Let's have a good old-fashioned BPD thread.
>in a Discord voice chat with some friends two nights ago
>say something, get ignored
>be hurt, but tell myself it's not a big deal
>it's cool, it happens, everything's okay
>only about half of the things I say get responded to throughout the chat
>abandonment and neglect issues kick in
>become increasingly more rude and acerbic throughout the night
>eventually flip out and scream at everyone for about a solid minutes, telling them they've always been garbage friends and that I'd laugh if they all got in a car wreck and died
>finish the spiel by laughing hysterically at the top of my lungs before leaving the voice chat
>kind of horrified now
>don't want to ghost them but too scared to message them
>hate my brain for shortcircuiting so much
>>38616511
Don't you think BPD people (especially the BPD girls) should be euthanized or quarantined? They are basically mentally disabled, and their existence only hurts others.
Bipolar people are my fetish, I appreciate you anon
>>38616623
>>38616646
these two must fight to the death. winner gets choice of fuck/marry/kill OP
>>38616623
No. BPD women are wonderful if they've had necessary therapy and some support to fall back on in the form of friends/family/a lover
>>38616511
When did BPD start turning people into little bitches?
>>38616623
Why do you think we're mentally disabled?
>>38616646
Thank you for loving me. That's not something I have ever experienced much
>>38616511
I feel you. I usually don't snap at people, I snap at myself for being annoying and bothering other people because I convince myself that they clearly don't want me there.
My boyfriend has a discord server for his friends and he always wants me to be there, but I get the feeling that his friends don't, so I end up leaving the server and then feel like an attentionwhore when he asks me why I left.
I hate groups of people. They always make me feel like shit.
>>38616720
BPD people are usually heartless monsters. I mean look what you did to your friends.
However I'll say at least you keep your insanity purely online. IRL BPD people are walking train wrecks.
Why don't BPD's ever genuinely seek help/self-improvement?
Every BPD seems to just fucking get off from telling people they have BPD. They're the vegans of the mental illness world. They milk the fact they have BPD for attention, but when people start saying stuff like, "Yeah you ARE really fucked up and need help", they run off crying as if they hadn't been self-proclaiming that all along
Seriously, BPD's are the fucking worst. Pretty much every other mental disorder is willing to get it fucking fixed and become a good person, but nope, not BPD's
>>38616820
I don't keep it online. I am FAR more of a loose cannon offline.
>>38616891
I can't speak for everyone, but I'm trying therapy and taking meds and getting better so I don't have to be the fucking scum of Earth. I've endured a lot of shit from professionals that should understand why I do the things I do. In a way it turned me from a typical BPD to a quiet BPD. So now I don't scream at people, I scream at myself and direct my hatred towards myself. I guess it's an improvement for other people though.
>>38616892
>>38616972
you're so cute anons
>>38616891
except for the other cluster b personality disorders. They're probably worse when it comes to that actually
>>38616892
Examples?
>>38616891
I met like 4 BPD guys/girls. Three of them were terrible and never tried to help themselves, but this one girl was really good at managing her BPD: she always took her meds and had therapy regularly and such. She had a bf and longtime friends too. Usually they lose friends/don't have longtime ones for the obvious reasons. That was when I learned most BPD people just don't try to manage it even though if they just tried things would improve.
>>38616511
Half of the things I say on discord get ignored. The best thing to do is post le dank reviewbrah reaction pics and smug anime girls.
>>38616511
>carry online relationship for about 2 months
>getting to the point of planning irl contact
>bpd.jpeg
>she starts talking a little less often one day, and it just gets worse for a little while
>freak the absolute fuck out
>she's ghosting me
>she hates me, the only reason she's talked to me at this point was out of pity
>log out of the disc and haven't been back to it since
>she probably was just busy thinking back
I hate myself more than I can easily explain
Also...
>>38616820
>what you did to your friends
What about it? I DEFINITELY overreacted, but they wronged me first. They did a bad thing, I did a bad thing. I'm not going to act as though I'm purely the villain. Maybe 70 percent the villain, but not 100.
>>38617197
How long has it been since you left?
>>38616972
You're a good person keep up the good work and moving forward
>>38617254
2-3 weeks, not too long but certainly too long to come back and not explain what happened, she probably actually hates me now anyway.
>>38617298
Come back and lie. Say your computer died or something. Don't let this go for no reason at all.
>>38617352
She knows I have ready access to other devices and that I would have tried really hard to contact her.
I'm just going to give up on relationships as a whole, I'm too fucked in the head to remain in one without hurting both parties.
>>38617228
>They did a bad thing, I did a bad thing.
Well I get this is your BPD brain at work, but the logic for a normal functioning brain is that:
>your friends didn't respond to you for whatever reason (your mic/connection/discord fucked up, they didn't hear you, they were afk, etc)
>you were unintentionally hurt
>instead of inquiring about it further, you instead hit them back with intentional hurt
That's why the whole bad thing vs. bad thing logic is flawed. They weren't possibly equivalent bad things, but the BPD brain assumes they were and takes action from there. That's why it kind of reminds me of someone with Aspergers or autism or something.
