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1. Use a name in the namefield.
2. Share anything you want, ask any questions.
3. Be listened to and cared for.
4. I'm off duty tonight, but I'm around, just don't expect an automatic answer from me tonight.
5. Today's theme: progress. What's your progress?
can you please leave my fucking board
This shit doesn't belong here
>>38593312
Hey Nick. Are you doing well? It seems like every day lately you have been off duty.
>>38593365
Yeah, there's a lot to do and I can't keep up. Generally, I still try but I prefer that people be warned.
>>38593379
Fair enough, better to warn and surprise than to not give sufficient and have others be mad. Sorry to hear life is a bit crazy.
>>38593388
So, any new discoveries in your life?
>>38593459
Not lately. Pretty calm week, mostly slept.
>>38593485
Any progress on the OCD videos?
>>38593494
I need to watch those... I knew I forgot to do something. I have a very bad memory.
>>38593505
It's OK, I am here to back you up. Worry not.
I joined the Navy, but before I hit the one year mark I was diagnosed with depression and medically discharged.
I can't forget about the shit I went through in there, and I feel like a piece of shit everytime I think about it. It hasn't been that long since I got out, but it's like everytime I lay my head down I flashback to still being there.
>>38593548
>I can't forget about the shit I went through in there,
If you want to share... All ears.
Fuck off tripfag normies
>>38593588
It's nothing really specific, just general bs that happens to people in the military. I just feel like a pos because other people managed to get through mentally sound, but not me.
Main thing that got me discharged was that I told a shipmate about what I'd been going through. It didn't sound that bad in my head, but I guess it was pretty bad. He went and told the CO because he was worried about me. I can't say I'm too mad about it, he did it for the right reasons. I just... idk
>>38593664
>I just feel like a pos because other people managed to get through mentally sound, but not me.
Don't compre, you never know. Reasons vary, and sometimes, getting through unscathed is a sign of much worse.
> It didn't sound that bad in my head, but I guess it was pretty bad.
That's why you should tell me.
Hello everyone. It's good to hear that Nick is busy. Means he is doing better.
>>38593785
I wish. I'm not bad but I'm not as good as I was a week ago. I cleaned a lot today.
You?
>>38593594
>Fuck off tripfag normies
if we report maybe mods will do something
this should be a fucking Facebook group or some garbage there's no reason for it to be here
It's just like hug your sister, although I will admit less cancerous
>>38593855
>if we report maybe mods will do something
It's not against any rules of this board. Good luck.
>>38593803
Good for you. Sorry for breaking up the game yesterday. It would be good to push myself to lose, but it would make me incredibly hateful of myself.
As for me. Kinda up and down. Felt like shit an hour ago, but now I pushed it back. I still feel like I'm just suppressing all of my thoughts and not really dealing with them. But there is no good way to deal with them I think.
>>38593918
>but it would make me incredibly hateful of myself.
You need to learn not to mix ego and game. If I did that, I'd hate myself too because I lost most of the time. It's how you learn and practice, by playing tougher opponent.
>>38593918
>Felt like shit an hour ago, but now I pushed it back. I still feel like I'm just suppressing all of my thoughts and not really dealing with them. But there is no good way to deal with them I think.
Process these emotions. Let them go through you like a wave. Once you can do that, you'll feel better.
>>38593997
>You need to learn not to mix ego and game.
There are many people who are better than me even if they don't train. And not just at chess. At many things.
>Process these emotions. Let them go through you like a wave. Once you can do that, you'll feel better.
Then I just get angrier and angrier.
>>38594019
>There are many people who are better than me even if they don't train
Of no importance. I can say the same. Except training is everything in chess. Nobody just knows. Don't worry about it. Whoever has the most fun wins, even if they lose, like me. Medman wins most of the time against me.
>>38594019
>Then I just get angrier and angrier.
Let it pass through, don't dwell on it. Find the other emotion that makes you angry. Anger rarely comes first.
>>38594098
>Whoever has the most fun wins, even if they lose, like me. Medman wins most of the time against me.
That's fucking stupid to say. It's just a dumb platitude. Whoever is best, wins. No one cares about the losers.
>Find the other emotion that makes you angry. Anger rarely comes first.
Inadequacy that I can do nothing about.
>>38594167
>That's fucking stupid to say.
What is the only reason for people to play there? To have fun. Nobody plays on that website for any other reason.
>>38594167
>Whoever is best, wins.
Sometimes I lose to worse players, sometimes I win against better players. Mistakes happen, etc.
> No one cares about the losers.
Nobody cares about the winners either. Games are private. The players there don't give a shit about people they don't know. If you played, I'd care whether you won or lost, especially if it's against someone I know and played with. I don't care if you lose.
>>38594212
You're being too concrete here. It's not just about chess. It's about anything in life. People who are genetically superior tend to be better at everything, because they have the advantage of confidence.
I didn't go into work today be my back hurt a little bit. I feel guilty because, I dread every thing I do
Deep down I think, I'm happy to be laying down with a back compress on.
How am I going make myself happy while I work or enjoy hobbies. Am I going to scare myself into being a potato. Am I going to turn really fat? How can I stop feeling anxious about everything and just leave a happy healthy life?
>>38594262
>You're being too concrete here.
Yes, because you have a tendency to take anything in your life and reduce it to the same old pattern. You can't just play chess, you have to turn it into a quest against Chad and the world.
Stop doing that, Dan, sometimes it's just chess, just fun, and nothing else.
>>38593312
Got a lot of shit to do at work and for my online college classes; and I took 10mg of THC a little earlier, so I'm gonna be high in a little bit. Not feeling too good, but hopefully this will take the edge off.
>>38594271
>my back hurt a little bit.
What's your back issue?
If you're scared about getting fat, count calories.
As to stress/depression, the issues are probably deeper.
Also, Dan, when it comes to chess, it's really not about genetics and all about training and theory.
>>38594283
Everything is a fight. Being inadequate at anything is a problem. And personally I tend to be shit at pretty much everything there is. Always bested. Always shat on. Always humiliated. Just playing to have fun? Only losers who try to easy their mind or people who are good at something say that.
2. Why is it so wonderful to kick leftists to the ground? Why are they so kickable?
3. I hope you understand. ;_;
4 "Totally understandable."
5. I knocked out a nigger and his cuck friend. Was nice.
>>38594374
>And personally I tend to be shit at pretty much everything there is.
If you can't lose, you cannot progress. Look no further. You expect to win all the time? Nobody can win all the time. If I got some level at chess, it was through losing. I earned my skills. You can't just expect to be a champion without having gone through the losses.
>Only losers who try to easy their mind or people who are good at something say that.
If I am a loser, then why did I win? Dan, this makes no sense. I play to have fun and to reap those brain benefits. Just playing brings goodness to your mind.
Don't call me a loser, OK?
>>38594343
I was doing some contract work and hurt my back. Ugh, I should be lucky doing such easy work.
I have C PTSD. I'm going through therapy for it and slowly getting better but, in the mean time I have to do something. My anxiety just seem to be getting worst. I really want to feel happy again.
>>38594473
>losses
Some people go through much less losses. Get better much faster. Or are just better than me from the get go. Sometimes even if I practice I get bested. Actually that happens quite often! Because with physical stuff, hand to eye coordination and reaction time has a strong genetic basis.
>I play to have fun and to reap those brain benefits.
You see it through the pink-tainted glasses. If you got this far, it means you're lucky to be talented enough. Nothing happens without a reason.
Some faggots were defending the shit out of you Nick even though they have no clue who you actually are.
How do you feel about this?
>>38594502
>I have C PTSD. I'm going through therapy for it
Please tell us all about it. Many of us have C-PTSD but my therapist didn't know about it until I told her...
>>38593312
>>38575162
he replied saying that tomorrow will probably go for a trip. Since he probably wont comeback for atleast a month, what now?
I'm here just to say hi to everybodyno need to respond
My OCD is of the rails lately, I'm taking new meds but there's still just so much fucking noise in my head Idk.
I moved into a new apartment in the hopes that I would find peace but now I got new problems which are just as bad as the old ones.
I'm kinda scared that I can never be happy or relaxed in my life.
>>38594524
>Some people go through much less losses. Get better much faster. Or are just better than me from the get go. Sometimes even if I practice I get bested. Actually that happens quite often! Because with physical stuff, hand to eye coordination and reaction time has a strong genetic basis.
Will this ever end? I taught Lo how to play chess and we played together. She had huge potential, she even beat me without much experience. I was so happy for her. But you know what? She's a bit like you. She thought I had lost on purpose and got mad. I hadn't lost on purpose, she had really done it. I was so proud and instead of being happy with me, she lashed out. I had to be firm after that, and state that I wasn't a liar and she had just spoilt a happy moment. You do the same, you waste happy moments. You and I could have had fun just playing a game together, but instead of thinking of it as you and me having fun together as friends, you had to see it as your same old bullshit. You paint everything with it, and are surprised that everything looks shit.
>>38594524
>You see it through the pink-tainted glasses. If you got this far, it means you're lucky to be talented enough. Nothing happens without a reason.
No. I played over 200 games on my phone, level 1, and lost so many games. I earned my skills through practice and learning. It's not about being lucky or having magic talent.
I instantly got better once I learned some stuff from watching videos. Now I can win against a level 5 computer (rarely).
You want to make life shit, Dan.
>>38594529
>Some faggots were defending the shit out of you Nick even though they have no clue who you actually are.
What makes you think you know me better than them?
>>38594583
That's a long trip. Where is he going?
>>38594620
Hello, Ed!
>>38594657
https://youtu.be/pJp9vlp84Wk
Have you seen this?
I've spent the last week obsessing over my ex, and whether or not I have ocd
I'm switching medicine again tomorrow, any suggestions?
BREAKING NEWS
Coats just beat me at chess.
I won the first 4 games, and he won the latest one. He gets better with every game, I think. I may never win again against him.
Bravo, Coats.
>>38594800
>and whether or not I have ocd
Tell us about that.
>>38594823
Thanks Nick, good game indeed
>>38594735
I thought i'll give it a try, tho
>>38593312
>Today's theme: progress. What's your progress?
I think I'm getting a little better with my anxiety
The problem is that I don't know when it all started going downhill, I feel like this is how it was my entire life
>>38594859
>The problem is that I don't know when it all started going downhill, I feel like this is how it was my entire life
It may have. Even before you were 10?
>>38594709
I know you as much as they know you. You didn't answer my question though.
>>38594661
>You paint everything with it, and are surprised that everything looks shit.
Not really. Every competitive way is here for people to show superiority over one another. There is no fun involved. It just turns out it's not productive letting Chads beat everyones face in. So now we have sports and hobbies. But it's not about fun. It's about showing genetic superiority. And every time you lose, you are damning yourself. People are gonna see it and treat you accordingly. Just think of any social group and the most outspoken person there, the one who is considered the leader. Is he going to be shit at all sports and activities? No, he's likely good at things he's never done before. It's all about inferiority. I will not be humiliated.
>You want to make life shit, Dan.
Then you probably were good enough from the start. You sensed you have some good basis so you trained to build on it. But if you are only average (or even slightly above) then training is a waste of time. Not to mention that being treated like shit for your ugliness (I know you like to deny that halo effect exists) makes you worse at everything you do, since it undermines your confidence. People destroy you if you are inferior. And when you try not to get destroyed, they say you are a sore loser. YEAH NO FUCKING SHIT!
>>38594735
I dont know i still havent replied to him since this morning, im not sure i believe him tbqh famalam
>>38594865
just some fights between my parents, but nothing major that I could think of
>>38594866
>I know you as much as they know you.
That isn't true. I've been on the phone with some, and exchanged hundreds of e-mails for months. There's no way you know me as much as they do.
If your question is how it made me feel, it was nice to see some people defend me for once. Not sure why you're curious about that.
>>38594837
Basically, I feel like everything is connected somehow. Like I'm living in a simulation, or I'm in a coma, or an alien is probing my brain, something.
For instance, I drove to the mall the other day to watch a movie with my cousin. We decided to go to a different mall, and on our way to the car, we see my ex driving away.
Is this because I'm obsessing over her? Was this set up? Is she my partner in crime when I wake up from this hell?
I feel like I'm crazy, she shouldn't still be tormenting me after this long. I try to block out thoughts about her, but it doesn't work. I've been picking at my skin, checking for new pimples, rubbing holes in my skin, chewing my lip, etc.
>>38594867
>Not really.
Say this to my face, see what happens. Of course you do!
>>38594867
>Every competitive way is here for people to show superiority over one another. There is no fun involved.
Coats and I are having fun. I have way more experience than he has, and he still managed to win, and I am not upset and I don't feel inferior.
>>38594867
>It just turns out it's not productive letting Chads beat everyones face in.
Chads aren't really real, Dan. It's just a meme.
If you had seen some chess players, you'd not talk about good genetics, mang.
>>38594867
>Then you probably were good enough from the start.
I'm not, I get beat by people who just start. Ask Coats. I'm not humiliated. I am in harmony with my play style and skills. I only seek to improve.
Point is: as soon as you thought you weren't winning, you gave up. No fun was had because you got upset. This is no way to live.
>>38594550
Well, my c-ptsd is from my childhood. I was physically and sexually abused. I was molested my a family friend and my dad was a physically abusive parent that would beat us for making a mistakes. I have a lot of anxiety about making a mistake. This anxiety makes me dread mostly doing anything even play video games.
I go to a EMDR therapist. It's been hard reliving old memories so, I decided to go to Therapy ever other week.
One of my hardest memories I had to deal with is sitting in a bath of really hot water and bleach. I hadn't have any fear around bath tubs, water, or bleach but, I feel the more dread and relusive. I feel so a lone right now. I feel so unhappy. However, I feel relieved I'm laying on the couch comfy with heating pad. I'm scared about my future. Am I going to feel this way forever. When will I get better. Why can't I been happy right now. I don't even remember how to feel content.
>>38594901
>just some fights between my parents,
Do tell.
>>38594924
>For instance, I drove to the mall the other day to watch a movie with my cousin. We decided to go to a different mall, and on our way to the car, we see my ex driving away.
>Is this because I'm obsessing over her? Was this set up? Is she my partner in crime when I wake up from this hell?
Are you positive it was her?
>>38594924
>I've been picking at my skin, checking for new pimples, rubbing holes in my skin, chewing my lip, etc.
This is like a mix of self-harm and OCD. Lo used to pick at her skin. I've chewed the skin inside my mouth occasionally.
Does this increase when you feel worse?
>>38595018
>I have way more experience than he has, and he still managed to win, and I am not upset and I don't feel inferior.
Well you should. It's how people see it.
>If you had seen some chess players, you'd not talk about good genetics, mang.
Let me break it down to you, no one really gives a shit about chess. It's a losers outlet. Only physical sports mean shit in real life.
>No fun was had because you got upset. This is no way to live.
You think me being upset is the problem. But it's really me being shit and not wanting to get it shoved in my face.
>>38595064
I asked her if she was at the mall, and she said her bf works there, and she was picking him up.
And absolutely it gets worse. I'm currently the worse I've ever been, and I think it's this Paxil. I've never before thought that it was OCD until I started doing research.
