Post your current feels
>tfw there is no face that can describe the nothingness your crippling depression has filled your every waking moment with
>>38781323
I spent 7 months getting fit to gain the confidence to ask a girl out, she still said no.
>tfw no idea what to do with my life
I am an empty husk of a man
>>38781323
>tfw you just apologized to your three year old sister because I cannot anymore
>bought coffein pills to be more awake and concentrated>600mg guarana extract, 200mg caffeine,50mg greantea extract, 50mg vitamin b3 and 1mg vitamin b12
i didn't really feel anything took them today for the first time but nothing no wakeboost or anything
still tired and unconcentrated
people who reviewed it on amazon said they got more motivated to do stuff not me though
i bet i got fucking scammed
>>38781323
>Tfw relapsed on 6 month nofap streak ( it's confirmed that it's a meme)
>Tfw stopped working out and gaining weight again
>Tfw haven't been out of the house in three fucking weeks
>Tfw haven't talked to a friend in 4 months
Just fucking end me please
>>38781323
>tfw would like to be geologist
>tfw don't want to put up with the bullshit of most colleges and unis
>tfw have good job in HVAC that pays good money
>tfw would like to go to a research station in Antarctica but don't know if they even need HVAC guys right now
Anyone know how good online schools are? I'd at least like to learn more about some things like engineering and physics.
>>38781883
posting resources because i like you and want you to succeed
Quote:
Hey robots, are you interested in using your free time more wisely? Why not learn something new today? The internet has tons of resources to teach you about every subject - learn to draw, make music, speak a new language, history, math, science... There's a lot out there.
You can try www.edx.org, a great free resource with online courses in every subject. There's many other sites too.
Other resources:
www.duolingo.com - learn a language through exercises and vocabulary
www.futurelearn.com/courses - free courses
www.coursera.org - free online courses www.openstax.org - free textbooks www.khanacademy.org - free short lectures and exercises
www.codeacademy.com - learn to code www.udacity.com - learn to code
project odin
https://bigdatauniversity.com/
bento.io
currently feeling this feel
No purpose in life, no friends or acquaintances, studying without wanting to, work boring job on the side just not to die, disowned by parents, haven't talked to a woman in 5 years, my cat is getting old.
I don't even know what the fuck i am doing anymore
>>38781932
Sweet, thanks man. The fact that some of them are free is nice too. Just trying to learn some new stuff as well as the stuff I'm already in.
>>38781323
I'm ugly, fat, spergy 24 khv neet. I feel disconnected from the rest of people, have no masculine personality, no ambitions or dreams and i want to die. I'm one big joke.
>>38782140
edx and coursera are almost all free, buddy
just click "no certificate" then you can just watch the videos and read the pdfs
you wont be able to show a certificate but nobody can take away your knowledge
Here something nice to know:
Classical music: if your work involves numbers or attention to detail
Workers were better at solving mathematical problems when listening to classical music, which improved accuracy by 12pc compared to listening to no music at all. Classical music was also the second best genre for general accuracy and spell-checking, the study found.
Pop music: if your work involves data entry or working to deadlines
Participants listening to pop music completed data entry tasks 58pc faster than when listening to no music at all. Pop was also found to be the best music genre for spell-checking quickly, and, alongside dance music, produced the fastest overall performance for getting work done. It cut mistakes by 14pc, compared to not listening to music.
Ambient music: if your work involves solving equations
Famously described by the musician Brian Eno as needing to be as ignorable as it is interesting, ambient music led to the highest level of accuracy for respondents completing tasks involving equations.
Dance music: if your work involves proof-reading and problem solving
This genre resulted in the highest overall accuracy and fastest performance across a range of work tasks. Participants listening to dance music produced more accurate results in spell-checking, solving equations and tackling tricky mathematical word problems, increased proof-reading speed by 20pc and were able to complete abstract reasoning tasks more quickly.
>>38781323
failed out of college. spent 5 years there but failed. now 24, just high school graduate, unemployable, burden on parents. my parents face when i told them i failed again.. as intense as disappointment can get.
>>38781323
i'm the loneliest i've been in a while
feel disappointed about the dnm's dying now that i finally have spending money
no video games interest me anymore like they used to and i don't like it
>suddenly find out I have high bloodpressure
>nothing too serious, but enough to warrant some life changes
>gradually stop drinking tea (still looking for something to substitute it with, right now just drinking hot water with a bit of honey)
>still need to fix sleeping schedule (go to sleep at 10:30 pm instead of 1 am)
>need to spend less time in front of PC
>need to look up meditation and calming techniques, and actually start practicing them
eh, I'm doing aight
the sleep pattern is a bitch tho
because all my friends stay awake till after midnight
>tfw constantly tired and sorta want to stay at home, but can't say "no" to people when offered an opportunity to hang out
>>38782296
>having friends who ask you to hang out
must be nice.
