>spent my 1st night in a mental hospital Has anyone here been

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>>38796892
>mental hospital
What are you in for you psycho?

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>>38796901
I tried committing suicide twice, but was caught the 2nd time.
>first drank bleach
>second tried downing 10 ambien pills at once, but someone else intercepted package.
I can't work anymore (quit 3 jobs. Never lasted more than 4 months) and keep breaking down and having panic attacks.
I already know this sounds pathetic.

>>38797041
What was up with the first attempt? Did you just fuck it up without outside intervention?

>>38796892
at least you're allowed internet access

>>38797041
How the fuck did yuo survive that?

>>38796892
The worst is the last week, you'll be looking at the clock all the time hoping that the day would end.
Ask people from the outside to bring you books (pynchon,doystoivesky and Camus are good)
Also most suicidal girls you'll be grouped with are hot so enjoy that even tho you'll be grouped with fat looneys most of the time

>>38797108
>>38797122
Idk. I think I just didn't take enough. I filled a mug up about 3 quarters of the way and took it all in one gulp. Had burning throat and stomach aches for about a week. At that time I wasn't fully sure. The pills would have been guaranteed to work.

>>38797153
The mans already had a breakdown, the last thing he needs is be surrounded by hot crazy girls he cant access. Its like showing a drowning man a picture of oxygen.

>>38797153
How does grouping work? At this hospital, they keep men and women seperated.

>>38797195
>picture of oxygen.
Huh?

>>38796892
>Has anyone here been admitted before? What was it like?

i was in one for a month and a half. was spaced out for part of it. dont remember how i killed all that time. my parents brought me books which i read but dont remember a word of. you could kill some time by doing squats, pushups and sit ups. when i was in most people were fairly chilled. they only freaked out a few times. the manic people were tiring to talk to. spent most of the time by myself though.

>>38796892
I got diagnosed with sctizo affective disorder and they tried to section me but i talked them out of it.

Isnt it comfy there, your own bed, shit post all day?whats the good like, how often can you eat? Can you eat as much as you want? Do they have cakes?

>>38796892
I was never in one, but have a few friends who were...

One described it like basically a daycare for fucking kiddies, doing drugs and behaving cringey without getting in trouble

my grandma told me she was in one when she was 20, because of attempted suicide, she hooked up with a guy, who became her boyfriend in there, then killed himself, fucked her up really good.

try to fuck some chicks and abuse some drugs, it's the best you can hope for desu

>>38797208
A photograph of oxygen then

>>38797196
At my hospital they used to mix genders it's probably different at yours
>>38797195
>Can't access

>Flirt
>Exchange numbers
>Get out
>Bang
Best thing is since most males are retards even if you're not good looking the babes will pick you

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>>38797216
I woke up to the sound of some guy screaming today. Scared shitless.

>>38797221

It's not really a bed. There's no mattress. It's just a blanket over one of those soft blue mat things. Idk too much cos I've only been here for less than 10hrs. I arrived at 2am and it's currently 11am. All I've seen is basic breakfast stuff and biscuits. I don't wanna eat anyway. I guess I can post all day but I literally only have my phone. Once the charge runs out, I'm bored for a good few hours.

Pic related: my room

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>>38797293
I don't know why pics from my camera keep uploading upside down.

THE BOREDOM IS THE WORST.

BY FAR.

As someone that was used to spending my time online with all the stimulation I could ever want it was fucking awful. Going from that to nothing but jigsaw puzzles and daytime TV for weeks drove me crazy.

Second worst was the food. It was okay, better than a school cafeteria, but it was you know... hospital food. I was craving something that actually tasted good by the end of the first week. When I got out the first thing I did was pick up some potato chips and a coke.

Just try to do your best and kill time however you can. Chatting with my fellow inmates was the best for me. I met some interesting people in there, a lot more interesting than your typical normalfags.

>>38797324
Did you stay in contact with anyone you met at the hospital?

>>38797324
how is this shit even supposed to make you better?

boredom will make you even more crazy

>>38797324
I hope I find other patients to talk to. Everyone I've seen so far is locked away in their room or completely spaced out all the time.
We had a meeting this morning about activities happening today. Nobody said anything, it was so awkward.

>>38797274
Fuck, i might get myself committed, i havent even spoken to a girl since my ex in 2014. The idea if even getting a number seems inherently beyond me. I feel sick thinking about sex

>>38797293
Yeah ive seen comfier prisons. At least you have your own space. You ideally need a laptop, then you can browse sites easier and it will warm your tummy. Im sorry about the food man. I thought they'd have a shitload of cakes and biscuits.