>>38595078
Physical sports require athleticism and strategy
Sit down "sports" require strategy and reactions
CSGO at a high level is extremely tense and fast paced. And the fact that they get paid to do it, in a capitalist world, means shit in real life
>>38595064
>Do tell.
they kinda argued a lot, then they stopped quite suddenly
some years later I found out they almost got a divorce, but they didn't and somehow everything was good again
I still don't think there's any connection between them then and me now
>>38595153
Most of all, they all require genetic superiority. If you don't have it, you don't exist. You're dead. You've never been alive.
Case in point. I registered back on fucking lichess and got beaten twice in a row by a level 2 computer. That's the level which even the biggest retard could beat.
>>38595030
I'm sorry to hear this.
I'd love to know what your opinion on EMDR is.
>>38595030
>One of my hardest memories I had to deal with is sitting in a bath of really hot water and bleach.
Holy shit... what?
Worry not, you're not alone with this anymore. OK? Another regular does EMDR, and also has major CPTSD, and a past that sounds like yours.
That bath thing makes me break out a few tears, goddam.
>>38595230
Actually it isn't Dan. I was beaten numerous times by a level 1 computer, still yet to beat it. Yet here I am. Am I bigger than the biggest retard?
>>38595078
>Well you should. It's how people see it.
I am part of "people" and I don't see it that way. I can tell you all the people I work with don't either. You'd have to be a massive cunt to judge someone by their chess skillls, or ping pong skills. That's stupid. In reality, people would judge YOU for judging someone on their game skills, because that's pretty dumb.
>>38595078
>Let me break it down to you, no one really gives a shit about chess.
You just said the opposite. You... just said the exact opposite!
>>38595078
>It's a losers outlet. Only physical sports mean shit in real life.
You can play chess and the rest. And you're wrong. When I won a chess game in 4 moves in front of my entire class of kids, they were stunned and amazed and the next day everyone knew I could beat someone in 4 moves.
>You think me being upset is the problem. But it's really me being shit and not wanting to get it shoved in my face.
Your attitude is shit. There's nothing wrong in having fun. Are you goin to live the rest of your life keeping score and feeling like a loser? Or will you let it go and just have fun?
You could be playing with several of us in the thread, and have fun, but no. You prefer to pout and be upset.
I'd sooner lose to new players than not have fun.
>>38595230
Your brain is muscle, and if you work it, or will get stronger. Genetics help, and there is a limit, but you'll never know that limit until you try.
If you can't score a goal in soccer against an 8 y/o, do you give up because you're beyond shit?
>>38595112
I haven't studied OCD enough, but it seems to be something about regaining control and diminishing anxiety. I have some very minor traits of it, and had them since childhood. Some very embarrassing stuff too.
What's the term for OCD rituals? Is there anything? In French they call them "tocs" because TOC is the French OCD, "troubles obsessionnels compulsifs."
>>38595153
>Sit down "sports" require strategy and reactions
I beg to differ. Some sit down sports require you to sit down for 12 hours straight, and if you aren't in good physical condition, doing so will be much harder and actually painful.
>>38595153
>CSGO at a high level is extremely tense and fast paced. And the fact that they get paid to do it, in a capitalist world, means shit in real life
Good point, actually. Chess players get way more recognition than CSGO players. You can't deny that, Dan. Chess Grandmasters are super stars all around the world, while video game players aren't.
Dare I say...Checkmate?
>>38595337
>I am part of "people" and I don't see it that way. I can tell you all the people I work with don't either.
That's a lie. It's there. Subconsciously. Everyone knows that. But everyone also ignores it.
>You just said the opposite. You... just said the exact opposite!
Well if there is nothing else to go by, then sure. Chess will do enough to humiliate inferiors. Let ask you something. Say we take an average person and ask them how many football or hockey players they know. And then we ask them how many chess players they know. Who do you think is known more?
>When I won a chess game in 4 moves in front of my entire class of kids, they were stunned and amazed and the next day everyone knew I could beat someone in 4 moves.
A class of kids. How old are they?
>Are you goin to live the rest of your life keeping score and feeling like a loser? Or will you let it go and just have fun?
I will have fun when superior people stop being preferred. When losing at something doesn't mean being considered inferior and unattractive. That is when I will start having fun.
Also what I said here >>38595230 it's three times now.
>>38595276
I haven't won once. I'll probably play until I lose 10 times and then just let it be.
>>38595345
>If you can't score a goal in soccer against an 8 y/o, do you give up because you're beyond shit?
Yes I would do exactly that. And also stop talking to everyone who I know and who saw that happen.
>>38595373
They can be called compulsions, ticks, habits, rituals
A lot of it is reaffirmation.
"did I lock the door? Yes, phew. Did I turn off the lights? Yes, phew."
Instant gratification and instant anxiety release.
Often I'll check what's new on reddit, then youtube, then 4chan, then reddit youtube 4chan etc
>>38595174
>I still don't think there's any connection between them then and me now
Exposing a child to adult arguing is considered abuse already. It makes the child fear for his life, which is no small trauma. Kids depend entirely on their parents to survive, it's an instinct. Anything that threatens that will have an impact. If there's nothing else in your past, this could be a source of your issues.
People tend to think the mind is all about will power and efforts, but the way you evolved as a baby and infant and child matters a whole lot too.
What you've learned in infancy with your parents comes right up in your relationships.
Just like you enjoyed nipples as a baby, you still do as an adult, but in a completely different way. Attachment works the same, this is why your ancient wounds open up when you enter a relationship. Rarely do people get together with another person and their issues didn't bring them together.
>>38595230
>Case in point. I registered back on fucking lichess and got beaten twice in a row by a level 2 computer. That's the level which even the biggest retard could beat.
Dude, you have to learn. Try the puzzles, instead. You have to find the best move. It's a very exercise and you can learn some tricks. The site has lots of things to learn. I haven't tried them all.
What's your username?
>>38594620
>no need to respond
attention whore
>>38595484
I thought it was normal to have a set of websites you check. That is what I generally do on the internet.Though it could be another symptom of my OCD
>>38595276
>I was beaten numerous times by a level 1
Dan, this means I can lose to a level 1 computer, because I lost to Coats.
This website is pretty neat and attracts serious chessplayers, so the computers they use are very good. I haven't tried any yet, but I'll let you know.
>>38595430
If your problem is that you will get judged, why not practice against the computer? A computer can't judge you. It is better than refusing to play at all.
>>38595260
I feel that EMDR is very invasive therapy but, it should have fast results. Like I think it would of took me years on CBT therapy to have remembered the bleach water memory. It's good to have a good safety net when doing EMDR because, as you can see some repressed memories can be painful and can drive you deeper in to depression. I should be thankful for doing EMDR therapy and living in a beautiful and peaceful home but, not having friends, being scared, and not accomplishing anything is really getting to me. I feel like being meet is slowly making me retarded.
>>38595530
I just wanted to say hi to everybody
then I thought I might as well respond to the actual thread, but i'm very anxious when speaking to people, even on a Chinese cartoon imageboard
>>38595538
They are far from easy. I tried doing some of the tutorials, so far all I did was "learn" where the pieces go, meaning not too much progress. The level 1 computer is a challenge alone, I fear what higher levels could be like. One day we will probably look back and laugh at a level 1 computer, but right now it is a challenge indeed.
>>38595532
I check them when there's nothing new, and I check and check and check and check, and still, nothing new
It's like muscle memory, when I feel anxious my thumbs just tap on baconreader so I can view dank memes for that split second for that extra release
Though I may not be OCD, I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I feel like my medicine may have increased the OCD like symptoms of my aspies
>>38595430
>That's a lie. It's there. Subconsciously. Everyone knows that. But everyone also ignores it.
When reality doesn't suit you, it's a lie, or it's unconscious. You're always right with this stuff. You'd do well to question yourself sometimes. Do you really think you know that much about how the world works?
>>38595430
>Say we take an average person and ask them how many football or hockey players they know. And then we ask them how many chess players they know. Who do you think is known more?
That depends on what they like. I can't name a single hockey player and I know lots of people who couldn't either. But everyone can say Bobby Fisher
>>38595430
>A class of kids. How old are they?
Much younger than their adult female teachers they praised my skills too. ;)
>>38595430
>I will have fun when superior people stop being preferred.
What if I just enjoy playing chess with you? Can I prefer you or is that forbidden? Dan, if you want to join the Chad club, you have to accept that Chad may like you, you know?
>>38595430
>When losing at something doesn't mean being considered inferior and unattractive. That is when I will start having fun.
But YOU are doing this! Nobody else.
>>38595430
>I haven't won once. I'll probably play until I lose 10 times and then just let it be.
Why don't you try the learning section?
>>38595610
I'm sorry I didn't know. Please forgive me buddy
>>38594823
Chess is basically RTS
>>38595616
Exactly. You just cycle through. I do that a lot with posts on /r9k/. I will open a few, cycle through, and keep checking. I thought that was normal just to find out what was going on.
Lichess is pretty brutal when you're starting out. The key thing is to think 2-3 steps ahead. The computer can only think its current turn
>>38594735
>>38594877
Do i ask him where hes going or something i still havent replied to him because im worried he will think im annoying
>>38595458
>Yes I would do exactly that. And also stop talking to everyone who I know and who saw that happen.
That's such a baby reaction. Do you realise that your reaction ALONE tells everyone you're an insecure person? (I was going to say "a lil'bitch" but I'm trying not to get angry at your bullshit.)
Just so you know, women like when men can play with kids. If you act like you're on the same level as kids, then it's like you feel scared by kids... This is ridiculous.
>>38595530
It's fine if you take it out on me for personal reasons, but leave people alone. They haven't done anything to you.
>>38595652
Sadly we can't say wololo enough...
>>38595586
I keep wondering about EMDR. My therapist never mentioned it. Is this the brand new fad of the mental health world?
My idea of it for now is like this: you're made to look somewhere, and this unlocks stuff in your brain, is that about right?
Not having friends is horrible. If you are depressed, Patty, it's because you have every reason to.
Don't let others tell you how you feel. Material wealth is not everything. And for the retards who whine about "muh first world problems", the very idea that money helps that much is a first world assumptions. People with less know what matters most: family, friends, your spouse, happiness and peace.
>>38593312
I talked to a friend about my problem and I feel a lot better now. I guess it's the best thing to do.
>>38595681
It's not ridiculous to be scared by kids when they are better than you.
And yes, I am insecure. I fucking am and for a good reason. Due to my genetic shortcomings I can not fix.
>Do you really think you know that much about how the world works?
And do you really think that people winning at something doesn't have a positive connotation?
>But everyone can say Bobby Fisher
I don't know who that is. Point is, physical sports are mostly more useful than chess.
>Much younger than their adult female teachers they praised my skills too. ;)
Halo effect.
>What if I just enjoy playing chess with you? Can I prefer you or is that forbidden?
This is not about you. Me losing is unacceptable.
>But YOU are doing this! Nobody else.
Everyone else is doing this, you're just ignoring it.
>>38593855
What's wrong with hugging sisters? Nick should fuck off and never return.
>>38595610
Don't be scared. Everyone here will be nice to you except the trolls, but even those will only attack you to get to me, usually, so don't take it personally.
We'll care for you. Be at ease. Make yourself at home.
Guys, post some comfy pictures!
This is the wallpaper Lo left on my computer before she left. Before that, she had something about "Good sailors aren't made in quiet waters" or something. That's when the storm was over.
>>38595661
No wonder we are so evenly matched. I am very good at missing one or two possibilities.
>>38595665
Ask away. You can't be annoying with just a few questions.
>>38595827
Talking alone does something, yes. You can do it here too if you want.
>>38595836
>It's not ridiculous to be scared by kids when they are better than you.
Yes, Dan, it is. Kids are better at fidget spinners than I am and I don't give a shit. I never train with this stuff. If a kid challenges me to a spinner thing, I boldly fail like a faggot, and laugh about it. If you're still on with your terrible vision of everything, you'd realise that being able to fail something silly and laugh about it (for real, not fake laughter) means you're mentally stable, and people like that. Your way makes everyone stay away from you, but you'll blame it on every other thing instead of the one thing that makes you lose people: your attitude.
>>38595836
>Everybody else
I guess I don't count as part of everybody. You know, I have the same insecurity, I expect to be able to be beaten by a five year old. I expect to lose, winning is a pleasant surprise.
But you know what Dan? It gets awfully boring if you cut yourself off from never trying. Challenge, difficulty, all is based on you struggling to win. If anything, we have a bit of a benefit due to being so far under, we get the ability to get more challenge out of it and thus more entertainment.
Nick isn't going to judge you, it isn't going to matter. But, if you want to live with that fantasy, why do you care so much? Does it really matter if he thinks he is better at chess than you if chess is so insignificant to you? If it doesn't matter, why do you care if you lose so much?
>>38595836
>And do you really think that people winning at something doesn't have a positive connotation?
You seem not to know that one can lose like a winner, or win like a loser.
>>38595836
>And yes, I am insecure. I fucking am and for a good reason. Due to my genetic shortcomings I can not fix.
IT'S HERE, THE DANRAILING HAS BEGUN.
>>38594920
Why are you trying to make a cult Nick?
>>38595956
>Kids are better at fidget spinners than I am and I don't give a shit.
THIS IS NOT ABOUT FUCKING FIDGET SPINNERS. LITTLE CHADS WILL GROW UP TO BE BIG CHADS! Training is not the most important thing. Genes are the most important thing. They give you everyone you need to succeed. Training if you are shit does nothing.
MY ATTITUDE IS SHIT BECAUSE I AM SHIT AND WAS BEING TREATED LIKE SHIT ALL MY LIFE! BY YOU!
>>38595970
Why are you such a faggot nick?
>>38595968
>If it doesn't matter, why do you care if you lose so much?
Every loss at every fucking thing is a humiliation I can not take.
I've tried many things, trained and still was fucking bested by people who didn't train or trained for a much shorter time. I'm not gonna take it anymore. I mean I get it, for someone to win there have to be losers. And the shit that you and Nick are saying is just that. Dumb bullshit designed to make people feel okay with being the losers. With being there to make the lucky ones look better. Being the cattle that will never accomplish anything and just be used to feed the ones who are superior.
>>38595836
>I don't know who that is. Point is, physical sports are mostly more useful than chess.
Yeah, right, you're now going to tell me that basektball is more useful than chess. There are more chessplayers in the world than basketball players, more clubs, more jobs exist because of chess, etc. If you don't know who Bobby Fischer is, then that's your problem, but he's pretty fucking famous, as much for his genius as for his /pol/r9k/ proto /b/tard interviews. You'd like him.
>>38595836
>Halo effect.
Oh lol... You use this to mean so many different things, and yet it's always the same: boohoo.
>This is not about you. Me losing is unacceptable.
And why is that? If you play in such a way as to lose, then you deserve to lose. Period. No argument, no debate. That's what I like about chess, no excuses. That's why many adults can't stand this game. They need to be able to blame their loss on something. They can't fucking take it. Like you.
You have to learn to accept not being perfect. Nobody is. Bobby Fischer beat a chess grandmaster when he was 15. Do you think the grandmaster killed himself? No.
>Everyone else is doing this, you're just ignoring it.
But nobody is. Coats isn't, I am not, nobody is. You just want to force this idea on everyone because YOU believe this shit. Sorry man, but that's exactly how narcissists function: projecting THEIR shit on others and the world to feel like "everyone does it too".