>>38782179
>distracted by music turned into better accuracy in results
sure, baka
>>38782335
>Not coding to k-pop or nightcore
>>38782335
I could see some people doing better if something like this was playing softly in the background: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ygfh6dFUtcU
>>38781323
Massively depressed. Thinking about just killing myself and being done with it. I hate everything.
>>38782296
>Be me, alcoholic, don't like vegetables or fruit, barely move besides work
>find out I have high blood pressure in January.
>quit drinking, eat way healthier, go to the gym four times a week
>lose almost 40 pounds
>feel and look great, healthy blood pressure
This was until depression hit me again in April.
I started drinking again, eat like shit, stopped going to the gym and gained the 40 pounds back.
>mfw
I'm having quarter life crisis because of how fast time is going.
in heaven
everything is originally fine
Watched some cute anime girls today. Then I masturbated. Now I'm as empty as I was before watching cute anime girls.
>couple of days ago
>feeling pretty good, good times seemingly ahead
>100% sure it won't last
>girl calls off movie date
>crash bike due to brake failure
>fuck up at work causing trouble for the entire hall and have my supervisors be mad at me
Can't wait for my plane to crash this weekend, or to get mugged next or something.
>>38781323
>tfw no bottomless bottle of rum
it's all i need to die happy and useless
>tfw i pay rent and live in an unfinished basement while my roommate does jack shit and gets his own room and doesnt pay
>>38781323
I desire woman
>>38781761
>>Tfw haven't been out of the house in three fucking weeks
>>Tfw haven't talked to a friend in 4 months
Don't you have family? I have one (1) friend, but I can still get out cause I have cousins to haang out with.
>textless posts are not allowed
there are no words that could describe this feel, mods...
I was feeling okay during the day. Then I came here and got reminded that my life is a fucking failure with nobody to blame but myself. I'm trying to do some mental gymnastics but I can't shift all the blame. It's gonna be a long night.
Today sucked. I got screwed over left and right.
>>38781323
I feel pretty
AMAZING.
Thanks for asking bro
I feel extreme loneliness, I crave affection and no one wants to give it to me. I just paid a random girl i met on the internet $15 dollars to make out with me. What the hell am I doing with my life
A lot of physical pain, and the general depressive anger I have every day. Looking into a few new jobs, any trade suggestions?
I constantly have to take a shit. Also I suck at everything I do.
I am studying International Relations
I don't know if I'm wasting time and money by majoring in this degree.
>>38784672
Baking
ORIGINAL COMMENT
>>38784603
>can actually have 1-on-1 conversation
fucking normies
>>38784714
>international relations
What are you going to do with it?
>>38784744
>Baking
For real? I never thought of it as a trade, but what the Hell. Might as well look into it.
>>38784714
The secret is that the only thing that matters on your degree is the name of the university. Study whatever you want, and you can get virtually any job non-STEM.
I cant orgasm because I dont want to feed demon niggers with sperm anyone know this feel?
I'm about to go to bed, alone in nobodys arms. Alone dreaming about skinny, tall, pale, sophisticated gentleman protecting me from reality's dull exterior.
No patt on the head from Joe, no kiss on the neck from Lewis, no "you have beautiful eyes" from Paul and no sweet sweet goodnight kiss from Adrian as we talk about sweet, sweet nostlagic souther american bliss with walmarts and trailer parks and forests in backyards that I have never once lived, only dreamed of.
>>38785050
Are you of the homosex?
A tranny ruined my library book without me realizing it, and I had to buy the thing.
>programming non-stop for a week for my final class in university
I just want to skip to when I'm done.
>>38784749
>What are you going to do with it?
that is the problem, senpai
>>38784790
it's a private uni that costs a ton of money. theoretically they can hook you up to a lot of places and you make internships with private companies
>>38781323
im having dinner with the folks and feeling lke starting some trouble
>>38785429
>that is the problem
So you're getting an expensive degree with no plan to use it? Ya got (((memed))), son.