>>38617418
>tfw have HFA and BPD
I wouldn't have minded being euthanized honestly.
>>38617228
This is typical BPD disorder. You tell yourself that your friends wronged you only so that you have an excuse to an ass to them.
Fuck you and every other person with this mental handicap, you should be eradicated all together.
> Have BPD ex, an actual emotional vampire
> Drained me so much I can't feel happy anymore
> Broke up a few months ago because she was ruining my life
> Kinda want her back
> Kinda want a BPD in my life again to give some purpose back to me
Should I just fucking end it?
>>38616733
>My boyfriend has a discord server for his friends and he always wants me to be there, but I get the feeling that his friends don't, so I end up leaving the server and then feel like an attentionwhore when he asks me why I left.
You're doing the right thing, I've seen many discords go under the shitter because some assclown admin felt the need to shoehorn his gf into the server even though she didn't belong there. God bless you for actually having enough common sense not to listen to his faggotry.
>>38617651
>Should I just fucking end it?
Yes. It is the only way.
t. experienced
>>38617651
OP here. Date me instead. I'm BPD enough to keep things exciting, but normal enough that there's long stretches of stability between my rages and hysteria.
>>38617690
>normal
Fuck off.
>>38617651
You should end it. I had an ex best friend/gf with BPD. She was manipulative, abusive, and gaslighted my ass 24/7. It took me a long time to recover enough so that I could trust human beings again.
>>38617690
Begone gay poster, fucking christ.
>>38616511
I used to have BPD
I got rid of it through sheer hatred of my psychiatrist(The one in the DBT station)
>>38617651
Honestly having been involved with a BPD girl is pretty much a death sentence. You're never going to be able to enjoy spending time with anyone normal ever again, not even a little. But being around the BPD girl is a far worse hell in itself, so you're totally fucked either way. It's just over and your mistake was getting involved in the first place.
>>38617690
But I don't like stinky boys unless they're girls (male)
>>38617750
I didn't know she was BPD in the first place, I just thought she was depressed (aren't we all)
She was the one to break it to me, too. And after two years of it I feel like I'm never gonna love again.
>>38617651
Just take her back, it's not like BPD isn't manegeable.
>>38616891
Because bpd people don't think they deserve to get better
>>38617750
>You're never going to be able to enjoy spending time with anyone normal ever again, not even a little.
I disagree. I recovered from her bullshit after 2-3 years.
Which I guess still fucking sucks, but whatever.
>>38617808
>I recovered from her bullshit after 2-3 years.
Kek keep telling yourself that bro.
>>38617806
it's a case by case thing really. Some of them you're better off just getting away from
>>38618196
Every woman has BPD to some degree. If you can't deal with it then you don't deserve a girlfriend.
>>38618261
you have no idea what bpd is
>>38618332
BPD is a meme disorder. In reality it's just women throwing a tantrum for some bullshit reason.
Like I said, don't date girls if you can't deal with it (or learn to).
>>38617732
What about my post triggered you?
Bow down to your busty borderline queen.
>in relationship with girl
>it started with her being nervous, shy, flighty, and vulnerable- like she's been hurt and as though some stray kitten, doesn't trust the outstretched hand
>omg I love you so much pls never leave me you're my life you're everything
>>uh okay sweetie but I'm in a shitty spot in life
>that's okay I can help you let me help you I'll help you!
>>>helps a lot at first but eventually doesn't
>>>starts getting frustrated at my slow progress
>>>things will usually be good but has had a few times she exploded on me but it seemed understandable... it was my faultright?
Long story short I took her to an amusement park and she was having fun until we got to the car and then she literally broke down screaming about how she just wants to die and she's so ugly. Then I took her out for a night on the town and a show and on the way home she started rattling off everything she hated about me and how I'm more vapid than her dog and worse than her ex (who's in jail now) and she wants to break up with me.
24 hours later she said she was wrong and she loves me.
>but you said you're only settling for me
>>n-no, I love you
>okay, can we sit down and talk out everything out
>>WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN CHEATING ON ME DO YOU THINK I'M CRAZY OR SOMETHING etc.
It's probably easier to just kill myself at this point, but I'm going to just keep suffering through it.
Borderline personality disorder doesn't exist. Personality disorders don't exist as we think of them. Psychology is a really vague science, this is why if you go to different psychologists or psychiatrists, one might say that you have narcissistic personality disorder, one borderline personality disorder, histrionic, self-defeating, schizotypal, paranoid, etc. These are just vague outlines of certain similarly fucked-up personality types which nevertheless aren't really perfect. But what matters, foremost and above all, is that you're just emotionally fucked-up. It's kind of ridiculous to classify "emotionally retarded" into these different vague categories. All personality disorder people are just emotionally fucked up.