Snap out of it.
>>38595970
And you seem not to know that losing or winning is absolute.
You call it danrailing and you don't respond.
>>38595991
Dan, can you play a game versus a computer? Or does that come down to genetics as well? Was the computer programmed for Chad and not for you, thus you can't play the game?
>>38593312
Fuck all the fuccbois who criticize this thread, this board needs atleast one to haul people out of all of this somehow.
Anyway, I guess I will throw in my own piece of misery into the ring and introduce myself along the way:
I am a burnout STEM student and my troubles might appear to be normie issues for some, but the last weekend really broke my teeth in.
I am in my third year already and like with many university fags my mental and physical health have been deteriorating quickly, I lost a ton of friends and did not really make new ones. I have just a batch of old friends I knew from back then and those are not really helpful in any regard, they cause more damage if anything, but they are the only people left who I can hang around with and help me avoid going completely bananas.
I never was the happiest guy and got quite used to handling the daily suffering, but recent developments really snaped my back. First of all I fell head over heels for some girl I got to know (dont even know why, she is absolutely unremarkable) and it is tormenting me ever since. Add to that the fact that I have my exams breathing down my neck and a close relative getting into hospital. And then the last weekend me and my dysfunctional group of friends met up and everything burned and crashed. The aforementioned girl completely shot me down, two of my friends nearly bashed each others teeth in and the others just fucked off. I downed a shitton of acohol and other drugs and completely crashed myself.
Now I am pretty much alone and since the morning after the party I feel like someone shot a hole through my chest. Speaking of progress I immediately started excercising and catching up on hobbies, I know this shit can kill you if you just sit down and wallow in self-pity. But it does not help this time and I do not know anymore. I never felt closer to an heroing. What the fuck do I do? For now I just really want to cry like a bitch, but even that one seems out of reach
>>38595968
>>38595991
Learn from Adventure Time.
>>38595990
>Why are you trying to make a cult Nick?
Because how else am I going to buy an entire island? I don't have the resources yet. Do you want to join?
>>38596088
>What the fuck do I do?
End it already you stupid cunt
>>38595791
EMDR is when you get a stimulus like; tapping sensation( ie. a eletric paulse)or a visual sensation( ie a pen moving back and fourth). When simuli is in progress you think of a memory and your brain takes in the movement and problem solved through the memory, which unlocks repression. EMFR has been just proven therapy by nimh to be an effective treament for PTSD. Which use to be incurable.
Not all therapist now how to do EMDR and you have to be in a stable environment to do it. I had a therapist who never brought up any other treatment that could help me in the past because, she really was a money whore and wanted me to keep seeing her. Even though she wasn't helpimg me. Also, I'm probably not stable enough to be doing EMDR but, I'm getting old and want to resolve the past soon so, I can push myself through stressful things to make my life better.
Stress and pain are normal in life, the trick is knowing how to manage through it.
>>38596068
>There are more chessplayers in the world than basketball players, more clubs, more jobs exist because of chess, etc.
I like how you conveniently ignored hockey and football. Also I'm not sure if what you are saying is the truth considering the US. I'd believe it if we were only taking about europe.
>Oh lol... You use this to mean so many different things, and yet it's always the same: boohoo.
Yeah boo hoo. You act like there is something wrong with complaining about being shorted unfairly. BY YOU OIHjf
>They need to be able to blame their loss on something. They can't fucking take it. Like you.
What you are doing is only focusing on training and ignoring the things out of ones control. Like you always do.
> Do you think the grandmaster killed himself? No.
Well he should have. And Bobby Fischer first for humiliating him.
>that's exactly how narcissists function: projecting THEIR shit on others and the world to feel like "everyone does it too".
Oh projecting. Your magical word. It's perfect, when I claim something happens you say it doesn't (with no counterargument whatsoever) and call it projecting. I'm not saying anything outrageous either.
>>38595078
>It's how people see it.
no, it's how you see it!
I don't play chess, but i have many hobbies which are competitive, the people who are the best mostly see the people just below them as threats, a reason to constantly train to not get over taken, they see the people far below them as initiates, people to foster so they may become an equal or even outclass them one day. Everyone who is better than you doesn't think you are an inferior person, it's that the only reason you would pay attention to someone who think's you're an inferior person are people who are better than you.
>>38595991
>LITTLE CHADS
I just about died laughing at this one. Little Chads. Fucking hell, man... We've gone past the meme here, and lande straight into mental illness.
Why are you so desperately hanging on to your excuses? Do you even believe "muh genetics" so seriously? Do you know how the human body functions, at all?
I don't treat you like shit, Dan. I spent so much time trying to help you, and feeling bad for you, and getting enraged when I saw that you weren't trying to get better. And I'm still here.
I will use my rage to make maymays instead of going capslock on your ass.
>>38596146
I like to imagine that when we get into interstellar space, and meet aliens, we'll bring chess to the stars. But since we're genetically inferior, we'll just duke it out space jam style
>>38596077
Okay. I will tell you what will now happen. I will be playing for a long time against a computer and then I will encounter someone who is superior to me and get fucked even if that person didn't train as much as me. To which you fucking retards will just say
>hurr das lief
>>38596116
And if you work hard all your life but only get scraps compared to what lucky people get. What's the point of living?
>>38595696
>They haven't done anything to you.
thats what you think
>>38595990
I want to make a comfy cult. Is it wrong that I want to make friends that way. At least my friends will be loyal to me.
>>38596075
>And you seem not to know that losing or winning is absolute.
Let's see: I lost to Coats, who's a new player. I've been playing since I was 8 (nothing serious until I was in my 20's, never joined a club or anything) and Coats just won. Now what? What does it do?
What's absolute about that? Tell me.
>>38596154
Tell me one thing Tanny. Were you dropped a lot on your head when you were little? Did your father accidentally step on your face? HOW CAN YOU BE THIS FUCKING NAIVE?
Seeing people far bellow them as initiates. Oh my fucking god. I can't do this. My chest hurts. If I finally got a heart attack then maybe I wouldn't have to READ THIS FUCKING SHIT!
>>38596077
Dem superior computer genetics, my dood.
>>38596048
>Every loss at every fucking thing is a humiliation I can not take.
What makes you think you will be humiliated by Nick? He doesn't gloat, that isn't his personality at all. Nobody else will see the game, he doesn't even report here when he wins. If you played a game against him, absolutely nobody else would know and he would never bring it up again, so why would it be such humiliation?
>>38596048
>I've tried many things, trained and still was fucking bested by people who didn't train or trained for a much shorter time. I'm not gonna take it anymore.
Yes, that can happen Dan. There are always going to be those better than you, that is a part of life. Yes, everyone can be better than you. But Nick isn't taking it seriously, even if everyone else in your mind is, so why can't you play against him? Is winning really all that matters?
>>38596048
>Dumb bullshit designed to make people feel okay with being the losers.
You do realize that I am a loser as well, right Dan? You do realize a five year old could beat me at almost anything physically and probably even mentally. Yet here I am, playing Nick. You know why? There is more to life than winning and there is always the chance of luck happening. Nick can always make a mistake. Mistakes are human Dan. You may fail 1000 times, but you may have one game where you could beat a professional just because they were having a horrible day.
>>38596048
>Being the cattle that will never accomplish anything and just be used to feed the ones who are superior.
Right now, all you are doing is being a cow tipping over and mooing. You are basically the cow getting tipped over by some bullies and complaining about being a cow. Wouldn't you rather charge? Wouldn't you rather, against the impossible odds, try and put up a fight? Why do you want to shrivel up and die Dan? Show some backbone, you may be a loser, but you don't need to give up and complain. Take every fight you can, battle the best you can.
>>38596174
It's not an excuse. Working hard to only get the fraction of skill that someone gifted gets is not an excuse. It's called inferiority.
>I don't treat you like shit, Dan. I spent so much time trying to help you, and feeling bad for you, and getting enraged when I saw that you weren't trying to get better.
AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY!
>>38596189
I have no idea what that means.
>>38596220
Means that coats can now feel superior to you and use this to give him advantage in life by being confident.
>>38596088
>Fuck all the fuccbois who criticize this thread, this board needs atleast one to haul people out of all of this somehow.
I appreciate that.
I've read your post; damn, that's a lot of stuff. The best thing you can do is catch your breath. Yes, it's good to be active and do things, but you also need to allow yourself a breather when needed. I think that moment is now.
Crying helps, choose some music to let the tears flow and go at it.
Personal song of choice:
https://youtu.be/EDn7-xC2A8E
This song just about murdered me back in the day... You'll know why.
>>38595409
>Chess Grandmasters are super stars all around the world
*to chess players
I played CSGO quite a lot a while ago, i couldn't name one chess grand master but i sure as fuck knew who KennyS was.
>>38596135
Such bad faith. You disprove everything you said last night. Not surprised. You are a disgrace.
>>38596337
>You disprove everything you said last night.
Funny, seeing how you don't know what/if I posted last night.
>>38596235
>He doesn't gloat
It doesn't matter if he gloats. Imagine you're in a boxing match and you get absolute shit beaten out of you. You're lying on the ground bloody, sore and humiliated. At this point gloating is redundant.
>There are always going to be those better than you, that is a part of life.
And that is the part of life which causes hard work and training to be essentially worthless. When you have two conditions that you need to fulfill to accomplish something, but one of them is completely out of your control, which is going to be the more important one?
>There is more to life than winning and there is always the chance of luck happening.
This is only something we say to ourselves to stop us from going insane. But it's not the truth. Winning is all there is. And by the way yes, me saying this means I didn't repeat this lie enough.
>Mistakes are human Dan.
Mistake is the difference between winning and losing. One mistake can kill you very easily.
>Wouldn't you rather charge? Wouldn't you rather, against the impossible odds, try and put up a fight?
You are making a big mistake here. You say fight, you say charge, but what you actually mean is the opposite. I can't explain it well probably. But working hard to succeed in the society of people who treat you like shit is the opposite of charging. It's letting yourself be milked before you get slaughtered.
Also I'm kinda impressed by what you're saying. You must have improved or at least decided you want to improve. I have days like that too.
>>38596191
>I will be playing for a long time against a computer
So you can play against the computer? The problem is with real people?
>>38596191
>And if you work hard all your life but only get scraps compared to what lucky people get. What's the point of living?
It is an alternative to death and can offer some entertainment from time to time. Find something that makes you happy. Why not act like a bee? Nobody can tell you the rules to being a bee.
>>38596220
I love that Dan is afraid of Nick bragging when he has in this thread talked about me beating him one time more than his victories over me. He has focused on the achievement of the other person. You are the only one focusing on everyone viewing their victories as the most important thing.
>>38596230
Dan, as I said, I am a loser in life. If you think I have superior computer genetics, you are sadly mistaken, I spent half of yesterday getting upset because I couldn't figure out why a program I used kept crashing almost non-stop.
>>38595430
>I will have fun when superior people stop being preferred.
you are aware people can be better than someone at some things and worse than them at others right?
Sit down me and my brother in a scrapyard with some power-tools and i'll make a fire-breathing chopper and he will just give himself tetanus. However if you sat us in front of a piano, he would lovingly play moonlight sonata and i would make the piano lose it's tune. No-one is "superior" in all facets of life, no-one is "inferior" in all facets either.
>>38596146
>I like how you conveniently ignored hockey and football.
Even with those. Every town has a chess club: it's inexpensive and way more people can play it. Hockey needs a shitload of equipment and a very solid body. Chess clubs get people aged 5 to 99, no problem. Equipment is cheap and suits everybody. One size fits all.
>>38596146
>You act like there is something wrong with complaining about being shorted unfairly.
You haven't been shorted unfairly. You are complaining unfairly.
>What you are doing is only focusing on training and ignoring the things out of ones control. Like you always do.
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE THINGS OUT OF YOUR CONTROL, GRAND MOTHERFUCKING FUCKBOY. GODDDAM IT.
I can't fucking keep calm with your shit, I just cannot. Over a year of this steaming fucking shit! AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.
I'll learn chess stuff from chess masters on YouTube and etc. Who gives a shit if I won't become a master myself? Playing chess is fun and trains your brain. It has health benefits, which you get no matter what. You understand? It's like working out: you get benefits on every level. Why is this so fucking hard to understand?
>>38595491
>It makes the child fear for his life, which is no small trauma
>baby and infant and child
It happened in my middle childhood, I was aware that long relationships couldn't exist without at least little fights
Everything I say may sounds like denial, but I'm sure this is not it
Worst case scenario, my parents' fights is, indeed, a cause, but surely not the main one
>>38595644
>I'm sorry I didn't know. Please forgive me buddy
Don't worry, I understood your point - it sounded a little like attention whoring
>>38595846
>Everyone here will be nice to you except the trolls
>even those will only attack you to get to me
I've lurked for a while, at this point I'm okay even with the trolls
Plus, I've been bullied enough to finally not let it get to me
>Guys, post some comfy pictures!stolenfrom a recent comfy thread
>>38596410
>So you can play against the computer? The problem is with real people?
There are no direct social consequences to losing to a computer.
>It is an alternative to death and can offer some entertainment from time to time.
Is that supposed to be enough?
>>38596283
>Means that coats can now feel superior to you and use this to give him advantage in life by being confident.
Really Dan? You think one game I happened to get lucky in gave me some grand inspiration to believe I found something to be better than Nick in? "Yeah, I won one game, I am a real master". The only reason it even is getting brought up is to show you an example of how Nick is not some walking God who cannot be beaten. If not for you, we would forget about it and just continue on, having more fun as we went along. You are making this into a power play when there is none Dan.
Have to go, will be back later.
>>38596146
>And Bobby Fischer first for humiliating him.
Losing to Fischer is no humiliation. The grandmaster was honored to have played against such a genius. The humiliation is all yours because you think like an insecure asshole.
>>38596146
>Oh projecting. Your magical word. It's perfect, when I claim something happens you say it doesn't (with no counterargument whatsoever) and call it projecting. I'm not saying anything outrageous either.
I gave you tons of counterarguments, I always do. This is exactly what you do: you play chess, you get mad because you think your dick size shows when you lose, then you quit, then you insist everyone is judging you and everyone is an asshole. YOU assume it's important to win, and then you say it doesn't matter because it's just chess! Make up your fucking mind! Either it matters and you get pissy, or it doesn't and you get happy.
You are making such shit up, Dan. Don't you see? How many YEARS will I need to make you fucking see the light?
>>38596337
>he thinks only one troll is after him
get over urself nicky
>>38596154
This.
>>38596191
>And if you work hard all your life but only get scraps compared to what lucky people get. What's the point of living?
Then should we die?
>>38596433
This old theory is dumb. Intelligence is mostly general. If you are good at one thing, you are most likely good at others. And if you're not you can get good.
As for athletic skills, reaction time and muscle coordination will help you everywhere. It's the same as with intelligence.
>>38596440
>Every town has a chess club
Maybe in switzerland.
>You haven't been shorted unfairly. You are complaining unfairly.
Yes I have been treated unfairly.
>Why is this so fucking hard to understand?
I understand it. But it's not enough for me to do it.
>>38596399
>You're lying on the ground bloody, sore and humiliated.
Then you get up, touch gloves, raise your hands and yell "YO ADRIAN"
>And that is the part of life which causes hard work and training to be essentially worthless.