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>>38797459
It's not worth it senpai you'll be fucking bored, I remember back in my hospital phones and computers weren't allowed it was super boring

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One hour until I get to see what lunches are like.
Chicken burgers and pizza pls

>>38797293
>I woke up to the sound of some guy screaming today. Scared shitless.

when i was in there they first put me in the nuttier area with some shifty and unpredictable characters. was very gald to get out of there without being beaten up. when in the more chilled, mixed sexes area a huge black guy absolutely schitzed it and had all the staff panicking. i just quietly had an anxiety attack in the corner until they took him away. most people in there were more of a threat to themselves than anyone else.

>>38796892
i spent my time reading. it was the only thing you were allowed to do in your room.

How the fuck is this kind of shit supposed to help anyone, particularly a suicidal person
Do they just pump you full of meds and that's it?
Who got you in there in the first place? Family/relatives? The state? Can you not just walk out?

>>38797324

>Second worst was the food. It was okay, better than a school cafeteria, but it was you know... hospital food

the one i was in had pretty good food. with that and the medication i put on so much weight.

>>38797335
No, everyone was coming in and going out in different time frames so it was hard to make lasting friendships. It was mostly just a few people that were nice and we could talk about shit over meals and between brain numbing group activities.

>>38797354
Mental health care is primitive, it's like trying a whole bunch of shit and hoping something works. When you get to the point of forced inpatient care they're basically just locking you up under adult supervision so you can't hurt yourself.

>>38797391
If you can get someone to bring you books or something do it for sure, I wish I'd had that it would have made the time so much easier. Don't expect anything too much, just some smalltalk to pass the time. It's easier for both of you than just staring at the wall.

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>>38797753
>tfw unlimited turkey sandwiches and ginger ale

>>38797766

they were strict with the caffeine though. we were allowed tea but only once a day in the afternoon. tfw everyone rushed the tea trolley desperate for their caffeine and the best biscuits.

>>38796892
I was when I was 17. I was initially with legitimately mentally ill adults (schizophrenics who didn't know what planet they were on, suicidal people, degenerate heroin junkies) until I got moved to the kiddo unit.
I'm literally autistic so until then I hadn't experienced being thirsted over/flirted with by multiple hot 15/16 year old grills, though also by gaybois. They were very quick to discharge me as I was obviously not mentally ill. Interesting experience overall.

>>38798096
>multiple hot 15/16 year old grills,

where i was all the anorexic teen girls were separated into a different adjacent section. we could see through a panel into their area at the food tables and they sometime waved and tried to get our attention. this would piss the nurses off and theyd make them stop.

OP here. Just saw something crazy.
>patient A calls another patient B a sideman
>patient B screams and tells the nurses that he was called a paki
>nurses take patient A into an office to talk with him
>patient B calls the police and says he was assaulted
It was getting really tense so I'm currently back in my room.

>>38797750
My family dragged me to see a psychologist. He referred me to a hospital for further tests. Then was taken to the mental ward. I can't just leave. I have to get permission and need an escort to go out on trips. Have to stay here until I get better.

For me it was mostly heaven, but that's because of what happened before I was admitted: thought I become a modern-day jesus (even looked like him) thought I'd died and remained on the earth, thought the planet was merging with another populated one (of which I thought my wifi was connected to and streaming their shit on my phone, including some incredible music), etc. The trees around the hospital were the biggest I'd ever seen, fucking huge, so that added to it. So I'd just walk around a lot and in the garden and listen to this "extraterrestrial" music while "changing the weather" with my mind and stuff. There was also some young adults my age who I befriended and would talk to a lot.

The hardest part was not being allowed outside for a few hours a day after a week or so. The place was a transfer to a town quite far away too and I was excited to explore it while in /heavenmode/. So in that sense I felt like I was in prison, but once they let me out a bit it was fucking fantastic. There were quite a few activities in the hospital too, like mindfulness courses, cooking, art, etc. And some real qt staff members, one of who really liked me. Some people thought I was the hottest guy there.

>>38798574
woah
I wish I could just wake up and suddenly feel like alien jesus

On my first day my room was next to a huge black retard he shat everywhere in his room and smeared the front door (which had a window) with his own shit the smell stayed for a week
He'll always masturbate during lunch and TV time and rubbed his dick against another patient one time he also threw two of my books in the toilet.
He would also go to my room at night and steal my books until the docs locked him up in his room at night
>At least the girls were cute

>>38798629
I have a few other stories if you guys want

>>38798620
It was the best experience of my life. I was very happy, and everything felt radiant and perfect, literally like I was in heaven. I still listen to the main song I did back then reminiscing about it a year later.

