Ive tried to kill myself 5 times since i was a child. These are

you cannot accurately remember anything from the age of 2 though

>be 5 years old
>whole family goes to hurricane harbor
>still dont understand depression but I always felt dread and inexplicably sad
>dad takes the whole family to hurricane harbor
>i was just moping aroudn by the chairs while happy kids passed me by
"anon go in the water with your little sister look how much fun shes having"
>"I dont feel like it dad"
>he gives a sigh and goes to the bathroom
>just lie under a towel praying the day would end faster
>dad picks me up
"we're going to the wavepool anon come on"
>whine the whole way there cuz i just wanna hide away
>he plops me in the shallow part and goes to get my sister
>I see this as an opportunity and swim all the way out in the wave pool amidst the crowd of people.
>begin not being able to keep myself above water
>no body can sense i am drowning and the lifeguards cant see me
>eventually i start submerging myself
>think it's gonna work
>feel a hand yank me by the neck
>dad pulls my head up and rushes me out of the pool
>gives me a scolding about not going in the deep end without adult supervision
>break down and cry and have a tantrum becuase of a mix feelings of depressed sadness and embarrassment.

more comin

Thanks for the greentext robro. My first recollections of depression are from being six years old. I wouldn't understand it, but always be telling my mom "I feel bad". It's always been there the damn thing.

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Keep going anon.

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>25 minutes in and still nothing

It's dead, Jim.