like I'd have to really adapt. If it was a gig that'd let me listen to music or podcasts while working that would actually make it kinda tolerable.
The problem is that my area has so much unskilled labor (college town with lots of students) that every job that isn't in fast food is fought over like crazy. And I don't think I could handle the stress of fast food. Not with my current mental state.
>>38827132
...Bojack? plz be Bojack.
>>38828428
Nope, my little pony. Sorry anon.
>>38820999
SHUT UP YOU BASTARD
guys just calm down. you realize that theres a whole generation of millenial women reaching their nesting phase, just waiting to be married? even if youre beta male, as long as you signal some kind of provider status, easiest fucking pussy in the world, i shit you not. of course, these women don't actually love you.
the real beta rebellion (none of this shit with guns) will when betas turn to pump and dump instead of marriage, and that's where we are headed.
>>38825020
the smartest people in both my college and law school were 30+ students. they knew their shit and took it seriously. youll be just fine. seriously. i don't think the male brain is capable of learning anything serious until late 20s or so.
>>38824596
>>38824536
you guys will be just fine, your 20s might be tough but everything evens out in your 30s.
>>38820571
>26, soon 27
>no college degree, never had a job
>learned the english language during my years of neetdom
>live in a country where english is not the native tongue
>taking a course to teach english on language schools
>tfw too autistic to teach
>tfw can't speak in front of the normies without sperging out
>tfw I may hang myself by the end of the year
I fucked up lads. I'm trying to get out of this mess, but it's hard. It's a normie world out there, and don't let people tell you otherwise.
>>38820999
Trips confirm it. The feels confirm it. It's too late lads. I'm gonna hang myself.
>>38820999
fuck off anon im already sad
>28
>Virgin
>Went on a date with a qt 3.14 yesterday
>Felt like it went really well
Probably going to have to leave this place soon
does anyone ever feel like you will no longer have any experiences that you'll look back fondly on?
I feel like the era of my life of anything original and unique is over
>>38830593
I just got back from Defcon and it was one of the best experiences in my life.
>>38829066
>the real beta rebellion will when betas turn to pump and dump instead of marriage
27 here, I'm really looking forward to this. Even though we may not have as much success as Chads in their twenties its still going to be satisfying to give roasties the treatment they deserve
My uncle sort of offered me a job through my father. I figured I'd just have to give him a call, maybe head up there to check the job out, then submit an application. I talked to him on the phone today and he wants me to put together a resume to send in to his company's HR so I can try to get an interview. I haven't written a resume or anything formal since I was in high school, so I'm pretty nervous about putting one together. I can't barely function in social situations, so I'll probably bomb the interview if I get one. I'm hoping I don't come across as an idiot so my uncle doesn't find out, and so his reputation at his company isn't tarnished by his autistic nephew.
>>38820571
>34
>Schizophrenic
>Alcoholic
>No GF
>No friends
>Havent worked in over 10 years due to Schizophrenia
>Trying to sort my life and gain employment at 34
>Only thing I can do is voluntary work in the hope that any future employer takes mercy on me in my willingness to work for nothing
Kill meee!
>>38830698
fuck his rep anon. go get yours, take everything you can get and then some
>>38820571
I just want to have sex with a beautiful woman. Is that really to much to ask? How the fuck can I accomplish this? Where the fuck am I supposed to meet women? Everyone I work with is old as shit and I don't have any friends. I don't even know how to talk to women my age where the fuck am I supposed to start.
>>38830824
What's schizophrenia like for you, anon? Hearing voices? Hallucinations? Weird beliefs? Shit never sounds pleasant.
>>38820571
>Thinking of planting rows of strawberries
I get that the plant is a perrenial but who the fuck would plant them this late? Strawberry season is over and you're not getting any more berries unless you live where it is really warm this year. Normally you'd be thinking of protecting and harvesting plants this time of year like keeping slugs off your cabbage and gourds or harvesting cucumbers and watermelons
About to turn 27
I'm real close to quitting my job, taking my roughly $5000 USD savings and selling my car (only work 2k at best) and just getting the fuck out of the country. South america or SE asia. I don't care if I live or die anymore, my life is over. Dropped out of college 2x, I've worked 4 different jobs all sucked, didn't pay shit, no room to move up. Live at home with mom, am a virgin. Don't care at all anymore if I live or die in fact I am interested on what is on the other side. About 50% of this is my own fault for being lazy and a pussy when it comes to women. I can't go on much longer.
>>38830643
What do you think of Marcus getting v&
>>38831422
Where the hell do you live? Summer is going to last 2 more months. There will be plenty more strawberries.
>>38831448
Where do you live Anon? Are you a burger? If so, there's something you still can do.
>>38831534
I live in florida why? I have nothing left and I'm too old to join the military.
>>38831572
Well, you're a native english speaker. Some countries (specially on south america) need people like you to teach english. You don't even need a degree.
Neet 27 just got a interview at a call center for technical support /help desk..... Pay is 17 a hour is it as bad as people say..
>Turned 30 in May
>parents divorced when I was 13
>dad moved to a different country because he had too much debt
>bullied at school every day
>don't know how to cope
>stop going to school for days at a time
>got so bad that they were going to call the police on my mum because I just didn't want to go
>dropped out of school at 15
>develop terrible anxiety & depression issues
>develop avoidance behaviours to cope
>stay inside every day for years
>don't trust anyone in a position of help & authority because of my time in school where teachers couldn't do anything to help me
>don't know how to handle responsibility, work, relationships
>literally scared of life itself
>everyone I grew up with has moved on in life
>gf's, fiances, careers, houses, kids
>im still waking up near midday every day and not showering for over a week at a time
>no ambition, no hope for the future
>no savings
>no pension
>can't drive
>just going through the motions every day, distracting myself with games, music, tv & music from the hopelessness of life
>dont remember what happy is any more
>too scared live
>too scared to die
This year has been pretty uneventful apart from my dad dying in March...
>>38831683
I looked into that, I speak good spanish too. But I don't have a degree. Grew up with all colombians they told me I should try my luck there but its scary.
>26
>Getting hard to breathe
>Hopefully I will die in my sleep
>>38831750
Come to Brazil my good man. Although you won't be able to teach at elementary schools or colleges (you need a degree for that), language schools will suck your dick because you're a gringo. Just dress properly and make sure you're not a turboautist and you're ready to go. Godspeed Anon.
>tfw want to complain about my life but too lethargic to type it out