Of course you will never be as good at Basketball as Jordan, but you can be better at it than Joe from across the street. It's all about perspective
>One mistake can kill you very easily.
You could misstep, and die. You could do nothing, and still die. You could be going 25 down your street and get tboned at 60. Did you make a mistake?
In the modern age, winning is nothing. What do you gain in winning? Superiority over your foe, sure. But what next?
>>38596313
Please post more to make me cry.
>>38596225
>Tell me one thing Tanny. Were you dropped a lot on your head when you were little? Did your father accidentally step on your face? HOW CAN YOU BE THIS FUCKING NAIVE?
She's the one who does competitive sports, do you? No. Stop assuming you know everything, you very obvious don't. She's right. Competitive people are usually cool.
>>38596225
>Seeing people far bellow them as initiates.
But it's true you asshole. I'm going to teach Coats some chess techniques so he can be even better. He will most certainly become better than me very quickly. Can you believe this?
>>38593312
>4. I'm off duty tonight, but I'm around, just don't expect an automatic answer from me tonight
Whatever you say buddy ;)
>>38596472
Bye. Just one more thing.
It's always powerplay. Everything is.
>>38596531
>Then should we die?
Only the ones who aren't cucked enough to live their inferior lives when they could have been born to really be alive.
>>38596502
>The humiliation is all yours because you think like an insecure asshole.
Yeah I am insecure. You think being beaten means nothing then you are a retard. Being beaten is dangerous.
>Make up your fucking mind!
Every loss matters. But some losses are more severe than the others. If I had to choose between losing in chess and loosing in football. I'd lose in chess.
>You are making such shit up, Dan. Don't you see?
I don't.
>>38596539
>Of course you will never be as good at Basketball as Jordan, but you can be better at it than Joe from across the street. It's all about perspective
And that should be enough for me why exactly?
>You could misstep, and die. You could do nothing, and still die.
Exactly. So staying out of situations where a mistake can happen is advisable.
>Superiority over your foe, sure. But what next?
That's enough.
>>38596283
>AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY!
What makes you angry, what I see that you aren't trying when you know you could?
>>38596283
>Means that coats can now feel superior to you and use this to give him advantage in life by being confident.
I guarantee he doesn't, and I don't see him as inferior for losing at chess. It's a fucking game. Being good or bad at chess only means being good or bad at chess. You need to separate things and not make EVERYTHING about you and your worth.
i think i have anxiety but i dont want to tell my family. any tips on seeing someone about it?
>>38596589
>Competitive people are usually cool.
OF COURSE THEY FUCKING ARE. THEY GOT BORN SUPERIOR THEY HAVE GOOD LIVES THEY HAVE NO REASON TO BE ANGRY.
It's like when someone says that Chads are actually nice while robots are angry fucks. YEAH NO FUCKING SHIT WHEN YOU GET HALO EFFECT SINCE THE DAY YOU GET BORN.
>>38596399
>You're lying on the ground bloody, sore and humiliated.
You're only humiliated if you fought worse than you could. Have you never watched Rocky? Not every defeat is a humiliation. Remember what I said: you can lose like a winner, and that way you will never lose. That's how I do.
>>38596669
>You need to separate things and not make EVERYTHING about you and your worth.
And you need to realize it is about your own worth.
>>38596410
>You are the only one focusing on everyone viewing their victories as the most important thing.
This. That's why I was telling you, Dan, that you project. When I play chess players whose levels is below mine, I like making them better players.
Think about it, why do you think I'm doing this thread so hard?
>>38596715
>Have you never watched Rocky?
IT IS A FUCKING MOVIE!
I honestly can't tell if you are being dumb deliberately or just fell for all their shit. Actually who am I kidding.
>>38596399
>You're lying on the ground bloody, sore and humiliated.
You are bloody and sore, but not humiliated. You are determined to try again, to hope for that 1/1000 chance. It is a long shot Dan, but Nick is human. As I said, I lucked out. You could as well.
>>38596399
>When you have two conditions that you need to fulfill to accomplish something, but one of them is completely out of your control, which is going to be the more important one?
Doesn't matter. You play the game and have fun. It is really that simple, either you learn to play with other people or you just never do anything. I rather do the former Dan, a lot more fun.
>>38596399
>Winning is all there is.
That sounds really boring Dan. Can't you just enjoy the companionship with another? The entertainment from the game itself? Winning is an achievement, but is far from the only thing. I would rather lose to Nick 1000 more times than just give up and close my account. The latter isn't much fun at all. The former has entertainment, even in "failure".
>>38596399
>Mistake is the difference between winning and losing.
Exactly. Nick can make mistakes Dan. Nick can lose.
>>38596399
>It's letting yourself be milked before you get slaughtered.
So the options are to hide or get milked, yet you get found and get milked anyway? You are a complete loser Dan, by your account. Say Chad knows this. What satisfaction does beating a loser give? He knows you are expected to fail, so it just is a thing that happens. So why would Chad care about the outcome of the game at all if, being a loser, it doesn't matter because everyone knew you were going to lose?
>>38596399
>You must have improved or at least decided you want to improve.
I wish to improve Dan. I doubt I have made much improvement. I just believe playing a game and having fun is a lot better than saying everyone is just going to gloat and I need to hide from them.
Do you realize how many people are in the world? Yet you matter to be gloated to...
hello! my nem is ferdinah
I AMfrom madagascar and i am mechanic.
Ive just fnishted the intershp since 2015 but i ddn't work at the garage, just work with my frend and family
now i have any problems for my car's cf rfriends'car and my family
The problem happened last january and we found that wenneded the readioator and changed the negines's gasket joint,
when we have done that it was ok! nthe problemnow is not like be ventilator turn for long times
we don't find something wrong but i think it is sto bad the car if attors can you helpo
can you help us please
thanks you
>>38596313
Thanks for the reply.
I think I can let some of it out tonight, will certainly give the song a listen.
>>38596433
This. Dan splits everything in black and white. Anything can be turned into his grand projection. If Dan pisses wrong and wets the toilet bowl, he will infer from this fact that he is inferior because of his genetics and that it all means that he is doomed to be everyone's bitch, even though his life is utterly not that of a bitch.
It's infernal. It's some OCD way of thinking: everything must be reduced to a vision of Dan getting sodomised by Chad. It's so unnecessary and untrue.
Dan does it because he needs to justify his absence of trying, because trying is hard and scary. Dan literally puts Chad in front of him like shielf to protect himself from life.
>>38596464
>I was aware that long relationships couldn't exist without at least little fights
Describe those fights.
>>38596796
Is it wrong to think this post is fucking hilarious?
>>38596752
Movies are art
Art is the expression of emotions and ideas
Movies can be influential to the world around us.
The motif of the movie was, "do you best, and you will always be a winner"
If it was a book would it have been any more influential?
>>38596466
>There are no direct social consequences to losing to a computer.
Neither are there any to losing to me, Dan. I wouldn't even tell anyone if you were uncomfortable with it. I wouldn't even tell anyone we're playing.
You'd still not play with me, so that was an excuse.
serviced and then took of the road for 18 months
started engiune approx 4 motnhs ago tried to start and failed it last few days
replaced battery cleaned plugs have spark from the plugs startet with starter spray
byt does not conturnue backfred twice
have checked the fuses and relay in the fuse boxwith mult metao ok
what should I BE looking at next, bhelp polease?
>>38596225
>Tell me one thing Tanny. Were you dropped a lot on your head when you were little? Did your father accidentally step on your face?
no, my family were quite loving even if my mother was fairly inept.
>Seeing people far bellow them as initiates.
I know this because i am very, very good at some of my hobbies, better than anyone else i know. When i see someone who is just starting out, or not very good even after a while of practise, i don't view them as inferior to me, i view them as people, with potential who are trying to do something that i love to do and because i have empathy I love when they get better and feel good about themselves. The people who fail despite trying, i don't hate them or view them as untermench. I get angry that no-one has helped them yet, that they may end up quitting despite their drive, i try to help them if i can or recommend how they can get help if i can't. The only time i do hate someone, when i do view them as inferior, is when someone comes in, fails at their first attempt, gets frustrated and walks right back out again. If someone came in, failed 1000 times and only left because the venue closed, i would view that person with admiration, the drive to do well if much more important than doing well.
>>38596676
Your family should be the first people you talk to about it. Nothing good will come from hiding it.
>>38596768
>>38596841
Pure gold
Sorry I don't know anything about gas cars.
>>38596853
i dont like talking to them about myself though, it makes me really nervous
>>38596466
>No direct social consequences
So why not have an account? At least practice against the computer, play some chess Dan.
>Is that supposed to be enough?
Well, what do you want? Is death worth it? The complete absence of anything at all? The inability to have ANY entertainment? Isn't some better than none?
>>38596534
>If you are good at one thing, you are most likely good at others.
So are you so pathetic that there are no others on your tier? If there are losers underneath a society that is skilled, why not find some losers to play against? What happens when one of you wins? Do they immediately become a Chad because they won a simple game of chess?
>>38596870
Well, what's got you worked up?
>>38596763
>You are bloody and sore, but not humiliated.
You are in a situation where your social worth has now diminished. Winning gives you social capital.
>I rather do the former Dan, a lot more fun.
Then it's fun for you being milked. Enjoy it.
>The latter isn't much fun at all. The former has entertainment, even in "failure".
It's not entertaining getting humiliated.
>So the options are to hide or get milked, yet you get found and get milked anyway?
The best option is to run off the cliff. As should have I a long time ago. There is no way around it. I walk around like a coward. I shouldn't.
>Do you realize how many people are in the world? Yet you matter to be gloated to...
Because I am the one who was just humiliated.
>>38596796
>Dan does it because he needs to justify his absence of trying, because trying is hard and scary.
So what exactly do you think I should try?
>>38596870
Why not try writing it on a piece of paper and leaving it somewhere for them to read?
>implying anyone can fix me
could not stat
this morning
had a boost nwo when i wnet tfor a car run is sluggish
and engline sounds noiser.
when boosting there was a spark could this ahv ecaused a problem?
>>38595894
I asked him when he will be back and he said end of august, do i message him again in september? kek
>>38596890
i dunno, im always scared all the time. i dont go further than the convenience store alone, dont do any sort of writing even though I love that when im around others, only ever talk to new people if I'm introduced to them, otherwise I just sit and worry about it until the chance is gone and over
>>38596902
i guess that could work, maybe
car not move when acceleratoring
nissan sunny automatic1.8
obd2 toruble code show me pppp11p1
but i not understand location.
please can you mention by picture etc motor power and etc fusion circuit
,location.
best regards
>>38596472
>Nick is not some walking God who cannot be beaten
'Tis true.
>mfw
>>38596836
>The motif of the movie was, "do you best, and you will always be a winner"
Which is wrong. Unless you go about it like a retard claiming that you can win even if you lose, if you "win like a loser" which is obviously sour grapes.
>>38596840
No direct consequences, no. But I will know. And I am honest to myself about my inferiority. As long as I know about losing, there is a consequence.
>>38596847
>If someone came in, failed 1000 times and only left because the venue closed, i would view that person with admiration, the drive to do well if much more important than doing well.
That's pretty fucking retarded. That person just wasted a huge part of their life doing nothing at all. And you would view that with admiration. What a fucking joke.
I'm pretty sure my "depression" is just in my head. I don't think just hating myself is any different from any other human being. I've had a therapist and psychiatrist diagnose me but in today's age I feel like anyone who walks in saying they are sad gets labeled with it. I haven't had some deep seated childhood trauma or horrible event that affected me drastically. I still have moments where I've laughed and then it sends me into this constant thought that I'm just some whiny loser who needs to man the fuck up and get over himself.
>>38596506
>get over urself nicky
Think about it: assuming that many people are obsessed with me is definitely more pretentious than assuming there's only one.
Your sense of logic isn't very good. That said, I know you are many. You can either do something you enjoy or waste your time here.
>>38596872
>At least practice against the computer, play some chess Dan.
I'm not going to take more humiliation.
>Well, what do you want? Is death worth it? The complete absence of anything at all? The inability to have ANY entertainment? Isn't some better than none?
Would you rather eat shit or starve?
>What happens when one of you wins? Do they immediately become a Chad because they won a simple game of chess?
Unless said person is good at many other things, it was a fluke.
>>38596534
>Intelligence is mostly general. If you are good at one thing, you are most likely good at others
Completely false. Intelligence is recognised as being extremely varied. Sports people are intelligent at moving their bodies, chess isn't the same intelligence as other types of exercises, music isn't the same, painting either, etc. Everything that requires thought is not the same. Social behaviour is a different sort of intelligence, for instance.
>>38596819
I don't remember much, but I think it was mostly about thelack ofmoney at that time
>>38596630
>It's always powerplay. Everything is.
To them maybe. But why do you care? So they gloat. To you it was just a game. Why treat it as anything more? By admitting it is more, you are making it the problem.
>>38596630
>Only the ones who aren't cucked enough to live their inferior lives when they could have been born to really be alive.
You say this, but you have been alive for more than a year with this mindset.
>>38596630
>Being beaten is dangerous.
Playing online chess with a guy halfway across the world who has nothing but empathy is dangerous...
>>38596630
>Every loss matters.
So choose chess if it is an easier one to bother with.
>>38596665
>So staying out of situations where a mistake can happen is advisable.
They could make a mistake too.
>>38596669
I love that Dan thinks I am somehow now Chad because of ONE game. Somehow this simple game has changed everything to prove I have the genetic makeup to cure cancer and change the world.
I feel ripped off. I am a Chad and yet don't have a bunch of naked women praising me for winning a game of virtual chess in one single instance. Dan, am I being ripped off if I am not getting the deliveries of naked women?
so iu am 40 years old nad i have always been intimidated of cars
but after breaking down a an itemizaton of a bill from firestone
i see how much the y are ripping me off
they canrge 500 for parts and it was 200 when i compared
the pricing on autozone!!!
that with parts i can only imagine how much they are ripping
pec
channel i am goiing to do thi stuff myself
love your no non-donje
thanks so much for helpoing your fellow man out
once i go it forward
best regards
thanks
Facet is only holidays and forgot his laptop, so I am supposed to pass forward the daily Atlas bullying thing. It's straight from Facet:
"The other day I caught Atlas jacking off to gay porn with his eyes closed. All the talk of beefcakes, hot buns, and lengths of meat really did it for him."
>>38596985
>implying i dont enjoy trolling
>>38597007
I don't believe in this theory. Ever heard of the g-factor?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/G_factor_(psychometrics)
>>38597034
>Why treat it as anything more? By admitting it is more, you are making it the problem.
Because other people will still draw consequences from it.
>You say this, but you have been alive for more than a year with this mindset.
Yeah and I fucking hate myself it. I only hope that one of these days I will finally find it in myself.
>Playing online chess with a guy halfway across the world who has nothing but empathy is dangerous...
I meant in general.
>They could make a mistake too.
What?
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>>38596971
I think the world would be a better place if every saw a therapist when they are have behavior or mental issues. For example if you are unhappy with life but, feel no matter what you do you can't evolve pass said problem you should try to solve it. Why take out your unresolved issues on other people, instead of being responsible and fixing them.
I think it is great when people try to make themself better people by resolving internal issues.