OP, you don't have "BPD", because this is a vague construct. You're emotionally fucked up. It's not your fault, but don't blame it on a vague "BPD" either. Don't say, "Oh, that's my BPD acting up", no, it's your emotions acting up. Your emotions are a part of you. So it's not your BPD acting up, it's YOU acting up.
Also, it's probable that a lot of BPD people read BPD symptoms then more or less unconsciously begin to feign the symptoms because they find the idea of having BPD romantic and cool and a good cause for self-pity.
tl;dr you're emotionally fucked up, sorry, but mainstream psychology is bullshit
>>38618507
Is you're tiddys where you keep your rational thoughts and reasonable emotions?
>>38618473
You being gay and posting on my board faggot.
>>38618558
But I used to be more emotionally stable before my late teens. Doesn't that mean BPD is real?
>>38618557
That is such a textbook BPD patient, except perhaps even more abusive than most. I had a BPD ex once, and she rightfully pointed out once that despite all her craziness and instability, she'd never directly insulted me even once, although I'd done just that to her at times.
>>38616623
I don't know if you're memeing or not but I completely unironically agree with that
They are not human and don't deserve life
>>38617651
>>38618557
Why don't you mess with them? Imagine the fun that you can have constantly making them to hate you and back loving you again. You can fuck up and then have them apologising to you if you know how to manipulate them. I don't understand how you can hate having a BPD gf....
>>38618845
Unironically kill yourself, you're fucking walking trash if you'd do that to someone
>>38618870
What's so bad about that? OriginaI
>>38618845
That's not how it works. You're forgetting the part where they're extremely good manipulators, extremely seductive, and extremely charming. They will always have more power than you in the relationship, and you will always love them far more than they ever care about you.
>>38618845
I actually would. We just have lots of common friends and it'd kind of fuck it all up.
>>38618845
I'm not a bad person.
At least, maybe I'm clinging to the idea that I'm a neutral person making strides towards being good, while knowing I'll never truly get there.I'm probably a bad person, but I don't want to be.
While she was angry at me the second last time I almost mentally detached a little bit, and felt like her little fit was kind of cutebut she brought me to heel before the night's end.
>>38618914
this, the core of it is that they can make anyone love them really easily and really intensely, but it's never ever going to be enough for them because of their abandonment issues
>>38619006
>because of their abandonment issues
Incidentally, this is why they become so good at it in the first place, obviously.
>>38618914
They sound mentally unstable me. So how would they be able to manipulate you and especially how would they habr more power in the relationship?
>>38618920
Just fuck with her dude. Make her rage and habe a complete meltdown, it's going to be hilarious.
>>38616623
yeah my bpd ex killed herself and I'm glad she's dead desu
>>38619006
>>38619023
>Please so much to become your friend because they are afraid of being alone.
Sounds to me like an invitation to start messing with that person if I am honest.
>>38617821
Kek keep telling yourself fatalism is the reason your life sucks shit
>>38619100
>>Please so much to become your friend because they are afraid of being alone.
That isn't what they do at all. It's the opposite, you would be trying to please her, always. Think of any really seductive femme fatale type woman that can have you wrapped around their finger oh so easily.
>>38619203
>Kek it's just gravity bro just be yourself and ignore it and it disappears
>>38619205
The thing that kept me tied to my ex was the fact every time I ever left for too long she'd attempt suicide. Someone told me she was just bluffing so I decide to leave. Then she slits her wrists and I get a call from her parents the next day.
>>38619091
OP here.
Why do you want her to die, anon? Did she hurt you?
>>38618914
We aren't seductive. We just feel extremely strongly about everything, so our expressions of love might seduce people, but we're just being sincere.
>>38619251
>be me
>attempt to pump and dumb crazy bitch
>she is upset and calls it rape
>i present video evidence on the contrary
>continues to accuse me of things and spreading a smear campaign
>eventually gets with some other dude
>hear he left and then she killed herself
glad I don't have to deal with that shit anymore is all
>>38619205
>Femme fatale
These two words have been aimed at me more times than I can count and they have always baffled me. I feel as though I am always the one in danger. During my more rational moments, I know that the filter of fear and confusion I view the world through is distorted, but the fact remains that I am very vulnerable. I feel weak and pathetic and scared. The fact that anyone could consider me a heartbreaker or think I am in a position of power just seems so weird to me.
>>38619205
>>38619239
Why the fuck would I be trying to please someone? It's their job to please me, not the other direction.