>>38798629
This made me question if becoming a mental health worker is the career for me after all

>>38798645
Please post more. That was hilarious. I could do with a few laughs right now.

They let you keep a phone?

>rip gun rights

>>38798647
What if you were really Jesus, but the meds are suppressing you?

>>38798421
>patient A calls another patient B a sideman

whats a "sideman"?

stay out of the crazier ones business as much as you can.

>>38798820
The meds were fucking me up, that's for sure. After a few days on them it felt like all the energy in my body had been drained, and just existing and sitting down felt exhausting and incredibly unsatisfying/uncomfortable. I refused them soon after that.

Looks like she already met a new friend...

>>38797306
How are you allowed to have a phone?

>>38798574
>but once they let me out a bit it was fucking fantastic.

the hospital i was at was on big, beautiful park grounds next to a river. after a couple of weeks when i was more with it they let me out to wander and it was pretty nice walking amongst the trees by the river.

>>38798940
Mine wasn't that far off that. A 30 minute walk to town, but it was the most beautiful town I've been to in my country, with fantastic nature arcitecture, rivers, chilled out slow-paced friendly-seeming people. I'd like to live there tbqh.

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>>38798736
>Fat guy's name is Sidiki he is extremely obese
>Sidiki likes to play Djembe (pic related) it's really loud
>He's pretty good at it so I dance with the nurse while he plays
>It's time for lunch so they ask him to stop playing
>Sidiki decides to sit on the Djembe so they don't take it from him, 4 security guys were needed to put the djembe away from him
>Sidiki starts crying and shouting "MY DJEMBE" over and over again
>He's currently laid back on the floor and all his fat shapes a huge circle around him
>Still shouting MY DJEMBE, he pulls out his dick and starts fapping
>Mfw I was eating while watching a fat retard fat to his instrument

>>38799029
>Mfw I was eating while watching a fat retard fat to his instrument

I meant fap

>>38798629

i remember a black guy who seemed to have the mentality of a child came out of the bathroom with shitty toilet paper and was sticking it in peoples faces and thinking it was really funny. i saw him coming and got the hell out of there. he was put in a tard separation, timeout area for that. he did other gross and annoying shit but i think ive mostly blocked all the bad parts out of my memory of that time period. at least there were no compulsive masturbators when i was in there.

>>38798984

>with fantastic nature arcitecture, rivers, chilled out slow-paced friendly-seeming people

yeah sounds nice. just what you need at a time like that.

>>38798768
>>38798930
I guess it's just allowed here. When I first got in, a nurse showed me where to find the wifi password. The only rules are no keeping chargers in your room and no taking pics/recordings of other patients.

>>38796892
A good friend of mine was in one of those for half a year. He isnt even mentally ill or anything just acted like he was so he didnt need to go to school. He told me it was quite funny seeing the others there.

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OP again.
My phone is starting to run out of charge and there's a music or art therapy thing I'll probably have to go to. I'm out for now. Maybe I'll make an update thread in a few days.

Thanks for posting. It actually really helped. Reading your replies made me feel like I wasn't alone. I hope none of you have to go through what I'm going through.

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OI BRUV IS IT MENTAL IN THERE?

>>38797178
No. Benzos are not lethal in and of themselves. That's exactly why we use them. You'd get trippy, sleepy and delirious from 10 ambien, and wake up 12 hours later perfectly fine.

Fucking moron, how hard is it to read up before attempting.

>>38797274
This this this.

Went in twice for like 10 days each time, got laid both times.

>>38797041
this reminds me of when i took about 12 ambiens and woke up 24 hours later and went to school but it was the weekend

>>38799301
hopefully they release you soon and you can spend the rest of your days on the tugboat

>>38797293
Dude that's crazy I was in one for THREE weeks with no cellphone and 4 hour periods in our rooms.

>>38799457
That almost happened with me to, you have to sneak the numbers lol

>>38799301

best of luck. enjoy the finger painting.

>>38797306
>>38797293
Holy shit, that looks familiar. Are you by any chance Croatian?

>>38799654
Oh that's why, in the US you NEVER get cellphones in a mental hospital (I almost typed prison, because psyche wards are basically prison)

>>38799654
I'm in london.
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