>>38596544
Prepare for some heavy hitters:
https://youtu.be/Jqps9ZdMxs0
https://youtu.be/lT67liGjZhw
https://youtu.be/MwpMEbgC7DA
Brace.
>>38597102
You're my favorite I love you
>>38596534
>This old theory is dumb
what that someone can be better at one thing than someone while being worse at something else than that same person? because that's true, no matter how you slice it. I am very good at spacial and mechanical reasoning, i am quite good at maths, I can write at a passable level, I am probably in the bottom 30% when it comes to athleticism and i can't draw or play an instrument for shit. Do I spend all day crying that there are 6 year olds who can play the tuba infinitely better than me? No, i spend my time cultivating what abilities i do have and pursuing those which i don't have but I want. It is incredibly un-productive to just spend your time bitching. Practise makes perfect, no-one is born with the genetic ability to dray a perfect circle, but if you spend 6 months drawing half a million circles then your circle will be much more circular than someone who has never practised.
>>38596601
>Whatever you say buddy ;)
I tried... I must write important e-mails. Instead, I'm playing chess and getting danrailed.
Cute image, I'm saving it.
>>38597102
I somehow find your lack of trying funny as fuck
Thanks, anon
>>38596936
Hey, same here.
I wax having trouble getting out of bed to get to classes on time
I started taking public transit to overcome my fear. I didn't know what I expected, but it's really just a bunch of homeless people sitting in silence.
I really like public transit now, sure it takes 45 minutes to get to school now, but I have those 45 minutes to myself. I can listen to music or read a book, or catch up on homework.
You could set up a doctor's appointment and see what he can do if you're really worried, but your parents should definitely know.
>>38596630
>It's always powerplay. Everything is.
And sometimes it is, but not the way you think.
>Dan plays with kid
>kid wins
>Dan kicks him in the face
>stomps on his chest, breaks his ribcage
>Dan wins powerplay, except he doesn't
Here, you'd lose. Nobody would think you're powerful, either. It's an extreme example but losing at football against a kid and reactin like a dick does the same.
>>38597144
>Practise makes perfect, no-one is born with the genetic ability to dray a perfect circle, but if you spend 6 months drawing half a million circles then your circle will be much more circular than someone who has never practised.
And you will still get fucked by someone gifted. Also some things are more important. Like sports. Being good at maths is better than nothing I guess. But if you were good at football or any sport that actually has social value you'd be living a completely different kind of life (much better).
Hey was really tired yestearday and i took a nap and i wasn't really tired anymore and i WASSI WASNT i didn't know if i had toothpaste so checked and i have soome totthpaster I was really cold and i worke a jacket tand i wasn't cold anytmore i waanna let you know i had a a sandals on and t was cold and put some shoes on and i woke up and i wass really hungry and then i ate somethng and wasn't really that hungry now and was eatng ceareal ths mornng and i thought was\ out of mlk and but a had molk so dk man id well do you thingk heey i was thirsty b and bought this drink so wasn't really tursty anymore so my alwarm went off so i turned it off and i went'back to sleep my friend and i were arguing which soup is better and i thoguth chicken soup is better i lyou look familira aare you w?
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Too much makes me angry in this.
>>38596665
>And that should be enough for me why exactly?
Fucking hell, if you're not even going to train to beat Joe, how do you have the nerve to expect better?
>>38596665
>That's enough.
That's enough? Then it's fucking useless. Dan, even if you could beat everyone on earth at chess, you still wouldn't get pussy this way. Wake the fuck up. Not everything is about Chad and pussy.
>>38596589
he makes me wan't to die with his circular reasoning but I can't help wanting to help him. Plus debating is fun, even if you lose...(get it...)
>>38596676
If you're over 18, you don't have to tell anyone. If you can travel to a therapist on your own, no need to tell. Do what you're comfortable with.
The troll who impersonates me is back at it, but he always forgets the !! in my tripcode, so don't be fooled.
>>38597178
i guess, but it's probably gonna take me a while then.
building up courage takes me a long while, thank you for the help though. i appreciate it a lot.
I feel more isolated and alone. I feel utterly unllilable at times.
>>38596701
by cool he means kind and well meaning, not that they are admired and loved by everyone around them. Though if you wan't that then being kind is a good way to start.
>>38597185
Which just proves how evil people are. They try to push you into playing. And when you lose they will punish you for taking revenge. It's a way in which they try to control me, to humiliate me, to have power over me. There are many ways in which this is manifested. Million tiny ways every day to force social conformance, to force me into working hard and get little in return due to my bad luck. It's pressure.
And I can't win. I've lost already. But they can't just fucking leave me be. No.
>>38596701
No, Dan. They trained for that. Nobody is born a Chad. Muscles don't grow because of genetics, they grow because of breaking down and being repaired stronger. It's the same process for everyone. You don't know if it was harder or easier for someone to have gained mass, you can only know they did it. Never forget that. Gaining muscle is never easy, never.
>>38597256
What were your parents like? Did you have a normal childhood?
>>38597255
Hey man, there are way too many people in this world to worry about, so why worry?
You can do it :D
>>38596738
>And you need to realize it is about your own worth.
Then how come I get everything you want without the bullshit you think a man should go through? Explain that. Your shit doesn't make sense.
>>38597273
this is true, even though I never introduce myself, on the rare occasion people talk to me, they usually become a friend
>>38596715
i have seen Rocky, and i think after the end of rocky balboa, where he lost the charity fight to the up and comer, he really should have cried like a bitch on the floor rather than getting up, touching gloves and leaving the ring as a legend.
>>38597291
Thank you man you can do whatever you want too I believe you are almost as strong as me brother we can do this together.
>>38597217
>Fucking hell, if you're not even going to train to beat Joe, how do you have the nerve to expect better?
Because if I got born better I could have been the talented Chad.
>Dan, even if you could beat everyone on earth at chess, you still wouldn't get pussy this way.
That's why you have to be superior at everything.
>>38597273
They are like this due to the positive experiences they got while growing up.
>>38596892
>Winning gives you social capital.
What is wrong with losing? So their ego gets built up... by a loser that shouldn't even matter at all to them. You are being quite the narcissist if you think anyone thinks it matters that they beat you in a game of chess.
>>38596892
>Then it's fun for you being milked. Enjoy it.
I will, because it isn't being milked. Nobody even cares if I lose. It isn't diminishing my worth, as I admit I have no worth. If you have no worth whatsoever Dan, what do you have to lose?
>>38596892
>It's not entertaining getting humiliated.
It isn't humiliation if you are truly a loser in life, because everyone just expects you to lose. Don't you get it Dan? Humiliation is only worth it if the person had something to begin with. Just admitting you would be humiliated means you have some redemption.
>>38596892
>The best option is to run off the cliff.
I have talked to people like you before. You sound like an edgy 15 year old. "The world is so bad, I must kill myself". Then you don't do it and instead just keep complaining about it. Stop trying to be edgy Dan. If you wanted to kill yourself, you wouldn't be sitting on a self-help thread every day complaining about life. You either just want attention or want help, but you don't want to kill yourself.
>>38596892
>Because I am the one who was just humiliated.
And these people noticed you enough to gloat over you? Wouldn't that be like a slave being noticed by their master? A slave isn't by the way, they are much like furniture. So if you are like a slave, just cucked by society, why do you think they will be gloating over you or even notice they just played a game against you? They might as well have played the 5 year old that could beat you. So why do they care that they even won? That would be like them just moving their king to checkmate and yelling they won. They have all the skills, you have no chance, why would there be any gloating at all if they know you have zero worth?
>>38596752
>IT IS A FUCKING MOVIE!
Yes, based on a true story, but the point doesn't need any of that, you idiot. The point is that if you fight a superior opponent, and put up a good fight, people will be impressed. Winning is completely relative here. You can lose like a winner, as I keep telling you.
If you don't understand this, you are bullshitting me like there's no tomorrow.
>>38597291
do you think this sort of thing is covered under canadas healthcare thing? i really hope so..
>>38597247
Interesting to see the day I made progress that the theme of the thread is progress. I made good progress today with the psychologist and learned more of how to better myself.
>>38596410
Hi coats. Wanna be frens? We can be frens as we are both socially retardo.
Hope there is one me today.
>>38597284
And not everyone who trains as much as Chad will become Chad. Genes are what is actually important.
>>38597295
You have a big penis, are attractive and tall for a half italian.
I have major social anxiety but still managing to have a pretty quite large social life.
My main problems.
1. Iam still kinda nervous around woman(I still have a gf) and when iam nervous, how do I deal with that.
2. If the topic isn't about lofty ideas I have a hard time keeping the convo going.
3.because of being bullied in school I have a hard time discerning form jokes versus disrespect.
4.I come off very cold to people is there any way I can be more warming
>>38597392
What was your childhood like? Sound slike your parents might be responsible.
>>38597392
how u get gf as a social retard give tips pls
>>38597210
10/10 Nick are you really gay?
>>38596964
> That person just wasted a huge part of their life doing nothing at all
no, first of all they likely had fun, else they wouldn't be there, secondly they got better, they built up muscle memory they didn't have before, they gained a better understanding of what was going on, they didn't get better enough to succeed, but they got better.
>>38596964
>Unless you go about it like a retard claiming that you can win even if you lose
Not going to refuse this point as you can't win if you lose. But you can benefit, you can learn through losing. At least see an illusion of improvement, if only for yourself. Who cares if they beat you over and over if you learned something you can say you got out of it? Sure, you might not be able to beat them, but you got knowledge.
>>38596964
>And I am honest to myself about my inferiority.
Inferiority doesn't apply to a game Dan. Say you log into a Deathmatch server with people you never even met before, nor will ever see again. What is the fear then?
>>38596964
>That person just wasted a huge part of their life doing nothing at all.
From your perspective. From theirs, they may have had fun and just enjoyed themselves. You should stop being stuck up and judging everyone else Dan.
>>38596853
>Your family should be the first people you talk to about it.
Sometimes your family is the problem. You can't ask anon to tell their family if they are abused by them. Nothing good will come from telling them if you don't want to.
My parents dragged me from therapist to therapist, nothing good ever came from it, but the purpose of doing that was to make me feel like it was all my fault. It worked. For a long time.
>>38597392
>major social anxiety
>quite large social life
>gf
Meme social anxiety. This is very offensive to people that struggle with the real thing. You're just awkward please fuck off.
>>38597005
why don't you play something else? have you tried Tetris, i love playing Tetris competitively and the base game is you practising alone.
>>38597416
Not really that gay. Only my penis gets reaaally hard when I imagine a penis, but that isn't necesserily something gay. It was only that my father abused me and made me lick on his penis when I was yet a small 20 year old boy. My childhood was really bad that is why I like penis so much, but not really that gay, I like women. They are all my friends.
>>38597450
maybe hes good looking kys autist
>>38597330
>You are being quite the narcissist if you think anyone thinks it matters that they beat you in a game of chess.
And you're being quite the retard if you think it doesn't.
>If you have no worth whatsoever Dan, what do you have to lose?
My pride.
>Humiliation is only worth it if the person had something to begin with.
Humiliation always has worth. It's a demonstration of superiority.
>You either just want attention or want help, but you don't want to kill yourself.
This is why I hate myself the most. I'm too weak to do it now. The worst fucking way to spend 700$
>They have all the skills, you have no chance, why would there be any gloating at all if they know you have zero worth?
Calling me a slave just proves that they are the enemy.
>>38597333
I don't.
>>38597447
my family is actually pretty good, too good for a loser like me
i dont deserve then
>>38596892
>So what exactly do you think I should try?
Let's start small, play chess with Coats and myself. And when you lose, learn to handle it like an adult. That would be a victory in itself. If you cannot bear to lose, you cannot truly win.
>>38597005
>I'm not going to take more humiliation.
I thought you said the computer was fine as there was zero humiliation. Make up your mind.
>>38597005
>Would you rather eat shit or starve?
Eat shit, better than enduring the constant pains of starvation for days on end. Though in such a case you probably would do both.
>>38597005
>Unless said person is good at many other things, it was a fluke.
Alright, so we got that established. So if such flukes can exist, why can't you aim for trying to get such a fluke? They can happen, as you admitted, so why not try for it?
>>38597465
That is what you think. I am sure they were in a way really bad towards you.
Everybody with a bad childhood thinks their parents were normal
Trust me I am sure your childhood was really fucked up.
>>38596892
>So what exactly do you think I should try?
Let's start small, play chess with Coats and myself. And when you lose, learn to handle sucking my penis like an adult. That would be a victory in itself. If you cannot bear to suck my penis, you cannot truly win.
>>38597431
>they didn't get better enough to succeed
And so they wasted a huge part of their life.
>>38597452
I fucking suck at tetris. I FUCKING SUCK AT EVERYTHING!
>>38597443
>At least see an illusion of improvement, if only for yourself.
I don't want an illusion.
>Who cares if they beat you over and over if you learned something you can say you got out of it?
Because they fed on me. Like vultures feed on a deceased cow. They got social capital for which they will get a great life. Actually no. Not a great life. A life. An actual life. I got drained. Helped them and got almost nothing out of it. I helped my enemy.
>Say you log into a Deathmatch server with people you never even met before, nor will ever see again. What is the fear then?
I will know.
>From your perspective. From theirs, they may have had fun and just enjoyed themselves
Sour grapes.
>>38597457
How unfortunate desu I get hard cause you are such a bottombitch and I want to suck you can you make an exception for me?
>>38597339
I don't know anything about Canadian healthcare, sorry m8
>>38596971
What you need to get over is self-hate. Depression isn't imagined, it's real, but it's not a condition, it's a symptom of a condition, and many conditions have it. You could have anything at this point.
Don't assume you've never had trauma, not everything is obvious, and many things you can't remember. Anything that happened before you were 3, you can't really remember, and I'm not talking only wilful abuse, neglect can be just as bad. It does have effects on you as an adult. A lot of people would like to deny it, but it's real.
It often centers around relationships but not only.
I'll need a name and symptoms.
>>38597459
What's your fucking point? If you can manage to get a gf and have friends you do not have social anxiety. You fuckers are just as bad as tumblr. Choke on a dick.
>>38597493
>>38597528
This guy is hilariously dedicated. Just what do you gain my dude
I haven't talked to anyone normally for the last month, even on chats with random nickname or anonymously.
I managed to get into a few programming related projects, but the only thing I can do is talk about them, even when someone directly asks me about things like my preferences or experiences, to get to know me better I just skip that question.
I usually write down my reply, start correcting it and at some point I realise how stupid my message is and delete everything I've written.
It's getting really depressing, nobody even recognises me, because I talk like a fucking robot.
I just stare at chat and watch other people talk which makes me even more depressed, I can't even reply to a stupid meme that someone posts.
I feel like the first thing that people would do is start making fun of me.
Even when I get positive feedback I start to stare at it maniacally until I find something that "triggers me" and think about it and feel ashamed of my message for few days.
Send help, please.
>>38597545
thanks anyway, it's okay. im sure someone out there knows the answer, right?
>>38597009
How did they fight? Tell me. The cause doesn't matter much and is rarely the true cause. Couples will argue about where the butter should be placed, it's never the real issue.
>>38597450
Sorry just because you can be functional doesn't mean you don't have it. It took me a long time to get where Iam now.