>>38785481
well, I mean, I plan to find a job where I can put to use the skills I obtain during my uni years. I chose this major because I've always loved politics, history and generally knowing what is happening in the world. I am fluent in Catalan, Spanish, English, studying German (A2 level) and I will speak French by the time I finish my major. The question is if I will find that job
>currently living in car homeless
>need a job
>qualified for 50k annual jobs
>applying like crazy to everything, even shit that pays teenager wages
>can't get a job
>just want a comfy poverty studio
>just want enough food to eat
>HR assholes playing games and having ridiculous expectations for shitty jobs stands between me and that poverty studio and lentil-kale gruel
I'm so sad that I can't focus
>Blood lab results show my liver acting funny
>Month 3 of the job search
>>38781323
>mfw just re-installed Fallout New Vegas
>mfw installed the best mods but not too many so it works fine
>mfw created a good character with a full back story and targeted skills
>mfw I'm in Primm and I'm already bored
Please help. I'm only 19 and when I was younger I spent all day long on those games what the fuck has happenned to me robots?
>>38781323
>tfw just ended a semester with 1 class withdrawn as no show
>1 class withdrawn due to heavy assignment load
>and another I 100% failed today
I want to change, stick to an actual schedule and be better but in the short term I want to play games and be on 4chan so much more. I wish I knew how to fix myself.
>>38785933
Primm isn't really where it got good, at least for me. At least make it a few hours into the New Vegas(area) stuff.
>>38786059
I know that where I really started to like it was after speaking to Mr. House and beginning faction quests. But the beginning just seems so much more tedious to me now
>>38785933
Same age. Used to do the same.
Apathy hits hard, anon. I only play CS:S from time to time. Hardly for more than an hour at a time.
>>38786148
>CS:S from time to time. Hardly for more than an hour at a time.
Exactly the same here. One hour of CS, two or three hours of shitposting/watching videos, one hour of CS, untill sleep. I used to love working through dense solo campaigns but now all that get me interested are a few multiplayer games
>>38786211
>two or three hours of shitposting/watching videos
Are you me? I pretty much laze around and do the same as well.
I kind of blame 4chan. I used to be able to sit down and get shit done, but now I'm hardly motivated to do anything.
every day the light gets dimmer and I'm feeling too drained of energy to even try anymore
>>38781323
Bad. Ate 3 kilograms of BBQ beef , drank a few cans of coke and also ate four bananas earlier.
Got the WORST shits imaginable. The toilet reeks, I've had to unclog it twice. My arse hairs got shit in it and I need to shave it. I want a mercy killing.
>>38786286
I think the apathy may come from depression for me. Nothing severe, but you know. I too used to be in better shape but ever since I grew up I can't seem to truly enjoy semi-linear videogames anymore (last one was Far Cry 3). I used to roleplay on the Internet but I'm also lacking motivation for that. Truly the only thing I can still do for more than two hours is watch some show on TV or some animated series
>>38786364
>>Bad. Ate 3 kilograms of BBQ beef , drank a few cans of coke and also ate four bananas earlier.
That's like 150+ grams of sugar, you fucking bi-amputee diabetic to be.
>>38786417
Fruits healthy, and meats part of a balanced diet.
I only drink coke since it's more refreshing than water.
If my tank isn't empty, I'll have to bring a blanket, since I'll be staying overnight.
>starting uni in 2 weeks
>moving in with my chad best friend
Genuinely happy with my life for the first time in 11 years.
Left work 2 and a half hours early today because i got angry for no reason.
>inb4 my boss fires my ass
I don't even think I care at this point. I just go to work and come home and have nothing to live for. Probably just gonna shoot myself by the end of the year anyways
>>38781323
Finished Catcher in the Rye and did anyone else find the story to be heartwarming? I mean the part where Duncan or whatever his name is sleeps on the sofa in Mr. Anchovie's house and wakes up to the feel of a somber headpat, then blushing and being all like "hawawawawa w-what are you doing!?" *deep blush*. He's so cute I could almost squeeze him into submission and tickle him just to watch him writhe and despise me though be unable to counter-attack (well he could probably kill me if I tried but he wouldn't because he just wouldn't I guess >:3), honestly I nearly squealed when I read that part of the book - its so adorable, I'd love to wake up to someone petting me; I remember when my mom used to pretend there was a spider on my head and I used to giggle and be all like "hehe, I know there isn't ;)" contrast to now where I wake up in sheer agony at the muscle fatigue of a day's hard labour and constant lethargy. Ah how I wish I could wind the clocks back, I could have done infinitely more.
Also getting marginally miffed at all of these moths raiding my home the minute I let in some fresh air, grr. One just collided with me right now. ITS FUCKING ATTACKING ME!!!
>>38782089
There there anon, I hope you're well-being improves down the line, here's a squeeze *squeeze*.
There is literally no better/more accurate reaction pic of how i feel than this
>>38786399
I can't even watch anime or TV anymore. I just drift from thread to thread with no purpose.
>>38786499
>meats part of a balanced diet.