>>38616511
>be me
>have both assburgers and bpd
>don't know how to talk to people and people are too weirded out by my social ineptitude to talk to me
>try talking in skype chat
>constantly get ignored while everyone else is being acknowledged
>sick of being ignored so I say I'm going to kill myself
>people immediately start talking to me, asking if I'm okay yadayadayada
>some fuckwad in the chat says that I'm just doing it for attention and that I'm a piece of shit because I've done this before when people don't acknowledge me immediately
>he posts screenshots for proof when people start calling him a pos
>suddenly now everyone turns on me
>I sperg out and yell at them, telling them that I wish they all die and that they're all horrible people
>cry myself to sleep that night
>wake up next morning, feel fine
>go back onto skype and repeat the cycle over and over again until that friend group eventually abandons me and I move on to the next one that decides to talk to me out of sympathy
>>38616720
Sorry but a lot of ppl with severe mental disabilities are very damaging to society, many dangerous criminals have mental disorders, it's not just that one kinda cool but weird girl you find cute.
Many people are beyond saving.
Howevr treatment should be available to all that need it, not saying that they should be treated any different
>>38616891
I do. Every day.
I take medicine and go to therapy every week for years. I was super unbearable before, but now I've gotten better about my abandonment and rejection issues and all that. I've learned lots of coping skills and I don't burn bridges like before. I try my best in a friendship, although sometimes my anxiety and depression causes me to isolate myself. I've definitely improved though. I'm hoping that somebody I'll be able to fit in to a normal crowd, but the few friends I have mean the world to me.
>>38619408
What's your Discord, anon? Guys like you are my type. A lot of guys like me, but for some reason I don't like normal and stable people romantically. I think someone with some poison to them is more exciting? I dunno.
>>38617228
No, your paranoid brain tricked you into believing that. You basically ruined everyone's night because you couldn't control your emotions.
But let me guess. It isn't your fault? Ofc not.
>>38619393
>tfw no weak pathetic scared gf to break my heart
Is it normal for Borderlines to start off as very sweet and relatively normal children? I'm a 23 year old psycho BPD male, but I wasn't always like this. I had a sensitive temperament since I was a baby, but I was known during my childhood and early teens as a kind, gentle person. Nobody expected me to become as volatile as I am now, myself included.
>>38619393
I'm a girl btw but talk to me like anyone else, no special treatment
Be my borderline boyfriend
My mom has really shit BPD, but I never got any of it. My adopted sister has really bad fetal alcohol affect and can't function well, and it's impossible to get her to do anything of value other than watch TV all day. My mom has always been a shitty person to her and it drives me insane. Whenever me or my father try to calm her down she flips her shit and thinks everyone is jumping on her, despite us always speaking gently and calmly. If you have BPD, don't have kids, especially special ed ones. It'll be fucking horrible for them.
>>38619509
>But let me guess. It isn't your fault?
t. 16 year old that has never read the DSM but thinks he understands mental illness
>>38619504
Stop trying to make more anons gay you fuck, be gone
>>38619504jealousyfriend#9207
>>38619704
I'm a girl (female) so I would rather you guys be straight
>>38619750
Female (female)s do not anime post, I've encountered a fair couple of them via this site and not once have they done such, unless they are gay of course.
Leave, nothing good can come of a roastie far gone enough to come here, you all are always out to harm us
>>38618558
This is just a semantic perception of what BPD is, saying it's "my bpd" is completely reasonable if you are diagnosed, it refers to a categorisation of symptoms.
You could easily just say, Heart disease isn't real it's just your cholesterol acting up. Semantic bullshit.
>have BPD, recently think I am more narcissistic however.
>Desperately require every single girl I ever interact with to be romantically interested in me or I start to become upset.
>Create delusions that girls in my life wish to be my gf
>enter deep depression when I inevitably find out they don't.
>Frequently anger at my online friends call them pathetic losers then leave
>Realise that they are the only people who remotely can understand me.
>Most of them don't take me at all seriously anymore.
>At least I'm a cute boi
>>38619854
>inevitably don't
Maybe they do feel an attraction at first, but decided to withdraw their feelings in order to guard their hearts once they realize you're just going to hurt them.
>>38619994
Why would they think I will hurt them?
I'm a loving empathetic person
>>38619504
That feel when not crazy enough for this fembot.
Kill me.
>>38620028
Why would you want everyone to fall in love with you unless it's to break their heart? It's not as though you can date all of them. Most people simply want mutual romance with one person, not to be a succubus.
>>38620059
You don't want to be, this type always manipulates and hurts poor anons who are. I've been fucked over by a good number of them, glad i have finally learned my lesson and now i try to help other anons just ignore them.
>>38620082
Because if I'm not attractive to everyone I'm basically worthless. The amount of rejection is colossal.
>>38620100
What.
I'm not that bad. If you meet one person with BPD, you meet one person with BPD.
>>38620187
>I'm not that bad.
I wish you were.
>>38620111
You can't feel romantically towards all - or even most - people, though. I understand everyone wants to feel attractive, but how would you feel about being on the receiving end of unrequited feelings all the time?