Also, It's possible to go form NEET to something more respectful and it didn't hurt that I actually have personality when iam not being all nervous.
>>38597561
That's a lie if I ever saw one
I got a gf BECAUSE of my anxiety
She saw me as a beautiful person and wanted to get to know me, unlike everyone else who looked at me funny
We connected over our insecurities, and boom, gf
>>38597541
I would loove to suck you off. I am truly a bottomboy.
Can you do me a favour?
Can you blow your load into my butt after I suck you off?
I will pay you surely.
>>38597034
>I feel ripped off. I am a Chad and yet don't have a bunch of naked women praising me for winning a game of virtual chess in one single instance. Dan, am I being ripped off if I am not getting the deliveries of naked women?
Funny bit, Coats. I was thinking the same thing. Nice delivery.
>>38597614
>>38597624
Anon has a point. You are nothing but an attention whore with meme social anxiety. Kys.
Next question.
>>38597477
So I should let myself be humiliated and be angry every day? I don't think I can take that without injuring myself. I've been extremely angry every time I have lost at anything in the last 6 months. I've been using everything at my disposal not to get into such situations. Honestly even now my chest and stomach hurt and I have trouble breathing because of what I'm reading here.
>>38597485
>I thought you said the computer was fine as there was zero humiliation. Make up your mind.
I said there were no direct consequences. Different thing.
>Eat shit, better than enduring the constant pains of starvation for days on end.
And what if Chad decided to only give you shit? Then he said that if you work hard and suck his dick you will also get a loaf of bread once a week. And if you try to take more you get beaten and thrown into jail.
>They can happen, as you admitted, so why not try for it?
Because it doesn't mean shit.
>>38597087
>Because other people will still draw consequences from it.
Who cares about them Nick? Forget they even exist.
>>38597087
>I only hope that one of these days I will finally find it in myself.
If that is the case, why do you seek help Dan? There has to be more to it if you have been coming here.
>>38597087
>I meant in general.
Okay, this is the exception. You should be able to do it then.
>>38597087
>What?
They are not infallible.
>>38597595
Nothing physically, if that's what you're asking
>>38597582
>I haven't talked to anyone normally for the last month, even on chats with random nickname or anonymously.
You sound really unemotional and unloving.
Perhaps t is caused by your childhood?
How did your parents treat you?
Your mother might have been a narcssist.
>>38597646
Nice, you figured out how to tripcode!
The autist is learning!
>>38597595
Nick stop skipping me please
>>38597087
>I don't believe in this theory.
I guess it's impossible for grandmasters to be socially retarded, then. Yet a single look at some of them shows they are.
It's so annoying how you desperately change everything to suit your vision. Your vision is anal, it's all shit and everything sucks. Yet you keep on living. You don't make any sense, Dan. Do you want to be pitied? Is that what this is about? Getting attention and pity?
>>38597208
>you will still get fucked by someone gifted
being gifted lets you practise less, it doesn't set your ability at an arbitrarily high level. someone can be very gifted but not practise much and be worse than someone who is not gifted but has practised for 20 years. Will you only partake in something if you are the best person to have ever done that?
>Also some things are more important. Like sports.
you are putting far too much value on sports, if you are in the top 0.0001% of a popular sport then sure, you will become a celebrity and make millions of dollars, but David Beckham is making more money than you are and is more famous than you so why even live amirite.
>Being good at maths is better than nothing I guess. But if you were good at football or any sport that actually has social value you'd be living a completely different kind of life (much better).
this assumes i base my life on how much "social value" i have, I don't, I'm an engineer, I hope to one day create something that makes a real impact on many peoples lives, something that makes people healthier or happier.
>(much better)
being a bit presumptuous there, while i don't make multiple billions of dollars a year I still live a more than comfortable lifestyle with plenty of free time.
People do not think about you, most probably never will, stop acting like everyone is out to get you when in reality most people are just trying to get by themselves.
>>38597646
nigger are you even trying? dude, that's so fucking obvious I can't take it
>>38597460
>And you're being quite the retard if you think it doesn't.
Never said I wasn't a retard.
>>38597460
>My pride.
Pride for what Dan? If you believe yourself truly worthless, what pride can you have?
>>38597460
>It's a demonstration of superiority.
Does it really need to be shown if they are truly superior?
>>38597460
>I'm too weak to do it now.
You are still on these threads Dan. There must be a purpose.
>>38594473
>both brains
reptilian spotted, take him down.
>>38597582
>how stupid my message is and delete everything I've written.
I suggest sending the messages and see where it takes you. Most of the time people will not think it is stupid.
Can you tell me about your childhood? Were you scared of anyone, say, parents that treated you with narcissism?
>>38597246
I doubt that he will be out of touch until then. Surely he will have a phone and some Internet. Keep messaging him.
>>38597723
Kots yu ignored me bls be my frwen
>>38597299
>I never introduce myself
>Anonymous
kek, everything seems above board here.
>>38597256
If my trip doesn't start with !!, it isn't me.
Make a list of symptoms you have.
>>38597687
I am sorry. Please give me a moment.
I am watching good tranny porn while playing chess.
>>38597744
Parents were rather good, I would even say that they were overprotective.
But I was bullied a lot in school especially by girls.
>>38597280
>They try to push you into playing. And when you lose they will punish you for taking revenge.
How do you not realise that this isn't what people think? This is some rape/salad retardation.
This is mostly in your head. In the real world, people don't care that much to dominate you. What are you to them? A grumpy motherfucker is what you are.I wouldn't want you in my pussy even if I were the fattest and meanest whore in the world, just because your attitude dries my moist valley.
>>38597761
What should i message him about? im pretty boring
>>38597770
ha, you got me. didn't really want to put any sort of identifier on myself.
>>38597325
>They are like this due to the positive experiences they got while growing up.
how the fuck do you know that, there are people who had way worse childhoods than whatever your pansy ass had to deal with and still turn out to be nice people, i worked with a guy from morocco, his dad left his mum before he was born and his mum died during child birth, he grew up in an orphanage where he was abused daily, after 20 years of life kicking his shit in he never gave up, was able to move to Spain then France and became an aerospace engineer, because he worked his ass off and was humble the whole time he did it.
>>38597792
To specify, I wasn't that weak to get beaten up by girls, they were mostly giving me names.
I'm not unloving, I fell in love a few times, but I couldn't manage to turn it even to friendship
>>38597290
This isn't me.
>>38597325
>Because if I got born better I could have been the talented Chad.
No, Dan. If you had TRIED you could have been talented. And you are, dumbass, you are talented. You don't see the good in you. You could do anything if you weren't a negative mind.
Think of it this way: the people who hurt you made you think this way. By letting them influence you so much, you let them win. You're fucking yourself over on your own now. They don't even have to do anything. This is exactly the sort of humiliation you fear, except it's what you seek. This is the equivalent of gagging on Chad's cock with the excuse that something is itchy down your throat, because muh genetics.
>>38597664
>Who cares about them Nick? Forget they even exist.
Because they are potential friends, acquitances, workmates or even partners (I'm speaking in general here so don't go grabbing my word).
>If that is the case, why do you seek help Dan? There has to be more to it if you have been coming here.
I don't know. I started talking to Nick when I still lived with my parents and I didn't want to hurt them. I find myself caring less and less about them since I only see them twice a month or so.
>They are not infallible.
They have all the successes to fall back on that one loss means jack shit.
>>38597691
>Do you want to be pitied? Is that what this is about? Getting attention and pity?
I guess. Otherwise I would have already killed myself a long time ago like coats said.
>>38597694
>Will you only partake in something if you are the best person to have ever done that?
No. I'd take the top thousand.
>David Beckham is making more money than you are and is more famous than you so why even live amirite
Why indeed.
>People do not think about you, most probably never will, stop acting like everyone is out to get you when in reality most people are just trying to get by themselves.
To get by themselves often involves stepping on others. Just try walking to the city center and count how many beggars you see. Just go to the city center at night alone and see if you make it out without getting at the very least threatened with death.
The Chads are just a step above scum like this.
>>38597330
I'm stopping here. I must write an important e-mail.
Motherfucking Dan is keeping me up all night, and I can't NOT respond to this goddam bullshit.
>>38597792
Don't reply to the impersonators
>Nick !!fj+6JtTXdtt
>>38597582
I'm like this too. I have trouble speaking normally to people, because they always respond with, "huh?"
It's depressing when I try and convey an idea that's been on my mind all day, but they have little to no interest in it, or it takes too long to explain, or my words come out as gobledegook.
Whenever this happens, I try to go for a walk around the block and get some sunlight
>>38597792
>But I was bullied a lot in school especially by girls.
Bingo. Victims of bullying tend to be very scared in social situations. You are a victim of narcissistic behavior and your anxiety is a normal outcome.
I suggest pushing yourself to socialize with people even if you think they will make fun of you.
This way you can overcome your phobia and understand that there is nothing to be scared of. Is there anyone in mind you wish to be friends with?
>>38597792
that's not the same Nick as the OP
see trip:
>>38593312
>>38597534
>And so they wasted a huge part of their life.
>I fucking suck at tetris. I FUCKING SUCK AT EVERYTHING!
okay we seem to be getting no-where, lets try to get to the root of the peoblem, for what have you spent the most time practising and why did you stop?
I don't want "lots of things" or "a very long time" because you seem to think that 2 or 10 games of chess is a big enough sample size to determine that you will never become good at chess.
>>38597723
>Pride for what Dan? If you believe yourself truly worthless, what pride can you have?
I take pride in not ignoring who is the enemy here. I take pride in not forgetting how I was treated for my inferiority. I think myself to be inferior, but doesn't mean normies are free to treat me like shit.
>Does it really need to be shown if they are truly superior?
It does. Sometimes it's not apparent.
>You are still on these threads Dan. There must be a purpose.
The purpose is to get angry enough one day to do it.
>>38597813
>How do you not realise that this isn't what people think?
How do you not realize it is?
>I wouldn't want you in my pussy even if I were the fattest and meanest whore in the world, just because your attitude dries my moist valley.
Am I supposed to care? Just because I am attracted to women doesn't mean I don't have and despite them.
>>38597859
The guy got lucky. You attribute his success to his hard work only when luck obviously played a huge role. But like a typical normie retard you will ignore that. Fucking sandniggers should all be nuked.
>>38597870
BUT I DID FUCKING TRY! How many times do I have to say that. I BECAME NEGATIVE THROUGH FAILURE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND FUCKING AGAIN!
Cause and effect.
>By letting them influence you so much, you let them win. You're fucking yourself over on your own now.
Their end game is to get me participating in their society. To contribute and get nothing back.
I am severely gayy And i have aids
>>38598029
Real Nick here confirming I don't have aids I have HIV
>>38597872
>No. I'd take the top thousand.
and you think you're going to get there without practise? get a grip dude. it takes an average of 10000 hours of practise to become and expert at something, being in the top 1000 would probably count you as an expert.
>Why indeed
you have to be fucking with me
>to get by themselves often involves stepping on others.
so? why should you care if you're never going to have an interaction with them.
>>38597958
I spent months playing FPS (cs 1.6) pretty much every free minute I had. My scores were still pretty much the same.
I tried to learn how to throw knives and after a few months of practicing on average hour every day the ratio of when I was able to hit or when I missed was pretty much the same.
I tried to learn to play the flute when I was a kid and after half a year the teacher said it was a waste of time trying to teach me.
I tried to teach myself higher maths but after staying at first chapter of proofs and not being able to get through the exercises for about two months I stopped.
I spent the whole summer shooting the air rifle but my accuracy didn't improve even though I spend at half an hour every day shooting. And by the way when I rested the barrel on something my accuracy was better so I wasn't at the limit of the rifle.
Want me to go on?
>>38598118
Roses are red violets are blue and nick has aids.
>>38598131
>and you think you're going to get there without practise?
Since I'm not superior I will not get there even with practice.
>you have to be fucking with me
No. I am dead fucking serious.
>so? why should you care if you're never going to have an interaction with them.
I have to interact with people.
>>38597408
1.Be decently groomed/ decently dressed.
2. Take risk on making jokes.
3.Ask questions to get them talking at some people you should reach a flow in the conversation
4.(Important) you have take the risk to firt, one liners are the best, sometimes it's gonna work or sometimes not. But even if you fail, if she's not 100% creeped out, and still talks to you, try again at another time, at least your intentions are clear.
5.If she takes the bait keep going, alot of times when a girl does flirt back, at some point she's gonna get nervous and run out of things to say. So keep going.
6. Your gonna have find some including touching not just girls, but people in general into your daily interactions. If you find a proper way to do so, your golden. It makes a major difference in the way people interact with you and how you interact with people, and a far deeper connection can be gained with a few hi-fives, non awkward hugs, shoulder taps than entire hour-long conversations.
7. If your gonna impress someone always try to be indirect about it.
There's also fuckboy shit I learned that works but you don't Wana be that guy.
>>38598018
>The guy got lucky.
no he didn't you were given far more opportunities purely by circumstance of your birth.
>Fucking sandniggers should all be nuked.
well the only person from Morocco i have met turned out to be a lovely guy, most people from the middle east and north Africa seem to be pretty average as far as how nice they are. Strange that you wish death on people who are kind, selfless and loving simply because of where their genetic heritage, sounds like you are helping perpetuate this cycle of hating people whom one views as being genetically inferior.
>>38597402
I was bullied in school and middle school I was a highly disagreeable child to protect myself.
I just need help readjusting not going into my defense mechanisms of advoidance.
I don't know if you remember me, but I'm a "telepathic" anon. Having communication with thoughts seems to get better, and then much worse. It goes from me talking to people all over the world about philosophical issues to raping kids on accident. I'm starting to make associations with the goddamn kids. Full grown women are one thing, they just make you internalize how much of a disgusting pervert you are, but kids don't know any better.. they touch, they feel fear and curiosity at the same time.. How the fuck do I stop this before it gets way out of hand?
Last year my diagnosis was BPD, GAD, clinical depression, and panic disorder. Lately my psych has been going the way of saying I have C-PTSD. Anyone here know about it?
>>38598242
>no he didn't you were given far more opportunities purely by circumstance of your birth.
So? Many people also worked hard but never got lucky as he did. Bun you will obviously explain it with some dumb bullshit.
>sounds like you are helping perpetuate this cycle of hating people whom one views as being genetically inferior.
Yes I am. The taste of their own medicine.
>>38598260
Maybe your parents should've showed you how to defend yourself?
>I just need help readjusting not going into my defense mechanisms of advoidance.
If you learn to fight you can show dominance and help your defence mechanism because of your new found confdence in kicking somebody.
After you train you can show your family what a mistake they made by letting you fend for yourself and you should punch and kick them. Just like they did in school. You will fidn newfound strength and punish your narcissistic family once and for all.
Be free anon
Kick your narcissistic mom in the liver.
>>38598156
>Want me to go on?
you've never spent more than a year practising anything and are shocked that you are not better than 99.9999997% of the worlds population? It takes years of practise to become really good at something dipshit.
>Since I'm not superior I will not get there even with practice.
what do you mean you are not "superior"? the world is not a binary of people who are superior and people who are inferior, the best knife thrower in the world was at one point the worst knife thrower in the world, they then proceeded to spend thousands of hours practising and then found that they were better than everyone else. Being good at something is not a switch, it's a scale.
