Do you ever wonder if you low-key have autism?
>>38743063
I'm not diagnosed, but I've had a few friends who work with autistic kids tell me I'm definitely on the spectrum.
People ask me if I'm autistic surprisingly regularly, but I don't really think I am. I'm just kinda socially awkward and not very expressive. It doesn't help that my sense of humor is very dry and people don't really pick up on it unless they know me.
>>38743063
If you ever asked yourself that question there's no way you have autism.
>>38743063
>wonder
>low-key
I got diagnosed with it when I was seven.
no, and i take offense at the notion
i view the idea as being borne from pure laziness and cowardice.
laziness to be able to stand up and examine your own nature, and cowardice to perform introspection for fear of what you'll find.
it's an easy and convenient way out of your difficulties, to pathologize them and say that 'it's not my fault, i have a disorder' or 'autism is a disease, i'm just an innocent victim'
i feel that very few robots are really, genuinely autistic. they're simply young men who weren't so successful in finding the answers in life as their generational peers.
>>38743063
>tfw diagnosed with autism
>>38743872
Autism doesn't get me out of anything. It's not a visible condition so people don't pity me at all, they just tell me to go out there and be myself and don't understand why almost no one likes me or why going out in public can cause me to have an anxiety attack.
>>38744076
certainly i could be off base, i make no claims of being a psychiatrist here,
but doesn't autism reduce your ability to understand emotion? isn't it basically the logic portion of your brain taken to the most extreme limit?
i mean if so, i would think that you wouldn't have the slightest hint of anxiety and that you would do your weird autistic shit without feeling sorry for it, ala chrischan
>>38743063
I'm pretty sure I have aspergers, although because I was never raised with this knowledge I was treated as a normal child with the same expectations as anyone else do I never really felt held back. However, as much as I've tried to improve socially, nothing ever works. It feels so incredibly fake the person I've learnt to be, to the point where I exert do much energy just trying to pass for normal that I don't really have a personality of my own. It results in me basically coming off as incredibly inoffensive, somewhat naive, cute and innocent. Most people like me at first but I can never deepen relationships beyond that shallow first encounter, yet they expect me to and always feel hurt like I'm holding back from them. I've give up on trying to make any new friends because it's just a waste of time for everyone involved in the end.
>>38744203
I see what you mean, but I still have logical fear. I have a hard time doing stuff like buying items at a store because I fear that I'll screw up the interaction with the cashier. While I know I won't get physically hurt by that, it's still embarrassing to say something weird and get dirty looks from everyone.
>>38744371
yeah exactly, and you're bothered by looks.
logically, that shouldn't bother you. looks won't interfere with your ability to be fed, to have shelter, or physical safety. looks are judgment, and judgment manifests in ourselves as shame. shame is an emotion, and it is a reflection of our own regrets and failures as human beings
that's not something that sounds to me like it would be compatible with my notions of autism
>>38744473
I don't not feel emotions, I just can't always identify them in others, or even in myself (not that I don't have them, but sometimes I feel a certain way and don't know what I feel).
Besides that I'm not living on my own. If I was entirely self-reliant other people really wouldn't bother me. When I was younger I didn't give a shit, but after high school I realized I need a job, and to have a job I need to be able to interact with people.
>>38744876
>I don't not feel emotions
whoa whoa whoa, hold the hell on
i'm typing this without even reading the rest of you rpost. i think that's a very dangerous statement to make.
you've only ever experienced life inside of your own head. you have no idea what sort of feelings exist inside of the minds of others. i'm not making a statement of autism here, more about the limits of our own minds.
i have no idea if my version of red appears the same as to that of others, or if they identify it as blue. and i'll never know.
by that same token, you definitely can't say that you know that you don't experience emotions.
i mean maybe you do and maybe you don't, but that's exactly the point. there's just no way to know.
At most I definitely have aspergers, not diagnosed officially but I question a lot of my actions and chain of thought. I think my family notices that shit and they treat me with pity sometimes, I'm 27.
>>38743063
>using /r9k/
>"wonder"
>>38744943
You misread
>>38744327
You're the one who's doing that. I have aspergers and I did the same shit, eventually I got tired of people hating me and always never making meaningful relations because I was always so neutral. To make friends you need to offend, otherwise you're always going to be sitting on the fence playing both sides, and no one likes that
>>38745072
how so did i misread with an original comment?
>>38745126
>don't not
this comment is orignal
>>38743063
I was tested as a child and it came back negative, but I still sometimes wonder if I have assburgers or something.
>>38745116
I know but whenever I try to be playfully offensive or try banter I just come across as a complete dickhead.
I'm actually have it. On one hand, it's good to know on the other, it kinda sucks knowing cause it really demotivates me
>>38745250
>>38745250
That's life, everyone goes through that. People are just stepping stones to build yourself, use your cringe as a tool to be a better person.
Literally learn from your mistakes, and if you can't, then I don't know what to tell you. I've never felt that feel.