Whenever someone mentions BBQ I think of fuckloads of sugary BBQ sauce. Consequences of being brought up poor I guess.
Still, the coke isn't actually more refreshing than water, that's the carbonation getting to you. All of the sugar actually makes you /more/ thirsty so the Coca-Cola company has you buying more sugar. Even a can also spikes your insulin and insulin resistance way the fuck up, causing you to produce less of the hormone leptin thus making you hungry as fuck in the long term until your insulin levels become normal. also you're making yourself fat and diabetic.
I hold onto my stance of saying that's like 150+ grams of sugar, in any case.
>>38786660
That's really bad then. For me its still the easiest to do..although I gave up on movies now. Normally Id say "just find something that really interests you" but knowing how apathy goes it doesn't work like that
>>38786662
It was just cooked on a BBQ. I didn't mention sauce.
It tastes more refreshing. I'm sure lobster isn't good every meal either, but it tastes fucking good.
Shits haven't stopped so I'm on the crapper with a blanket.
>>38786732
Reap what you sow, my dude.
>tfw she will never be back in your life
I'm not really liking this feel.
>>38786740
I've never slept on a toilet before. I bet it's the fault of the bananas. Too much potassium.
>>38786787
>Blaming the most healthy thing you ate
It's the coke you dumdum, don't drink that shit.
>>38781323
this is the feel that I am currently feeling
>>38781323
>>38786589
Well that was traumatic, five of them came in at once so I closed the floodgates and are systemically exterminating them. Unfortunately I'm having to use a stool and kick it about to reach them but mister moth is getting the beating of a life-time. Smacked them so hard my fly swatter is breaking >.<
>>38786613
Like committing murder?
>>38786660
I know how you feel anon, watched School Days on 2x speed but otherwise everything felt pointless. I don't even get it, Makoto isn't that attractive (coming from someone who in the past has been complimented for their patrician taste in men). He's a really dummy though, I'd hit him so hard it'd make his head spin. I'm off back to swat more moths.
>>38786982
>like committing murder
Kek not really. i mean emptyness, a husk.
>trying to rewrite the beginning part of my really long autistic story
>hate 90% of the writing, shit that I came up with when I was 18 that wasn't even originally part of it
>realize that I've integrated parts of it into the actual story
>get really frustrated
>realize my writing is shit in general and I want to make an animatic instead
>can't draw but who cares
>colored pencil doesn't scan correctly, markers only come in a few colors
>don't have a drawing tablet
>realize a manuscript actually is better
>back to square one
None of this is even relevant because I'll never publish it. I feel barely any urge to write it anymore. 300 thousands words of writing gone to waste....
>ive masturbated 25 times.
>today
I'm a mix.
Just came out of a shitty exam year which resulted in me loosing alot of normie "friends" who bullied me as I ghosted them all. Working part time, saving money, working on my boat, researching new pc parts and overall relaxing. I'm probably the happiest I have ever been. It's amazing what happens when you remove toxic people from your life.
I just beat fallout 4 and this is the exact face i made as the credits played.
What in the shit was that main quest
>>38786777
Well now, that's the first trips in a whiles.
>>38787193
Ah hell, *while.
>>38787134
Don't give up, any creative outlet you have is good for you to work on. Just try again.
>>38787159
Are you proud? I used to masturbate quite a lot till aI stopped. I didn't stop cause guilt or no fap. None of the gay shit. I stopped because one day I brought deep shame to myself and swore I would rebuild and become a better person. Then I'd be worthy of the fap. I guess I held a deep and powerful pride for my fap and porn search ability. In my main fetish I view myself as even now being seasoned and quite knowledgeable. I digress. If you are ever looking for something else to do read, cook, or focus your rage on a single person and blame all that's wrong with the world on them. Happy trails friend.
>classes started a few days ago
>forget about how I'm too tired after classes to do anything
I can't even play vidya. I don't even have depression, I'm not sad just physically exhausted.
>>38787134
There's no shame to be had in giving up.
>>38787286
300,000 words in, it's pretty much too late to try again. I can delete large swathes of it, but too much and I might as well not bother.
>>38781323
I am flying high but am afraid of falling. The fall will destroy me.
>tfw praying for a long time for somebody to be with me
>finally I meet a girl that is crazy in love with me, she is a good girl and she is sweet and loving
>tfw when I don't love her
>tfw I want to bang my friend new roommate that is a prostitute with a child
>>38787159
Careful Anon, people can die from too much masturbation.
>tfw not balls deep in a cute femboy twink
I'm feeling pretty good, nothing major to complain about
Alone, left out, pretty much overlooked...
So nothing really new but it's been bothering me a lot today.