>>38597646
So you have to be entirety disabled with no capablity for change for it to be real to you?
Your standards of mental illnesses is too high. What would be the point of posting on this thread, other than to hear people saying your "just fucked man" if I wasn't able to fix myself in someway?
>>38598349
Good idea. I might try to pick up something.
Have the trolls won?
>>38598360
there are multiple people with the name "Nick" in this thread, pay attention to the random letters afterwards
>>38598353
>It takes years of practise to become really good at something dipshit.
I didn't improve in any noticeable way. What's the point of going further.
>Being good at something is not a switch, it's a scale.
And if you are genetically inferior, the scale is limited.
>>38598349
>>38598389
Why do you even bother.
Simple kys would be enough.
>>38598171
Nick has aids I need a maid to clean up my cummies
>>38598360
Thats not nick
>>38598408
The trolls learned how to tripcode
>>38598413
>I didn't improve in any noticeable way
i find that hard to believe as when you first started you wouldn't have know the controls, you wouldn't have known how each gun behaved, you wouldn't have known where the hostages or bombsites were on each map, you wouldn't have known where the best cover from different angles was on different maps. But assuming you are telling the truth, did you spend any time studying technique or strategy? did you try and get a more experienced player to instruct you and tell you where you were making mistakes?
>And if you are genetically inferior, the scale is limited.
what do you mean by inferior? you realise inferior is a relative term right? it's not an absolute.
>>38598478
I guess I should trip in case someone tries to be me. I wonder if they'll get bored and go away or if they'll keep this up until Nick leaves us forever.
>>38598408
The trolls always win and I run off to the bathroom to cry when they come. Every time. I am also gay and have Human Imunodeficency Virus.
>>38598560
Eh, Nick left before the trolls
He seems to be in a better mood today
>>38598569
How did a cow get there?
Is this Halal
>>38598488
>But assuming you are telling the truth, did you spend any time studying technique or strategy?
Yes. But like a good normie you will claim it's on me.
>>38598579
Well that's good. If he starts to regularly leave at that time then I'll probably never speak to him again, but I'm glad he's taking time for himself rather than dealing with us all day and night.
>>38598620
so how did you not improve? if you studied and practised spray patterns then you will have been more accurate, if you studied and practised site take strategies then your co-ordination during site takes will have improved. you played for months, were you not having fun? if not then why were you playing?
>>38598620
C'mon man
You gotta crawl before you can run
You have to learn to talk before you can make a speech
You have to learn common patterns in play, before you can master it
It isn't bullshit when people tell you "practice makes perfect"
Do you think the best brain surgeon came out the wound to operate? He probably struggled in school, and took many many years to perfect his craft.
If you wanted to be the best wrestler in the world, all it would take is lots and lots of practice
Yes, you'll lose a lot, but it's i. Port ant to reflect on "why"
No, you didn't get the ball stolen from you because your arms are too short, you went left instead of right
We should post as Nickole in other threads so more people start to hate him
>>38598689
Somewhere down the road the humiliation always outweighs the fun when I realize how little I'm improving.
>>38598720
By all means, waste your time elsewhere
It's not like there's only one person named nick on /r9k/
>>38598742
>humiliation
how were you being humiliated? you were anonymous?
>>38598276
Yes.
>>38598349
Real Nick here. This anon is a troll but I agree with his advice.
>>38598360
If you were to go to a therapist, they would agree that your symptoms are not those of social anxiety. I am not saying nothing is wrong with you and you cannot be fixed, only that you do not have social anxiety. Can you tell me what does it feel like when you interact with others? Are you shaky, sweating, or panicky? Likely not.
I am not sure why tumblrinas always wish to label themselves with mental illnesses.
You are awkward and that's it.
Does anyone here need help for something besides meme mental illnesses? That would be great.
>>38598408
Nope. I am still fulfilling my duties and ignoring them. Kek.
>>38598719
>If you wanted to be the best wrestler in the world, all it would take is lots and lots of practice
How can you be this fucking retarded? Someone who has stronger bones, lower pain resistance and bigger frame will fuck you over.
Things out of your control will always be more important.
>>38598785
Working hard and having worse result and also knowing people who improved much more for less work. That's humiliation.
>>38598824
>Nope. I am still fulfilling my duties and ignoring them. Kek.
I'm not blind you double nigger. I can see your trip.
>>38598720
im on it senpai lmao
>>38598877
so why not keep trying new things until you find something that you are "genetically" "gifted" in?
>>38599013
I just want to be gifted.
>>38599044
as i said, keep trying new things until you find something which you are gifted in, it will still take a lot of practise though
>>38598689
After a year of being addicted to the game, and consistently bottom fragging, it stopped being fun
I know sprays, I know smokes, flashes, nades, I know how to enter and exit, and retake and hold
But I can't for the life of me hit a damn shot
CSGO is very performance based, and if you don't perform, you lose
>>38598826
That's why featherweights don't fight heavyweights
Stop blaming your shortcomings on things out of your control, because there are definitely variables that you CAN control to give you an edge.
>>38599080
>That's why featherweights don't fight heavyweights
And that's why they're inferior.
>Stop blaming your shortcomings on things out of your control, because there are definitely variables that you CAN control to give you an edge.
I know. Normies are still at fault.
>>38599080
>But I can't for the life of me hit a damn shot
well i went on custom maps to practise flick shots, what rank did you get to before you quit?
>>38599136
I did aim bots everyday for an hour before I did comp
I got to SEM, quit at S2
Feelsbadman
>>38599130
>And that's why they're inferior.
they're inferior at fighting compared to heavyweights, but they're still superior to the vast majority of the population, is that not enough?
looks like nick died cya tomorrow lads
>>38599168
damn that is pretty rough, was the rest of your team practising as hard as you were or was there one or two people who were slacking?
>>38599196
No it is not enough. Not for me.
>>38599239
so given the opportunity, you would not switch places with conor mcgregor? after all he's inferior, destined to be a sad pathetic person forever, doomed by genetics.
>>38599231
I played alone..
I don't have any friends.
I like overwatch a lot though, just heal and fly around, shotcall, don't really have to land headshots on Mercy lol
>>38599291
>I played alone..
>I don't have any friends.
well unfortunetly that's why, CSGO is a team game, you need to be playing cohesively as a team if you want to be well, not even warowl can solo to global elite
Hey, I was wondering if I could get the help I need here. I am a childhood abuse victim who finally moved out of my abuser's home. Physically abused as a child, but emotionally abused all throughout my teen and young adult years.
I've been diagnosed with depression and social anxiety, and I am currently medicated. Having lived with a narcissist my whole life, my self esteem is cripplingly low. I was never taught how to take care of myself, and I find it hard to even begin trying, out of years of conditionined fear.
However, I'm always mentally rationalizing my mother's bad decisions. How it must have been my fault, or she was just having a hard time. I've worked my whole life to form a barrier of escapism that keeps me too busy to be sad, but now that I've escaped, it's easy to put into perspective how emotionally stunted I am. I feel like a child trying to be an adult, and the only time I feel comfortable is when I'm partaking in childlike activities. I feel as though I might be on the autism spectrum, or have ADD, because I have a very hard time focusing on anything beyond my niche interests and I have terrible social anxiety. The doctor thinks it's PTSD, but I wasn't officially diagnosed.
As of late, I've been experiencing traumatic abuse flashbacks, usually before bed when I'm trying to sleep. It's alarming, and makes me weak and exhausted the next day.
Does anyone know how to counteract this? Anything I can do to feel less miserable, and possibly work on my self esteem? Thanks.
>>38599279
He still got lucky in many other things. Even if he didn't train, he'd likely be a Chad.
>>38599391
but he's inferior? whats the point in being a chad if you aren't the chaddiest chad, he's not the best at anything, probably not even in the top 1000. Thinking about it, chad is genetically inferior too, sounds like 99.99999997% of the population is inferior.
>>38598824
>>38598908
>>38598720
I think we own these threads from now on kek.
>>38599444
There is a difference even between being the top 1% and being inferior.
>>38599375
Sounds like your parents might be narcissistic.
I have a really bad problem of putting things of and eventually not doing them, it's affecting me badly.
Examples are like not paying bills when I have money, applying for jobs and then not returning calls when the recruiter contacts me, illegaly driving my care because it's not mot'd because I've put off doing that, not getting back to family members who contact me also not doing my tasks in work till it's the last second then rushing. I've even done it with positive things, if I forget to do something or put something off it almost becomes impossible to do.
Please help me. I am temporarily able to forget about all these things, but I think it's actually affecting me mentally
>>38599488
you said you'd be happy being in the top 1000, do what do you want, would you be happy being above average, being in the top 10%, top 1%, top 0.000001%? You need to accept that people are always going to be better than you, even if you were very gifted, accept that and move on with your life. Do what you find is fun inherently and ignore everyone else if it bothers you that much.
>>38599536
Sound like you had a bad childhood.
Were your parents narcissistic?
>>38597330
I'm still stuck on this post, guys. That e-mail takes time, I'm sorry.
>>38599664
This guy is another troll. I am the real Nick busy fapping and playing chess.
Please give me a moment to respond to your questions.
>>38599664
It's alright Nick, do what you need to do.
>>38599774
>>38599717
>>38599664
Fucking trolls
Real Nick here.
You can recognize me by my practi
cal typing
style
>>38599797
And yet another troll. Praise kek.
What do you guys get out of this?
One Nick to rule them all.
In an old guy, aged 60. I've dealt with depression much of my life though I was diagnosed in college at 20. Divorced with one grown child who is doing okay . I've done therapy and meds, a lot. But I'm still sad much of the time and lacking in energy. I think of suicide most days but wouldn't do that to my family. Today my doctor said in borderline diabetic. Which he mentioned before. So I got sadder. Fantasizing it's be great if I wasn't born. I also am avoidant, not doing things I need to do, sleeping all day. At least the area the internet. Ha.
>>38599375
Adults are really just bigger children. There's no magical moment when everything 'clicks'.
You should try and put yourself out there, find people who inspire you, and try to inspire them as well
I'm not very experienced with this stuff, but feel free to unload your baggage. There are a bunch of people here willing to help :)
>>38599911
>just bee urself xD
Jesus Christ this thread is cancer.
>>38599833
Nick hi.
Hope you didn't ignore my progress post on purpose. I take it you're a bit preoccupied for chess?
>>38599889
Would sucking your dick make you feel better?
I am HIV poz, but we can wear a condom if you are afraid, but I would suggest we don't use a condom. THe reason is you would feel more alive and not depressed after risking your life with all my dieseases. Adrenaline rush when you enter my asshole. It would also cure your diabet when you switch to only semen diet.
Protein and vitamin C rich.
You can also cure your Avoidant personality by becoming a part of the gay group that rapes me every day.
>>38599939
Listen, when you have such information as "I'm depressed, anxious, and abused as a child"
You don't have much to work with
You get as much help as you're willing to divulge into your issues
>>38599978
I'm not the anon you responded to. But saying just beee urself to anyone as 'advice' objectively makes me want to punch your face in.
>>38599978
Well what more do you want to know?
OK, I'm done with the e-mail but now I'm far behind... wat do.
>>38598360
That wasn't me, that's not my trip.
>>38593312
I've been reading those posts for ohsolong, but now I finally have something that bothers me a lot: I'm at uni, female, 21, just changed my major and starting at zero again - which is fine, I guess. Took me 3 years and a dark depression, suicidal attempt, antidepressants, therapy to finally realise I won't ever be happy in law school.
Now I've got some months time before my semester starts, I live in a huge city, and I recently got with a new group of people, one guy especially. All are in uni and doing fine as well, though they have a huge habit of partying for days straight, taking a lot of drugs per usual, and I see myself getting sucked into this a lot lately. I've had weed, speed, and E over the weekend, and watched the others take multiple other things. That's fine by me, but should it? Now it's Monday and I feel like shit, mentally I mean, I haven't felt so bad since the worst depressive times I've had, I was on the verge of crying or getting drunk on my own for the whole day... I'm scared of myself again. Considering what I've recently been through, and considering the others, and the one guy I see a lot and who really makes an effort to make me feel good and cares for me so much, but nonetheless... I don't know if this is just a new experience or if I'm putting myself in danger.
>>38600216
Don't listen to the trolls
>>38599970
Med, read the trip. These guys aren't me. Compare with the OP. I'm the real Slim Shady.
Y'all gonna have to learn my trip by heart now.
I can do vocaroo to prove it by voice, for those who know my voice.
>>38600255
>>38600216
Trolls, all of them. Sad!
>>38597351
Do tell us what the progress was!
And add Coats on Lichess. I'm there now if you care to play/chat.
Same goes for Coats.
>>38600250
>I'm at uni, female
>female
I only offer my services to robots. Leave right now roastie scum. Go cry about your meme problems to Chad.
>>38600267
Stfu nobody cares bitch. All you are going to do is say somebody's mother is narcissist anyways. Faggot
>>38597353
>And not everyone who trains as much as Chad will become Chad.
If by Chad we mean athletic, then yes, if you train properly, you will get there. Genetics won't influence this nearly as much as proper diet and schedule. Good genetics won't do shit if you don't know what you're doing. If you don't enough protein, your genetics can't shit new ones for you.
>>38597353
>You have a big penis, are attractive and tall for a half italian.
The weirdest things are indeed said in this thread. I am conflicted about the fact that everyone knows my dick size. Either way, NOBODY knows about that, Dan! Offline, and the few who do don't mention it! For obvious reasons.
It really means nothing. I could have had a micro peen and I would have been with the same women.
>>38600335
right on brother.
roasties need to be gassed.
>>38600267
Guys. This is not true.
I actually had to change my trip last night because somehow one of the trolls had one very similar to mine.
I will be more than happy to prove it in vocaroo though.
I have no idea why the troll would suggest that, but it's a good idea.
>>38600401
I can confirm this. Check last thread.
>>38600397
Oh. It's another me
>>38597402
That wasn't me.
You impersonators are really fucking lame, I swear.
>>38597457
Not me. Obviously.
>>38600441
Nobody
asked
you
fatso
>>38600441
Kek. They can do better than that.
>>38597493
Not me.
>>38597528
Not me.
>>38597534
>I fucking suck at tetris. I FUCKING SUCK AT EVERYTHING!
If it needs to be pointed out: your English is amazing. You're absolutely brilliant at it.
>>38597562
I knew Jesus was on my side.
I found my rosary today.
>>38600441
>you impersonators are really fucking lame
>he says as they are clearly mocking him and his meme advice
Yeah, we know you're really fucking lame actually. You literally just roasted yourself. Nice one faggot.
>>38600530
>>38600441
Not me.
What joy do you trolls get out of this?
>>38597630
Not me.
>>38597646
Not me.
>>38600530
You're obviously not the real Nick, why are you still posting?
>>38597658
>Honestly even now my chest and stomach hurt and I have trouble breathing because of what I'm reading here.
Jesus Christ... we need to work on this.
>>38593312
>i don't want to kill myself anymore
i used to think about it every single day. thank venlafaxine and quetiapine i guess
>>38597675
>Your mother might have been a narcssist.
Not me. Trolls have the nerve to imagine I'd misspell that word that I have so often typed, eh?