>>38620187
No, I meant the type that prey on others with mental disorders, it doesn't matter to me that you have one as well. All of you are out to hurt them, it's happened too many times for me to think otherwise. Get off my board and stop hunting the mentally weak
>>38620415
Huh? Wait, what made you think I prey on the mentally ill?
>>38621028
this post here
>>38619504
It makes it pretty clear, stop preying on the mentally ill, it's a disgusting thing to do.
>>38621152
how is it """preying""" tho thats like saying if u like banana ice cream then youre praying on banana ice cream?? what if you just like the flavor and want it wtf
>>38616511
great anime or greatest anime?
>>38621194
I'm just as confused as you are... ><
>>38621194
It's just apart of intentions, you'll see soon enough if you're not her, and if you are stop playing stupid.
What happens when that spices dries up? Alot of people will stabilize after being in a good relationship, you don't think they would prod you to get some of what they liked so much, etc. etc. etc.
>>38619714
Where are my friend? I am still awaiting an answers from you...
>>38621296
What is your Discord? oregg
>>38621296
Did you not see his post dumb roastie? Chances are he already caught the hint that i was dropping thankfully, you're no good. Get off my board and stop attempting to prey on the poor lads
>>38619504
>for some reason I don't like normal and stable people romantically. I think someone with some poison to them is more exciting?
Heard a few BPD people say this before to be honest. But definitely a recipe for disaster for the obvious reasons.
BPD/BPD platonic friendships usually work though (sorta).
>>38621360
>be poor lad
>tfw no one preys on me
brutal. savage. rekt.
>>38621411
>was poor lad
>was a stupid poor lad
>was preyed on 3 times before i wizened up
>attempt to keep other poor lads from making my mistakes
>>38620206
Why do you wish that?
I wish this post was original.
>>38621456
Because it's what I like.
>>38621347onepice#1030
>>38621360
What have I done and which post are you talking about?
>>38619408
this one, can you not even remember what post you replied to?
>>38621533
You haven't actually done anything yet, but you act like all the other ones always do, leave.
>>38618776
You are actual garbage and deserve to die if you think a large group of people should be killed for something they can't control themselves. Kill yourself.
>>38621576
That wasn't me who who replied.
And no, I will certainly not act like all (((other ones))) or whatever that means.
>>38621580
OP here...
Thank you so much, anon. You're a sweetheart. That post made me a real mess, honestly. To have THAT as the first reply - I doubt anyone will blame me for regretting making this thread whenever I read that. I'm glad some people possess common sense and realize that BPD genocide is not the answer.
>>38621655
Then you started replying to a chain that you didn't start, in any case talk is cheap, get the fuck off my board
>>38621668
Replies like this make me realize that all the fuss about Borderlines being evil is just a bunch of bullshit.
>Feel invisible and pathetic for years
>Eventually decide to become an awful tripfag and rampantly shitpost for attention
>At that same time, go super crazy on top of existing issues from a terrible living situation that stressed me out so badly I couldn't eat or sleep
>Shit on everyone and everything while acting pathetic because I was fucking crazy
>Time passes and eventually leave the living situation
>Start to heal mentally a little but but still crave that feeling of being noticed so I keep doing it
>Continue to fuck with people and be a cunt even though I'm not as bad as before just because I still NEED to be noticed
>Can't change personality or be myself online anymore because i am forever marked on everything as THAT shitter
>Have to just become the character
>This alongside other shit builds up until another breakdown happens and I go psycho for a bit
>Finally after that just say fuck it and borderline disappear, only showing up with the trip on to sometimes call someone a fag
>Don't even feel like I'm anyone at all anymore, just vaguely exist with no real purpose or goals
Life is a real hell.
Don't ever become a tripfag as a means of getting attention, fellow people in this thread. Only despair follows.
>>38621754
Oh, hello, Bandage.
>>38621798
I am not bandage.
That guy at least escaped.
Anyone else only get BPD symptoms when dealing with men? And only because you later find out that those men are abusive assholes who remind you of all the abusive assholes who hurt you as a child, and that you are unwittingly re-living traumas over and over again with the probably unconscious hope of processing them as an adult?
Because aside from this, I am a pretty chill person who gets along swimmingly with most people.
>>38621712
Don't tell me what to do bro
>>38621668
Genocide isn't the answer, but I really hate my BPD ex best friend. She was terrible, manipulative, and forced herself upon me sexually. I honestly hope to never encounter a person like that in my entire life.
I know someone with BPD, but she completely owns her condition and takes responsibility for it. Her bf and herself are cool as hell and sometimes we all play games online. Yes, sometimes she does the yell in voice chat thing like the OP does, but immediately after she apologizes and says sorry for putting everyone through it.
So I guess that's the major difference. The ones who own it vs. the ones who use it as an excuse. I will be blunt and say the ones who use it as an excuse are trash.
>>38621754
I don't trip fag, but I do the same thing.
It's easier that way, I don't guess i really do it as a attention either, i just want more people to feel shitty like I do. My favorite threads are those full of niceposters because i crash the living shit out of them until everyone leaves.
>>38621829
What are you anon? Pic related.
>>38621754
speak for yourself when I became a tripfag for attention I made so many awesome friends
but I guess not being "crazy" as you describe helps
>>38621944
Are you Spooks
be my discord bf
Being a bpd male isn't fun.
Unlike men who find bpd somewhat interesting and in some cases hot.
Women hate it.
>>38622004
No, and i'm not gay. Fuck off
>>38616891
The ones who don't wear it like a badge/use it for attention usually don't have BPD and rather C-PTSD. The symptoms can look very similar, but there's typically more self-awareness and willingness to seek help in the latter.
>>38622004
I will be your discord bf (or gf if you want)
>>38622039
>BPD male
>Some girls like me because they mistakenly think I'm a "bad boy"
>>38622131
I've told girls that i want to kill them in their sleep before.
They still stay and don't make me seriously because he's so "mysterious" and "exciting".
I JUST WANT A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP (thatsmovielikeandperfectinitsinperfections)
>>38621754
Ohhh Vyro, always such a drama queen. You having BPD makes perfect sense. It's a shame because you're actually quite handsome.
Warning for the curious people who might stumble into this thread because they're interested in BPD people:
It's a fatal mistake to think of borderlines as humans. They don't think like humans do. They just experience the same emotions over and over. When measured for IQ, they generally score around 75 or so but they're so skilled at masking their complete incompetence because they need to in order to lure people in and sink their teeth in. It comes out pretty obviously when they write something, not so obviously when you're in conversation with one because they're innately in tune with exploiting the emotions of others, and they'll use this to pull the wool over your eyes.
I talked to a psychologist about it once. The prevailing theory is that they have reptilian blood, and they actually physically subsist on human suffering. Literal emotional vampires, if you will. They don't truly feel love, what they feel is like what a lion feels when it looks at its prey. If they find particularly good prey they'll be desperate to chase it and not let it go, because another meal might not come along any time soon.
Do not on a borderline and immediately drop all contact if you uncover one.
>>38622120
Post discord anon!
(Pls)
Or add mine
Kreeeeeeeper123#3385
>>38622072
I wonder which one I qualify for. I have always been worried that I might have a meltdown one day like OP did and burn my bridges, but that's never happened. I was actually very normal at six and younger, but developed worsening anxiety between 7 and 10 which festered into anger around 17.
I've read that CPTSD and Quiet Borderline are extremely similar, though.
>made new friend
>will ghost new friend
why does it have to be like this everytime?
>>38622244
Raven#6181
>>38622203
You're a massive faggot and your post exudes bait but you're probably right. I wouldn't interact with someone else with BPD past shitposting, I have no idea why people have a fixation or fetishize us, it makes absolutely no sense to me. I wish they'd all just fuck off honestly, it's a bit annoying, especially because they rarely understand how BPD really functions in the first place.
>>38617390
Holy fuck, you're such a piece of trash. Are you retarded? This is no reason to let go of a person you supposedly like.
>>38622288
I know this, trust me.
>this is no reason to let go of someone you like
It is, it'll just happen again and again, no point in making her deal with that. She doesn't deserve it.
>>38622203
>I talked to a psychologist about it once. The prevailing theory is that they have reptilian blood
kek'd
>>38621944
That is a very fun thing to do. I do that anonymously myself, I stopped tripping very much a while ago mostly. Fucking with those dumb cutesy idiots is great.
Also great is shitting up trap/tranny threads and tanking their self esteem even more.
>>38622000
I made "awesome friends" and then destroyed every single shred of a bridge between them all again and again.
Why? Couldn't say honestly. It wasn't for a thrill or anything like that. Friendships are overwhelming and the jealousy that pops up when good things happen to other people but not me just drives me mental.
Oh well.
>>38622351
Unlike ghosting her without a word, which won't cause any damage at all.
>>38622283
>I have no idea why people have a fixation or fetishize us
Because really fucked up/broken people love other people with problems. It makes them feel better about themselves, like they are the "better" one.
So if someone fetishizes BPD or any condition really then that is a huge red flag about their awful character/personality.
>>38622393
I'm glad you feel the same way, every now and again i'll go to those threads and try to get them to say nice things, etc. Just to break them down a bit harder. They always end up with nothing left to say, their cutesy facade is pretty light when it comes down to it, in the end they just want their "thank you anon blah blah blah" and promptly leave the thread.
>>38622256
You sound pretty self-aware, so I'd guess probably not BPD. And yeah, C-PTSD and BPD are similar to the point of essentially being the same disorder, the primary difference being that one does not encompass a person's entire sense of self, and the other does. There seems to be a heavy degree of narcissism in BPD that doesn't show up in C-PTSD, which might account for the lack of self-awareness, constant attention-seeking and unwillingness to change.