>>38597658
> Honestly even now my chest and stomach hurt and I have trouble breathing because of what I'm reading here.
Would It help if I rubbed your belly?
>>38600644
>implying anybody gives a shit.
>>38600401
>>38600441
>>38600530
>>38600567
>>38600595
>>38600602
Not me. Jesus Christ. I'm sorry for any inconvenience, guys.
Just keep reading the trips to distinguish the trolls from me.
Remember, I had to change my trip last night and this is my new one. Check the archives if you need to.
>>38597744
Wasn't me.
>>38597765
Shit, that's way too kioot.
Whoever is the other troll ITT, would you like to exchange discords so we can plan how to take Nick down together?
>>38597784
I am not!
>>38597824
Anything! Small talk, etc.
>>38600250
E can do that
How it works is it floods your brain with seratonin, and after its worn off, you've got none left
The come down from Molly sucks dick, often people will redose so they don't have to deal with the comedown, but that's how you turn your brain into banana mush
Last time I rolled, I had work the next day, and was absolutely devastated. I was crying as I swept the floors, and so exhausted. I left without saying anything, and never looked back
Molly be crazy senpai
>>38600779
>the other troll ITT
>the
>implying there are only 2 trolls
What are you, Nick?
>>38600830
Whatever, the group of trolls. We need to gather together and form an anti-Nick uprising.
>>38600779
This is probably nick
>>38600842
> implying we haven't already gathered.
>>38600886
Not in a way in which we can plan our attacks accordingly.
Nick, you said before that I had a lot to catch up on and that I just need to let myself go and dump it all out. There are some issues I have that I keep to myself even here, so It's going to be hard to be comfortable enough to dump it all, but what do I need to catch up on?
>>38600939
Not that you know of, Nick
>>38598029
>>38598118
Neither is me.
>>38600960
After your name write #something Like "Nick#Nickisafaggot
>>38601008
testing testing faggot lord beta cuck
>>38600939
What would you suggest we do?
>>38601016
haha see you have the tripshit to your name now. ONE OF US! ONE OF US!
>>38598349
This isn't me.
Guys, you really need to be careful.
>>38598435
Not me.
>>38598579
I was writing an important e-mail. Thanks.
You dissconted
>>38598824
Not me.
>>38598908
You'll only make people curious and strengthen the thread. People will figure out your bullshit and turn against you.
You can't into politics, but I can.
I'm making that switch from texting her everyday, to every other day, at around noon.
She likes talking to me, but I feel like I'm overbearing. I was thinking about letter her text me first, but the anxiety about it kills me
That's about the only progress I've made so far.
>>38601152
>politics
>4 chan trolling
fucking retarded moron everyone is already against you
>>38599459
>>38599495
>>38599582
>>38599717
>>38599797
>>38599833
>>38599887
>>38599974
>>38600255
>>38600267
>>38600311
>>38600335
Not me. None of these.
Medman, was this really you?
>>38600397
The following aren't me:
>>38600401
>>38600567
>>38600602
>>38600647
>>38600664
>>38601240
>fucking retarded moron everyone is already against you
Which is why you have to try so hard...
All caught up!
If anyone wants me to respond to something you posted when I wasn't around, please link me and I will, if you're still around.
Dear trolls,
Because of this thread alone, any serious plan to piss off the board by posting as me will fail; you've already given the proof of what you were doing.
You need to think your shit through better.
>>38601424
In future threads, OP should have a disclaimer warning people to check the tripcodes
>>38601359
>Try so hard
kek there's 5 other trip fags ITT idiot
>>38601504
That goes without saying.
>>38601511
>kek there's 5 other trip fags ITT idiot
I don't think you understood what I said...
>>38601561
Right off the bat, I'm not sure, I forget the context.
What's your current issue?
>>38601591
>What's your current issue?
I'm not even quite sure. There's the usual feeling of self imposed isolation, my anxiety is still a little higher than usual from some stuff I did yesterday, still feeling paranoid, still self deprecating, still feeling like I want to reach out but I know I can't. Today I'm generally just feeling very neutral, but maybe that's because some aches are just distracting me from being sad.
>>38601814
>some stuff I did yesterday,
What's that?
I'll be a super tripfag later if need be. Just continuing from the previous chat, as the platform is making me want to murder newborn innocent kittens.
In opening up and searching for others, where is the limit to stopping? I stop way too early as to protect myself and how I'm seen, but that ties in with the ego. How dose one know when he is being annoying and unwanted?
In other words, how do I seek interactions without overwhelming with "plz respond and pay attention to me attitude"? Where is the balance?
Or is that not that bad, if one lets go of their pride?
Am I making any sense, or should I rephrase
>>38601834
The roof and gutters needed to be cleaned. I don't do heights very well, and the entire time I was up there I felt like my foot was going to slip and I would fall. I ache because I'm not very /fit/ and being hunched over pulling shit out of gutters and keeping my body rigidly locked into secure positions isn't something I'm used to.
>>38601978
>How dose one know when he is being annoying and unwanted?
You can tell by people's reactions. That's what you need to learn.
>>38601997
That sounds very scary. I hate heights too.
>>38602052
You're quite dedicated, but it'll be trickier when I'm actually around.
School often put me above others with little effort from me. I didn't socialize, because I never needed others.
Now that I'm out of school (barely finished a few college courses), I am without a job and don't feel any need to get one. My parents have tried to get me to be social, but I just give the greatest impression (to the point that people have actually tried to introduce my own parents to me) and return to solitude. I just genuinely have no interest in others as individuals
I see nothing wrong with taking advantage of my situation and my family, because during my childhood:
>often provoked by brother (pissed the bed until I was 13, brother would use that)
>brother would run into a room and close a door
>I would kick holes in the door
>sometimes twist the knob so hard it'd break
>father would come home
>find holes in doors
>call me, yell in my face, punch holes in walls right in front of me and threaten to do the same to me
when I did catch my brother, I would bite his wrist as hard as I could until I felt my teeth sink into his skin and could taste his blood
>sister freaked out one time, brother tried to calm her down while I was in his wrist, saying "it's going to be alright"
>so I dug deeper.
if sister wasn't freaking out, she would call our mom
>mother would come home to (sometimes yank me out of bed) to yell in my face
>one time we stayed up until midnight so I could finish my 10pm spaghetti... which whenever it got cold, she would microwave to heat it back up...
needless to say, the taste was indescribably good, so I finished it ASAP.
(seriously tho, no one knows why I hate spaghetti, and finish my meals ASAP)
>father likes to joke about how fast I eat my dinner
when nothing went wrong, my dad would come home exhausted, and just lie on the couch to nap
then he'd drink a few beers. He liked to twist my nipples as a joke. One time he did it so hard I screamed for a good 5s... then my mother came in the room, laughed and told him he was doing it too hard
>>38602090
>implying you're the real Nick
Whatever you say, troll.
>>38602031
That's the thing. I can't tell. When are they being polite, when are they being genuine. These things are confusing to me. Seems like everyone is faking it nowdays.
Also I have self esteem issues and seriously wonder how someone can want to be my friend at times. Other times I think I'm the best there is though. It fluctuates, but it's mostly the low self esteem part it goes back to.
Also, from what the psychologist told me it dosent really matter if I do make a needy fool of myself, because they won't see it to the extent that I do, foolery wise. Thoughts?
>>38601391
>>38601424
>>38601359
>>38601315
>>38601152
>>38601104
>>38601082
>>38601834
>>38602031
>>38602052
None of these are me. Be very careful.
>>38602111
Oh yeah... my problem...
I guess I don't care about anyone?
I lie to my parents, tell them I'm studying or applying for jobs, when I'm not...
I ditched college, dropped my courses and pretended to continue going.
I want to want people without having to meditate on it for hours....
I want to want people so I can do something with my life
>>38602161
>Other times I think I'm the best there is though.
Have you taken the narcissist test?
>>38602188
You have all my results. Thread #99
>>38602206
This is not me.
>>38602188
I have not taken the test. Link?
>>38602111
>give the greatest impression (to the point that people have actually tried to introduce my own parents to me) and return to solitude.
introduce me to my own parents*
They and others like to joke about this a lot. People sometimes come up to them, "hey have you met anon?"
>>38602161
>That's the thing. I can't tell. When are they being polite, when are they being genuine. These things are confusing to me. Seems like everyone is faking it nowdays.
The first thing to do is reeavulate your opinion of yourself (more intelligent, etc) as this will only hinder you, not help you.
Psych is right, friends allow for mistakes, it's fun and it's OK. You don't have to be perfect.
>>38602227
You're making me what to do the do.
I don't want to do the do.
>>38602172
Look up schizoid disorder; ponder on whether or not you need people's presence or not. I hope you do.
>>38602256
What is the do? Please stop pretending to be me.
>>38602206
>>38602227
None of these guys are me. In reality, my problem is I like cock. A lot of cock.
>>38602246
>re-evaluate
I find that hard to do. Takes time and experience to humble myself, and I have reason to be a little boastful. And strangely that doesn't affect my low self esteem
>>38602237
If you're not trolling around, your parents do a lot of questionable things.
Read these:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/communication-success/201602/10-signs-narcissistic-parent
https://www.helpguide.org/articles/personality-disorders/borderline-personality-disorder.htm
http://www.blueknot.org.au/Resources/General-Information/Types-of-child-abuse
>>38602283
>>38602277
>>38602256
>>38602227
>>38602206
Not me. I'll have to use trips from now on.
>>38602302
>nd I have reason to be a little boastful.
And what would that be?
All you other medman are just imitating
Would the real medman please stand up
Also test test
>>38602312
Why pick on me again?
Welp, medmon my man, you'll have to tell me which is your tripcode in chat tomorrow.
I have no idea which you are.
Not sure where to ask this but this seems like the best place so here I go.
Why do I get so emotional over anime way more then anything else? I almost never get emotional rl even if its something sad or some one dies I just don't care. Any idea what is wrong with me? I just don't care and I cant make myself care. This has caused people to say I'm a dick for showing concern or remorse.
>>38602386
You pick on me, not me on you. You pick on me because I'm a homo. Faggot.
>>38602414
The music may help, you're more invested, you've followed these characters and don't have to guess: you've seen and heard.
Maybe this is why.
>>38602326
That's rather cringey to type fully, but in short I'm something like the reanessance man, and am cultured. I know stuff about things. And things about stuff.
>>38602268
I don't think I require their presence to function and be happy, but I understand that speaking with others might defend against delusion (although on the same token, I need to read up on manipulation and how to defend myself against it... luckily, it seems that my lack of innate desire to socialize with others and gain validation is a strong enough defense)
I also want to have kids some day... but I'm nearly 21 and have never had a girlfriend. I've hooked up, had girls go out of their way to get with me, but people are so stupid and dramatic about trivial things (one girl tried to point out all the star shit to me, using a dramatic tone)
It seems like everyone's fucked up and not aware (fat/ugly acceptance), and it's a huge turn-off as well..
>>38602305
Everyone's parents have done questionable things tho.
Surely at some point in every child's life, a parent has shouted in their face or physically joked.
And I wasn't raped
Tbh I'm starting to feel like the only real problem I have is a lack of motivation for employment/reinstitution
Time for me to sleep. Take care.
The only real Nick is the one from the trip shown in the OP, that's me. Check archives for confirmation.
>>38602414
Your parent's are either narcissists or you are a psychopath.
>>38602459
Not me. This is just another troll.
As previously stated I changed my trip. Please check the recent archives for confirmation.
>>38602419
Catch up buddy.
>>38602414
> I almost never get emotional rl even if its something sad or some one dies I just don't care.
Have you taken any autist tests?
You sound really autistic to me
>>38602473
medman i have a crush on you
>>38602484
Do you know who I am?
How have you developed this crush?
>>38602305
>If you're not trolling around, your parents do a lot of questionable things.
>tfw nick is still the biggest troll
>>38602519
Because I am gay and I like dicks in my butt?
please fuck my butt Medman!!!
>>38602555
not me
>>38602519
i love you medman please stretch my boy pussy
>>38602555
Is is nice and shaved?
>>38602567
not me
>>38602519
Fuck me Medman-desu
>>38602555
>>38602567
Genuine question here - why bully?
>>38602589
not me please stop medman is mine
>>38602606
i am not bullying i am only expressing my love
>>38602606
Because you are a faggot. Fuck you fag i don't like dicks.
>>38602620
Why do I deserve your love
>>38602610
I am not yours, faggot. Kys fucking faggots fuck is wrong with you boy
>>38602632
How can I fuck you if you don't like dicks
>>38602653
you are not medman please fuck off he is mine
>tfw this will never be you and medman
why live?
>>38602663
In the butt? Are you stupid or something?
PLEASE SOMEONE FUCK MY ASS.
Also, Nick never changed his trip. That's troll bullshit.
I am Medman and I demand cock up the ass.
>>38602685
You have a small collection that you also post in other threads. You've posted that gif everywhere. New material pls. Give me some nice traps. I do like traps
>>38602721
I prefer burly doodz. Gibs. Hot hairy dudes with nasty assholes is my favourite.
FEED ME COCKS.
>>38602685
>tfw your deep existential crisis comes from the fact that you can't penetrate Medman's boipussy
Talk about Psychological issues...
You need to make up your mind if im gay or not. Otherwise the magic will be weaker. Communication is important
>>38602721
https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph57c502e66b1a2
>>38602745
shut up nick you are the biggest fag here
>>38602721
EVERYONE THIS IS 100% NICK
HE IS STARTING TO BECOME A TRAP
>>38602767
Surgery and hormones turned out decent on this one
>>38602811
>EVERYONE THIS IS 100% NICK
HE IS STARTING TO BECOME A TRAP
No I was just there last time and noticed it
>>38602745
Not nick
>>38602718
Yes he didn't change his trip.
aye nick, been reading your stuff for a while and i have to say i think you're better than my therapist. do you have psychological training? It's hard for me to believe you can still have problems yourself since your thinking seems to cogent and well adjusted, or at least it does in your responses to people. as for my problem-been pretty depressed for the last few months, i think it stems from the fact that I'm graduating college next year and I spent almost all of it very isolated, while creating a solid social group for myself has always been a very important goal that i have failed, and i cannot see myself achieving it post grad
>>38603284
I-is this a joke? You can't be serious.
>>38603284
Just a heads up, this thread is full of trolls pretending to be nick (and Medman too). Be sure to confirm Nick's trip with the OP before you think you're talking to Nick. Also he's asleep right now.
I recently graduated college myself and I can somewhat relate, though I'm not so good at this whole therapy thing.
I forget shit all the time and it's making me lose control of my life
I want to be useful for a change and not have to make 3 trips everytime just to make sure i didn't lose something or leave some light on or a door unlocked or some other stupid shit
this sounds like its nothing, but it fukin KEEPS HAPPENING
>>38593312
I don't fucking know why, but I'm considering joining the military. Call it wanderlust, a need for adventure, nationalism, or whatever. But I don't know why.
Both of my parents families had shitty experiences with war (1 grandfather and 1 great-grandfather died), and I'm not a violent or strong person. Hell, I let spiders live when they walk into my area. I know the military can fuck up your entire mind, even if you're not on the front lines. Yet even with all of this in mind, I find some odd need to go out and join the military. Not out of desperation, but because I want to do something greater than a 9-5 job in a cubicle.