C-PTSD isn't in the current edition of the DSM, so people usually end up diagnosed with BPD or something else. The type of therapy tailored for BPD should still work for C-PTSD since it targets the same symptoms. The only shame is that non-manipulative, non-shitty people get lumped in with those who are due to the, imo, rightful stigma of BPD.
>>38616891
BPD is so hopeless many professionals won't even bother trying.
who else collects orbiters? i honestly like them at first and all the flirting is out of genuine interest but then i get suspicious of their intentions and keep it going just because i need constant validation. i eventually drop them and find new ones. i'm not even single wtf am i doing
>>38622434
It will but it'll all and all be less, I seriously doubt she liked me very much in the first place, can't say i can blame her there though.
>>38622438
Ahaha, makes them sound even more pathetic than we are
>>38622503
Needing constant validation doesn't mean you have BPD. You could just be insecure and retarded.
>>38622503
you are just a bored normie, nothing new here
>>38622556
actual diagnosed bpd mate, no armchair
>>38622570
this makes me feel a lot better actually
op
you dont have bpd
that story doesnt sound borderline at all
>>38622503
I remember talking to someone from here with the same hobbies as me and I was honestly trying to be friends only. Yet but she thought I was still trying to gf her or something because she was an orbiter collector.
But being randomly ghosted works fine in this case, since I don't really want to interact with manipulative people like that anyway. I don't know if this person had BPD or not.
>>38622513
They are very pathetic and you'll often see robots trying to hit on people with BPD just because they fetishize it. But you'll also see girls with BPD trying to hit on robots for massive orbiter collecting so... yeah. It's a very vicious cycle.
>>38622351
You have more of a conscience than my ex did.
Would ask to look at my phone, get angry if I talked to other women, start arguments with my mother all the time, suicidal threats.
>>38622680
Thankfully I haven't made the mistake of entertaining the company of anyone else with BPD. I know how fucked i am, don't need anymore of that myself
>>38622727
Wew, that's pretty extreme and strange, sounds more like a co-morbidity of another disorder with BPD
>>38622777
Everything he mentioned is 100% consistent with BPD, wtf are you on about?
>>38622480
I genuinely don't understand the appeal of that miserable literal faggotry. How can a bunch of grown men sit in a thread and pretend to be cutesy all day?
I believe it's still attention seeking, just a different variety. It's way too easy to shit on those people nowadays though, it seems to be becoming more of a "mainstream" thing to do.
Maybe I'll start doing it on discord. Those people are fucking worthless too.
>>38617690
do u have a discord? im up for it heh
>>38622680
>she thought I was still trying to gf her or something because she was an orbiter collector
maybe it was me, idk, it's possible. but there are many girls like that around here. i hope everyone i talked to is like you, i really don't want to hurt anyone
>>38622777
Probably. I could, admittedly, get autistically pissy and narky in tone sometimes.
I've at least learned to catch up with myself and apologize for these behaviours and try think before I act. But I don't see a bit of pissiness equating to enduring wondering that if I don't stay up talking to this person until she falls asleep, will she be dead in the morning?
The answer was of course she wouldn't be, but you can't really tell yourself that at the time.
it gets better as time goes by OP
it's hard lo live with BPD...i'm sorry for you
i really wish mental illnesses do not exist...fucking fuck
you're your own doctor OP; if you think medicine will help you ; go to a doc, if weed helps you ,do it , if sleeping helps you sleep..tdont let your emotions ruin your life
i have two bpd friends
one of them is close enough to me , i take care of him as much as i can, try to provide all the love i can when he's depressed and everything
and the other one isn't as close , but i try to be a good friend to him
it's kind of hard
sometimes i need some emotional support and my bp friend can't provide it..i get so fed up and shit it makes me mad
however...
1.bp people are very interesting , you never get bored of them , they're always fun and unlike a normal person you can never get used to them
2.they are very loving... and have a trainwreck of emotions it makes me want to hug them and make them feel safe
3.they are very loving..kinda like an uchiha (naruto referance)
4.i'd choose a bp person over a normie anytime
i prefer a monster on the outside..normies are way more fucked up than they seem like
5.bp people see the world from an angle normal people can't; it's an honor to know them
6.the most beautiful people have the most fucked up brains
good luck OP lots of love
>>38622827
A interesting thing is that they are occasionally actually women, even more annoying but oh well.
Ah, Discord is a decent place to do it, I have about 5 sock accounts to fuck with people on, you should try it.
>>38622857
That's not entirely accurate honestly, you'd never think so because of how often it's "baited' so to say, but it does happen on the occasion. It wasn't over someone, rather than the lack of having anyone one night that i was desperately close to killing myself, I find it very likely that it wouldn't have taken much pressure at all for me to have done it.
>>38622845
No idea if it was you, maybe. I kind of get it anyway, like how girls are bombarded by guys/robots hitting on them 24/7. So they think every single guy out there is hitting on them, even the ones who are actually not.
But in this case I only wanted friends and I kinda told her over and over it was friends only and I was simply gathering local robots for meetups/hangouts/food stuff and such. Anyway yeah no biggie I'm just ranting to you unfairly.
I have 2 online friends with BPD and they're pretty nice to me after all these years. In the end I just hope everyone gets a friend and such, regardless of whatever condition they have.
>>38622875
1. Mood swings and mianipulation are not interesting
2. Loving until you do something that makes them vilify you and knocks you from godhood
3. A Naruto reference? He was abusive.
4. A BPD sufferer has a higher chance to fuck with your life.
5. It's not an honour, a person should be your equal, not your manic pixie dream girl.
6. I think I vomitted.
>>38623006
Then the 4 times she phoned me from hospital must have been to fuck with my head.
In relationship the reason was depression, out of it "I hated you for so long" and other vitriol.
>>38623076
3. You think Sasuke was abusive?
>>38623076
You're generalizing everyone with BPD as the crazy bitch you were with. The worst i've done is ghost because every single time i'm not good enough, they just won't listen and leave.
>>38617228
>They did a bad thing
.......100% of your utterances not eliciting a response is not a slight, it's called a conversation between more than 2 people, you retard.
>70% villain
Nah, 100%, you concocted the entire thing out of your diseased mind and then acted upon it in a most infantile manner. Typical BPD retardation.
>>38623076
1.they're not but i can handle them
2.probably yes..but it didn't happen yet and bp person gets better with time
3.you're talking about sasuke..i'm talking about the uchiha genes
4.my life isn"t that amazing for it to easily get fucked . also i make sure the most important parts are independent from everyone else aka job , studies.
5.he's a friend in every sense of the word
i want a bpd femanon to be my gf and completely ruin my life
>>38623231
Try me. And why isn't your life already ruined? It should be, you're a little out of place here.
>>38622903
>actually women
I hate women who act cutesy and nice too, just as much as the guys. I really only get along with fucking mean people and that's it.
I might make some discord throwaways then. I love how easy it is to do so. Discord is perfect too because the threads based around it result in so much horrible drama.
>>38623296
As do I, my main issue is the lack of honesty, it's disgusting.
Truly, if the /sft/ threads weren't so cancerous already i'd stir shit there.
>>38619408
Fucking lmao, get your shit together you fucking pathetic homo.
>>38616511
>Tfw mentally ill bpd girl
>Have incredibly loving boyfriend
>yell at him all the time 4 times this week
>feel so bad about it
>self harmed twice this month because I failed him or let him down
>completely dependant on him
>if he isn't happy then it's my fault
>contribute nothing
>to fucked up to support him and help him
>try to help him and fail miserably
>cry all the time and hide it from him
I wish I could give him more.
He deserves better.
>>38623139
Hell, yes. Can't pretend it's someone to be admired in the slightest.
>>38623407
Shit, if you want to be better resist the self harm.
>>38623415
I can't speak for everyone else with BPD being as pathetic and worthless as I am
>>38619792
>autistic virginposting
>>38623485
>autistic virginposting
Of course, do you not understand who all uses this site or are you a fucking idiot?
>>38619792
I've encountered plenty of females who anime post, although they were often lesbians and if they weren't they seemed to have bisexual tendencies.
>>38619854
Oh, you're one of those skinny white teenage fags that acts like an obnoxious stereotype because you're still young and retarded enough to think it makes you look cute.
Pure homosexual cancer. Even other fags can't stand your type.
>>38621754
>>Have to just become the character
Indescribably pathetic.
Literal fucking cringe.
>>38623545
Confession: I think he's pretty sexy. If he thinks it's "inevitable" that girls won't fall in love with him, that's only because he hasn't talked to me.
>>38623600
>ur so cringy an edgy maAANn XDDDD
Boring meme and no one cares, fuck off normal
>>38623530
This isn't Wizchan.
You belong on Wizchan.
>>38623328
jesus christ I fucking hate steam friend threads
why steam of all things for their autistic bullshit? It's just a game store mostly, and the chat sucks ass.
yeah I'm not gonna touch those.
>>38623600
Look pal, when a shitty online act you put on while fucking mental was the only way you could get people to notice you and give you attention, doing it when you aren't as fucking mental starts to seem like a real good idea.
Being noticed is like a drug.
>>38623665
>invents edgy personas for himself
>thinks he has any social credibility whatsoever
Thanks for playing.
>>38623698
Wizchan is fucking nonsense, slow, and boring. We were here first, fuck off for once normal fag
>>38623713
No clue, all i know is they are fucking terrible, rarely do you find a higher concentration of autistic homos that all ERP and get mad at eachother for the most stupid shit.